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hopelessness is a fish gasping in oxygen I take in the air but I refuse to call this breathing and I refuse to call it dying. I call this a desert; an eternity missing the shoreline, missing the ocean wave tango before leaving with the moon. I refuse to call it foolish to hope I can be more than a carousel ride of mistakes, a revolving door of regrets. *"I am more I am more"* I whisper to the moon. Hopelessness is losing all your senses and believing in love, or music, belie- ving you can dance with the shoreline one more time even with the saltwater in your lungs, even with the ocean waves pulling you back because "I am more, I am more" the moon whispers, and you believe him.
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Jul 31, 2013
Jul 31, 2013 at 2:22 AM UTC
hopelessness
MESSENGER Now at the Seventh Gate the seventh chief, Thy proper mother's son, I will announce, What fortune for this city, for himself, With curses he invoketh:--on the walls Ascending, heralded as king, to stand, With paeans for their capture; then with thee To fight, and either slaying near thee die, Or thee, who wronged him, chasing forth alive, Requite in kind his proper banishment. Such words he shouts, and calls upon the gods Who o'er his race preside and Fatherland, With gracious eye to look upon his prayers. A well-wrought buckler, newly forged, he bears, With twofold blazon riveted thereon, For there a woman leads, with sober mien, A mailed warrior, enchased in gold; Justice her style, and thus the legend speaks:-- 'This man I will restore, and he shall hold The city and his father's palace homes.' Such the devices of the hostile chiefs. 'Tis for thyself to choose whom thou wilt send; But never shalt thou blame my herald-words. To guide the rudder of the State be thine! ETEOCLES O heaven-demented race of Oedipus, My race, tear-fraught, detested of the gods! Alas, our father's curses now bear fruit. But it beseems not to lament or weep, Lest lamentations sadder still be born. For him, too truly Polyneikes named,-- What his device will work we soon shall know; Whether his braggart words, with madness fraught, Gold-blazoned on his shield, shall lead him back. Hath Justice communed with, or claimed him hers, Guided his deeds and thoughts, this might have been; But neither when he fled the darksome womb, Or in his childhood, or in youth's fair prime, Or when the hair thick gathered on his chin, Hath Justice communed with, or claimed him hers, Nor in this outrage on his Fatherland Deem I she now beside him deigns to stand. For Justice would in sooth belie her name, Did she with this all-daring man consort. In these regards confiding will I go, Myself will meet him. Who with better right? Brother to brother, chieftain against chief, Foeman to foe, I'll stand. Quick, bring my spear, My greaves, and armor, bulwark against stones.
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The Defiance Of Eteocles
MESSENGER Now at the Seventh Gate the seventh chief, Thy proper mother's son, I will announce, What fortune for this city, for himself, With curses he invoketh:--on the walls Ascending, heralded as king, to stand, With paeans for their capture; then with thee To fight, and either slaying near thee die, Or thee, who wronged him, chasing forth alive, Requite in kind his proper banishment. Such words he shouts, and calls upon the gods Who o'er his race preside and Fatherland, With gracious eye to look upon his prayers. A well-wrought buckler, newly forged, he bears, With twofold blazon riveted thereon, For there a woman leads, with sober mien, A mailed warrior, enchased in gold; Justice her style, and thus the legend speaks:-- 'This man I will restore, and he shall hold The city and his father's palace homes.' Such the devices of the hostile chiefs. 'Tis for thyself to choose whom thou wilt send; But never shalt thou blame my herald-words. To guide the rudder of the State be thine! ETEOCLES O heaven-demented race of Oedipus, My race, tear-fraught, detested of the gods! Alas, our father's curses now bear fruit. But it beseems not to lament or weep, Lest lamentations sadder still be born. For him, too truly Polyneikes named,-- What his device will work we soon shall know; Whether his braggart words, with madness fraught, Gold-blazoned on his shield, shall lead him back. Hath Justice communed with, or claimed him hers, Guided his deeds and thoughts, this might have been; But neither when he fled the darksome womb, Or in his childhood, or in youth's fair prime, Or when the hair thick gathered on his chin, Hath Justice communed with, or claimed him hers, Nor in this outrage on his Fatherland Deem I she now beside him deigns to stand. For Justice would in sooth belie her name, Did she with this all-daring man consort. In these regards confiding will I go, Myself will meet him. Who with better right? Brother to brother, chieftain against chief, Foeman to foe, I'll stand. Quick, bring my spear, My greaves, and armor, bulwark against stones.
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When did I get so cynical? Was it when promises were broken? Did it happen once you left? When you left my wounds open? Was it when you left me bereft? Was it when I saw what people did? Did it happen after noticing your vie? When you made that dishonest bid? Was it when all you did was belie? Was it when plans were changed? Did it happen when I was manipulated? When you made me feel so estranged? Was it when I was left debilitated? When did I get so cynical? Was it when I left promises broken? Did it happen once I left? When I saw your wounds open? Was it when my wake left you bereft? Was it when I saw what I did? Did it happen after noticing my vie? When I made those dishonest bids? Was it when all I did was belie? Was it when I made plans change? Did it happen once I manipulated? When I made people feel estranged? Was it when I made you debilitated? When did I get so cynical?
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Dec 26, 2014
Dec 26, 2014 at 3:32 PM UTC
Cynical.
