"oftenly" poems
I'm an escapist
Who indulge in escapism
But no matter how far I run
My demons, they take chase.
Into the waters I hid
Drowned by the sound of water pouring
Yet they came to me
In forms of crimson red
Dripping as I slipped.
So I went up high
Onto the mountain top
But they followed me up
And made me want to fall.
I couldn't bear it longer
I dived deep into books
Hoping words would bore them
As they so oftenly do to plenty.
It worked for a brief moment
But they found the tiniest hole in my head
During rests
They race into me.
It seems like no matter where I go
Or what I do
I can never shed them off.
All I ever wanted
Was to **** them all.
But they seem to replenish twice the number
Of the minute I've removed.
I don't know what to do anymore
Escaping no longer work.
**I am an escapist
Trying to escape escapism.**
(c.c)
Oct 6, 2013
Oct 6, 2013 at 11:20 AM UTC
coffee house is a place where you doubtlessly see all the people being swept away in an invisible connection you can not see--sometimes, there are also some people who get caught in discussion and stuck by diffusion. the coffee that you drink often converts you its energy to analize your life's difficult problematics.
coffee house is a place where you will genuinely feel sane if you see some people reading their own scripts or feel well-earned if you witness the self-interested people--where they hear their own tunes just for themselves, where they do not want to give you the same opportunity for joining them in thrilling your cochlear, even through the air filled with whiff of vapour. vapour which doesn't comprise the fumes of nicotine, but there is just a little amount of caffeine in its womb. however, vapour is vapour. it has its ability to serve you an effect to crave which oftenly makes yourself lose its excuse to refuse.
coffee house, is a place for the people who are looking for identities. coffee house is made for the people who keep analizing the layer by layer of their lives, for the ones who keep hunting the nucleus of your providence's atom, for the people who keep ripping apart their particles. not dalton, neither rutherford, nor thomson, not even bohr, as the ones who might be able to serve you a soup of theory which if you eat it, you might be enlightened and your life might suddenly be well explained. the chaos of your life can not simply be explained that way.
coffee house is a place where you will find the lonely people whose lives will always be tossed around, the people who keep glorifying the fumes of caffeine that can hit you back to the point where you can be boiled by new hopes. and it remains that way all the time.
coffee house is a place for them who are hurt and diseased, but feel like hospitals are not the right house to canalize their moans. precisely, they will find their house here.
in a coffee house, you will learn to be yourself, and you will never find the lesson at all schools.
in a coffee house, you learn how to admit your predestination as the Audience of Lives.
coffee house is a place where you will always find your own cinema seat.
Stefan Sagala,
February 4th 2017.
Jun 26, 2017
Jun 26, 2017 at 1:35 AM UTC
In a four wall room
She feel so small
She feel out of place
Cant walk alone inside and roam
Everytime she's alone
Sitting and prentending is all she can do
She sits like no one's there
Pretending that she is okay
Her mind overthinks oftenly
slowly being eaten by all her insecurities
Insecurities that she is so small
And compare to others that she is too low
Jan 29, 2018
Jan 29, 2018 at 10:23 PM UTC
‘myopia,’
the doctor
says as he hands
me my new glasses with
the brown plastic
frames and the lens
thick as the thick
bottom of a glass
I’ve been having more
headaches lately and more oftenly
dizzy in the same way I get
after my first morning
cigarette.
‘myopia,’
(noun), nearsightedness
close objects look
clear but distant
objects not as much.
close objects seen clearly
but objects farther
away appear blurred
he explains further
as i hand him the
money and I get on my way
home and I look at everything
around me and these new
glasses already feel like a scam.
They’re sliding down my
nose and I look at everything
around me and they do look clearer
but feel the same as before — a haze,
a blur; indistinct shapes that I know well
enough by their nature but not by
meaning and I realize how
you’re so far away, you’re so
distant but of all the things I could
claim to know you’re the clearest
thing I’ve ever
set sight on.
I do not know if it’s just that
image of you or my imagination
that’s to blame for how vivid
you have imprinted into
the cloud that is my
memory; burned
into my mind.
