To love, is like holding a handful of sand.
If you squeeze it to tight
It'll slit right out between your fingers.

They say I'm crazy
I say, I became
exactly what I was fed with
They call me a criminal
I call myself
A merchant!
They say I'm impassable
I say they are ignorant
and I forgive them
knowing
That Struggle
I willingly take
is not
in vain
conscious
that they over time
will forgive
maybe even praise
the pounding I took
for us...

I thought i knew
but now i know
I'll never know
Forever learn.

I saw
into the eyes of "leader"
Saw the love
for the money
and the power
not the people
I saw how
he misunderstood the concept..

Just a signature
and the life, we used to know
burst to implosion.

I
Am Balanced
for that
You
should be thrilled

Make no mistake!

I am
Only this good
cause my understanding
of evil
is complete.

Sixteen years old
Another night
Another one
FADL guard*
She smiles
the leather belt
around the stomach
is tight
i can see
the sun set
through the window
with the lock
it hurts
in my heart
and
my cracked
ribs


I break down
in tears
and I tell her
about the assault
about the humiliation
that now
on the seventh day
occurs
forced
to derive stools
in a parcel tray
urinate
in a flask
with both hands
bonded
in leather
injected
by force
with anesthetics
denied all movement
Deprived of all freedom
deprived of all dignity

Still
She smiles
while she
calmly
skims
my hair
and softly whispers
the doctor is on his way ..
He's bringing anesthetics...

You disgust me
your so unatural
Refuse to adapt
just be like everyone else
on this planet.
Your so cocky
don't care if your in the basement
in a penthouse
or a castle
YOU
are the wold's
8th wonder!
And right here
at the end of the rainbow
YOU ARE
With you'r see ME attitude
Eyes glued to your smartphone
Screaming, almost as loud for attention
as the café latte your trying to order..
******* ****
sapiens!

Those who believe
Superior intelligence
is a gift
Are terribly wrong
As you'r wisdom grows
YOU realise
Everything WE do
is so wrong
Shame on US!

I'm genius!
I know!
You know!
You saw it!
But those who diagnosed me
tore away my faith
and yours
at least in me.
Who's the sick one?

I pray for you!
I cry for you!
You cry for us!
Down your round shapes
You burn in anger.
Shiver in rage.
You do not get the attention
You deserve.
So you drown us
Slowly
in our own
indifference.

Have you seen the news?
Then you've missed the point.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ahg6qcgoay4

As the child grows inside her.
The child inside me, slowly fades.