I don't like the feeling
When warmth
Is within reach
But instead
Of being embraced
You're hit by
Their cold shoulder.

l.v.s

Why do you try
To find a purpose
From people?

Are you not able
To appreciate
The energy and emotion
People bring
To your life?

Why must people be useful?
Why can't they be themselves?
Isn't that enough?

Or is it perhaps too much?
Given the circumstances, I can understand the use.

A functional robot, comes equipped with a noose.

I can perform all these actions, even put on a face,
I can save you from yourself, but I am far from grace.

I do not have a purpose, and thus cannot help,
sorry but I'm leaving, this is all for myself.

l.v.s and IM

You can look forward
To the future
Just remember to
Place 'IF' in front
Of each thought/idea.

I prefer it that way.
Not just to avoid
Disappointment or pain
If things don't work
It also keeps us
On our toes.

We're aware that
Nothing's guaranteed
So we place more energy
Into appreciating the present.

Nor do we become
Too comfortable
Or lazy.

We continue working hard
To keep relationships
And moments the
Best they can possibly be
Because we know
It could be taken away
In an instant.

Focusing on the future
Can make us accept
A present we're
Not Satisfied with
Because it'll get "better"
In the future.
Which is a load of ****!

Focus on now,
Make now everything
It can possibly be
And you'll stop
Latching onto the future.

l.v.s

No matter how hard it hurts
Promise me
You'll never forget;
There's always
A little something to gain
From pain.

l.v.s

Sometimes you can't
Burn bridges

Sometimes you choose
To dismantle them

Piece by piece
Word by word
Thought by thought

Sometimes you want
It to be pain-free

Oftentimes you try
Your best

Oftentimes that's
All you can do.

l.v.s

I'm not sure
Why your walls
Are molded
Out of ice

I hope
you're warm
On the inside

Please
Please,
Don't be
Numb.

l.v.s

I was planning to write something poetic and heart felt
But I'm far too tired,
I need some rest.

You were just over a year and a half old,
Still a pup.
But you bit someone two days ago,
It's not your fault.
You had a rough up bringing
Till you were taken away
From that man
And given to the SPCA.
Where you eventually met us,
Your new family.

You had trust issues.
Dogs,
Cat,
And any other animal were fine.
You were just afraid and defensive
When it came to other people.
There were only two others,
Apart from the three of us,
That you wouldn't
Bark at,
Growl at
Or jump at.

What'd he do to you?
No one knows,
I guess we'll never know.
Your brothers and sisters
Had to be put down for the same reason.
You were seen as dangerous dogs
Who could be a threat.
The man from dog control said you were just an accident waiting to happen.

But he didn't know you
Like we do.
He didn't see you being
Smacked in the face by our cat
(He can be mean sometimes)
And just walking off with a wagging tail.
He didn't see how excited you were when someone played with you,
He didn't see how mellow and relaxed you were
When one of us cuddled you or pulled you into our arms.
He didn't see anything.
All he saw was a dog protecting
His house,
His family,
The cats and people he loved
When there was
No sign of a threat.

Burnie, it's not your fault
That the man who
Previously owned you
Isolated you
And treated you and your siblings
In a bad way.
It's not your fault you were scarred for life.
It's ok,
Your brothers and sisters
Have their baby brother back now.

I saw you for who you truly were
And I loved you.
This just isn't fair...
Good bye Burnie.

l.v.s

Take my hand
Will you?
Take a chance
Can you?

Too often
Words are
Left unsaid
Opportunities are
Left untaken
Life is
Left unlived

I come to you
And ask
What are we
Waiting for?

Join me
Lets share
A moment
Now.

l.v.s

Flowers held out,
Wilted and rotted.
A momento from past lovers,
Arranged poorly.