(I feel you burn
like a fire in
there, it hurts.)
I push them
up against my
brow, these new
glasses, doctors
don’t really know
anything at all.
Jul 14, 2013
Jul 14, 2013 at 12:23 PM UTC
im scared.
But "I know I will be okay... "
(The quote that seems to make it all okay in the mind of Kimmy)
the seconds till sun sets feels like a lifetime.
I hear the whistle, but dont have that kick.
I feel the pressure; but there's no release
my break time, has turned into lunchtime and my style has changed from super so cal cute to what the **** am i doing out here?
i seriously contimplate playing with death. i think to myself how id do it and what the aftermouth could be.
its as if my skin is crawling with uncomfortableness.
this city isnt for me. im not for me.
i know who i am.
what i enjoy.
what is wrong and what is right.
but oftenly enough, my behavior has trashed all previous teachings once learned. I cant take myself seriously i cant take life seriously. I am in a relationship that is remaining consistant because its one less thing to add to my table platter of life.
sometimes i wish i could just walk away after being served, but it just doesnt work that w ay. I get that.
Apr 21, 2011
Apr 21, 2011 at 4:58 PM UTC
*Here's to folly, to the great valley called love
Which reminded me of forever through imperfections,
Hardships and disappointments, of falling deeply
Into discovery from self-doubt, of reaching freedom,
The bore of a goal like contentment.
Here's to pain, the antithesis of the stars,
Of pretensions and incompletion, the middleground
Between the starts and the endings, the covert catalyst,
The grand surrealist, as we dread to know
The fullness of our sanity, of our souls,
Our fragility, of our very being.
Here's to the machinery, the agitation
Called dreams, the sweet fog of distant memories,
Or the dark smoke of passion sometimes,
Cunning as ever, like a freight train,
Like wind, like havoc, like thypoon,
Oftenly deprived of conclusive destinations.
Here's to art, drama and poetry, the mystics,
The sons and daughters of the grand mystics,
Of philosophy, science and religion, not to mention
History, the grand infidel, and mythology, the fibber.
Answers overwhelm us, test us, and divide us,
They appear when we're most not ready,
Yet the questions keep us sane, ever growing,
Ever sun, ever moon and ever cloud.
Only time will tell and would not,
The old grey, the clear dark, the pale light,
It never learned a language,
It only learned to live, noticed
But never quite understood.
How diaphanous. How vague.
So here's to the confusion, to the uncertainty
Like love always has been.
Here's to us, to our ambitions,
Our possessions, the treasures which speak
Permanence in our hearts.
Here's to the violent, the meek and the indifferent.
Here's to the society and the humanity
That's left in it. Here's to those who hate me.
Here's to our faith and our fate.
Here's to the poems that will never be written again.
Here's to you, my love, my true.
May we stay kind, mad, and human,
Or something more, whatever that means,
Despite the opposition, and deception and progression.
So here's to the Universe.
Here's to the grand riddler called existence.*
© 2015 J.S.P.
Feb 21, 2015
Feb 21, 2015 at 11:00 PM UTC
When they curse you
And they blame you
When they passively
BOLDLY
Begrudgingly
Or in all other ways
Attempt to shame you
Into fleeing as if
You have nothing to be
And no reason to exist
Or to write such things
As these and this
When they try
And try
And YOU find yourself
Your world
Suddenly spinning
Upsidedown
On brand a new axis
It is then
In that moment
Of parry and precaution
That you must decide
How it is best to be
How you currently see
And can share such things
Beneficial to those
Who WILL always stray
When you hoped they'd stay
But as for me and my house
We will ardently seek
And oftenly pray
To show kindness to those
Who cannot
For the truth of them
Or the life of them
Or for the anger they store inside of them
BEGIN to see
The ways in which
That the sacrificial lamb
Has blessed us all
With this
A BRAND NEW LIFE
Within EACH DAY
This my friends
Is why I say
Be strong in this
And we'll walk that way
Apr 6, 2018
Apr 6, 2018 at 3:37 PM UTC
Once goodbye has been said,
Leaving is often mistaken --
mistaken for being the hardest part.