Boiling blood and angry eyes Boil over in tears that do not cry For this idea, one last good-bye Is a selfish notion Proximity breeds what hearts belie Jagged emotion So this, our little rendezvous I swore that I would never do Until, of course, you asked me too The doorknob's turning Now, it must be followed through My heart lies burning Ferocity to match my own Intensifies this time alone The love has long-since been outgrown There is no forgiveness Just pleasure like we’ve never known This time, I’ll win this Then finally, you’ll realize I’ve grown into these golden thighs That seem to have you hypnotized Within their power And far too late you realize You’ve been devoured By the woman who stands glistening bare Watching you with tainted glare In a flash the passion flares Drunk acrobatics Bring forth new heights our bodies share Now spent and static Breathless and dripping wet As close to hate as love can get And this amazing last duet An exclamation In this goodbye lives no regret No indignation
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May 29, 2010
May 29, 2010 at 6:45 PM UTC
Disdain
you know exactly what you are doing to me every day, of every week, us at work together, knowing so little of each other, you tease me with the breezily brush of your billowy blouse, brushed by your sweet, soft-sleek breast against my arm or shoulder or back, against me brushing -knowing that you do this just to see me blushing just to laugh it off in passing as my stiff ******* belie my casual, response my hard to stifle sigh when you brush me. -By Alexandra Eames
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Aug 4, 2020
Aug 4, 2020 at 8:56 AM UTC
brush
From freedom and serenity - forced back, Within a heavy frame, I twist and turn. Surrounded by darkness - sunlight lacks Through peaceful ears, an alarm clock burns. Feeling like someone once deceased, I ****** myself from my tranquil sleep... Stumbling to the kitchen, eyes half open, I prepare my meal in a weary daze. I will not dread today - I'm hoping, As I race through traffic in my malaise. Drinking in my last few moments, I do what I must, but never condone it... My interior seething from stress filled meetings, These rules defeating - my lifeblood fleeting, A blunt insanity from this calamity, Through censored profanity, I scream "barbarity!" Beneath the boots of automatic overlords, We're trapped together - anxious and bored... Our heads hang, our eyes bleed Their talking styles belie their greed. Our mouths move - connection we seek, But we find our language strange and oblique. Back home, on my couch, lethargic and pale, Hypnotized by TV, my dreams turning stale… A once free spirit, now a mindless drone - My sense of identity is what they dethrone. I assure myself, my soul will endure, Friday at five, I’m told is the cure. But, revolution’s muscle beats in my chest! So, a simple existence, I imagine, my best. This is my strife - I hate this way of life! Words can’t explain the disdain in my veins. So, I have no choice, but to use my voice, To tell you all to your face, there’s no time to waste! Everyday, I pickup my pen and face the end - To light the fire, that from ashes, we’ll ascend...
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Sep 21, 2018
Sep 21, 2018 at 4:58 PM UTC
A S C E N D
From freedom and serenity - forced back, Within a heavy frame, I twist and turn. Surrounded by darkness - sunlight lacks Through peaceful ears, an alarm clock burns. Feeling like someone once deceased, I ****** myself from my tranquil sleep... Stumbling to the kitchen, eyes half open, I prepare my meal in a weary daze. I will not dread today - I'm hoping, As I race through traffic in my malaise. Drinking in my last few moments, I do what I must, but never condone it... My interior seething from stress filled meetings, These rules defeating - my lifeblood fleeting, A blunt insanity from this calamity, Through censored profanity, I scream "barbarity!" Beneath the boots of automatic overlords, We're trapped together - anxious and bored... Our heads hang, our eyes bleed Their talking styles belie their greed. Our mouths move - connection we seek, But we find our language strange and oblique. Back home, on my couch, lethargic and pale, Hypnotized by TV, my dreams turning stale… A once free spirit, now a mindless drone - My sense of identity is what they dethrone. I assure myself, my soul will endure, Friday at five, I’m told is the cure. But, revolution’s muscle beats in my chest! So, a simple existence, I imagine, my best. This is my strife - I hate this way of life! Words can’t explain the disdain in my veins. So, I have no choice, but to use my voice, To tell you all to your face, there’s no time to waste! Everyday, I pickup my pen and face the end - To light the fire, that from ashes, we’ll ascend...
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Sitting early at McDonalds over a dollar cup, I join a gathering of days...no longer years... Whose better days are nearly up Alone, or nearly so, they gather here. Greetings gruff or none belie camaraderie; They wait until each man has joined the crew, Half-hearted views of the morning news, Wonder of a friend who's feeling blue. I cannot hold myself away from finding me A few years up this downward road, Waiting with the men I've come to see... A weary lot to meet and think of growing old.
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Oct 26, 2014
Oct 26, 2014 at 9:03 AM UTC
Old Men at McDonalds (Montana, 2013)
Same old drudgery, Papers fresh for grading; Topics, seldom new, If honestly presented, At least encourage worth In form, in format, in tradition. Plagiarism creeps up, Always shocking, The unauthorized changing Of voice, of tone, of diction, Not unlike the sting of a ruthless needle, The drip of a hollowed, poisoned fang, The bite of frost, burning a tender cheek... Sadly familiar, this strident pang. All hope is lost. Anger sets in, Trust wilts, Hope fades gray. In plagiarism, the fool's truth lies; To belie one's honor is to watch it die.
