can someone teach me
how to take my own advice?

because i've been
telling others
to swim ashore
as i drown

How could I trust you
When all you said was not true?

How could I believe in you
When your actions speak otherwise?

How could I love you
When you don’t treasure what you ever said?

How could I?

I’m tired.

Why am I doing all the work?
Because I care?
Because I’m a woman?
Because I’m stupidly in love with you?

You’re crazy.

And I’m tired, tired of it, and
Tired of you.

Get up and help me.
Get up and put some effort into me.
Get up and kiss me for once.

You’re right.
We aren’t learning anything here,
But how selfless devotion is a waste of time.
You were right,
I’m not the girl for you.
(I never will be).

And
You’re definitely not the man I thought you’d be.

You taste like hypocrite.
You taste like dark stupid masculinity.
And, baby, it doesn’t taste sweet.

Let’s just hope you taste as sweet as you feel.

I'm a hypocrite
I can feel it running in my veins
Hypocrisy that is in my DNA
Making me lunatic
Hear me as I preach
Watch me as I oppose my words
Observe my actions
You'll see me stabbing your back
Then make you feel the guilt
As I am praised
Your trust becomes dust
Easly blown out of my life
By my duster in my control
I'll laugh with you
Never will I cry with you
Your tears mean nothing to me
But my success
should mean everything to you
I'm a chronic manipulator
Always playing the victim
You got played

In my mind I say what I mean
And mean what I say.
But my actions could speak otherwise.
Am I a hypocrite if my mind is far greater than my own two hands?

Am I helpless if I know what to do,
But my body won’t move according to plan?

Am I deluded if I think I can
When I can’t,
Or if I think I can’t,
When I can?

Am I who I am
Or am I what I am?

Hypocrite, look at me!
Opening my mouth to say "I'm fine"
But, oh, I'm burning inside.

Hypocrite, look at you!
Asking me how I am doing
But, oh, you really don't ******* care.

i never know what you want
it’s not that i won’t, i can’t
but the look in your eyes tells
me i should know quite very well

pour your love on me one day
poison me after, like child’s play
affirm my choice, agree with my life
say no to my voice, scream it with strife

spill out your thoughts, opinions and like
force them upon me, a fondue of your psyche
preach then a passage of hypocrisy sincere
that independent thinking is key, for sure

a wrinkled smile glued onto your face
turns to a storm of anger without a trace
you live on words muttered under my breath
but you’re deaf to my cries, my tears and my death

silence me for speaking out of turn
berate me for silence, “it’s like you never learn”
bring it on for closing the door,
and then suddenly, privacy is core

lose your voice shouting, and blame me for that
flood me with food, then whisper “you’re fat”
load me with gifts, complain that I’m messy
wish me to rest, label my phone “******”

treat me like ****, forget about it later
but you don’t realise, only you have amnesia
think you can solve everything with apologies
not this time, you can’t solve me

i never know what you want
it’s not that i can’t, i won’t
but the look in your eyes tells
me im about to go to hell