Mad
Angry and disturbed
Perturbed by your absurd words
Their rhythm ring sing songs on & on
Wrongly depicting me as the beast who depletes we
Condemned and prosecuted for convoluted convictions
Incarcerated despite fair trial meanwhile
Defendant roams free, though guilty
So I suffer when her rough mood cannot bebuffered
And somehow the blame is on me, what a shame it would be
If I had a fair trial, and you were beguiled by my vengeance
But Corinthians bestowed on me that love hold no grudge
So I won't budge,
This time.

I work hard for me.
I don't think you see,
That just because it's mine
Doesn't mean it's free,
For you to just use.
Because I feel abused
I buy things for me.
And not for your muse.
You could atleast ask
It's not a hard task
You have no respect
And I can't wear a mask,
To hide how I feel.
Because you should know the deal
I work hard for me
Not for you to steal,
Every nice thing I've got
Because I work a lot
And you don't do ****
Not to blow up your spot,
But I work for my check
So don't come at my neck
When I blow up at you
All I want is respect

you make me wanna...
punch your ******* face in
pop six packs out the case and
drink til im chasing
myself around this house...
you dumb *****
who the **** do you think this is.
**** me all day, then you got a night cap *****?
**** i look like?
some ***** you just kickin it wit
couldn't even put my **** in it
before you switched
just know, you aint slick.
hoes won't learn
til they ******* burn
I hate to be so blunt,
babygirl... it's your turn
so don't come to me on no i love you ****
save it all for the hick licking on your ****.
i don't have time for the games,
shorty you lame,
you wanna bump me down...
***** watch me do the same.
motha fuckah.

A borrowed attire
A ***** curly fro
A slant set of shoulders
A "lawn" that is mowed
Soft caramel skin
Four new tattoos
Old holes from piercings
No longer in use.
A taller frame
And a nice juicy ****
******* to match
But a small little gut
A refurbished heart
A genuine smile
A great listener
Keeps old things on file
A charming stare
But not much to say
She'll sneak in your heart
In a phenomenal way
Ready for anything
When put to the test
Yes, she has her flaws
But she's close to the best.

Accidental way
Of showing you exactly
What you did to me

Peculiar
Agreed?
How ******* clad lassies
Get the pass to show their ***
Long as nobody touches
Jiving gyrations
In counter-clockwise rotation
Seldom unescorted by damnation
By God, sense the relation
She's losing her patience
Can't afford to be a patient
So being patient...
That **** is ancient
Swanging ******* before eyes
Eyes that can't see
Eyes blind by the fuckery
***** get hickory
And the tic tickory of the clock
Stops
Drop drop
Shake that body for the coin
Make those men yearn to join
Their meat to your groin
Blind men throw out the presidents
Nixon Jackson Benjamin
Facts is
That these hoes stay cashing in
More than ****** busting traps
And toting gats to make stacks
Peculiar
Agreed?
How a ***** sell and smoke ****
High off they own supply
Baby mamas multiply
Covered all the **** by a lie
Making these young girls cry
And the innocent have to die
For this boy to strive
When you mad at the *** clap
Fat *** on a mans lap
Slow wine then fast
Slow grinding for cash
But no harm is caused
No obstruction of laws
But men be a "Boss"
& a woman... A loss

I unlove you
I don't care if it's a neologism
It's my heart you imprisoned
And I unlove you for that

You were everything I wanted
Because I love everything you're not
I love it a lot, like a lot a lot
And I love what you don't look like
I've fallen head over heels for
Whose personality you don't resemble
I long for the way your kisses differ
How the *** isn't as curricular
But of course that's not enough

I want to want you
And "you" is an easy word to rhyme with
So that's what I won't do
See how easily I'm distracted away
From what you've got, what I can't say?
Because all I know is what you don't relay
How we share a not-so-bad day
I've got a question... if I may

I should love you for what you've got, right?
For all you are and not for who you're not, right?
If this holds true, we'll descend from the spotlight
'Cause I don't care about who you are, just who you're not quite
I unlove you with my whole heart
And I refuse to dig any further
I like to love everthing you're not about
And I pray that's okay with you

That savory flavor that lingers between my soaking wet fingers

The way your porcelain skin touches light
Your waterfall curls provocatively grace the wind
Those brown eyes take away my virginity
That scent you carry with such promiscuity
You want my intellect
You want my drive
You want me to want you
Don't you...?
I am yours.
The way your jeans caress your curves
Your voice sings to my every being
And the sky delights at the sight of your smile
The celestial sway of each step you take
Each gaze my way, an attribution to my euphoria
My mind wipes clean and thinks solely of you
How I yearn to be get so deep into your imagination
I'll find you beautiful girl
And I'll take your darling breath away.

