*******;
I haven't seen you in a year.
Maybe more;
And I'm almost twenty four.
Seventeen;
I still fell seventeen.
Coffee pours;
It's running out the door.
Bittersweet;
The ground beneath my feet.
Never ends;
Time don't always mend.
Here I am;
Sitting like the ******.
Missing you;
My hearts empty room.

Sharp shards of glass
Shattered pieces everywhere
So was your life
So was your mind
Tortured soul in distress
In the dark while in the light
Blinded by anger
Driven by fear
Take me out of the equation you say
Out of the picture
To run from ones own shadow
Until you meet yourself again
Somewhere along the dusty road
Years have passed as in a dream
With uncertain shaky fingers two hands collide
To embrace a broken mess as if it were whole
A cloud lifts
Faces of hope are raised towards the sun
A new day has begun

After days of sleep and always staying indoors

I stepped outside then the rain began to pour

The irony, I thought.. I looked up at the sky and yelled

“Anything more?!”

The raindrops began to hit the pavement

What a strange scent, the cold rain on hot cement

I already committed to going out I couldn’t go back now

But back inside my shelter I went

I didn’t have an umbrella or raincoat

I wanted to go back on steemit, read articles and upvote

Scroll through that one tab on the front page, called promote

But I’ve already committed on going out today,

I even jotted it down on my “to do” note

So I got my car keys, jean jacket and phone

I started to drive to some place new, unknown

My first instinct was to start driving to visit her

Bring flowers and say hi to her gravestone

I fought my urge and went towards the coast

Radio on low, I thought about what I missed most

I parked on a hill overlooking the ocean

“Torrey Pines” it said on the signpost

I followed a walkway that was paved with stones

It was nice to be outdoors on my own

I kept wanting to stay indoors and postpone

accepting life without her

soft skin, gold hoops, french cologne

fragile bones

Worst part about it is I lost my best friend

It's devastating, I'm not going to pretend

my world is shattered but they keep telling me,

“time will mend”