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Oct 22, 2018
Oct 22, 2018 at 9:06 PM UTC
Casting your nets
Clothes: to compose The furtive, lone Pillar of bone To some repose. To let hands shirk Utterance behind A pocket's blind Deceptive smirk. To mask, belie The undue haste Of breast for breast Or thigh for thigh. To screen, conserve The pose, when death Half strips the sheath And leaves the nerve. To edit, glose Lyric desire And slake its fire In polished prose.
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Cocoon For A Skeleton
The feel of your skin envelopes me the second I close my eyes Your lips, the very taste of you, your hand against my thigh Racing hearts and shallow breaths of passion not denied Dreams are filled with memories and hopes of future ties The now has changed the status quo, I'm living in disguise Body and mind and heart unite yet living different lives In the throws of restlessness I awake to subtle cries My heart, it weeps for longing, for a need I can't describe So full of joy between us, there is more than love implied Drawn to you completely, yet left to wonder why Choices made against a future that seems eternally unwise Yet painful yearning pushes to a life that we must try An aftermath of broken hearts and tears that never dry Still, we're drawn to one another beyond what we realize How are we to live apart in lives where the sun won't rise Where everything we say and do will feel like it's a lie All the love that we could share has come as a surprise We can't seem to hide our hearts with what our words belie
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Dec 9, 2010
Dec 9, 2010 at 5:33 AM UTC
honest
Stitching From a grand church in France to a rustic barn in Sweden the focal point and fascination is the door that Has a key protruding in the lock but it has with time lost the screws that held it snug against the door And the door frame there is no flat lumbered board now it is just a very deep splintered lines the color Of auburn brown with a low gleaming in the setting sun I put my hands out and touch this rustic place in Time an explosion of thoughts blast the mind a life lived well with purpose that endures with use the Seasoned is expressed a stitching that is the fabric of life forms over muscle and sinew this outer Garment does not belie the inner soul but in experience and in action it promotes and assures value It passes through the vestiges of time the gray mist speaks with whispered mystery bur anchored at Your center is the intractable character that sets the tone of your life a solid structure presents a forcible Argument yes the elements have taken their toll but by doing so they have removed the green untried Wood now the occasional creaking occurs but not of breaking but the stalwart rises in common skies Privilege gleams the stranger or intimate friend is in the presence of the assured there is no pretense This truth as sound as time and wisdom crowns walls and bedrock foundation you have come upon The investment that God has provided and runs deep without constraints you can stand and muse Here and as an invisible oracle your questions will be answered they will float on silent wind and mark You as different you will be refreshed a redeeming will surge through you timeless affirmation will Speak you will know it is sound it is steps that are sure when so much is cheap and just for show you Will grow strong and tall your shadow will be the challenge to those who waste themselves on base And worthless misgivings of life you will possess the power to be a place of refuge a fortress where The powerless and helpless are provided comfort and instruction no longer will evil and its devices Enslave the helpless there will be that irrefutable place of giving that will conquer a world bent on Destruction.
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Aug 21, 2012
Aug 21, 2012 at 12:41 AM UTC
Stitching
Stitching From a grand church in France to a rustic barn in Sweden the focal point and fascination is the door that Has a key protruding in the lock but it has with time lost the screws that held it snug against the door And the door frame there is no flat lumbered board now it is just a very deep splintered lines the color Of auburn brown with a low gleaming in the setting sun I put my hands out and touch this rustic place in Time an explosion of thoughts blast the mind a life lived well with purpose that endures with use the Seasoned is expressed a stitching that is the fabric of life forms over muscle and sinew this outer Garment does not belie the inner soul but in experience and in action it promotes and assures value It passes through the vestiges of time the gray mist speaks with whispered mystery bur anchored at Your center is the intractable character that sets the tone of your life a solid structure presents a forcible Argument yes the elements have taken their toll but by doing so they have removed the green untried Wood now the occasional creaking occurs but not of breaking but the stalwart rises in common skies Privilege gleams the stranger or intimate friend is in the presence of the assured there is no pretense This truth as sound as time and wisdom crowns walls and bedrock foundation you have come upon The investment that God has provided and runs deep without constraints you can stand and muse Here and as an invisible oracle your questions will be answered they will float on silent wind and mark You as different you will be refreshed a redeeming will surge through you timeless affirmation will Speak you will know it is sound it is steps that are sure when so much is cheap and just for show you Will grow strong and tall your shadow will be the challenge to those who waste themselves on base And worthless misgivings of life you will possess the power to be a place of refuge a fortress where The powerless and helpless are provided comfort and instruction no longer will evil and its devices Enslave the helpless there will be that irrefutable place of giving that will conquer a world bent on Destruction.
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Sprung, from beauteous filth, The lies and gradation of the un wed saints Hung, from gracious guilt, The death and oration of the un sung and faint Led, from grounded earth, The soulless narration of the unloved taint Believing is all when your all is a lie, The smell of defeat in the blink of her eye, The way you never fail to surprise the easily shockable, Revealing that all was a lie of your life, The decay of a scent from the skirt of the pile, The path you never chose to really surmise the unreadable, uncollectable Paid, to believe this girth, The salt and salvation of unborn wealth, Laid, the solution of all their faith, The untouchable wrath and indignation of lifeless whelps, Said, to ears that deceive all truth, The unsinkable feeling you and your friends try not to avoid Swaying in time to a common hope thief, The guileless age and her sense of relief, I thought i just told you to leave love at the door, Poison and ruptured the stale old lies, A night of betrayal and blood on these tiles, Faithless, inauguration a purpose that you belie, Lover, sweet mother, joker, and harpies with scales combine, Hater, sweet undertaker, all is within, a touch to cold skin and a world you can't deny, Believers, my underachievers, fornicate how to the march of the rain, a lifelong ambition that's driven in pain, a rusty disease that you spread with a knife, a guiltless decision made by his wife, a turning old format that withers and screams, a breathless recognition, we all fail to grin, just wait on the inkline to say what you want, I’m turning these covers and buying the bought, ******* the sweetness to boldly deny, that all these suspicions were aroused in the night, a turning, a quickening, a life on the rails, this one ****** mess i can't wash from my nails, so thorough, so clean, yet so impure it's not true, i tried to remake what i thought couldn't be you, but all indication now points to my spine, the tossing and yearning beneath valentine, i am the weather that spoils your day, please hold my ears as she screams my name.
