I often get knocked back a few pegs when im on cloud nine,
when I feel so happy it's a crime.
People are homeless hungry and down right dying,
and here I am living, happy, barely trying.
My problems are money issues, being selfish, and lazy. I look to my dad, friends, family outlook is all so hazy.
I used to think I needed a girl to be happy, turns out life without one isn't all that ******.
My hopes and dreams are my to inspire arms wide out closely in my grasp to acquire.

No more anchors to weigh me down, when im done all will recognize my crown.

She is the girl everyone knows
With a gorgeous smile and no fears or woes
But deep deep down her world is falling apart
She hates herself and that’s only the start
They would never imagine the thoughts that pour through her head
And how every day she wishes she could be dead
They think that she’s happy and always smiling
But deep inside her soul is dying
She is the girl with the brightest smile
But nobody knows she’s forcing up bile
No one knows about the tears she’s tasted
She feels ugly worthless abandoned and wasted
She cries herself to sleep at night
But smiles again once it is bright
She is the girl that nobody knows
Behind closed doors forever enclosed
/gt

As I walk down the streets at night
alone but there was no fear;
I smiled,
looked at the sky;
Remembering small talks
and text messages.

I used to think I knew what heartbreak felt like.
When I came home and saw my bed freshly made and your clothes were out of the closet.
When I saw there was one last cup of coffee left on he counter that you had time to drink.
When I saw the note and your words I barely had time to read.
Because I ran to the garage to see your car and your things were gone.

I used to think heartbreak was sitting alone in a cafe while you watched everyone laugh and smile.
Or walking around the grocery store trying to find food to make for one person.
Or dreaming of endless romantic vacations with you.. When there is no "you" once me.

But the minute I realized you had enough time to drink coffee and write me a note saying you were never coming back.
That's when I realized what real heartbreak was.