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"grapple" poems
The all seeing iris imperial city The swiftest of stylus this side of the ‘sippi The trippiest spittin’ Promethean hippy Conspiracy theorist of eeriest verse The despotic hypnotic black flag bearin’ Hearst Still immersing myself in a poverty trap As I grapple with lack of fact check cashing crap Cryogenically frozen emotion vibes flowin’ From out my funk bunker boombox Overthrowin’ Your global dominion opinion with ease Shootin’ breezes with Tirailleurs Senegalese I’m the kid wicked picket sign paintin’ Tom Sawyer The ill eagle Taino privilege enjoyer Still swoopin’ in mean on each **** I make clean Pick the bones dry of serpentine oil green dreams Then I bury what’s left of your money machines With the pharaohs of old’s latest pyramid schemes
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Jul 15, 2018
Jul 15, 2018 at 12:10 PM UTC
Horus the Youth
So I'll have mine and you'll have yours? who could ask for anything more! grey beards march the union jack build a wall and send them back!   Grudge, sludge a sanguine view ****** off and take the cue hide, plunge aristocrat run the field like an old tom cat Narrow pass and capital flow falling crude and currency woe deep depression, mutineers the mastermind of project fear! Silver spoon at Hampton court madness waits in Davenport divisible and off the grid **** it up 100 quid Helen’s horsemen unified the springbok club will never hide plebiscite in deep despair an open scroll Trafalgar square   Grapple, grovel sentry shame along the shore of river Thames king of wankers lord of beat break the rule of old elite! Stone the posse bullets bare load the chambers fists in air voices, faces haunted souls… should i stay or should i go?
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Jan 15, 2017
Jan 15, 2017 at 2:21 PM UTC
Maastricht Interpretations
Babylon has fallen! Aye; but Babylon endures Wherever human wisdom shines or human folly lures; Where lovers lingering walk beside, and happy children play, Is Babylon! Babylon! for ever and for aye. The plan is rudely fashioned, the dream is unfulfilled, Yet all is in the archetype if but a builder willed; And Babylon is calling us, the microcosm of men, To range her walls in harmony and lift her spires again; The sternest walls, the proudest spires, that ever sun shone on, Halting a space his burning race to gaze on Babylon. Babylon has fallen! Aye; but Babylon shall stand: The mantle of her majesty is over sea and land. Hers is the name of challenge flung, a watchword in the fight To grapple grim eternities and gain the old delight; And in the word the dream is hid, and in the dream the deed, And in the deed the mastery for those who dare to lead. Surely her day shall come again, surely her breed be born To urge the hope of humankind and scale the peaks of morn -- To fight as they who fought till death their ****** field upon, And kept the gate against the Fate frowning on Babylon.
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Babylon
VIOLENCE, Nothing is as beautiful and as disgusting To see MEN and WOMEN strike and grapple on UFC is wonderful leaving everything they have out there with respect only their technique and skill to speak for them in the name of martial arts To see "men" and "women" scrap and stomp on worldstar is sickening leaving no downed alone,no honor nor respect only their cowardice and anger speak for them in the name of Violence.