She is trying to make a philanderer out of me

the fairytales i conjure up
never seem to fade.
its like they're haunting me;
and its daunting to believe
that they'll never come true...
with you.
i dream of olden days,
the pictures we'd take
the things tht we'd say.
jokes and love and happiness
love and infatuation and your sweet kiss-ing
keeps me reminiscing. 
but for what purpose?
im losing tht need to love you
if i cant touch you, hug you...
let love not flow like ab...cd
can we glimpse into the past?
just for this moment,
let me hold it.
i miss the days;
without a question
and my fairytales linger,
like the sour smell of spoiled GOODS.
yet, i cant let them go.
but i have to keep steadfast:
like, ab..cd

Summer brings such beauty and bliss
while the misty dew summer mornings and rain help sustain
Yet when dawn breaks near week eight
and beauty is nipped with the whip of autumn's foreplay,
The beauty holds strong to hang on to what's left
and the greenery screams til it's out of breath
and nature's carpet takes a blow to the chest
And the flowers that once stood tall.. fall.

Women like you make me realize
I should open my eyes
What's right in front of me
Is all I'll ever need
My one girl
In our one world
Females like you are the reason
I should cherish mine
Fine dining and wine
Everything top of the line
Feed her grapes off the vine
Make the *** chill her spine.
It just won't get any better
I got a trend setter
And my bed couldn't get wetter
Girls like you are the reason
Im gonna change my life
Make her my wife
And end all the trife
Things that I do
I have queen
Who knows she means
This whole world to me
For *eternity

She...
Seems to have captured me
Locked me here with her essence
To yearn for her presence
Though im not her preference.
Is this a joke
That you poke?
Do you laugh
While I sulk...
In your honor?
I can't bother!
I hate to sound so trill
But "do you think about me, still"
Are there feelings you'd spill?
If you had the will...
To change what we had
Cuz it wasn't all bad
Would you take the chance?
I need a handbook, a demonstration
Rules for our relations
Because you're losing participation
And I feel like im waiting, impatient.
And...
I know another girl holds you, ***** you.
Takes you into ecstasy
Pleasures your every being.
But...
Is this just a test for me?
To see how long, I can hold on.
It's slipping cuz , im not too strong.
Or do I have it all wrong
And you just want me to move on?
I'm wasting my time,
But I'm stuck on you
With no clue
What I should do
And just so you know,
I'll probably never stop loving you...

If I could take it all back I would,
But regret is never the answer
Nor can I be the hypocrite
Telling you to quit
Nor can I be the one you want
Or need, for that matter
I plan to leave you be...
Eventually
Because you'll do better without me
We're not strong enough to stand this
And I hate that you compare
For I feel that im worth more
But maybe I'll just go
So you can be happy too
Gotta learn life without you
Im sure you'll be fine.
The star is losing her shine.
To glow in another night sky besides mine

Here
Still here
Right where you left me
Remember that day
That day we played
The day we loved and sang and
Danced so gay
You picked me up and we swayed
This wayyy
That wayyyyy
This wayyy
But then...
She called and you took off
And threw me astray
I'm old and defeated now
My purpose is naught
I was left too long and spoiled to rot
I cannot serve you
Though I've always deserved to,
But who needs me anyway

I love you but...
There's something about us
i just don't like.
**** the politics
I'll eat where I wanna lick
But this is past that...
You were the last cat
That on my lap, sat
And I just don't miss you.
Won't kiss you, forever diss you
Then I drop the bomb
On my own ****, blown ****
And **** it up easy
Cuz this **** appeased me.
I love you but...
I don't want you
And that's all because
I just don't want to

You don't know me & its not your fault.
'Cause I console me and that **** aint hot.
I really love you but the **** I did negated that.
I never have regrets but I know I would take it back.
I didn't mean it; it was words; it didn't mean a thing.
I can't express of all the feelings and the joy you bring.
Stupid decisions lost my luxury and I'm aware.
Things you witnessed formed a vision that I just don't care.