Boy you must stop
With this
Childish hope
No one wants
A bruised bouquet
Please, just go away.

l.v.s and I.M

I try my best
To make people feel good about themselves
You could say,
I'm trying to spread happiness like it's a disease
Hoping it will catch on
Then spread through the masses

Sadly a lot of people
As they grow older
Become immune to true happiness
That alone,
Is one of the saddest things to witness

Still,
I try my best

l.v.s

I've found
Myself in
This place

It's a deserted space
Such an
Unruly wilderness

I can sense
That you're here
I feel your
Presence is near

Then reality strikes
Sending a shiver
Down my spine

It's just myself
Alone in my
Haunted heart

I'd invite you in
But once you're
Wrapped within
Its walls
You won't be
Getting out

I'll hear your whispers
And feel your fingers
Clawing to escape
For years to come

I'm afraid
I must
Leave
The locks
Untouched.

l.v.s

Hush
Just for a moment
Quiet your mind

Pay attention
To other people
Please
Please
Please
Just listen

Otherwise, you might not
Hear the other person

l.v.s

Dancing through the fog
The red specks
Hunt desperately
For anything
To set ablaze.

Will these fragile embers
Produce warmth
And comforting light?
Or will their search
Be in vain?

They'll either feed their hunger
Or slowly burn out
And take all hope
Of these unfortunate souls
Making it through the night.

l.v.s

They speak of
An immaculate sky.
White and bland,
Lacking depth.

It's a blank canvas
I shan't deny,
Here we are reborn.

Within the breath of love,
Is where you are kept.

l.v.s


Apply vibrant colour to bare skin
The cleansing light
Through a hollow shell
Slipping between the cracks

Light and transcendent
You lay me with gentle grace
Submerged in ardent passion

Have your light consume
What resides inside

Purify all that I am,
Together set free.

z.w.b

You need
To stop
Holding
Onto things
When they're
Dead

You fill
The empty
Space with
What ifs
And
Maybes

But you knew
It was dead
A long
Time ago
You just
Don't
Want to
Admit it

Now you've
Gone and dug
Yourself
A deeper hole
To cry in...

l.v.s

I was locked in hell,
In two different worlds.*

l.v.s

This isn't a poem but I just had a thought, there's a few people out there that read my stuff and I've had some pretty intense conversations with people on poetry websites. I always see these places as a sanctuary where I can express myself openly, pour out my heart and soul for people to see. Normally I filter which things I show certain people but you guys are mostly all in the same boat. We open ourselves up and try to make things, including our pain, look as beautiful and delicate as we possibly can. It's an art that's extremely close to home for most of us. I'm glad these communities have been made because when I do message poets there's no small talk or *******. It jumps straight to the point and we share even deeper parts of ourselves and our experiences because this is a place where we've already taken off the masks and shared ourselves with others. It's spectacular, there's not many other places where you can be so comfortably yourself with others, because here you just need to take a moment to look at their work and see if they're in the same boat. It's a shortcut of sorts to the person's soul.

This ended up being much longer than I'd anticipated but it's something that I always hold close to my heart. I came on here to say that I hope everyone's doing okay and trying their best to find even the smallest ray of light each day, especially if they're having a hard time. You're all super brave for expressing yourselves on here, or if you're just doing it to be creative good on you too because you don't know how many people might connect with your words. Keep doing what you're doing and be kind to yourselves as well as other people.

Just a little message for you guys,
Leila :)

Such fickle things
These feelings of mine
Forever changing
Never left
With a moment
Of clarity

You come
To mind
Once again
Now I can't
Stop
Please, make it
Stop

I need you
Out of my skull
I can't bear it anymore
You're no longer here
You won't be back
I can't stand it.

l.v.s

It's in our darkest times;
Trapped inside the labyrinth
Of our minds

With the waves of sorrow
Clawing out
And flowing freely
Down the engraved canyons
Of our tired eyes

That we discover
The most beautiful
Hidden corners
Of our souls.

l.v.s

Small cottage,
Soothing fire burns within.
Tended to vegetable garden
In the backyard
Two small children
Scream with laughter
Fighting over a ball.
Inside sits a young woman
Waiting for her love to return.
Flipping through a photo album,
A smile plays at her lips
Memories play on queue.

To answer your question...
Holding your hand feels
Comforting and fills me with love.
It feels like home.

l.v.s

You feed me chocolates
From blood-stained hands
They taste bitter
They taste sweet

It almost
Makes me forget
My black
And blue
Smile...