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Jul 8, 2014
Jul 8, 2014 at 7:45 PM UTC
Violence
He filled his week bag with quick picks from the commissary cover blades and skull cap canned goods and half stated pearl liquor bills and bleeders for the flight of weary Into the ****** bunks of the western front past sivana and nurture sage past the pomp and ceremony out of robes and into jumpers and casings and masks of gas Light infantry and yelling men muscled and scorned fly boys high in 3 wing flight mounted gunners filling the night in hawkers and packards and scabbard chape Tarrant tabers and camels dodge the vicker gun skeleton hands grease the mill trap carnage makers mark the rhineland (buried in bunkers and pile bags and earth pack) Trench helmets and metal back under machine fire minefields burn in muzzle and coil deep in the shadows and shrapnel and spear the razor wire and dead cold despair Slouch hats and burning rats kerosene lamps and droopers the soldier stares down the broken lines and limbs a ****** holds steady (shelved at a distance) on ripped and rolled pipe and beam It was an all in end game a grapple for the ages; *** in the fokker pursuit over rolling hills and fallen comrades into the bishop bullet (and sporadic cheer) which sealed the deal in an empty field off the brae corbie road
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Jan 8, 2017
Jan 8, 2017 at 6:50 PM UTC
**** Shot
Tar-dark world. The defining color is black, the inky night of her nocturnal hunts and the deep, bottomless dark of her alien retreat. A watcher of men, she is everything and nothing. She might be too much of something, or too little of something else. Time will sort out the particulars. There are no simple entry points – she demands engagement, and to be taken as a whole. Her discomfort is over her own allure, her undisturbed surface. It’s more about intuition and gesture than dialogue. They remain as echoes. They’ve made her beautiful in a real way, with hips and blemishes and dimples in her skin. The imprint of the lives she begins to grapple with as her time on Earth extends, leads her to stop seeing herself as a mere conduit for her mission, and to start developing a sense of subjectivity. Her life force is overlapping, shaping itself into a pattern of rings that simultaneously suggests a birth canal dilating, the stages of a rocket separating, and a lunar eclipse as seen through a telescope’s lens. She's a life-form you can’t quite understand, but it’s carrying on relentlessly, like a beehive, moving backward through the constellations at first approach.
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Feb 23, 2025
Feb 23, 2025 at 2:06 PM UTC
First Approach
Gates give galloping giraffes gin gum gifted ghost Goofy gambles ginger beer grapple games get goods Gooses groins getcha group gathering greatness goat got gale Grail
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Apr 16, 2010
Apr 16, 2010 at 4:30 PM UTC
G
whereas by dark really released,the modern flame of her indomitable body uses a careful fierceness. Her lips study my head gripping for a decision:burn the terrific fingers which grapple and joke on my passionate anatomy oh yes! Large legs pinch,toes choke— hair-thin strands of magic agony ….by day this lady in her limousine oozes in fashionable traffic,just a halfsmile (for society’s sweet sake) in the not too frail lips almost discussed; between her and ourselves a nearly-opaque perfume disinterestedly obscene.
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Whereas By Dark Really Released,The Modern
*Wrestle me well, my love,      For we were star-crossed enemies,           And I miss you. My shoulders miss your caring arms, My lips crave your pale-red tongue,      A slice of refreshment, watermelon, My chest searches the rise of your chest, And my torso longs only, and is only,      For your leg locks.      Grapple me and my lightweight heart,      As the backbone of this world breaks,      As the sun sinks into final submission, But I will never tap on this love out. Never.* © 2017 J.S.P.
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Jan 26, 2017
Jan 26, 2017 at 4:41 PM UTC
Wrestle
For them who dwell in mindful wanderlust, their love, the road; their home, the road, To grapple their love, their home, We dont give them their birth right, cos we, the orderly chaotic, they, allow me to rephrase, say, keep order!! To hell with the gatekeepers, Let's hop borders shall we? before all that's left to hop, are landless latitudes!!
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Dec 24, 2012
Dec 24, 2012 at 10:35 AM UTC
The Cross Country Project
A woman of shear beauty Her attractiveness being at her duty She gets any man she wants Annabelle knows how to taunt It is the way she walks and talks Men feel her senses and respond in stalk Annabelle dresses in expensive long gowns Her hips are firm and are round At parties, woman look Annabelle up and down Yet they never utter any sound It’s the way men grapple at Annabelle’s feet Once they see Annabelle men don’t retreat Annabelle moves every so carefully in her stance Her good looks and attractiveness with every staring chance This is how Annabelle’s suggestions advance Annabelle’s methods in all systems go Her hips in suggesting just follow my flow Annabelle’s statement, “Hold on to your man” I am in control and it’s within my own command My masterpiece is what you see It is Annabelle’s canvas that says she.
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Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 8:45 AM UTC
MISTRESS ANNABELLE
Fervour tapered lingering On that ******* precipice Of alleged possibility Devoured by the jaws of silence The soul no longer raged A nothingness that knew no words Agony’s cold grip Winter in December I knew not what to with these hands Their weightlessness Weeping willows drowned out sound Perfected in my dead Loosening the grapple on the promise Of a hazy tomorrow.
