It’s three am and I’m currently debating talking to ghosts about my problems
Because I stayed up till three am thinking about said problems without actually trying to **** myself, I’ll give myself a pat on the back make myself a tea in the mug you left at my place and call it self care,
I talk to the ghosts about my problems and they don’t answer back,
The same way you won’t answer my calls
The same way I know you won’t answer my calls because like the ghosts you are dead.
Because you decided to **** yourself.
And I hate you for it
I hate you because I know you stayed up till three am thinking about your problems
I hate you because sometimes I wish you talked to ghosts about your problems
Talked to me
I hate that I didn’t notice
I hate myself for hating you at first
I still use your stupid mug
It’s just like every other ******* mug
Just drank by a ghost

They don't know you like I know,
Precariously balanced life taking its toll.
Don't be a Theseus, I'm not an Ariadne,
No threads to pull in our mazes, madly.

Its not a puzzle, we made our sacrifices,
No battles here to fight, no throwing dices.
You can never pretend to love or hate,
Nor can you hide your anger or elate.

There is no riddle, no evil lion-sphinx,
You're not an Oedipus, who's journey above links.
The problems you are running from - just face it.
I hate to know that I need you - embrace it.

You talk and talk
And I'm glad to listen
I'm glad to hear
and to help

You list your problems
And I sympathize
As well as advise
Without any kind of price

On and on
I'm here for you
Listening, listening
Forever and ever.

All of your talk
and your negativity
Flows and spreads
Like a disease to your listener

What would be my fixation
It never worked, feeling sensation
It only filled me with frustration
leaving me with temptation

Breaking my concentration
Simply by losing my validation

By Arcassin Burnham

Man to man huh?
But to me you ain't a man , you're just a hype man,
A sad excuse for what's to come,
It's not alright man,
Don't be stranger to this thing called life,
It's tight man,
So stop ******* it , it's evident to have to be
like your old man was,
We've seen the things they do and genetic gene
does,
Cracking skulls everyday on these black kids,
black kids with the, lost generation complex,
Drugs , guns , money and ***,
In a world so cruel like this you better cut them
losses,
That's the only way I see it , everything has a cost,
This is for the young people reaching all those dreams,
Any sort of inspiration , that's alright with me.

Wake up
Eat
Teeth
Drive
Think
       A lot
Drive again
Move
Shower
Eat
Sleep

It's simple, but it isn't.
most days don't go the way
I plan them.

The sidewalk of the shower
isn't flat. I can't hit the high notes
in the songs I sing.

I only believe that when I
don't hear them.

Not every problem has an
answer that looks like a puzzle
because all the pieces aren't

always in the box. Sometimes,
my pen goes dry.

Scientists blame a god they don't
believe in for problems
without an answer.

When I'm given a problem I can't
find an answer to, I look up
"You know what to do."

By my side
I have nobody.
In front of me
I have big obstacles.
I walk two steps backward
And I bumped to my past.
I have nowwhere to go
I don't want to go back to my past
Nor stays in the present.
I wish I'm dead.

I have a lot of problems
That seem to get pushed aside
Because I’m “smart enough”
Or I’m “able to go through this”
I’m tired of being told I can do it
I’m tired of being told
The
Same
Old
Three
Words
Because quite frankly,
I don’t think that it’ll be okay
My feelings are raging,
And one expects to quell them using
Platitudes
That mean absolutely nothing to me
I just want someone to resonate with me.
I just want someone that resonates with me.