how vigorously you tear me apart, how sweetly you mold me back together. you don’t see me as i wish you would. i imagine you feel the same. i feel as if you always look at me from a distance. i am so small compared to the rest of the universe. i question whether i will ever be good enough. i once dreamt of a night spent alone in your room, enveloped in each other, absorbing all that we can of each other. i look up and hope you’re staring back but i just see the back of your head. the sky was grey that night.

The thought of losing you pains me
mentally, emotionally and physically
when I think about losing you
I get a pain in my heart
I feel it breaking just from the thought
I feel tears forming in my eyes
it scares me
just the thought of losing you.

By Arcassin Burnham


Chemistry embeds the heart and soul into
capacities that can not be measured,
Love Is limitless even to the people , just want
a piece of the pie when it severs,
As much ambition as i have in this world to
make a girl wanna stand up and praise,
treating the people how you wanna be treated
but instead they see you stuck all in your ways,
Got sick of love for awhile so i stuck to the
feelings of diamond valley,
got to know myself a little bit but in a nick of time
God called to me,
Told me about the long distant relationships and
heartaches with memories,
remembering a time way back when i told my ex,
i want you to want me,

I'm just tired of the love,
I'm just tired of the hate,
I'm just tired of the kissing,
I'm just tired of your face,
don't you tell me that you love me,
cause i know it ain't real,
don't tell me that you love.

Looking out past that horizon. A mirage appeared, everyone he had ever loved. So distant, like sleep on a nocturnal night.

He can't fall asleep, his dreams call to him.

My heart wants to pull you in,
Feeling the bliss of knowing what your beautiful mind holds within.
My thoughts are putting together piece by piece what you are feeling or thinking inside.
Hoping that this will be something new and bright
What a beautiful beautiful mind.
My heart wants to pull you in,
But you see I have troubles within my mind.
The cruel monster that fills me up so very deep inside.
Making me think of everything that can go wrong if I just open up and show you what is inside.
My heart wants to pull you in,
The cruel monster anxiety pulls me deeper in.
Maybe he won't think your pretty it says.
Maybe he sees something better it says.
Maybe he will see all the flaws that you see.
Pause.
How can I let somebody in,
When the monster inside of me is crawling at the floor of my head to get out?
My heart wants to pull you in,
But my mind tells me to push you away.