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Dec 15, 2014
Dec 15, 2014 at 11:52 AM UTC
Chains not wind chimes
They walk by brisk Covered in umbrellas On high heels with ankles Of no appeal They grab the shaft With both hands As the wind tries to steal Their umbrage With agility They skip over puddles As I marvel At the procession With destined determination They ****** on As spiked high heels Grapple on cobblestone Rainy day women In gray coats and wet umbrellas Under overcast skies With no hellos or goodbyes
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Apr 23, 2016
Apr 23, 2016 at 1:28 AM UTC
Rainy Day Women
Rhyming in a scheme You should totally try it It is not as easy as it may seem Like finding a shoe that fits Rhyming cannot be implied It cannot be faked It must be applied It is like a good steak A rhyme a day Or is it an apple? Will keep the lame away But do not grapple For it is rhyme time Time to rhyme
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Jan 10, 2016
Jan 10, 2016 at 8:29 PM UTC
NYPC #26
The seed-at-zero shall not storm That town of ghosts, the trodden womb, With her rampart to his tapping, No god-in-hero tumble down Like a tower on the town Dumbly and divinely stumbling Over the manwaging line. The seed-at-zero shall not storm That town of ghosts, the manwaged tomb With her rampart to his tapping, No god-in-hero tumble down Like a tower on the town Dumbly and divinely leaping Over the warbearing line. Through the rampart of the sky Shall the star-flanked seed be riddled, Manna for the rumbling ground, Quickening for the riddled sea; Settled on a ****** stronghold He shall grapple with the guard And the keeper of the key. May a humble village labour And a continent deny? A hemisphere may scold him And a green inch be his bearer; Let the hero seed find harbour, Seaports by a drunken shore Have their thirsty sailors hide him. May be a humble planet labour And a continent deny? A village green may scold him And a high sphere be his bearer; Let the hero seed find harbour, Seaports by a thirsty shore Have their drunken sailors hide him. Man-in-seed, in seed-at-zero, From the foreign fields of space, Shall not thunder on the town With a star-flanked garrison, Nor the cannons of his kingdom Shall the hero-in-tomorrow Range on the sky-scraping place. Man-in-seed, in seed-at-zero, From the star-flanked fields of space, Thunders on the foreign town With a sand-bagged garrison, Nor the cannons of his kingdom Shall the hero-in-to-morrow Range from the grave-groping place.
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The Seed-At-Zero
The seed-at-zero shall not storm That town of ghosts, the trodden womb, With her rampart to his tapping, No god-in-hero tumble down Like a tower on the town Dumbly and divinely stumbling Over the manwaging line. The seed-at-zero shall not storm That town of ghosts, the manwaged tomb With her rampart to his tapping, No god-in-hero tumble down Like a tower on the town Dumbly and divinely leaping Over the warbearing line. Through the rampart of the sky Shall the star-flanked seed be riddled, Manna for the rumbling ground, Quickening for the riddled sea; Settled on a ****** stronghold He shall grapple with the guard And the keeper of the key. May a humble village labour And a continent deny? A hemisphere may scold him And a green inch be his bearer; Let the hero seed find harbour, Seaports by a drunken shore Have their thirsty sailors hide him. May be a humble planet labour And a continent deny? A village green may scold him And a high sphere be his bearer; Let the hero seed find harbour, Seaports by a thirsty shore Have their drunken sailors hide him. Man-in-seed, in seed-at-zero, From the foreign fields of space, Shall not thunder on the town With a star-flanked garrison, Nor the cannons of his kingdom Shall the hero-in-tomorrow Range on the sky-scraping place. Man-in-seed, in seed-at-zero, From the star-flanked fields of space, Thunders on the foreign town With a sand-bagged garrison, Nor the cannons of his kingdom Shall the hero-in-to-morrow Range from the grave-groping place.
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Darkness of night catches me, Traps me in his grasp, I grapple, Trying desperately to avoid sleeps' sticky web, Evasive action, Breathe against cold night air, Filtered through the open window, Window to my sleepy soul, Trying to stay alert, Under a burning weight of two tonne eyelids, Flicker of a mosquito shadow flickering under night's lamp illumination, Buzzing manically, So insane, Heavy eyes drift, View of shadow incessant flicking, Vacant thoughts as topics drift, Last shiver, quiver, jolt........, Sleep. By ladylivvi1 © 2013 ladylivvi1 (All rights reserved)
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Aug 7, 2013
Aug 7, 2013 at 6:38 PM UTC
Fighting!