It's always been thought of that way,
because it's oftenly associated with pain --
one that causes heartaches.
But really,
It's the easy part.
The empty feeling is what gets to you.
The space in your heart that's just empty --
Emptiness that wouldn't be fulfilled,
Emptiness that will soon turn hollow.
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 9:21 AM UTC
Oftenly a thought
Strikes my mind
Its better to be
A Pornstar
than a Poet
really by name or fame!
will excel a lot
What would I get?
Except criticisms & insults!
A l'll shamelessness
Can bring more prestige-Written on 13.07.2012,Friday
Jul 15, 2016
Jul 15, 2016 at 2:55 PM UTC
Thou art not only more beauteous
Than effulgent night stars in a cluster
But thou art more pulchritudinous
Than the beauty of queen Sirius's luster
Every night whilst thou art sleeping
Like a thief in the dead of night
To thy slumber shade I come creeping
As to feast about thee glowing so bright
Sorry I am like lonely stars to the night
I can't help it spying oftenly upon thee
Just as an enemy keeps an eye to a knight
Or like an apiarist to the honey of a bee
Thus just like the morning dew to grass
My heart doth crave thy magical touch
Though to thee, I'm but not thy class
A heart of mine you torch!
©Kikodinho Alexandros
27th August 2016
Aug 27, 2016
Aug 27, 2016 at 3:01 PM UTC
Can be good, can be bad
But oftenly sad.
A past we once had,
A time I can't bring back.
Your voice keep ringing in my head,
When will this ever end?
Is this what I get?
For loving you till the end...
I trusted you,
I thaught you were true...
Why didn't I saw through,
Your love that is too few.
Oh how silly
For you I still worry
Burden I no longer carry
But my chest is still heavy.
Everything I see
Reminds me of what we used to be
Still hoping for you to be with me
Even knowing it could never be.
I've been so depressed
This must be the greatest
Putting my sanity into test
I hope it will be less.
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 8:34 AM UTC
Can I tell you a secret?
I'm a liar.
Why am I telling you this?
It's just easier to tell strangers the truth,
Than people close to you because,
They don't ask questions,
They just nod their head and keep to themselves their suggestions.
Why am I telling you this?
I just openly admitted to all of you that I'm a liar,
So it's hard for you to think about these things if I'm telling the truth or not,
So what's the point of all this if I'm just lying to your faces.
Well ladies and gentlemen I'm just pouring the brandy to your glasses,
As I intoxicate you more with the lies that my sugarcoated lips can say,
An average person is lied to 200 times a day,
The most oftenly used lie are the words, "I'm okay."
Like when my mom asked me when my eyes all rubbed out from crying too much,
Or that time when I looked myself in the mirror and had to tell myself that lie over and over again just to get myself through the day.
With that being said I need to tell you one more thing,
My backyard is filled with skeletons of people that I have buried and skinned,
I keep their skins in my closet so I have one for every occassion.
I keep so many of them that who I really am just got lost within the confines of my closet.
I have worn so many that I have already been so comfortable in each and everyone of them,
I wear them so often that I have gotten so good at pretending to be someone else,
I have gotten so atuned to it that no one can tell that I'm lying,
That's why no one's chasing me around with matches threatening to set my pants on fire.
If I gave you a tour of my closet you'd see all the skins I wear as suits and it wouldn't surprise you,
That who's infront of you right now is just another one I wore for this occassion to fool you,
Then you'd see all the things I've been trying to hide,
I have gotten so good at it that I'm starting to believe in it myself,
I am starting to believe that I am those people,
That I am okay, that I am fine, that I didn't mean to lie but,
I just had to for the greater good,
I convince myself that I'm doing what's right when the truth is I don't know what it is I'm doing,
So yes, I am a liar, I admit to it.
But what I'm asking you is please,
Help me. Help me find out the truth,
Because I have gotten so good at lying that, I ask myself "who am I?"