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Nov 25, 2011
Nov 25, 2011 at 4:48 PM UTC
And in this glove....
Sprung, from beauteous filth, The lies and gradation of the un wed saints Hung, from gracious guilt, The death and oration of the un sung and faint Led, from grounded earth, The soulless narration of the unloved taint Believing is all when your all is a lie, The smell of defeat in the blink of her eye, The way you never fail to surprise the easily shockable, Revealing that all was a lie of your life, The decay of a scent from the skirt of the pile, The path you never chose to really surmise the unreadable, uncollectable Paid, to believe this girth, The salt and salvation of unborn wealth, Laid, the solution of all their faith, The untouchable wrath and indignation of lifeless whelps, Said, to ears that deceive all truth, The unsinkable feeling you and your friends try not to avoid Swaying in time to a common hope thief, The guileless age and her sense of relief, I thought i just told you to leave love at the door, Poison and ruptured the stale old lies, A night of betrayal and blood on these tiles, Faithless, inauguration a purpose that you belie, Lover, sweet mother, joker, and harpies with scales combine, Hater, sweet undertaker, all is within, a touch to cold skin and a world you can't deny, Believers, my underachievers, fornicate how to the march of the rain, a lifelong ambition that's driven in pain, a rusty disease that you spread with a knife, a guiltless decision made by his wife, a turning old format that withers and screams, a breathless recognition, we all fail to grin, just wait on the inkline to say what you want, I’m turning these covers and buying the bought, ******* the sweetness to boldly deny, that all these suspicions were aroused in the night, a turning, a quickening, a life on the rails, this one ****** mess i can't wash from my nails, so thorough, so clean, yet so impure it's not true, i tried to remake what i thought couldn't be you, but all indication now points to my spine, the tossing and yearning beneath valentine, i am the weather that spoils your day, please hold my ears as she screams my name.
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Monet, Manet, Morisot, and the tortured Vincent a long century or more ago, filled their palates with color, their canvases with impressions of life, love and loss. And we, the great masters of civilization, have treasured these like newborn babes. I wandered through the polished halls of antiquities to see them— some hidden even from the harsh light of day to protect their precious prinking from decay. I strained my eyes to see their soulful strokes and wondered why artists carried such painful yokes McMurtry’s ranch has no paintings but sculptures from a vanished sea. A quarter billion years it’s been, and yet they’re here for all to see Rocks carved by patient scratching time and stock tanks covered with putrid slime. No lilies float on pools of blue and no guard carefully watches you Their sentries are the desert rattlers and the sun scorched prairie lands, but these ancient masterpieces are safe from filching hands. When I kneel on hard rock soil, I forget my daily useless toil and dig in clean eternal dirt with no canvases to belie the hurt of gentle men who felt the call to let their heart be seen by all Monet, Manet, and Morisot are now laid to rest, with their burdens set aside, but their colors are a reminder that beauty and suffering abide McMurtry’s rocks no longer feel, but who could say they are less real than colors fading from the light and lonely artists’ painful plight.
