i woke up and you weren't there for me to arise in a empty barren house
only for me to see my house keys and letter on the countertop
as i open this letter up and read its contents
tears shed and fall from my tired worn eyes
you had no ounce of dignity or respect for me
as i tried to call a parent of yours for comfort
i got hatred and spite instead because of you to tell them to do it and you coldly cut me off
karma and hell will be waiting for you in the end
you have torn and shredded my heart after everything i have done for you
eternity will take forever to heal my mind, spirit, heart and body

it's like a neverending battle swirling inside my heart, onforegoing and unwilling to stop. tears and pain explode inside me as i sit there numb with confusion.

dancing in the smokey veils of frankincense, myrrh & sandalwood, glimmers of sunshine gold, crimson ruby & dazzling silver cascade in curtains around me. my love watches me from afar on a plush violet couch with a snifter of brandy in hand with his brimming ebony eyes sending out admiration. his raven hair glows with the warmth of the fire from the hearthside.

i can hear the whispers through the walls
the caressing touches that you give me
sending chills & exhilarating goosebumps down my spine
captivating me in a endearing trance
holding my heart and soul dear to you
as my blood runs through your veins, master as yours course through mine

every night and even possibly days
i cry myself to sleep or cry as im awake in consciousness
feeling that i have done wrong in the relationship that is nevermore
worrying and depressed that i will never find another person ever again due to the doubts of some people have put in my head
my heart is breaking and shattering as it beats
my spirit is broken and my tears sting my eyes from my uncontrollable sadness

lestat's ruby drenched lips
pressed against my silken porcelain skin
making me tremble with delight
looking deeply into me with those darkening azure blue eyes
grinning with delicious glee

chiseled pillars of ivory & gold
what beauty of this to be behold
glistening silks of pearl & silver
fire of amber and scarlet is housed near
pray to my ever loving goddess of devotion
dance my hips forever in motion

how can you sit there and tell me that you love me
as im shattering and ripping my body apart just for you
your stoic detached stare just stirs up anxiety and pain in me
u say that you love me but in the depths of my heart you do not
crying salty tears night & day over you cause ure nothing more than
a painful mistake that i shouldn't have ever made
u make me feel like im a fragile damage marionette just constantly
pulled on its strings for your delight.

my heart is swollen with sadness and pain
when will it ever go away
all those years i spent on you
wasnt really true
was it all a dream or a phase
that had made you change
even through all the thorns, the blades, the hell i went through for you
in your mind that wasnt even true?

rain clouds, torrential downpours of thunder, lightning & madness, sadness & tears, betrayal and despair, whirling within me eternally until someone can be there to die down the storms and make the sunshine and brightness come back into my life again.

I want to cry tears of blood
That floods rivers and overflow the lands of time
My stricken heart tears apart with the beat of its
chime
Shivering in gasps & agonizing pain that i feel will never go away
Mourn & lament at the precious droplets of age as the stinging tears run down my face

such a pretty little damsel with those rosey cheeks
hair that dances like flames in the night sky
oceanic blues that warms even the most coldest heart
voice of wind chimes, fairy giggles and of a playful child

i love you like the rising sun
dipping deeply into my hidden cavern
feeling the oceanic surges of lust & passion
course through me as you have your way
panting breathless as you give each powerfully ****** blow til you ****** & overflow your seed into me

in a cloud of dreams, my heart flutters, in the mists of time, my sadness will melt away, my true love will come to me someday, somehow.

your blushing cheeks with the shade of rose hot with passion
you voluptuous lips plump and stained with cherry red wine
your soft skin smooth to the touch mixed with caramel and porcelain
your hair in intricate waves of honey blonde and chocolate brown mixed together
eyes of purest gold and amber
how sweet your essence tastes when i indulge in it so greatly like a delectable treat

falling tears like crystal diamonds from a angelic face that is in forever pain, wishing & hoping that a breath of life will be better soon even though a silvery dagger has been plunged and lodged deeply into the still beating heart of the innocent one.

i think im worthless
my heart beats, but no one hears it
dying in a echo of endless, useless phantoms of made up fantasy

Traces of ***** smeared across my lips
Gentle luscious licks of pleasure intense
Will there be forbidden carnal pleasure that follows
Only time in itself will tell
Make the flames go higher within my very soul

i kissed you as your lips were stone cold
your hair soft as silk
still a lively hint of rose dwelled in your cheeks
let me slumber forever with you my love for our passion and pledge is eternal
let not the sunrise break us from this embrace

your hand holds in mine, as our bodies intertwine, deep husky breaths that leads to little deaths in the throes of passion. whisked into the basking depths of lust & pleasure. as we drift to dreamland in slumber.

this poor, delicate flower
being carried away by the whispers of the wind
once blooming the the morning's basking glow
now immortalized as a lost soul

Let the snow petals fall around me enrobing me in their greatness, the sweet succulent scent of cherry blossoms emerge . My heart quickens to the excitement of the birthing spring near.

