I have seen that look once
In the back of my memory
It did caused a little harm
A pain which burns in me
A feeling which is regret
Though I seek no help
These feeling consumes me
I bear all of them silently
I tried to put on a smile
But it gets harder each time
How could you continue a lie
When all you want to do is cry?
How could you stay strong?
When you are actually weak?
I thought you were different
I believed in what you've said
I thought you actually loved me
I thought you actually cared
I guess you never really did
Though it kills me to admit
You were my greatest regret

I look upon the colors up in the sky
A light blue with a cloud of white
I was mesmerize by a wonderful sight
A scenery which caught my eyes
The scenery completed with trees
Standing proud with all of its green
The flowers were covered with bees
As they **** the nectar for their queen
I see butterflies flying up high
With their wings mixed of colors
The beauty they add upon the blue sky
I see different patterns from one another
These are the colors of the earth
Beauty which I come to adore and love

This is what I have been waiting for
To caress those sweet lips
As your clothes slowly falls on the floor
And my arms are around your hips
As both our bodies falls onto your bed
As our body temperature rises
I have never felt more alive
You have made me a true believer
As I worship every part of your body
The morning comes through the window
The rays hits our face on the bed we lay
The moment I looked into your eyes
I knew this is what I want everyday

Why is it so hard to speak?
The words that I want
Whenever you are around
I wish I could speak
But suddenly I'm lost for words
It won't come out of my mouth
So all I could to was adore you
Every single day in total silence

I knew falling in love with you
Will only be another mistake
It is something stupid to do
A stupid decision that I made
Falling for you was easy
It was never that hard
You took something from me
You came in and took my heart
I thought my heart was shackled
But it all broke when you came in
Now I follow you like a shadow
Wandering with you in the night
But you won't notice me
Because you are happy
With somebody else

I see silver linings in the sky
As I saw you walked on by
All my trouble fades away
I swear this is no such lie
Beauty that caughts the eyes
Asking for me to just stay
Now I've been here forever
An admirer of your beauty
Your love is what I savour
I wanted to be your clarity
But things haven't got better
I wish you were beside me
For all your needs I will cater
All I want is to be your clarity

Was falling for you a curse?
Because it does really hurt
But the ache could never compare
To the joy in my my heart
When you start talking to me
All over again
I would rather break into pieces
And having it to be put back together
By the hands of its destroyer
All over again

I'm scared for the future
It is always uncertain
Those goals you plan to achieve
Those dreams you try to capture
It might feel so close
Only to realize that it is so far
Only to know there are miles to go
It might feel so right
But in the end you were wrong
But in the end all hope is gone

Twas an adventure at young
You had different types of love
Though they never did you wrong
Instead each of it taught you a lesson
One taught you to sacrifice time
To comfort a heart that is aching
One taught you to be humble
When you achieved something
One taught you to always be kind
Learn to love and be more caring
You started to explore yourself
Finding true meaning of love
Though love at first is reckless
No feeling ever came close
It is still in your heart as the greatest
For there is nothing that I wouldn't do
For a taste of love again in my youth

Everyday the spaces seem to gap
A space that now is already a hole
All of my emotions are still trap
Trap in the prison within my soul
I thought of it with my mind set
Set to leave and to forget it all
The only thing about it that I hate
Pretend that I am still standing tall

We are all different
But in your eyes we are the same
We went through great days
We all bear the same pain
But if you think in such a way
Then you never knew what it is like
To starve on a cold morning
Or sleep by the roadside at night
To bear the sickness that is within
Because you can't afford medicine
Yes we are all different
So never assume it has been easy for all
Today you may rise above others
But mark these words
Someday eventually you will fall

I am breaking deep down
Though I never show it
I am breaking deep down
I'm happy but slowly dying
I tried my best to move on
But the memories stayed
I tried my best to move on
But my feelings still remains
I swear I am trying
To get you out of my heart
I swear I am trying
Not to let myself fall apart

I used to see you in a different light
We would do all things together
You would always be by my side
You said you would be there forever
I believed in what you've said
I took every word as a promise
But for my mistakes I have paid
For I have never felt pain like this
The aching heart that never stops
But I still think of you everyday
No matter how much I've lost
I still see you in the same way
No matter if you've hurt me the most

Anton is no stranger on being late
No matter the time nor the date
Whenever you have made plans
Anton will arrive as late as he can
Not familiar with the concept of time
Does not bother to even try
The only day that he will be on time
Probably be the day that Anton dies

I wished all the clocks have stopped
So I could enjoy my youth
With no burden or responsibilities
For me to think my actions through
Time never seems to wait
I felt the years have just gone by
I felt my body slowly getting weaker
In a blink of an eye
Soon my skin would be wrinkled
And my hair would turn white
Soon life will leave this body
And all it would be is just a memory