Lemme let you know why I got twinkles in my eyes.
Its not because of my own feelings; I put those aside.
I swore I'd never hurt you. and I said my word is bond.
I know I did & now I'm numb; & don't think I'll move on.
I'd do anything to make you understand what's true.
I just want it to be love between just me & you.
I know the things I did would contradict my every word.
But if you read it over, everything just sounds absurd.

You the only one I love and care about right now.
Trying to explain the stupid **** but don't know how.
I really dreaded that this day right here was soon to come.
It was all a front; but I know where you're coming from.
You said that I'm a sneaky liar & that **** aint true.
I didn't lie when I said I'd do anything for you.
It hurts to know that I just lost something that was so good.
I'd go back in time and change what I did if I could.

I hate to think about you; just being real.
It hurts so ******* bad how all this **** has made me feel.

Today I wore
Ketchup and Mustard
Because I wanted to
Not everyone can do this
And get away with it
But I did it
Because I wanted to
Tomorrow is a new day
Maybe mayo or tartar
Just anything but barbecue
But it's not about my sauces
Or my meat for that matter
It's about my feelings
Bite me because im what you love

My feelings don't matter
They're just wasteful words
I blurt out for my own well-being
Because they will never be heard
Listened to but not heard
Why, because they're unimportant
My feelings are hurtful
Because they're not what you want to hear
And they don't fit into your time schedule
I want to apologize on behalf of my feelings
We will take a back row seat
We understand that we were wrong
For being expressed and well...
It won't happen again.

Leave me
I give you permission
To exit my life, stage right
Don't look back please
Just kiss my left cheek
Tell me you care
You'll always be there
And walk away for good
But don't be there anyway
Dont' call me on my birthday
Don't find small things to say
Just don't think about me
You can ask my friends how I am
But don't check to see for yourself
It's a trap we don't want to fall into... again
Shed a few tears for me
For the thoughts of what we could be
Those memories we'll never get the chance to see
The end of our "everlasting" destiny
Just go, my love
Walk out my heart and slam the door behind you
Hurt me with your goodbye
It's okay, I won't hate you
Just let us go
But not just 'cause I told you so

He hit her.
Fist to face, he hit her.
She bit the taste of blood from her tongue and inner cheek
And stared at the freak who beat her
A man she once loved enough to consider vows
The father of her child, once her protector  now she can't be protected from him.
He hit her.
When she wasn't looking he balled a fist in his fit and swung the **** directly at her lower lip.
What is she to do when the very man who took her hand and placed a ring on her left finger, is the cause of the sting lingering on her face.
Should she tell, yell, or scream
Wake up from this dream or realize that
He hit her.
He really did but the problem is he doesn't care.
His bare balled hand to her unexpecting mouth as she sat there on the couch.
His eyes blazed with fury, her eyes glazed with tears and fear of this man who stands before her.
Sorrow surrounds her as her heart pounds and tears drown her.
Mourning is she, for the man who she thought would be her everything for eternity but...
He hit her.

Baby,
You love me
In a way so unimaginable
Your kiss takes me to places
I could never even dream of
Because when I dream all I see is me
Beside you
God, I yearn for your love
In a fiendish way; you are my drug
And I suffer without my dose
Of you, my muse
My queen of all things pretty
Prance on my heart
Why don't you dance and
Play and after your long day just
Kick your feet up and stay awhile
Get acquainted with the space I paved
For you to lay inside me
I won't evict you, in fact I'll put up bars
And imprison you, so you can never leave
You see, without you I'm just not me
You're that extra piece to make me complete
And if I leave you be, there's nothing left
I will love you so hard it will bleed from you
I swear there's nothing I need from you
But the love you give to continue as strong
I will never do you wrong
If you just love me
Unconditionally
I cannot see the day you say "it's through"
Because that's the day I say "me too"
So goodnight to the love we had
Now shed
And...
-POW-

My flicking lick
Not the trick to get your **** sticky?
Rather a thick ****, light brown if you're picky?
When I'm sick the words drip
And I sip, sip
Ahhhh
Then **** it back and spit it
And behold an angry love poem untold
Never bold enough to hold it to you
Just not something I'd do
But these words are true...
Thoughts in my envisions
Nightmares ask permission
To intrude on my hopeless solitude
And they do.
You're my dry Valentine
I could wonder why, or cry.
But I'll just call that old thing back, goodbye.

