Please read my last poem.

Appears through clouds
After a rainstorm

Known for Goodluck
Also Visible to the eye, but Unable to touch.

I look at Rainbows and think of God's. Grace.

I even think of Mercy; which produces Faith.

Which reminds me that
NO matter how strong the Storm is
It always Goes away

Thereafter, something so Beautiful takes it's place
We must Keep the Faith!!!!

Get in
Be in
Stay in
Alignment!!

Blocked, caged in, suffocating smothered in pain
significant other feeling abandoned while in your presence
in your mental you're going insane
no love lost, because no love gained! thought after thought
living, but stuck in the past
show no emotions-because having emotions is what got you here
Finding a way back to the old you seems a far.
such a long distance from you
you know, the you that smiled alot whose face was once full of light
The you that cared and actually enjoyed caring
Soon those Deep Thoughts will make you realize what it is that you do
you make everyone feel lonely while connected to you.

Life events, often seen through tinted lenses.
Two pupils, one Mental.
Forming things together.
We want to believe what we see is correct.
Or we want to believe what we think is correct.
Truth is
If and when you experience Pain/Let downs
And somehow
you never let it go.
You see through those lenses
Perception then, can easily be distorted.
Twisted
broken
wrong
So Mentally
go back and forgive what or whom caused you pain. Or if your beliefs are the opposite of GOOD.
Towards yourself and your relationships
It is certainly time to correct that.
The times are far too wicked
To see through the wrong lenses!

I've been there, I've done that.
Too many things to count on both hands.
Places I had no business being.
There is where you'd find me.
Soul yearning for Something that i couldnt put my fingers on.
Friend after friend.
Loss after Loss
There i was Lost.
Waiting to be found.
A place to call home
But no place at all.
No thing or person could quench this thirst that i had.
ONE DAY opened up a book.
In there were words that stood out to me.
It said " I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do NOT do, but what I hate I DO. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me"
I could totally relate to these words
To some the book up its,
B.asic
I.nStructions
B.efore
L.eaving
E.arth
I've been reading it for some time now.
I must say!!!
I'm no longer lost!

Cluttered and full
With memories of pain

All of our hearts beat
But not the same.

Its beating lets us know that we're still alive.

So how dare some torture it
Forcing it to die.

It was not all over after that one guy.
Or if you're a guy i could say girl

Either way. Life goes on.
So should your heart!

Supposed to be used for truth.
Some use them for deception.

Take it easy with what you say.
Your words can cause Someone to turn on you like night and day.

Although It is easy to be misunderstood.
Choose what you say wisely.
Once they're out
You cant take them back in
Sorta like tooth paste
In its tube.

In order for something new to begin
The old must come to a END.
The end!!!!

& my whole life shifted from that day on.

Something like another planet
One wrong move and everything becomes damaged.

Be careful what you click on
Because what's seen cannot be unseen

Relationships left unmanaged

Sitting at the table, but swiping through a cell phone.
Not even recognizing the person you're with feels all alone.

Swipes,likes,emojis,pictures

The devil's intercom

Day by day he plots to win.
Everybody thinks they're living ok
Soon they'll find out
they're trapped within
Their cell phones.

Get out now before its to late
Lets not forget these were only established to communicate.

But with overuse your identity can eradicate!

A bunch of choices.

Temptation at its finest
Bad decisions, like they're mindless
As I look at all the blindness
Living life like it's timeless
Some shout yolo, others think nobody could see them

If I were them I'd be COMBATING all those demons-even start praying more!!!
WE ARE NOT KIDS
THIS IS FOR REAL
THIS IS FOR SURE
Good intentions are always first
But next comes PAIN or should i say hurt
then your trapped doing dirt
Or should I say"pay backs"
Very unforgiving
Trapped in sin

Hurting no-one but self.
Trapped in sin
I wonder if they know
With pain comes power
But you hand it over
When you're trapped in sin

It's foul, it's *****, it's sneaky, it's deceiving, it's spiteful,it slanders
It's hurting others, it's nasty, it's unforgiving, it's lustful
It's sin!
Release yourself of it.

I've been looking for my husband
Somehow i cant find him
I imagined what he's like
I painted a picture in my head
Tall big man
Loving God is his first option
So submitting to him should be easy for me
I've been looking for my husband
Somehow i cant find him
Even a stranger who holds a door open for me I look into his eyes as i say thank you
Thinking to myself
I wonder if thats him
I've been looking for my husband
Somehow i cant find him
I dont want to play games anymore
Im no longer a little girl
I want to make him complete
With all this LOVE that i have
No i dont want to move too fast
My next move must be better than my last move
If i really want it to last
So for now im done looking for my husband
I've LEARNED you seem to find things when you're not looking for them.

