He sculpted himself
Into my "perfect person"
And I loved it

Till I realized
It was an act

And I was nothing
But a toy
To play with.

l.v.s

I stroll this
Rose garden
Each plant
Represents
A previous
Love

The lusher
And brighter
The flower
The stronger
Our connection
Had been

In the corner
Are a few
Petite
Roses
These loves
Never
Fully
Bloomed

But I
Still
Cared
For
Them

l.v.s

The tall red fence
Alluded to something beautiful
But if you take a glance
Through the iron gate
You'll see the
House is worn
With an overgrown yard

l.v.s

Reach outward toward me
Let the wind take your hand
Twirl through our story

Lay breathless beneath
A blanket of stars
The possibilities will
Keep you warm.

l.v.s

I got dragged for a mile
By the loss of both
A partner and a flat mate
And the financial issues
Which are just part
Of the left behind baggage

Luckily,
A girl copied the meow
Of my brother's cat Kitty
This made me smile
It only lasted a while
But it made me feel
Just a little bit giddy

l.v.s

We all have different selves,
some of which we're yet to meet.

l.v.s

We're all aware
That we shouldn't
Hold anyone captive

But people choose to
For their personal gain
I won't be one of them

At times,
I wish I was

To have security
In the knowledge
That you can't leave

But you're not
Planning to go
Nor am I

You're my person
And I'm yours.

l.v.s

Similarities between
Myself and yourself

Yet there are unique touches
And personalized embellishments
To call ourselves home

I think,
You're my second home.

l.v.s

A small flicker of light
In the night

To remind me
There's good in the world.

Not demanding
Attention

Or flooding me
With the knowledge.

Barely a blink
Just enough
To give hope
And
Make me think.

You're out of reach,
For now...

l.v.s

Love is a lot of things
It's your devotion to someone,
It's putting them before yourself
You couldn't bear
To see them hurt
Witnessing the smile spread
Across their face,
Knowing they're safe
And happy
Is enough.

Love isn't ***
Or physical contact.
You may want that,
But it's not important.

Love isn't just feeling good
Whenever they cross your mind
Or you're in their presence.

Love is taking away all;
The joy,
The intimacy,
The romance,
The kind words
And the light.
That is replaced;
Clutching blankets,
Hidden,
Violent shakes
Tear waterfalls...

Though things might not seem perfect
You still want,
You still care,
You still need.
You want them in your life
Even though it hurts,
Even if your throat is raw,
Your eyes burn.

You don't want to let go,
You can't.
Small voice whispers
"Remember the good,
Forget the bad,
Have hope."
Meanwhile,
Doubt shreds the heart.

You know it's love;
Everything hurts
But,
Thoughts
And memories,
Resurface smiles.

Pain of turning away
Maybe it's a rough patch,
Maybe things will get better,
Maybe...
It might hurt
It might shine
In the end,
Is it worth it?
Of course,
Love's worth the risk.

l.v.s

I don't know you yet
But I hope I will soon

I haven't told you yet
But I hope you will listen

I haven't opened up to you yet
But I hope you let me in

I haven't shown you my care yet
But I hope you'll have yours to share

I haven't taken a chance in a while
But I hope we will make you smile

l.v.s

This isn't my first
Time where I've
Had to clear
The slate
And begin
Again

I've been thrown
Into the fog
Lost in my mind
Lost in life
Looking to my
Compass
To guide
Me through

I have grown
From each
And every
Set back

It might seem
Like a lost cause
Like an unbeatable beast
But I know
This will be fine
I've been here before

I'll find calm
Within the chaos

l.v.s

Cleaning out my closet
I found what I needed
To sew my life
Back
Together.

l.v.s

It is not true,
don't believe it.

Your brain is being a *******,
put it in its place.

It's there to serve you,
not the other way around.

l.v.s

A teeny tiny poem
Made me realize
That old sunsets
Don't matter too much,

It's how
You move forward
And allow yourself
To recover
That is
The most
Important

l.v.s

What say you, traveler?
You come baring
Gold and jewels
Hoping to lure me in
With their luxury

What say you, traveler?
I'd prefer your thoughts and emotions
That are buried out of fear
May I see those rarities?

What say you, traveler?
You keep those
Behind lock and key

I say to you, traveler
That's quite a tragedy.

l.v.s

It's not worth
being that open
and trusting,
it's a death trap.

l.v.s

It is my sole obligation,
to make sure that you get the utmost protection.