Sometimes I just wanna start over, to wipe the slate clean and start again. Other times I'm glad the slate is still defiled. Why is it so hard to live up to my own expectations? To fulfill my own aspirations? To grapple with these emotions? To deal with this commotion? Cognitive pollution, sensory delusion. Mental illusion, emotional contusion. Chaotic infusion, and ******** institutions. Sometimes it's hard to cope. I just want to elope, to float to make a clean escape from myself. To go on vacation and not to invite myself. To lock myself away within myself with no on else around to remind myself of how I so seek to find a way to cope with myself.
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Jul 17, 2012
Jul 17, 2012 at 12:12 PM UTC
Sometimes
The wandering hours Create pondering towers When instead of talking You are always walking Steadily ahead of me Like you're dead to me Like a small centipede Walking for centuries With the intent to be free Yet constantly ambulatory So we become slaves to your movement When settling would be an improvement You begin to freely flake As I start to starve You say let them eat cake And my heart you carve Into servings appropriate for your appetite While I know something isn't right But still forced to accept this plight Of being your minor distraction Chained by my love's infraction Of settling on you I shouldn't stay But I bet I do I wish I loved or hated you a little more So I'd know what to do As it stands I'm always looking out the door But I'm unable to move I want to stick around and see if you do something amazing Like love me back Instead of attack With your acidic apathy You mercilessly grapple me And never decide to let go Of love you never let show We've been driving down this road for a while And for the last million miserable miles You've presented me unpredictable trials With your nonchalant instinctual style You've let yourself become extremely impaired As I understandably grow more and more scared I feel the answer is in the love we seldom share But you're never lost when you're going nowhere And I cannot follow your wandering stare
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Nov 22, 2017
Nov 22, 2017 at 3:02 AM UTC
Wandering
When I discovered I had cancer, I was told that I would learn a lot About Life and Death and Time, But I never thought that I would Discover what it means To be intimate With strangers, Or anyone, for that matter. When my insides were cut open like a game of operation, I told myself: Be detached. When visitors came, We talked about the weather. When I arrived home, I spent my time Trying to forget The experience Of impermanence And shared emotions That I couldn't even grapple with Myself. When the person I loved Left me I flinched And then sunk back into an abyss of Emotionless functioning, Cutting myself further and further Off from my narrative Of pain. When it was time to go back to school, I flinched And signed up for a workload Heavy enough To push out the fading reality Of my condition. It wasn't until I was sitting on the steps Outside of a bar that was slowly beginning To empty out, As intoxicated shadows gained substance and lit cigarettes against the brick wall. I sunk down next to friend I had recently met- My big t shirt inched up above my abdomen And the lower jagged mark of my scar Peeked out- I didn't choose to tell him my story Until he asked me about the obvious Stale incison mark that had a presence Of its own. Piece by piece, it peeled itself from off my stomach And liquified into a sequence of events And feelings That poured from me Like a stream of bubbling bath water Overflowing from the rim Of a porcelain tub. That's when I realized that there is something shared and intimate about scars: Marred reminders of the flesh That speak to our upmost human Encounters with our own mortality. An indecipherable label of sorts: An unsigned invitation into the taboo. In a moment of unintentional word ***** At 2am to a stranger, I regained my intimacy with myself And my journey. I learned that while Life and Death and Time Will always plague our existence, They distance us from the human experience that is To feel: To feel everything in this God forsaken world. To feel angry at people for leaving when they should have stayed. To feel compassion at the same time. To feel intimacy with others. To feel intimacy with yourself. To feel love. To feel pain. To feel the cold creases in the wooden floor as you make your way to the bathroom in the middle of the night. To feel alone. To feel surrounded. To feel the trembling echoes of the past and be able to grab its elusive coattails and shake away the dusty remnants of time and shout that you are present. To feel nothing.
