You told me, "It's over..." again. I know that, Jorge... It's been over.
You know that and I know that.. And of course...
You know I know that.. So who was the validation for?
Let me ask and pretend I don't already know who..
Let me ask and pretend like you'll tell me the truth...
The truth that I already know with every fiber of my being..
The truth you know is the truth, but will NEVER have the guts to tell me...
Let me ask who has been taking your time..
& doing such a GREAT job keeping ME off your mind...
& let me go ahead and pretend
To believe all the lies
that escape your lips then,
like rain from clouds, so effortlessly... so naturally...
Jorge, it's true.. ignorance IS BLISS..
So I beg you, for my own sake, let your lies fall all around me,
All the while,
I'll dance in them proudly
and FOOLISHLY..
Because I HONESTLY believed
You. Were. Mine.
& please love, don't stop.. Until I'm drowing in THIS...
In my last Moments -
leave me.. Like you've done every time...
To sink.. Like an anchor carrying the weight of the world, deeper..
and deeper.. and farther away from the surface..
Still too blind in love to even notice...
That I'm the only one WHO
is wasting away... all the days in my own life...
But I'm still seeing visions of YOU...
So I believe that I'm fine...
Even though you've proven you will never BE..
here - to stay - by my side..
The ludicrous hopes in my simple mind...
Absurd, are so pathetically con-vinced;
It. Will. Be. Different.
... this time.
It never has been. It never is.
I know, I know, I know this...
& yet... Despite...
I still think you'll come back & save me..
Cause you wouldn't just let me die,
right?
Although my love - you did.. Let me die like this..
Time and time and time again...
I'll gladly die this way - it's my life to spend -
drowning, figuratively, a hundred, a thousand, a million more times...
Until then,
The beat of your heart is ENOUGH,
to keep my feet above your falling words, but they rise...
Dancing in my own death, So in LOVE...
Ignorantly.. pretending
I believe all your lies.

There's a place for everything and everything in its place..
Well, where do I put the memories of the past I can't erase?

Cause they're serving me no purpose.. They are just weighing me down..
Help me put away the loneliness - reminding me you're not around...

Where's the place for broken pieces - of the heart you left behind?
Hey! Maybe while I'm organizing, I might find my misplaced mind!

I just always forget where I put it, but I haven't lost it yet..
Last time I remember using it.. Was 5 days after we met..

Cuz on the 6th day you came back, so I put my mind away..
I placed my heart in full control.. what's left's still in control today..

Where's the designated area for the emotional scars and trust issues - caused by all your lies?
And I can't find the place where tears go.. but I'm sick of them being in my eyes..

Can you help me put away the worthlessness - I felt EVERY TIME you chose to go..?
Where could I fit all the emptiness you left - so you should know...

I have to put away the echoes repeating so clearly - every word you've said..
Because it's like we're in the same room... and then I'm left losing you again...

Where does the love I STILL feel go? What about the wanting and WISHING you'd care??
Till I find A WAY and place to put YOU away.. WHEREVER I go - you're still there...

And YOU'RE still the ONLY ONE that I'M NEEDING.. YOU'RE the ONLY ONE I'm EVER and ALWAYS missing, too...
There's a place for everything; YOURS is in MY heart...
...and in my heart...
I KNOW MY PLACE is WITH YOU.

I LOVE YOU, JORGE GUZMAN.
"Just say you won't let go...."

It's been a long day. Longer than most.
But i pulled through! I don't mean to boast..

But i do.

I'm glad that it's over. I'm ready to rest.
Sleep tonight will come easy, because today I gave my best!