A fractured soul,
with a broken heart,
surely you need some mending.

Listen here, sweetheart
I appreciate the thought
But I will not be a burden
I'm not here to weigh you down
I can protect and take care of myself
Do not underestimate me

If you're willing to take my hand
And join me on the journey
You're more than welcome to

Just don't come to me
Thinking that I need help
When all I want
Is support

l.v.s and IM

Following the Sun's guidance,
I pick myself up
And fill the world
With light.

Today,
I will rise.

l.v.s

I beg you, please
Out of everything
You could possibly do
Don't hold back
What's important
To you

Yes, I know
There are times where
You don't feel safe
Or heard
Or accepted
Or maybe
You're scared

This world is tough
People are cold and stubborn
Sometimes you feel alone

But I have been starving
For just a hint
Of honesty and self-expression
And I bet I'm not the only one

So please,
If you have someone close
Someone comfortable
Someone there
Share your truth

l.v.s

Open the floodgates
You seem afraid to do so
You seem to believe
I'll be swept under
And taken from you forever
You said: "You already have enough to deal with"
But, I doubt you've considered,
That being locked out by you,
Is the leading cause of my pain

Open the floodgates
When I was left alone
I uncovered my strength
I learnt to get by on my own
If your words cut deep
If I must do so again
I'll heal myself
I'm not afraid to be pulled under
Not anymore

Open the floodgates
Though, your suffering may cause salt stains on my cheeks
Though, how you see yourself may crack my heart in two
Though, you may have sent others fleeing in fear
Though, it seemed you were only truly cared for by a few
I will not give in
I'll stand tall
I'll push through the currents
You won't see me fall
Unless I'm on my knees before you
Until your walls have crumbled and your heart is within my reach
I'll gather every ounce of strength
In order to make it
So I can pull all your broken pieces into my arms,
Pour the contents of my heart and soul into them
In an attempt to show
I care
In an attempt to show you
I'll always be here

Open the floodgates, my love
Look into my eyes as I swim through the force
Simply to cradle you in my arms
Know this, if I can't make it to the other side
I will die trying
I won't give up on you

Open the floodgates
Give me a chance

l.v.s

You are the sun I orbit,
Ice and freezing temperatures
Flee from your touch;
I'm flooded with warmth.
As not to scorch
My fragile skin
You never slumber.

I rotate around you,
Though you're far
I remain here
Dependant on you.
You love
You care
From a distance.

Snow and icicles
Become
Blossoms and waterfalls.
A never ending cycle,
You healing the wounds
Inflicted where light is foreign.

You give life,
Without you, I'd be bare
And bone dry.
I'll orbit you
Till the end of time
Or till we're
Swallowed by black.
You're my sun,
I need you...

l.v.s

Trapped under
A thin
Black spider

A bird
Carried it away
Far out of sight

Only to return
And hold me in
The warmth
Between
Its wing and breast

l.v.s

I'm not sure
Where this will lead
Or what paths
I will take

But new experiences
Lessons and possibilities await

I hope the future will be bright!

l.v.s

Together we walk
This same path
Not making contact
We stare at our toes

I can't help but hope
To find a crossroad

Though I fear
The aftermath.

l.v.s

You have always
Been a ray of sunshine

While they were
A frosty blizzard
At least once.

l.v.s

If you want to
Come closer
If you want
Me to
Let you in
I need you to
Understand

Time must be taken
Care must be given

I can not
Rush
There's no
Short cuts
This is
A process
This is a
Delicate
Thing

Please,
Try to
Understand.

l.v.s

Eyes like clear skies omit the light of a million blues
If only I could experience a day in your shoes
I'd be able to know whether you were spinning lies
or if you told the truth
I wish it wouldn't force me to leave
For your smile holds eternal youth
Without it, I would grieve.

l.v.s and j.r.b

Cupped in my hands
I place her on the sand
A girl I'd carried
For so long

So long
Had I ignored her

So long
Had I put others first

So long
She screamed
She sobbed
Needing to be heard

It's been
Too long

Since I've listened
To myself.

l.v.s

I might sing off tune
I might stumble on words
I might forget lyrics

I'm trying
My best

It's touching
That you're
Still listening
To me.

l.v.s

I kneel before her
Smoldering heat
Coated in want
Hips rise
Thrash and squirm
An eager tongue
Darts forward

Mmmmm,
Her petals
Are my reward!