I get mad when i think about my last relationship.
I GET MAD WHEN I CANT FIND MY KEYS
I get mad when people drive slow, like they have nowhere to go.
I get mad when i realize racism is still a problem.
I get mad when i have to MAKE UP for the person that was before ME
I get mad when people LIE TO MY FACE.
I get mad when i think of all the betrayal.
I get mad when i think about the dumb decisions i made in my youth
I get mad when people are shocked that i dont have any kids like EVERYBODY IS SUPPOSED TO HAVE KIDS so young!
I get mad when people are surprised at the ****** rate in my city, but they support it through the music.
I actually GET MAD AT THE NEW AGE RAP MUSIC
I get mad when people stare without saying hello!
I get mad when people dont mind their business.
I get mad i mean sooo madd when black people(my people) go against cops for killing our people but they themselves **** OUR PEOPLE.
I get madd when i find out people are deliberately spreading std's
I get mad when i see a child has no HOME TRAINING!
I GET MADD WHEN THE PRICE OF GAS GOES UP!!!!!
I GET MAD WHEN NO ONE LEADS THE YOUTH BY SETTING EXAMPLES.
LASTTTT, BUT NOT LEAST
I GET MADDDDDD WHEN I SEE EVERYBODY FORSAKING GOD(THE HIGHER POWER)
SO NOW THAT I'VE LET IT ALL OUT I GUESS I CANT BE MAD ANY LONGER!

My heart is full
So much resides there
Memories wish to stop it from beating
Scraps & unforgiveness have tried to choke it out
My heart once ached from betrayal
To stone i thought it would turn
But through all of that
I cant seem to get rid of LOVE
LOVE still lives there
Reassuring me in life I can go on!!!!
As for me & my heart we're gonna be just fine!

Some say life is like a box of chocolates.
I say life is like a PUZZLE
You and I
Are the pieces
If one piece is missing the picture is incomplete
Making things(relationships,disappointments,let downs,set backs,loss) a little harder to solve
who would think
a piece so small
could make such a difference
Or a
IMPACT I SHOULD SAY
we need you
it is time to get into your position
To figure out what part you are or where you belong
GET THERE
because you matter
you are a piece to the puzzle.
NOW PLAY YOUR PART

The Problem is NOT
What they think about you
The PROBLEM is
What YOU think about YOU.

I am not!!!!

There will be times
When You
Have to FORGIVE
SOMEONE
WHO ISN'T
SORRY!!!

A lamp is used to give light to the room.
Consider yourself a lamp and the room the world.
Now shine.

Isn't she.
New days
Better vision
"Thank you" she wished to say
Unique smile
Unforgettable is what they call it.
Eyes piercing through Souls wishing to save them all
A girl who reaches out her arms to give hugs
Even so
In a world of misguided
A people who lost love
When life knocks her down
She gets back up
Loyalty is there
Experience is there
Love is there.
Resentment doesn't reside
Flaws are many & unable to hide,
But Somehow when she looks in the mirror she sees someone AMAZING.

WHY?! when you don't even know me.
Paint pictures of me, but never really show me.
RIGHT! EXACTLY! THAT'S NOT ME!!
False perceptions and ulterior motives.
Funny when they think you don't notice.
It's best to get to know someone.
You just might have something in common.

You never know if this is the last time.
You never know if you'll get to say a Good bye.
So because you never know
You should KNOW to never WASTE anyone's time!

Clear your mind!!
Is what i told myself
At the time good memories seemed tarnished and afar.
I want to be new.
Wholeness is what i long for
Deep thoughts and old wounds, reminds me of what hurts and what shouldn't be.
I can LOVE though
Is what i tell myself
I can TRUST though
Is what i say.
In a sense
I feel like I'm lying to myself
EVERYBODY HATES A LIAR
So SEEKING GOD has become my thing.
Old flings DROPPED THEM
OLD WAYS GONE
GOOD MEMORIES IN THE MAKING.
I stretched out my hands to the LORD.
HE redeems me
Is what i say
This time I know Im not lying to myself
With GOD
all things become possible
It took for me to clear my mind to see this!

Have you ever gone soooo far.
You've felt there wasn't anyway you could return. Thinking*
What have i done?!
Too ashamed to tell
But too deep to reach the surface for Air.
Suffocating.
One day I decided to let go
"Let go of the world" I Told myself.
For Everything in it has drowned me
When I let go
I've realized who i was.
That i only went Deep because i tried to find my identity
But My identity wasn't in the WORLD
All along it's been inside me.
You know! The beauty within!
Not my flaws.
Not my mistakes.
But the goodness from God's grace.
Same with you, Believe! Have faith! Soon you'll find
In this world you have no place- Because its wicked.
Now thats deep!!!!

Love. Its so deep
After the first heart break
Everything else is a chase.
Scared to give chances.
But never wanting to be alone.
You finally think you've found that one, to call your own.
Long conversations.
Deep secrets revealed.
That bomb tingly feeling.
Hoping that its REAL.
BUT FRIENDS TURN INTO FOES.
REVEALING THEY'VE BEEN A ***.
ATTITUDE STINKY LIKE SOMEONE WHO SHARTED.
NOW I'M LEFT BROKEN HEARTED!!!!

Childhood training sets our mental ONEWAY in Numerous OF ways to live.
As we grow of age We see different things that we may have not been TAUGHT at home.
THATS WHEN WE JUDGE! Unintentionally or Intentionally.
Either way we do!
I see MANY people as broken glass. If you handle them WRONG THEY WILL CUTT YOU!.
No matter where the glass is broken it is still harmful& FRAGILE!
Handle people with CARE. Now thats RIGHTEOUS!!!. People hurt. Rather rich or poor PEOPLE HURT. So NO matter if you SEE them as righteous or WICKED.
Show them LOVE. Because LOVE
COVERS A MULTITUDE OF SINSSSSSS!
SO WHAT IS WICKED
& WHAT IS RIGHTEOUS?
YOU CAN BE EITHER OF THE TWO...BUT IF YOU HAVE NO LOVE! YOU ARE WASTINGGGG!