Don't shoot!
Can't you see my white palms
Not the black end of my black hands
Guilty until proven innocent
That's the predicament I was raised in
When I walk onto the subway, privilege holds for dear life the bag her daddy gave her, and yes by privilege I mean white.
Because based on my skin I'm automatically framed as a thief that lives too cheap to afford the Kors bag that she has.
Don't shoot!
I just found out my dog passed and decided I'd run fast and hold her tight before her last gasp.
But since I'm black and I'm running, the pigs start coming after me as if I created a catastrophe since the mask of me is black.
They corrupt the laws, use excessive force and pin me down to the ground when I was just trying to get to my hound.
Don't shoot!
Yes my windows are tinted and my skin is a shade the same but when you pull me over I'm not to blame for the drug ring that has your people suffering.
I sweat in fear for my life as I see red and blue lights wondering if I will live to see tomorrow's sunlight.
Because based on my tints and my rims and my skin I must be some criminal uncaught.
So as privilege approaches my door I must place my white palms on the wheel and plead to retrieve my license from the passengers seat.
Don't shoot!
Because if I was white I wouldn't need to fight for my right to life.
And I wouldn't have to fear the man that society told me would pull my hand if I raised it in a plea for help and welp,
That just isn't the case so based on my race I must remain on thin ice for the rest of my black life, yelling
Don't shoot!

Im so in love.
I wanna tell the world
But I must not boast.
For that is a sin.
And I thank the man in hell
For leading me into temptation
Because now, I'm deeper in love
Love has to stand the test of time
And my love is steadfast
For you and only you.
Im so in love,
I want to enjoy natures touch
With you by my side
Frolic is flowerbeds
Catch butterflies and get high
Under the trees breezes.
Im so in love!
And I won't ever let go again
I love you like rain reaching desert land
And... I don't know what I'd do without you
So when you're feeling down,
I'll look in the mirror and remind you
Just how amazing you really are.
I love you, me.

It's impossible
The way you woo me
With just your glance
It's so strange
The way you **** me
With just your stance
I bite my lip
In an attempt to
Stray off this temptation
But I can't take it.
The way your flesh feels
On my bare hands
Your eyes telling me
Passionate love stories
Of our soon to be first time
And my eyes trained...
Yes trained to remain blank
The way you touch me...
The way you stare...
The way you want me...
My attention, affection
My love, my drive
My ***.
I feel the same
But I am trained to refrain.
Temptations the game
And I, it's pawn.

She smelled like you today...







                                                 ­     ...It felt like I cheated

I said I'd love you forever, and I didn't lie

If I could watch you, indiscreetly
I'd find the truth in our facade
The loop hole in your portrayal of perfection
That you  so effortlessly masque
I remain on edge, my heart on guard
Because I know you only allow me to see one piece
Of the anomaly of thee
And for me it would only seal the deal if
I could be a wallflower, to find if you were real

Kiss me as the moon rises
Tell me forever is real
Teach me how to love you
And how to make you feel
Take me into the ocean
And bathe me in your love
Wrap me with your warm embrace
Fit us, like a glove
Tell stories of our future
Brag about our past
Tell the world I love you, girl
And maybe we will last
If everyone knows us
To love steadfast and strong
We give hope to all who know
And we're pushed to carry on
Letting go is easy
Living free is hard
So let's just let love sail us on
And throw in all our cards
No more playing games
This time let us be free
And ride the waves the ocean gave
Solely just you and me

The shy eye contact
And rapid heart beat
Before every new first kiss.
The same clammy hands
Same choked up notions
Wannabe fluid motions
Tryna keep your cool.
Knowing the essence
Of her presence
And willing to seize it.
Playing with her curls
Gently hold her neck
And lean her closer...
To your soul.
Open every piece of you
And share it.
With a new first kiss.
Dazed eyes and timid smiles
It's all worth while
For that new first kiss

I am not a poet
For poets seize to leave blank pages
Telling stories til their ripe old ages
Filling souls with inspiration
Spilling joys of all relations
But I don't have ****...
Blank pages waiting to by graced by my pen
But my mind feels as empty as the sheets I'm drowning in
How I yearn to be a poet
To let loose my tensions,
My fears
The love so deep inside me
I need a release,
But I just can't word it
Can't phrase it
Because I am not a poet