Sultry is the night
The humidity cascades down my icy skin like warm silk
breathless in the darkness
my eyes glimmer with such lust.

drown my sorrows away with your featherlike kisses
feeling the warmth of your protection from your arms
looking at me deeply with those intense, deep hypnotic eyes to hush my soul
cradling me to sleep to neverland with you

"The wakeful nightengale,
She all night long
her amorous descant sung;
Silence was pleas'd;
now glowed the firmament.
enraptured in flesh and ****** ecstasy
will her song sing out into the darkness
heavenly throes and sighs completed in united
bliss"

teardrops of heaven
song of pain
life is forever changing in this lane
pick up the pieces and start over time
the guilt & sorrow is not worth a dime
let your heart soar free into eternity
and be happy where ever you are going to be

the fiery glowing hair of lilith
the glowing azure eyes of her beauty
her silken white porcelain skin entrances thee
let her magic & power enthrall those around her
as she dances the sacred mystical dance of eroticness and ecstasy
let her not be ashamed of her true nakedness and swift moves of her
tantalizing body embrace those

combing my fingers through your silken raven hair
laying my head on your toned beautiful porcelain chest
hearing your steady heartbeat to make me feel complete with my soul & life
happy & grateful to have you with me for the years coming on

coasting waters lap gently across the shore
shimmering crystals dance playfully in the golden sun's embrace
hearing the distant soothing breath of the ocean's gasp
feeling warmed by this heavenly caress
laying in your arms is forever where  i want to be

roiling those hips
setting me on fire
looking deeply into my eyes with your emerald greens
long, sleek luxurious hair cascades over your body as you huff and groan into my neck releasing the pent up energy that you have saved so long for me.

how long do i have to be bound here, twisting & writhing in agonizing pain, with chains snaking along my weak porcelain limbs, so greatly they could break me at any instance? how much turmoil & despair my sullen heart has to go through to prove its loyalty to you. are you not satisfied enough with the sacrifices & losses ive donned onto my soul to show its tenacity for your pleasure. tasting the saltiness of crimson drip from my lips as i scream in sorrow of this teasing game.

love is broken when the heart is broken, and to push someone away hurts worse. a piece of the person that is gone is still there in the heart eternally and will be mourned forever. i will love you even if you hate me.

my heart aches when im not with you
salty flowing tears stream down my porcelain face making it red with anguish
i wish to never be apart from you for you are everything & my world to me
i love you with every heartbeat & every breath i take
your gorgeous grace envelopes me with love & warmth

i was the light and you were the darkness,
but you refused to see the light to make hope
shine and instead let it dim and die out therefore casting you into eternal abyss of your own doing.

can't you see that i tremble in your amazing presence
your eyes enrapture me with their hypnotic gaze
your air of majesticness and sultriness permeates the entire room
making me faint like a forsaken vestal ****** in the wake of passion

tired bloodshot eyes panged from the eternal crying and despair
wispy voluptous lips begged to be kissed
silken porcelain skin akin to a century old doll
lost in memories and regret of damnable reincarnations

love makes the raindrops drip in my way, making me blind, hiding the tears and pain, until the sun peeks through the dreary clouds to brighten the day, leading me to a path of joy and happiness.

Let the mist swell & the stars fall

heeding to our sensual call

passionate breaths & heavy sighs

keeps us from being deprived

i love you with every ounce of my heart
even though the shores & waves are keeping us apart
my heart beats for you & you alone
thinking of you forever in my dreams & hopes
i cry & tear at myself whenever a thought of you races through my mind
because you're not like any other kind
my eyes well up with joy, timidity & sadness as i reminesce our past
hoping eternity & time is not our permanent enemy to separate us cause i love you dearly so. i need you in my life cause without you, i have nothing, a piece of my heart feels shredded & torn away everytime something barricades us.

love is blind
you don't know what to expect of it
it can either rip you to shreds or make you feel like you're in heaven
it's a tossed coin really
but you can't expect it when it hits you and sometimes it hurts and sometimes it'll heal but you don't know which

count the thorns that have pricked my heart to where it weeps uncontrollably. wincing in anguish as i feel the vines wrap like barb wire tightening onto me more. shuddering in exhaustion as this nightmarish abyss never seems to end.

lovely london
the clicking of heels down the cobblestoned streets
where the harlots and johns ever meet
the chilling air wraps around your bones
as the willowy ravens swirl around & croon
blankets of mist and jolting pockets of gloom
linger forever in this dreary doom

Can you hear the whispering of my heart?
The shudders it makes as i reminisce a thought of you?
The pulsating power of lust plowing through my veins?
The quivering of my body & lips as i smile in the dark for your touch?

crying tears of passion
breathing heavenly sighs
emanating the entire room
let the billowing drapes sing their song

heavenly sighs and shakes of breath
trembling in each other's embrace
rays and rivers of electricity shoot through us
wedding us in bliss for eternity

love is a river that courses through me. it's neverending & eternal rush brings life to everything.


would u love me tomorrow like the deepest stars? the trudging rivers? the eternal swirl of the planets?


love me in the deepest passion that u have never felt before, let fireworks & explosions commence in your soul and heart.

fires and flames of wanton desire continually burn within us, for we must soothe the inferno to reach the highest height of heaven.

oozing with eroticness, dripping with inexplicable sensuality, u make my heart wrench,twist & scream with undeniable pleasure. billow the flames of desire to make me feel like im burning with fire, just to cool me down with your icy piercing kiss.

missing your touch,
needing your desire,
quenching the thirst that needs to be quelled
shivering hands needing comfort
my body aches for you
thrashing about in ecstasy as i think of you
your brimming dark hazel amber eyes entrance me into a drunken state of ****** stupor
as your body & voice ravishes me to the highest heights.

that hunger in your eyes, i can feel it, i can sense it, i can taste it, brimming with sexuality to make me intoxicated in aroused frenzy. makes me go insane like a mad woman.

cinders of lust glimmer in the darkness
the heart races with ever so quickening beat
the blood pulsates & swirls with madness
calm is only existent with the dowsing of passion to quell it
the cloaked night sky will liven itself with bursts of starlight