A man got tired walking in the night
He tried to find shelter and rest
He found a house above the hill
He came up to the front door
The night was quiet and still
Nothing much just a gust of wind
He knocked and the door slightly open
He came in and saw no one
The silence echoes in the chambers
The house fill with dust and cobwebs
Bugs and spiders they all scatter
In the halls and empty rooms
The portraits hang on the walls
The pictures gave eerie looks
He then heard a noise downstairs
He went down inside one of the chambers
It was filled with a piano and a few chairs
Suddenly the piano started to play a song
All the chairs started to move along
The man watch in much despair
He was afraid and have nothing to say
He took off out of the house right away

I am a temporary settlement
Of a heartbroken soul
They'd seek shelter by my side
When their world got cold
I'd provide the warm heat
To fix what has been frozen
Though it will take time
To mend the pieces which are broken
I'd keep you safe like you were mine
Under the roof when it's stormy
Though I'm starting to creek
This temporary settlement will end
Temporary love is not what i seek
I've fix the broken parts in a long time
But you left me in a few seconds
Thought that you would be mine
You left me like a hotel or an inn
You checked in when it's bad
You checked out when it's better
You'd just try to stay the night
And left me searching the next day
Forgetting you is what I've tried
This settlement walls seems to shatter
The temporary settlement shall close
I'd move on and do something better

You are like the star in my eyes
Shinning up there full of beauty
Sparkling along the dark skies
Your lights have got a hold on me
I'm now bound to take a glimpse
A glimpse of you as much as I can
You would appear only at night
At night I waited like your biggest fan
I know my limits as you are far away
I would pretend I'll catch you
And in my heart you will stay
How I wish that it was true
Though the fact that I know
Being together is very hard
As you have a limit of time
I could only be together with you
Only when it is already at night
I would have risk it all if I could
To be the star right next to you

You could have seen it differently
Yes it is comfort that you seek
Once you're done you chose to leave
But as your broken heart mended
You choose to break another
And those pieces you stole
Are the ones they wanted

Take me back to the green city
Where the concrete jungle exist
Surrounded by flowers and trees
Breathe in the fresh air
Let go the feeling of despair
Forget the memories that was grim
Just pretend that it was a dream
Life is much better than it seems
Behind these walls of concrete
Is one of the most beautiful places
That your eyes have ever seen

If only it was easy to say how you feel
Without worrying about the consequences
For these words that I have yield
Would make or break both our bridges
I have been lying to my own dear heart
That I am not a man in love
But these lies are tearing me apart
As I know what we are now is not enough
Would you fear for what I have to say?
If I came down and ask for your hand?
That I am yours until the end of days
If you are willing to accept this man
For his heart has never shifted
The moment he laid his eyes on you
I promise this time it would not hurt
For this love I promise you is true

You were in my description
My whole life describes of you
I loved you with no hesitation
A love I thought that was true
A love with mutual emotions
A feeling between me and you
I committed to a full devotion
Something that I was glad to do
Slowly you started to had doubts
You started to question about us
The arguments start to go loud
We started to lose all our trust
Our love started to drift away
You took the train and left me
The only thing I could do is stay
Stay and wait by the old oak tree
Behind the old wooden house
The place where we first met
You with your pretty blouse
Me with my old worn hat
We will talk and laugh all day
Listening to every conversation
Even if there's nothing to say
Fill our hearts with tons of emotions
Slowly we will fall in love again
Hoping this time it will last until the end

Never had I fallen this hard
I've never experience pain this much
I've never been consumed by rage
Until I question my own faith
I only knew now life's unfair
All I had was pain and despair
Though death seems like an option
I tried my best to control my emotions
Sometimes it just comes tumbling out
Those things I kept bottled inside
Those secrets that I shut tight
Sometimes rage gets the best of me
That I hurt the people around me

Beneath the thousand stars
And the lonely moon
A moment I wish could've last
Lying on the sand next to you
You with those crimson red lips
And eyes colored of the ocean blue
With sound of waves crashing through
I could lie forever with you
And in those quiet moments together
I have dreamt my future with you
With a little house and picket fences
Maybe with a child or perhaps two
I would have taken my chances
Just to have a life with you
But at the end of the day we knew
That this wildest dream
Could have never come true
For you were forced by your father
To be the wife of another
And here I am still thinking about
The thousand stars by the beach
Those quiet nights that I truly miss
Laying on the sand right next to you
But now I am lonely just like the moon

With every step that I took
I did everything I could
It is not easy as it looks
Just to end my solitude
Then I have come to realize
This prison before my eyes
Was built by my own emotions
When you walked out from my life

I always wondered
What is the purpose?
All the written words
An expression of oneself
On a piece of paper
Dotted in black ink
Which makes me feel better
But if often leaves me wondering
What is the purpose?
Maybe a collection of memories
Of what once was
Something important for me
Maybe I know the actual purpose
It is a place for me to heal
No more wearing any mask
And express what I truly feel

You went and moved far away
Like a bird moving from winter
Although I plead you to stay
You said it will make me better
But only pain is what I feel
Emotions I choose not to cater
The emotions which are real
Made me not stand any longer
I fell in somewhere very dark
And the only shelter I seek
Is a place within your heart
Please let me stay forever
For the loneliness kills me
I can't bear it any longer

I took a step
Over the edge
To love you
Was my pledge
To care for you
For countless days
To never let go
Holding onto you always