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Jan 21, 2015
Jan 21, 2015 at 1:07 AM UTC
The intimacy of scars
When I discovered I had cancer, I was told that I would learn a lot About Life and Death and Time, But I never thought that I would Discover what it means To be intimate With strangers, Or anyone, for that matter. When my insides were cut open like a game of operation, I told myself: Be detached. When visitors came, We talked about the weather. When I arrived home, I spent my time Trying to forget The experience Of impermanence And shared emotions That I couldn't even grapple with Myself. When the person I loved Left me I flinched And then sunk back into an abyss of Emotionless functioning, Cutting myself further and further Off from my narrative Of pain. When it was time to go back to school, I flinched And signed up for a workload Heavy enough To push out the fading reality Of my condition. It wasn't until I was sitting on the steps Outside of a bar that was slowly beginning To empty out, As intoxicated shadows gained substance and lit cigarettes against the brick wall. I sunk down next to friend I had recently met- My big t shirt inched up above my abdomen And the lower jagged mark of my scar Peeked out- I didn't choose to tell him my story Until he asked me about the obvious Stale incison mark that had a presence Of its own. Piece by piece, it peeled itself from off my stomach And liquified into a sequence of events And feelings That poured from me Like a stream of bubbling bath water Overflowing from the rim Of a porcelain tub. That's when I realized that there is something shared and intimate about scars: Marred reminders of the flesh That speak to our upmost human Encounters with our own mortality. An indecipherable label of sorts: An unsigned invitation into the taboo. In a moment of unintentional word ***** At 2am to a stranger, I regained my intimacy with myself And my journey. I learned that while Life and Death and Time Will always plague our existence, They distance us from the human experience that is To feel: To feel everything in this God forsaken world. To feel angry at people for leaving when they should have stayed. To feel compassion at the same time. To feel intimacy with others. To feel intimacy with yourself. To feel love. To feel pain. To feel the cold creases in the wooden floor as you make your way to the bathroom in the middle of the night. To feel alone. To feel surrounded. To feel the trembling echoes of the past and be able to grab its elusive coattails and shake away the dusty remnants of time and shout that you are present. To feel nothing.
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I am making a desicion to clean my body of your hollow whispered bruises cracks in my diaphragm your words left sizzling there like acid that dripped from your lips I forgot the deception that swam from your eyes I have never been stupid enough to believe that you were only one when there were three. But we stood and watched that house burn never feeling colder, than we did that night. Im sorry your brother died and took your parents with you. So you are an orphan that demonstrated car crashes in the mere rhythm of your hands or melody of your speech. But I find myself drawn to angry cobalt blue eyes too often enough to know that I cannot grapple out of your choke-hold and frozen fingers will bruise me every shade of your roaring ocean-like blue. I can only admire the sapphire in your soul from a distance and hope the red ruby rage turns to wine and not blood. I have left my marks on too many wooden floorboards, pleaded with too many icy aquamarine eyes; from boys with steel in their voices but a fury in their hearts. Too many fingernails stuck between infinite spaces somewhere in houses where the silence reminded me of the stillness of a teal lake in spring your eyes are reminiscent of a grey morning I do not wish to remember I will leave a mark here.
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Oct 19, 2012
Oct 19, 2012 at 8:54 PM UTC
Blue
A turquoise fly battered on a red laptop on whose twenty-inch pane glowed a green apple. A poet, some distance away from the backdrop, with the fly and the apple sought to grapple: What stories? What parables would a laptop offer Hermes - about an oozy apple and a fly who understood not that the fruit on the red laptop is only the image of a copy? (c) LazharBouazzi
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May 15, 2016
May 15, 2016 at 3:03 PM UTC
The Fly and the Laptop (revised poem)
The writer's life Consists of looming strife For a writer's eyes are keen To the suffering that usually goes unseen All writers are bearers of truth Wielding their pens like a scalpel that cuts through All the **** we tell ourselves That keeps us in denial A writer seeks truth incessantly And eventually comes upon the somewhat ambiguous answer That all truth originates from Love How does the writer's analytical mind Grapple with such a fluid concept? The writer sees beauty in the invisible Writes poetry on bathroom stalls Lives life solely for stories The writer feels things deeply but doesn't speak them, But rather scribbles her thoughts fervently in a notebook The words dancing on the page As they are released from the tip of the pen The writer knows, sadly, that even though she writes stories to make people feel less alone That these people will never truly ever understand her and neither will She ever be able to fully embody the experience of another human The writer has wounds that go deeper than you could fathom When no one was there to turn to, She picked up a notebook instead and released the toxic emotional build-up in her head Made art out of her sadness on the page Through poetic words, Elusive and enigmatic, She could tell her story, indirectly And still set herself free from the ******* of unspoken miseries The writer's life is a privileged one indeed For we see things, but don't speak them But rather transcribe them forever in our memories Until we find a clean sheet of paper, And write Write everything we've seen, heard, tasted, felt, known and intuited Every struggle and every victory Meticulously crafted upon the bare canvas Like a war zone with an abundance of pent up zest Finally unleashing itself upon the page So, write, my fellow Writers Write fearlessly And our stories will prevail They will impact even just one person Who thought they were all alone, Perhaps like we once felt.