Mar 25, 2016
Mar 25, 2016 at 3:01 PM UTC
Bang! !!Bang "Bang
Oh awake
Though not in shock
No body is hurt.
But run ...run
we ought to meet HIM
yes I know he won't leave us.
Let's go quick and meet the rest
This is the best I have to wear
clothes be not of trouble
only the depth of your heart
The door is always open
Non be left out.
seek him while you can.
The great attention here.....
All for the above
pardon me not only above
oftenly everywhere.
The Alpha stands one and so
to the Omega
Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 2:16 AM UTC
sheet crumpled not
deeply thrashing
with life as a last night did
dead now dreaming
as dreaming sheets oftenly
boy with toy like
fantasies of apart joints
socketed into unsleeping
hips in the darkest of
night's dreamless deepening
Jan 22, 2015
Jan 22, 2015 at 10:43 AM UTC
It greatly tickles my instincts to know that
good people still exit. Not the Samaritans that
give money, but those who understand the
meaning of words and live beyond conjectures
that oftenly befall their ears.
Is that why you keep seeing someone young in
your eyesight!. Its because your focus is
blurred, as you strip your spoonful ignorance
for knowledge while the giants in
contemplation blow in covers of selling
brilliant ideas at no penny. If you what to
know how important you're, considerably give
other people's existence importance; thus your
thoughts to the people wont seem impotent.
# no eviction for failure by mouth rather
action
Jun 29, 2015
Jun 29, 2015 at 3:23 AM UTC
"I love him."
as I remind myself
that to love is to trust.
but why is it the word love
so oftenly used yet I still doubt you.
Dec 13, 2016
Dec 13, 2016 at 5:47 AM UTC
Its' not the people for whom i worry about,
It's who they are I actually worry about!
The ones who show to be the strongest,
From outside are oftenly those whose
Heart suffered from a deadly accident.
All we look is love in this life,
What we forget is that everything has it's dark side.
Don't you see! The beautiful moon?
Can you see it completely?
Or just the side it wants you to see!
And the same is love,
I'll always show you the bright side,
Not the dark side!
Mar 16, 2017
Mar 16, 2017 at 9:12 AM UTC
Baby stay,
Tell me what you need.
It worked with you
Why didn't you pay heed?
To us,
To love,
To silence and screams.
To madness,
To sadness,
Where is the peace?
My peace lies with you
Yours?
I don't have a clue.
I've been yours;
You mightn't be mine.
Do you cherish the moments,
Of how oftenly we dined?
Your place or mine
Everything so fine.
Our eyes that met,
My heart that fell
In love, for you.
Your character that fell,
In lust, for me.
Let me be convinced by,
Is this really true?
And here
My heart still asks you to,
Take me back to
From where we began
Let me kiss you
One last time.
Mar 18, 2019
Mar 18, 2019 at 7:36 AM UTC
Never interested in my mistakes but at all costs engaged
To see me survive.
Though a times I feel a giant over
A few achievements, never jealousy
But tasking to see more and better.
“Your bigger than this” is my reward in time
This has taught me to progress.
You’re great when am great
And great even when am greater
Through all that I encounter
Soon I stand out victorious
And paid a penny of respect.
Then I grow Eagle wings,
In many attempts to fly
I hopelessly return to the ground.
Get up and walk, further inspired
Even at the helm of my success
I oftenly bolt back for remedies
Standing prominent and brave
Known to many as the greatest
Though the porter stands great in all.
Jul 24, 2014
Jul 24, 2014 at 10:56 AM UTC
It was at that time then when I began.
the Sun did a moody and it was the Moonlight that
knew me in the shadows left hanging by the day.
and now?
yes
and now we're all offended by remarks chalked on park benches
or by eyes that look unguardedly at anything to do with me
and I'm offended oftenly that oftenly is not in the Oxford dictionary.
I'm
happy that it's Saturday,
that'll offend a few.
May 29, 2021
May 29, 2021 at 1:06 AM UTC