you asked me
to understand
while I'm here
staring at blanks
craving answers
for questions
in my head.

and you're not going
to answer
because
you neither understand
nor tried to.

— you've changed,
so I had to change too,
that it could be fair.

You've done this before
and all that came from it
was hurt & regret
in the end
the only place left to go
is home
and you know exactly
where that is
so don't burn the attic
or the walls
the hallway
or the lounge
there is fear
there is stress
but beyond that
is success
so stop
pause
and breathe
there is a mountain of troubles
left to defeat
time isn't your friend
and health isn't mine
so there's no time for games
and no energy left to drain
and so you stop
STOP RUNNING!!!
there's misery where you're running to
there is grief
there is sadness
there is hurt
there is regret
there's a life where you run from
there are troubles
there are solutions
there is happiness
there is love

but if you run
you'll find yourself far enough
to never find the way
that leads back
home

The story of my life
is
filled with multiple
attempts
at
trying not
to
**** everything up

It's hard trying
not
to
try so hard

You want
to
quit
but
for some reason
you just can't let go

You want
to
quit
but
you keep hoping

      hoping
    
                              hoping

            trying
  
trying

                      trying

          so

so

                 hard

but
no one
is there
to
see you
try

so

in the end
you
will
always
be
alone

but
you
still
can't
let go

so

you just
try

                                  try

         try

                        try

try

                                try

              try

try