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Jun 4, 2017
Jun 4, 2017 at 2:01 AM UTC
The Writer's Life
The writer's life Consists of looming strife For a writer's eyes are keen To the suffering that usually goes unseen All writers are bearers of truth Wielding their pens like a scalpel that cuts through All the **** we tell ourselves That keeps us in denial A writer seeks truth incessantly And eventually comes upon the somewhat ambiguous answer That all truth originates from Love How does the writer's analytical mind Grapple with such a fluid concept? The writer sees beauty in the invisible Writes poetry on bathroom stalls Lives life solely for stories The writer feels things deeply but doesn't speak them, But rather scribbles her thoughts fervently in a notebook The words dancing on the page As they are released from the tip of the pen The writer knows, sadly, that even though she writes stories to make people feel less alone That these people will never truly ever understand her and neither will She ever be able to fully embody the experience of another human The writer has wounds that go deeper than you could fathom When no one was there to turn to, She picked up a notebook instead and released the toxic emotional build-up in her head Made art out of her sadness on the page Through poetic words, Elusive and enigmatic, She could tell her story, indirectly And still set herself free from the ******* of unspoken miseries The writer's life is a privileged one indeed For we see things, but don't speak them But rather transcribe them forever in our memories Until we find a clean sheet of paper, And write Write everything we've seen, heard, tasted, felt, known and intuited Every struggle and every victory Meticulously crafted upon the bare canvas Like a war zone with an abundance of pent up zest Finally unleashing itself upon the page So, write, my fellow Writers Write fearlessly And our stories will prevail They will impact even just one person Who thought they were all alone, Perhaps like we once felt.
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i. you will miss him in drizzles and monsoons, in swells and tsunamis. you will listen to his favorite song for hours; it will hit you every unexpected moment. it will hurt, stab, ache, and you will suppress constant screams with strained lips. ii. you will collect everything he gave to you and wonder if it is dimensionally real. you will sleep in his shirts, retaste saltwater kisses, and reread conversations as if there's something you missed the previous thirty times. absence does not make the heart grow fonder; it rips it apart and you cannot stitch the ragged halves with no thread. iii. you will feel his touch presently in everything you do. it will be soft and cruelly comforting. it will constantly and inescapably linger. it will haunt you in early rainy mornings and dark lonely evenings. iv. you will read endless musings on love and philosophy. you will entirely understand foucault's prison. you will live in steinbeck's tide pools and stars, and relate to simon bolivar trapped in his labyrinth. you will wonder why everything is like this, ugly and broken (and also if you are becoming delusional). v. you will drink tea that scalds your tongue and stand outside on freezing nights, numb and overfeeling at the same time. you will ask the silent moon a thousand questions. you will see him and blink, head swimming, heart pounding in surges. the stars will wink and the wind will mock you. vi. you will have blissful afternoons you forget and sorrowful nights you remember. it will still consume you in bouts, devour you in spells. nighttime will become both your enemy and remedy: it will wickedly remind you, yet help you heal. vii. you will try and fail to make sense of him (and the universe in general). you will grapple with reality and yourself. perhaps you will never know why he stopped loving you: you will keep wondering how some things can just be left broken. iix. slowly, slowly, you will sprout on your own; you will be tender and nearly whole. most importantly, you will realize his love brought you an entirely different kind of happiness. ix. you will stop worrying and trying to piece together an empty puzzle. even the deepest scars find their way of fading. your mom was right: stop picking at the scab and your wound will heal. x. you will learn to love yourself in ways he never could have loved you.