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Aug 18, 2012
Aug 18, 2012 at 4:17 PM UTC
Monet and the McMurtry Ranch
Edgar Allen settled evenings in the room at the rear at a desk by the window where he could hear breeze-rustled sycamore leaves sleeping behind the neighbor’s house next door through night’s florescent blue moon light, its mist through low leaden clouds he imagined the phantom he named Lenore, and remembered lost Annabelle Lee   amore he'd left laid alone aside a blackened sea hers, the voice of a tree speaking, hushed, like distant waves rushed upon shore, faintly whispering heart-secrets the ardent couldn’t keep evermore was it she who sighed with love’s breathless lips to flicker the flame of a tortured oil lamp’s light the words born laboring children with pen put in service to cover past rent, refill an empty flask of verdant absinthe for a nine-dollar-half-column poem - fodder for fickle romantics to tear over before a performance of Bellini’s new Norma hardened, our modern hearts fattened on diets of swollen bellies that belie the dour misery of starving they’ve grown sclerotic and cynical, hungry for suffering flavored substantial - a greasy disaster to stain the paper wrapper enclosing depths of the human condition sophisticates, we dismissed puerile appetite for honeyed songs of longing, the ornamented confections of jealous angels old drunken poets sang until dark full comes, alone, and we’re small again then shadows still speak to starry skies and fairy tales may come alive to suspend belief with secret dreams of the dear, lost Annabelle Lee
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Mar 13, 2011
Mar 13, 2011 at 12:59 PM UTC
Guarding the Roses
Edgar Allen settled evenings in the room at the rear at a desk by the window where he could hear breeze-rustled sycamore leaves sleeping behind the neighbor’s house next door through night’s florescent blue moon light, its mist through low leaden clouds he imagined the phantom he named Lenore, and remembered lost Annabelle Lee   amore he'd left laid alone aside a blackened sea hers, the voice of a tree speaking, hushed, like distant waves rushed upon shore, faintly whispering heart-secrets the ardent couldn’t keep evermore was it she who sighed with love’s breathless lips to flicker the flame of a tortured oil lamp’s light the words born laboring children with pen put in service to cover past rent, refill an empty flask of verdant absinthe for a nine-dollar-half-column poem - fodder for fickle romantics to tear over before a performance of Bellini’s new Norma hardened, our modern hearts fattened on diets of swollen bellies that belie the dour misery of starving they’ve grown sclerotic and cynical, hungry for suffering flavored substantial - a greasy disaster to stain the paper wrapper enclosing depths of the human condition sophisticates, we dismissed puerile appetite for honeyed songs of longing, the ornamented confections of jealous angels old drunken poets sang until dark full comes, alone, and we’re small again then shadows still speak to starry skies and fairy tales may come alive to suspend belief with secret dreams of the dear, lost Annabelle Lee
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pull back the thin veneer of pretense that obfuscates this holiday season profuse excuses of joy and peace are hollow and brittle and leave bitter proof of our lackluster compassion expose the specter of greed dormant in capitalism vestiges of a dying culture the refuse of an apathetic American people numb to the trauma inflicted by megalomaniacal leaders consent given implicitly in the complacency of obedient conformity will we refuse to acknowledge the stains on our hands this Christmas red liquid misting our faces bloodlust and endless war there’s no rhyme or reason to these sycophantic intonations deafening these words of treason in vain attempts to assuage guilt with endless iterations of false hopes and puny gods in brainless trying to defy reality we belie our true intentions our self-serving obsessions and inane consumption hazes of the mundane   in suburban graves if the greatest gift is giving itself we won’t find solace in the holy temples of strip malls shopping centers and corporate retail palaces a Friday as black as our fractured hearts witness the death of humanity choking out all we were grateful for the day before
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Nov 27, 2015
Nov 27, 2015 at 8:24 PM UTC
choke
I do not mourn long Mondays-- Wednesday is gone before I blink back an astonished Tuesday, and at twenty-four already I see my mothers hands sliding across the page That same scrawl following tip of the exigent pen Nervous mind idly stroking bitter torments That which is aggravated swells inflamed. Like a canker sore deep in the inner cheek The tongue rolling and probing, absorbed by each sour pain Carefully plotting little volcanoes across the slick terrain They burst like purple pomegranates pounding spattered cement on mild fall evenings So do people sometimes Through tectonics of the brain Those which could be minor psychological blemishes roar to life. Shifting vast emotional plates behind a cool gaze People hurl carelessness at on another like schoolyard boys chucking helpless frogs at jagged stone walls Ignorant of life's high price And though horrified-- I Can not look away. Eyes bulging, blown out anuses spewing pale intestines slick with blood-- I can not look away. Each giddy chimp, feces Proudly flung-- I do not look away. My heart swollen hungering for that emptiness called humanity Mostly pretense, mostly solitude, mostly cruelty, All personal gain! Meanwhile, brothers and sisters, have you considered the fate of your everlasting soul? I didn't think so Glassy eyes stare beseeching from bathroom mirrors Tear-stained cheeks belie a quizzical half-smile I will meet that insecure gaze promising to seek my own perfect imperfection No longer guilt ridden and ashamed I will hold the reflected stare aloft with my own true eyes and I swear-- I will not look away
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May 10, 2013
May 10, 2013 at 12:53 PM UTC
Untitled (Draft 4 - March 6, 2006)
I do not mourn long Mondays-- Wednesday is gone before I blink back an astonished Tuesday, and at twenty-four already I see my mothers hands sliding across the page That same scrawl following tip of the exigent pen Nervous mind idly stroking bitter torments That which is aggravated swells inflamed. Like a canker sore deep in the inner cheek The tongue rolling and probing, absorbed by each sour pain Carefully plotting little volcanoes across the slick terrain They burst like purple pomegranates pounding spattered cement on mild fall evenings So do people sometimes Through tectonics of the brain Those which could be minor psychological blemishes roar to life. Shifting vast emotional plates behind a cool gaze People hurl carelessness at on another like schoolyard boys chucking helpless frogs at jagged stone walls Ignorant of life's high price And though horrified-- I Can not look away. Eyes bulging, blown out anuses spewing pale intestines slick with blood-- I can not look away. Each giddy chimp, feces Proudly flung-- I do not look away. My heart swollen hungering for that emptiness called humanity Mostly pretense, mostly solitude, mostly cruelty, All personal gain! Meanwhile, brothers and sisters, have you considered the fate of your everlasting soul? I didn't think so Glassy eyes stare beseeching from bathroom mirrors Tear-stained cheeks belie a quizzical half-smile I will meet that insecure gaze promising to seek my own perfect imperfection No longer guilt ridden and ashamed I will hold the reflected stare aloft with my own true eyes and I swear-- I will not look away
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Good day, constant friend, you Please me great; Belie your subtle pleasantries, Free yourself from blithe Mannerisms and speak freely. We are not amongst company, we Share no ill will nor rogue Dissent. You are a brother and a Sister to me, as I am to you, and We will not allow sallow weather to Defuse our brogue discourse. You are amongst friends.