l.v.s

How dare you
Treat me as if
I'm nothing

It's rather simple
And straight forward
To have something casual
With equal effort
And respectful
Communication

If you think
You can
Treat me
Like
A cloth
To clean
The dust
From your
Boot
You're
Wrong

I'm not
Just here
For you to
Wipe yourself
With then
Be rid of

I am
A human

I am
A woman

And I deserve
To be treated
As such

If you
Can't
Have
Human
Decency
Then stay
Away
From
Me.

l.v.s

I snap a shot at what I feel is perfection,
walking down the road called life
losing track of my directions.

my photography stuck with me,
but I somehow failed to mention,
That I don't need a camera
To keep the memory of you
Crystal clear

l.v.s and IM

Right through the heart,
that's where you should aim.

A piercing shot,
You won't get the blame.

I'll set up the weapon,
with the sharpest arrow I can find.

I'll let you take the shot,
from in front or behind.

It's lined up properly,
so make no mistakes.

But this isn't the first time
that you have harmed me.

Why must I return to you,
Time and time again?

Take your terrible treatment,
As if it's something I deserve.

Soon I won't stand the sight of you,
Eventually, you'll get on my last nerve.

l.v.s and IM

You can only promise
The present.

l.v.s

I could write a whole list of loves
But why would I
If you won't read it?

l.v.s

A bird floating
On murky water
Flutters for a moment
Only to find
A slice of plastic

She hasn't seen
Soft bread
Since her friends vanished
And her feathers matted

The lone swan
Bows her head.

l.v.s

Some people slip,
When their clay gets out of shape
They accept what they're given
And set it in stone.

But you keep improving;
More water,
A faster or slower pace,
Viewing from different perspectives... etc.

You know there's a possibility
You refuse to give up
And be stuck the same way forever.

l.v.s

Love can be beautiful,
Yes, it can.

But love's also a drug,
And just like any addiction
It can cause more harm than good
Depending on the dosage
and the environment in which it's taken.

Some drugs give you a buzz when you're with friends,
Others leave you in the gutter all alone.
It depends on the strength,
The dosage
And who you're with.

Love can be beautiful
But it can also get out of control.

You always learn a lesson from it, don't you?
Love alone is harmless and magical,
Don't get me wrong.
But you also have to think of the situation...

l.v.s

I can't trust
A single word
You spit out
When it's
Someone
Else's
Fingers
Drawing
The words
Out from
Your
Mouth

l.v.s

Each and every time
I'm the one to blame

I don't listen
I don't try
I don't care
I never keep promises
With each passing day
I keep pushing you away

This is something
You might
Struggle to understand

But it wasn't
Only me
That lead to
Our demise

l.v.s

Through poetry
I've come to find
Expression
And communication

He allows me to be
Vulnerable yet safe

Poetry promised to
Never leave my side
He's the only
Heart aching lover
That's kept his word.

l.v.s

Why must we
Be so well behaved?

I've seen
Many sides
Of you,
My darling

I know
You're trying
To have
Self-control
You're trying
But I can tell
You're lying

A quick glance
Tells me all
Your hands
Behind your back
Are now fists
You want more
Than this

Instead, you decide
To be a complete bore

Even having
The nerve
To comment
On the weather

If you want
To remain
All prim and proper
I suggest
You leave
Before I give you
The pleasure
Of pain.

l.v.s

I'm pulling
Your strings
Making you twirl
From my touch

The effect of
A slight stroke
Is tantalizing

I hope you
Appreciate
How my
Fingers
Play with
You.

l.v.s

Expressive eyes
Full of wonder
And curiosity

Remind me of
Something pure
Of childhood
Of kindness

It's not something
I see too often

Genuine and unfaltering
Fascination with life

l.v.s

I left you
In the
Hourglass
I'm sorry
I let you
Get lost
In time

l.v.s

I'm in control of my thoughts
But that doesn't mean
I have control of the reins.

You might be steering the horse
But you're not the one that decides
Whether it will listen,
If things will run smoothly
Or you'll be thrown off.

That's how my brain gets sometimes
It charges wherever it wants
And I have to hold on tight.

I'll pack everything up,
Crawl into bed
And latch on.

l.v.s

You may never see this
I hope you never see this,
My love

But if comes a day
Where you see me
Both found and lost
Both bound and tossed
I hope you don't turn away
                     I hope you stay

If you see this
I can only hope
It's something you love

l.v.s

We've all
Got
Bright bits

It's just hard
To see
With blurry
Eyes.

l.v.s