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Mar 6, 2016
Mar 6, 2016 at 2:35 AM UTC
things a broken heart taught me
i. you will miss him in drizzles and monsoons, in swells and tsunamis. you will listen to his favorite song for hours; it will hit you every unexpected moment. it will hurt, stab, ache, and you will suppress constant screams with strained lips. ii. you will collect everything he gave to you and wonder if it is dimensionally real. you will sleep in his shirts, retaste saltwater kisses, and reread conversations as if there's something you missed the previous thirty times. absence does not make the heart grow fonder; it rips it apart and you cannot stitch the ragged halves with no thread. iii. you will feel his touch presently in everything you do. it will be soft and cruelly comforting. it will constantly and inescapably linger. it will haunt you in early rainy mornings and dark lonely evenings. iv. you will read endless musings on love and philosophy. you will entirely understand foucault's prison. you will live in steinbeck's tide pools and stars, and relate to simon bolivar trapped in his labyrinth. you will wonder why everything is like this, ugly and broken (and also if you are becoming delusional). v. you will drink tea that scalds your tongue and stand outside on freezing nights, numb and overfeeling at the same time. you will ask the silent moon a thousand questions. you will see him and blink, head swimming, heart pounding in surges. the stars will wink and the wind will mock you. vi. you will have blissful afternoons you forget and sorrowful nights you remember. it will still consume you in bouts, devour you in spells. nighttime will become both your enemy and remedy: it will wickedly remind you, yet help you heal. vii. you will try and fail to make sense of him (and the universe in general). you will grapple with reality and yourself. perhaps you will never know why he stopped loving you: you will keep wondering how some things can just be left broken. iix. slowly, slowly, you will sprout on your own; you will be tender and nearly whole. most importantly, you will realize his love brought you an entirely different kind of happiness. ix. you will stop worrying and trying to piece together an empty puzzle. even the deepest scars find their way of fading. your mom was right: stop picking at the scab and your wound will heal. x. you will learn to love yourself in ways he never could have loved you.
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He's Uncle John to you, but John to the rest of us Got a way of telling stories without the fanfare or the fuss He can jump into any conversation, has a lot of stuff to say and every bit is interesting 'cause that always been John's way. There was one about his summer job before 1970, paid to push a Swan-shaped boat off a dock in Asbury With a grapple hook on a ten foot pole, or something of that sort well he'd push 'em out and pull 'em in wasn't doing it for sport~ The same guy who owned the swan boats, tunneled love across the way twice a week John worked the darkness, but preferred the light of day. Played rhythm at the Upstage in band called 'Cory' later workin' Perkins in West Belmar, took the name from the percolator Around that time he grew his hair out, it was like an Afro-sheen mistaken for Tinker, a surfboard chinker and drummer with Springsteen. Cruisin' down around Brookdale in his '39 LaSalle Met 'Stinky' Tink at Thompson Park, where he was singing with his pal Hey John, you look like Tinker, but now you favor Gere a live ringer for Mike Richards, and don't forget DeNir- Oh, if you can't remember anything from 40 years ago just ask your Uncle John who knows the time in Tokyo.
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Oct 5, 2013
Oct 5, 2013 at 5:57 AM UTC
Uncle John's Story
Wasn't I wanted When I was there? Your four sides to these long rides of your square? So say it, I don't want your copy and paste I want your old broken self Filled with liquor, and haste The way shelves of fine China used to crash down Inside of your chest when no one was around You would grapple and shake, you would fall to the ground And you'd cry You'd cry. Only I knew that sound. I wish I weren't sour Wish my thoughts about you Didn't seize up and freeze the moment that they come through I also wish you'd stop acting Like I'm an asset of the past Like you are happy now at last You should see the way it hurts me. It's selfish to act like I'd cross rivers for you When you know I don't swim, unless you're drowning, too.
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Dec 3, 2014
Dec 3, 2014 at 9:52 PM UTC
Miles