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Jul 6, 2011
Jul 6, 2011 at 2:34 PM UTC
Good Day, Constant Friend
He pulls a feather from her bodice She laughs and turns a coy cheek. The boa, all but bare, looks ragged. Like her smile when she's feeling anxious. She feels the heat of his eyes, feels his intensity. Her fears belie her desires. She wishes she could see. See what he sees. See this thing that he calls beautiful. He seems to look to look right through her skin. But all she can focus on is the curves and the scars. The strange shape of her body. The embarrassment. The awkward turn of her mouth. The knit in her brow. Her conflicts with pleasure, her repulsion for needing to submit. The memories that bite at the back of her moans. The shadows of abuse crawling out of the seams. Ugly, twisted devils that sought to steal her innocence. Returning to feed again, to taint the morrows of adulthood. All of these things color the love she makes. Tar and feather it. Blacken it with shame. He senses her discomfort. Internalizes it. Confuses it. He shrinks back, recoiling from the slap of rejection. But it isn't him at all. Him, she craves. Salivates for. But like the ringing of Pavlov's bell, they've built a deeper path. Men she never knew; Can't even remember. Faces obscured. Yet she can trace the footprints they've left on her mind. Tracks set with iron spikes running through the bedrock, Through the deepest layers of her psyche. Below the surface. To where thoughts exist without consciousness, without effort. The symphony of tragedy continues to play on. She has no words to express this to him. She can only hope that he senses it. Senses the murky bubbles of awakening as they arise. Senses her need for him. Her need for his patience. Senses her need for silence, for distance and recollection. Senses her need for his quiet embrace. For understanding For her troubled state of mind and damaged sense of self. For a self that she has barely even begun to understand.
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Sep 27, 2015
Sep 27, 2015 at 8:43 AM UTC
Voluntary Blackouts; Standing Tall & Facing the Demons of Past Abuse
He pulls a feather from her bodice She laughs and turns a coy cheek. The boa, all but bare, looks ragged. Like her smile when she's feeling anxious. She feels the heat of his eyes, feels his intensity. Her fears belie her desires. She wishes she could see. See what he sees. See this thing that he calls beautiful. He seems to look to look right through her skin. But all she can focus on is the curves and the scars. The strange shape of her body. The embarrassment. The awkward turn of her mouth. The knit in her brow. Her conflicts with pleasure, her repulsion for needing to submit. The memories that bite at the back of her moans. The shadows of abuse crawling out of the seams. Ugly, twisted devils that sought to steal her innocence. Returning to feed again, to taint the morrows of adulthood. All of these things color the love she makes. Tar and feather it. Blacken it with shame. He senses her discomfort. Internalizes it. Confuses it. He shrinks back, recoiling from the slap of rejection. But it isn't him at all. Him, she craves. Salivates for. But like the ringing of Pavlov's bell, they've built a deeper path. Men she never knew; Can't even remember. Faces obscured. Yet she can trace the footprints they've left on her mind. Tracks set with iron spikes running through the bedrock, Through the deepest layers of her psyche. Below the surface. To where thoughts exist without consciousness, without effort. The symphony of tragedy continues to play on. She has no words to express this to him. She can only hope that he senses it. Senses the murky bubbles of awakening as they arise. Senses her need for him. Her need for his patience. Senses her need for silence, for distance and recollection. Senses her need for his quiet embrace. For understanding For her troubled state of mind and damaged sense of self. For a self that she has barely even begun to understand.
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by Arcassin B & Wolfspirit AB :Trying to pull myself out of this hole of a downward prosperity, confide in me or confine me, I'm dead inside either way, don't know how much I can take if I stay, Down the drain, down the drain, down the drain, down in it I go , from the story that was never told, locking me away for money, this isn't charity, lie to them , speak your mind to me, I'm dead inside either way, I just keep sinking more and more, Down the drain, down the drain, down the drain. WS : got my survival kit built into this psyche pulling myself up with each downward tumble ain't gonna let no lifetaster heart waster selfish bleedin' souls pull me down too busy making the best of this go round time to take up slack and draw a new direction upward trajectory, merely seeking perfection this constant self effacing doubt will surely **** me no longer waiting time to let the world thrill me i'm a lover..i ain't no killer juts gonna have to be my own chiller, thriller, AB : hopefully won't drive me to being a dealer, coiling my toes, keeping temptation away in every step, when dirt from the ground arose, filling us up to be the stringy ones, up on desire as I crept, downward I go to an endless cycle of falling, making me so so so so so so sick of everything, I can't keep screaming, down the drain, I filled the void for days just to feel a pain, down the drain, you needing confirmation just seems pretty lame, WS : no time to waste on commiseration i walk proud, upright, secure in my station belie the pomp and circumstance get on with the joy, to live for the dance this thing called life, we need only the living to share the warmth of caring and giving let sleeping dogs lie just where they fall drop the issues unimportant and heed the call each one has a gift, something to offer instead of selfishly filling their coffer it's like this and like that, when we get down to it it's like that and like this, so let's just do it.
