This poem is called dear you. I sit and write about a time when happiness was once mine it's been a while that I haven't been able to smile. Change is certain.  these feelings I've hidden for a while in shame wondering why this sort of change came.  we all deal with things differently.  Unfortunately, misfortune comes unexpectedly. Wishing I could go back and change thins so we can live happily . It may seem nice to speak to someone, but when u really sit and think, you are honestly lonely. The presence of one in a tough situation is only momentarily. I know these written words are lame, but I I just wish u were the same.  You will never listen to me. I just can't believe you are now someone you told me never to be. I never knew the person I once loved would leave. I wish you would see yourself so I don't have to live like this anymore with myself.  I wish I have the strength to help you, but all I can do is watch and continue to be blue. I wish you would feel the same and want to help yourself too.

Just open your mouth please
I'm tired of watching you die from the inside
But you say your heart resides in mine but all the the signs say different and I can only bear witness to the pain you show every day
Or the anger you show towards me makes me question even if you want me to stay

"The problem with suicide is that when it becomes an option in your mind, it's always an option."

Anybody else hate assumptions
like you really come off as presumptuous
Its really very scrumptious the tea that I drink
when someone who knows nothing about something tries to speak what they think

Now, if you have an opinion on a topic, that's perfectly fine
If we disagree respectfully that's great, but that's not Who I'm discussing this time
I'm discussing people who don't know anything then flex like they have a functioning mind

you know the type Right? those people who have larger than life mouths?
but when it comes to stating facts they look like they've voided their bowels
it's like you could jump on Google and search it out, connect the consonants and vowels,
and look up the facts and form an opinion, instead of running off at the mouth.

Like I said, I'm okay if your opinion or situation differs from mine,
but I'm speaking on those that jump into a debate completely blind
next time, jump on the net and do a good old fashioned fact find.
then say something once you form an opinion on your "mind"

Look at me
Look at who I am
I've been your friend
I've been your foe
So listen to me as I
stand in front of your door.

Come with me
you'll see I have a new
opportunity that will be fun
for the both of us like old times

But I've changed and haven't seen
you in years I thought you were gone
I even shed tears and now that you are
standing here your presence has been clear.

I would love to help but I have my
own thing going on that I'm happy with
and I would rather not interfere with my old self
That man is no longer me, I have evolved into a
family man and my life revolves around my family.
I hate to say no to someone so dear but it's good to see
you it's been so many years and you just appear.

undefined relationship involving little commitment and very high expectations.
worldwide view of what can not be has been.
incapable of sharing perspectives but always pushed to view a distant companion's.
attitudes from hormones.
anger from the force of creating our everlasting future.
so close.
so very close.
yet, imbalanced.
two humans that engage in everyday contemplations,
one knows more than the other.
uncomfortable walls that were once torn down seem to make their way up again.
ignorance from the second party as to why the problems ever arose
and neither has an answer.
why be afraid of places you have never been before?
and both have an obvious answer.
in-the-moment happiness that was never produced to go any farther,
nevertheless last.
this undefined relationship, where words were left unsaid and thoughts were never spoken, have a mutual agreement of the best time of their lives.
-mxy