Ill fall fast and steady like a
             Brick                          
     But when I finally hit the ground
          glass...                              
I've shattered into a million pieces, all around myself.                        
      I pick them up                                
  the pieces of myself.      
            Slowly       I put myself back together.                
Incredible...in the fall I was whole but I fell to fast.                      
      Then I was glass, fragile as the ground
              rose up to meet me.

Here's a poem just for you
I was going to write for two

To speak of our love,
How great it felt
to hold your hand.
Kiss your lips...

But all we do it fight fight fight...
What happens when you hit that point
Of not caring of being numb....

You see the good, but say the bad
You tell me the bad...trying to make me perfect
Perfect...how silly....
I thought I was perfect
for you

I remember you sang I was perfect for you.
You perfect for me.

How silly of me.

Don't worry dear I'm perfect...
Ill do what is needed

To be perfect for me.

First we wake up.
In the same bed I followed you too.
You picked me up in that big jeep,
I have to run and jump into.


Today I will climb into your jeep,
the big one with big tires.

I will make you climb in along with me and Ill drive and stall out all over.  
Ill drive it down the road, to the farm.  
And when I get frustrated with it you'll tell me it's okay.
You'll hold my hand and help me shift from the passenger side.

Ill enjoy these moments the ones I love.  
They will be my pull my push.
Because I know, and it pains me to think that Monday I must go back to the hell in witch I reside.  

At 4 a.m I'll crawl from the bed...
Until Thursday my dear


At least that's how I hope it will go.  
How I want it to turn out.
But who knows what will come.
How this will all pan out.

I wish I could just leave
I'll get all my things and pack
Go Far Far away
Oh I'd never come back

But I can't
My anchor that keeps me from floating away
The only reason I stay

I could run
Maybe to the moon
Run and keep running
Maybe the sun

I'd find a small town
Just sit everyday
And watch the sun go down

I could live free
No one I know around
It Would be just me
All alone but happy

I think about this everyday
Day in and day out
The books I've read where she gets away
That could be  me if I tried hard enough

But I can't
Maybe someday I will
But for now I sit and listen to them rant
How it is wrong, how I am no good

Soon...I will get away
But will it be soon enough
Can I get away
For now I stay

Go as far as I can

Don't close them
Leave them open for me to see

Your eyes are all that hold me

Leave your heart open
Let me in

You keep talking hoping I'll pay some attention
You try to make me mad
You try to make me happy
Hell even sad

But I just look through you
You are just another window

Is this the beginning
Or is it the end?
There are no ways to tell
Where are the signs
They should point over there

Im lost
In and Out
I turn in circles
What was
What is
What will be

Either way Ill go left
Ill go right?  Strait...
But there is no way back...

Is it the beginning
Or the end?

I think
It's been about two days
Since I started to drink
But it's been two weeks
I'm giving in this time
For I cannot sleep
I toss and turn
Roll over
Feel the burn

I think it's only been a few days
I'm not really sure
There is no way to keep track
It is all just a blur