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Oct 25, 2015
Oct 25, 2015 at 12:55 AM UTC
Wolf Spirit & Arcassin B - "Down The Drain"
by Arcassin B & Wolfspirit AB :Trying to pull myself out of this hole of a downward prosperity, confide in me or confine me, I'm dead inside either way, don't know how much I can take if I stay, Down the drain, down the drain, down the drain, down in it I go , from the story that was never told, locking me away for money, this isn't charity, lie to them , speak your mind to me, I'm dead inside either way, I just keep sinking more and more, Down the drain, down the drain, down the drain. WS : got my survival kit built into this psyche pulling myself up with each downward tumble ain't gonna let no lifetaster heart waster selfish bleedin' souls pull me down too busy making the best of this go round time to take up slack and draw a new direction upward trajectory, merely seeking perfection this constant self effacing doubt will surely **** me no longer waiting time to let the world thrill me i'm a lover..i ain't no killer juts gonna have to be my own chiller, thriller, AB : hopefully won't drive me to being a dealer, coiling my toes, keeping temptation away in every step, when dirt from the ground arose, filling us up to be the stringy ones, up on desire as I crept, downward I go to an endless cycle of falling, making me so so so so so so sick of everything, I can't keep screaming, down the drain, I filled the void for days just to feel a pain, down the drain, you needing confirmation just seems pretty lame, WS : no time to waste on commiseration i walk proud, upright, secure in my station belie the pomp and circumstance get on with the joy, to live for the dance this thing called life, we need only the living to share the warmth of caring and giving let sleeping dogs lie just where they fall drop the issues unimportant and heed the call each one has a gift, something to offer instead of selfishly filling their coffer it's like this and like that, when we get down to it it's like that and like this, so let's just do it.
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Mesmerized by what lies inside Dwells in my skull, lives in my mind Showing me, these corrupted dreams Behind my eyes, more than it seems Wilted roses, pouring rain Not a word but the roaring pain Scratching and tearing, flesh left raw Growling and biting and sharpening claws Shining eyes belie rage denied Moonlit skies, moonstruck cries Enraged and entrapped by thorns, kept safe Let us loose, witness our showcase "Your life isn't hard, it has no stress I am kindred, so I know best" Without, surveillance, how could you know I'm all wound up and I'm ready to go! Don't tell me what I have not felt Don't tell me about the cards I've been dealt You suffer too, we both suffocate Can't ease our symptoms unless we medicate! Angry you've been, angry I am! You've walked in these shoes so you should understand! Crimson is our bloodline, destroy what we hate! I hate myself so it's only my fate! Yet tell me I'm joking, call me a mimic It ****** me off so I don't want to hear it! How can you act like you knew all along I don't ******* get it, YOU'RE SO ******* WRONG! Authorities called, was a couple of years Seeing you talking, confirmed all my fears You haven't a clue, you don't understand, I have no filters, I say what I am! When I cry out for help and you tell them I'm fine I can't confess these desires for crime! You say there's no worry, you say I'm okay WHO THE **** ARE YOU TO SAY! You think you know me, you know nothing at all! YOU, KNOW, NOTHING AT ALL! YOU, KNOW, NOTHING AT ALL! YOU, KNOW, ABSOLUTELY **** ALL! So keep on talking, it amuses me so This pain and this anguish, denied by your hope Deluded you are, remember this thought: No such roses, grow such thorns!
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Sep 28, 2020
Sep 28, 2020 at 3:12 AM UTC
Trapped by Thorns
Mesmerized by what lies inside Dwells in my skull, lives in my mind Showing me, these corrupted dreams Behind my eyes, more than it seems Wilted roses, pouring rain Not a word but the roaring pain Scratching and tearing, flesh left raw Growling and biting and sharpening claws Shining eyes belie rage denied Moonlit skies, moonstruck cries Enraged and entrapped by thorns, kept safe Let us loose, witness our showcase "Your life isn't hard, it has no stress I am kindred, so I know best" Without, surveillance, how could you know I'm all wound up and I'm ready to go! Don't tell me what I have not felt Don't tell me about the cards I've been dealt You suffer too, we both suffocate Can't ease our symptoms unless we medicate! Angry you've been, angry I am! You've walked in these shoes so you should understand! Crimson is our bloodline, destroy what we hate! I hate myself so it's only my fate! Yet tell me I'm joking, call me a mimic It ****** me off so I don't want to hear it! How can you act like you knew all along I don't ******* get it, YOU'RE SO ******* WRONG! Authorities called, was a couple of years Seeing you talking, confirmed all my fears You haven't a clue, you don't understand, I have no filters, I say what I am! When I cry out for help and you tell them I'm fine I can't confess these desires for crime! You say there's no worry, you say I'm okay WHO THE **** ARE YOU TO SAY! You think you know me, you know nothing at all! YOU, KNOW, NOTHING AT ALL! YOU, KNOW, NOTHING AT ALL! YOU, KNOW, ABSOLUTELY **** ALL! So keep on talking, it amuses me so This pain and this anguish, denied by your hope Deluded you are, remember this thought: No such roses, grow such thorns!