Almost.

l.v.s

There's a chance
For you still
Soft sweetheart
Delicate darling
Girl with the
Downcast eyes

Look up
Smile
And
Believe
In yourself

We're not
Finished
Here
Yet.

l.v.s

I can't promise you a thing
I can't promise you me
I can't promise you us
I can't promise this will work
I can't promise you that I'll stay

For promises are no more
Than a delusion

Nothing is guaranteed
Nothing is written in stone

But I can hope

I hope I get to talk to you
I hope you're here tomorrow
I hope that you care
I hope that we smile
I hope we create memories

I hope if we part ways
That we're glad
We met each other

I hope
We don't
Regret a thing

l.v.s

You're watching over me
As I leap and bound
From one square to the next

Smiling and laughing
Along with me
As I step on the lines
But never cross them

Hip hop
I hope this doesn't stop.

l.v.s

I thought we felt the same
But, how could you?

How could you,
When the things I say are just spun to fit your game
You watch me come undone as I feel I'm the one to blame

I thought you were telling the truth
But, how could you?

How could you,
When your words are a distorted mirror of what I wanted to hear
You read me so well

You expect me to be proud of you
But, how could I?

How could I,
Enjoy watching my character die?

How could you?

l.v.s

Maybe, you're afraid to love?
You say:
"Nothing good can ever come of it.
When the veil is removed,
All you're left with
Is an insatiable feeling of hunger.
Hunger
For warmth and their touch
Hunger
To see, just once more,
The care and desire in their eyes
When they gaze past your walls
To the soul within.
A growing
Relentless hunger
To feel
Wanted."

l.v.s

What if I lash out
When I'm exhausted
and say things I don't mean,
What if you believe me,
Would those words
Haunt your mind
When you doubt yourself,
When you doubt us?
Maybe, maybe not.
But if that does happen,
If I hurt you,
I'd hurt myself
Twice as hard.

l.v.s

Choosing to overwhelm yourself
With neglect and negativity
Has left a mark on your soul

I reach out my hand
I offer my arms

But nothing gets through to you anymore
You stare through me
Like stained glass
I'm simply more emotions
That blur your view.

l.v.s

If you
Look at these
Handfuls of
What I have
To give
But your own
Palms are empty
Please, don't

If I'm willing
To give myself
Entirely to you
But you'll only
Take what
You can get
Please, don't

I want to save
My enegry
For better things
Please, be honest.

l.v.s

It's taken time
To realize
That connection
Isn't what
I truely fear

In fact,
It's the thought
Of someone
Being unable
To see
Everything
I have
To offer
As something
That is worthy
Of affection
Of a gentle hand
Of a kind word
Of a second thought

I fear opening myself
Up to someone else
But being treated
As just another option
Or worse
Having my trust
And offerings
Shredded
By the last person
I would've
Expected
To hurt me

If I'm going to
Connect with you
On such a level
You better
Not be
Just another
Devil.

l.v.s

He left without
A trace
Though he had been gone
A while

I have only
Just now
Been told
The truth

The absence
Of him
His smile
His warmth
His hands
His support
His care
His intimacy
His company

It screams

I never thought
Deafening silence
Could fill
A room...
If only
It could
Fill my mind
Too.

l.v.s

Slack cords tighten
As fingers curl
Each stroke
Producing another pitch

My personal instrument
Controlled by me alone

l.v.s

Being smothered in barbs and thorns
Tends to discourage passersby
From your flourishing leaves and fruits

Instead of grabbing for the bounty
You uncovered the roots
And nurtured them
To outgrow the defenses.

l.v.s

I've been told
That I make
Too many
Assumptions.

That I should
Ask before
I decide
Something's true.

But why would I?
I've tried
Only to have
Curiosity thrown
in my face
Or they've lied.

I'd rather trust myself
than gamble
with you.

l.v.s

It's driving me insane
Your hands on my hips
Spreading my  thighs
Having your way with me
Staring into my eyes
Claiming my soul

My lips stained red
Can't get you
Out of my bed
Out of my head

I'm mad about you...

l.v.s

Is it wrong,
That his best friend
-Who I'd never met-
Had to tell me?