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fragments of sky litter my thoughts like pieces of a shattered image like scraps of burnt wood painted with parts of some masterpiece scene of a carnival in the town churchyard with frolicking jesters and laughing children a quaint country place where fiddle players and young girls dance and sing but such as this place is now no more than image pressed into the fire consumed wood no more than some forgotten place filled with forgotten loves and forgotten lovers i lay there in the ruins of the church three hundred years on from the day it met its fate where now a oak flourishes true and tall such transient things such as our lives have such beauty but fleet as birds to roost as they disappear in the first burst of rain fragments of sky perceived in small spaces given by the leaves overhead the dusty lens of my mind churns over the unfolded event like the lost man peering with confusion's at the undecipherable map of clouds shifting by the butterfly light wind i sneak my way into a shaft of the suns warm light and await the birdsong to renew its speech and thought they look down on my reclining form in grass below ready to take wing should i leap to devour but i will not rise i am trapped by the changing mosaic of the sky its simple tones belie the beauty it contains grey over blue and white edges such simple ever changing permanence in the sky the cloud moves swiftly away from my minds grasp and the birds remark to one another the lateness of the day i open heart and eyes stand and walk away from open sky
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Feb 20, 2014
Feb 20, 2014 at 7:28 PM UTC
open sky
fragments of sky litter my thoughts like pieces of a shattered image like scraps of burnt wood painted with parts of some masterpiece scene of a carnival in the town churchyard with frolicking jesters and laughing children a quaint country place where fiddle players and young girls dance and sing but such as this place is now no more than image pressed into the fire consumed wood no more than some forgotten place filled with forgotten loves and forgotten lovers i lay there in the ruins of the church three hundred years on from the day it met its fate where now a oak flourishes true and tall such transient things such as our lives have such beauty but fleet as birds to roost as they disappear in the first burst of rain fragments of sky perceived in small spaces given by the leaves overhead the dusty lens of my mind churns over the unfolded event like the lost man peering with confusion's at the undecipherable map of clouds shifting by the butterfly light wind i sneak my way into a shaft of the suns warm light and await the birdsong to renew its speech and thought they look down on my reclining form in grass below ready to take wing should i leap to devour but i will not rise i am trapped by the changing mosaic of the sky its simple tones belie the beauty it contains grey over blue and white edges such simple ever changing permanence in the sky the cloud moves swiftly away from my minds grasp and the birds remark to one another the lateness of the day i open heart and eyes stand and walk away from open sky
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*his lean body promises something flawless and his athletic gait and poise gurantee it this dance carries the joyful pulse of centuries filled with the aura of a communal choreography driven by a pulsating talking drum in expert hands the serene contours on his contented face - how they belie the ostritch feathers ardoning his shaven head such artistic grace and coordination are truly phenomenal: his dancing head shakes in rhythm to the urgent vocals of the melody section of the dance troupe he blows a whistle to blend perfectly with the rest of the percussion his right hand plays a pair of shakers with amazing dexterity even as he directs affairs with a fly whisk in his left hand his left leg does some fancy footwork in the dust while the right one beats time in time to a silent dirge the beat of the drum is insistent and demands obedience to the dictates of heritage that require fluidity and excellence the dancer is happy to oblige with a maestro's rendition his smile and energy from the ages speak of art almost divine who is it that speaks of multitasking as a tiresome diversion? in this dance where one man does six different things at once multitasking is an indomitable brand as well as art incarnate!*
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Nov 24, 2015
Nov 24, 2015 at 5:46 PM UTC
dancer from dombodema
We are savage and we are cruel And we know well what we do. The imprints of sycophants Echoes in blood red rooms. The certainty of colour Washed white and hung too soon. A memory of light, A bloom of deja vu. Remembrance forgotten Rewritten and then renewed. Still we know not what we do. The past is a sombre portrait, Watercolour hung askew. Dust and skin belie the truth Stroke sure yet misconstrued. In the maelstrom of intent Will is broken before it is bent. A promise spoken, never meant. Still we know not what we do.
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Mar 9, 2019
Mar 9, 2019 at 5:15 PM UTC
Savages
the klaxon carols of your grief belie the golden pipes of your madness. the cherubs embedded in your lost happiness slip through cracks in your voice. James Joycean. the fugue, your discord dims, seeps through the gauze of your field dress. your wound holds the root note oozing Rorschach ~ Rachmaninoff jungian etudes allude to a deep you at the bitter end gnawing on sweet bones to marrow sip from the holy grail and - a humble pagan *** i greet you at the airport, barefooted. found you talking to a cloud in your blue sky ***** it was shaped like an anvil cloud in your iris watched as you forged lightning bolts - fit to hinge heaven's door. we had the same flight at two different altitudes. and i loved you more.
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May 7, 2013
May 7, 2013 at 3:34 AM UTC
The Klaxon Carols Of Your Grief
~ he is a stone... one side polished smoothly; the tumbling years, the pain of tears, in currents swift cannot resist them water’s unyielding flow; to pain the edges falling, yielding slow. yet another side exists; a side so deeply etched, with thoughts contrived for sole survival; where words belie a depth in soul's arrival; made whole, a step removed from hope bereft, for in the naked light, of bleating heart's interrogation room, a bottom lies of darkest night... here beginnings of a ressurection, a will to be so long as there is air to breathe! which side they see is of his choosing; his composure rich a brief exposure is, just the smallest glimpse, but for a moment what he shares. for he has learned that rocks are not so hard as he once thought; and fissures deep, can be revealed, as cracked and broken, if to all in this unfeeling world, he bares his truest soul. and so he hides the other side, unyielded to outside control. with certainty, his stone has two faces. ~ *post script. if we are honest with ourselves, do we not all have two faces? and is not this honesty our impetus... become our empathy... for others? for me,  it is this honesty that allows me to love what i would not otherwise love in others.*
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Jan 23, 2017
Jan 23, 2017 at 4:08 PM UTC
two faces