Is it wrong,
That even though
He left me
For another,
I'm not the slightest bit angry?

Is it wrong,
That when other people
Speak horrible things about him,
It sends me into a rage?

Is it wrong,
That after he snuck away
Without a single good bye
Or thought of my well being,
I have an urge to protect him?

Is it wrong,
That he's cheated on me multiple times,
But I'm happy for him?

Is it wrong,
That my heart
Was stomped into the dirt,
Yet it left me
Feeling at peace?

I'll tell you what...

It sure as hell feels wrong,
Because I still care!
And I know for a fact,
That you don't.
Not anymore.

l.v.s

Alienated shell
Open and bare
Worn lining
Clawed shreds
Impaired illusion
Adorned dull
Aquamarine shards

l.v.s

There's not one
Human being
That can meet
All the interactions,
Energies,
Moments
Or expressions
You'd want in life
So it's okay
To have
A massive
Jigsaw puzzle
And appreciate
Each person
For the space
They fill

It's impossible to imagine
That a single person
Could meet all of your needs


Free yourself of that delusion
Appreciate each indivdual
Jigsaw piece
For the space they fill.

l.v.s

These unspoken words
Do not rhyme
The desire to
Share them with you
Would be a
Waste of my time

So I keep them
Locked up
Rattling around
In this mind
Of mine

I know what
We are
I know what
We aren't

Don't you worry
I won't cross a line

Even if I wish
I could hold you
In my arms tonight

Even if I wish
To fall asleep
With my head
On your chest

These thoughts
Won't utter
A sound.

l.v.s

Gather the things
You hold near your heart
Place them in a basket
Offer this gift
To your dearest friends and loves
Let them see you
On a deeper level
While you have the chance

l.v.s

Look around you,
What are you missing?

Depending on who
You ask the answer
Will be different

If you don't have
Any missing pieces
You're lucky

l.v.s

As soon as he showed
No interest
In reading my poems
In learning who I was
I should have
Turned away

Instead,
I let him
Take many firsts
Which he didn't
Deserve

I didn't think...
But now I know,
I should have
Left him
Behind
Sooner.

l.v.s

An empty promise
Is naught
But whistling wind

Your lies
Drift down
And rest
Crumpled
On the
Pavement.

l.v.s and z.k

Darling, please
Don't let him
Drag you down

Down into
This dull pit
Full of
Oversleeping
Unmotiviation
Boredom
Negative thoughts
And loneliness

Please
Don't let him
Do this to you

Each day
Bleeds into another
With no highlights
Only time filled

Look to yourself
Take a deep breath
Find your determination
And your strength
Tell him no

You've sat back
And dealt with
His nonsense
Long enough

Show him
The door.

l.v.s

Tis not a thing
Not a thing
In this world
That can
Stop me
From believing
In myself

I have to
Be there
To hold
My hand
To cheer
Myself on

That is
The only thing
The single
Most important thing.

l.v.s

You say if I had just told you,
None of this would have happened

When your anger weighs down the room
There's no space for my words

All that escapes is a silent scream
But you don't hear me

Not even for a second
Do you cast your gaze in my direction.

l.v.s

Plummeting down
Engulfed by flame

Pure white
Delicate and abundant

Now charred black
Brittle and sparse

Cradled in arms of patience
A treasure hidden from sight

Love stained tears multiply
He crumbles to the ground

Feathers of the fallen
Are carried in the breeze*

l.v.s

Feather light touch,
Your skin pressed against
the arch of my back,
Smooth curve of hips
Grasped tight,
Whispered moans
Escape lips of silk.

Oh darling,
Love me tonight.

l.v.s

You're the boy
I met in the
Summer rain

We were
Spinning
And laughing
Your hands
Slid to my waist
As if they
Belonged there

We shared
A moment
Sheltered
From our
Lives
Hidden
From the
World

It caught
Me by
Surprise
When people
Asked
About me
You spewed
Lies

I hope
I never see
You again.

l.v.s

Getting through each day
With my watered-down hope

Watching as it falls into pieces
Then trying to reassemble it

But I can't seem to escape
The damp phase

So I continue
This paper mache.

l.v.s