You don't like love
You just know time is a tickin'
Life is a bomb, and the heart is the victim
Eyes big with ambition
And wanting bad ******* becomes
The way you feel free, but it's krypted
It's a trap for those who are less gifted
The ignoramus who your teachers depicted
As the ones
You don't wanna become
You waste your day away the way you make
Your world say ****** words about your being
Striving to be the "spice" of the night
But you didn't think twice
Stuck your ******* vice
And it bit you with the venom
Now you're scarred up for life
In the mind there are things like,
Demons you shouldn't expose to light
Look beyond the little temporary pleasures
Find what's left in life for your face to elate to
Long live the bad ******* you didn't need
They gonna find the right man, indeed
Tell them mazel tov, and tell yourself
There's plenty people for me
And keep swimming, indefinitely
You're  a lost soul half stepping
The pain of the game got you trippin
Thought the head was whatever
That place was good, but this is better
Smile and shake a new hand for the change
Reaching happiness inside, you're not far from range.
Don't trend like the words a poet site
Strive for success and live life right
Not taking no for an answer
Lift the sagging pants up
And walk with dignity into your *dream

Life can be lived happily
To take a chance
To roll the dice
To figure out what's right
But who wants to gamble
When all the great things
End for the worse
Joy with pain
Love with rain
Infatuation with "I'm over you"
Seeing sides of things you never knew
Never wanted to
Life can be lived happily
To take a chance
To roll the dice
To never know if things will turn out right
Is it worth the risk?
Could we resist?

Turkey, stuffing
Mac and cheese
Ziti, mussels
collard greens
Cran sauce, ham hocks
Candied yams
Brisket, corn bread
Sizzling lamb
Stuffed shells, Sausage
Yellow rice
Chicken, mash potatoes
Pumpkin pies
All the food I had on my plate
Blessed and thankful that I ate
Knowing others don't have the same
But we shared, the needy came
Ate with us as own our kin
There was where new friendships begin
Giving back makes all feel good
Serving to our neighborhood
In our home, you're invited in
We pass the plate with you as kin

A pure vibration
All through out my sensation
I ******* climaxed

You try to kiss me
I would rather you not
That's overrated

Just let me touch you
In inappropriate ways
Because you like it

Remove all my clothes
But make sure the lights are off
It's best in the dark

After a nice date
We can talk to the blue moon
To unlock our lust

Poems pose as pathways into me
By me I mean the depths that can't be seen
With the naked eye pryed open wide
Instead they pave a passage into my personal pods of passion
My inner solitude, my sour moods and attitudes
My attributes and traits that relate all of me to each piece individually
Poems create the most realistic vision of me
Deeper than a glazed over gaze into my soul
For in poetry rests the ability for normalcy to retreat from me
Exposing the roads closed and accelerating on them at speeds untold
Unprepared for what words my wit will wrap wildly entwined
As the thoughts flow so, in their prime from my mind
Travelling through my veins and exiting at the grip of my fingertips
As the ink drips in calligraphic patterns of raced mess appearing to make sense.
Each time I pick up my pen and write
I fight for the freedom within me to flee free
Thank you, Poetry

Love is overrated
Hate is anticipated
Sorrow seals the deal
Love last never
Hate churns forever
Sorrow becomes kin
Love is overrated
Hate can be negated but,
Sorrow will always win

Upon searching "not a poem"
Almost nine thousand non poems popped
Each one a slightly separate suggestion
On the mental conception of non poetry
A common theme that seems to seep into the souls of some
What makes words poetry is the purity that protrudes from paper
The song of sweet cries and lullabies
Escalating rage and hallucinations of bliss
So if,
A set of words no matter how weak, seeks a path past a draft in a memory shaft
It is a poem
Upon searching "not a poet"
There's a familiar theme of wannabe e.e. cummings
That can't see they are poets indeed
There's no prerequisite set of concepts to adhere to
What makes you a poet is your gift of expressing life through letters
Not just trendsetters and regretters
So if,
You can sit and explore a language and handpick the words that create magic
You are a poet.

I can't put into words
How I feel about you.
Three years and counting
And drawing a blank.
The love is there
All the love that I have.
But I just can't tell you...
How much
How long
Nothing.
Im really happy
But I can't express that on paper
I can't stress that you're perfect
And I don't deserve it, but...
I'll try by showing you
Im blessed to be knowing you
You're wonderful.
But my mind writes poems
About my single regret
My temptations
And my short comings
Never about you.
Maybe I fell in love
With a girl who...
Made the poet at a loss for words...
And I treasure you for that.
You took my breath away.

I no longer wish to love you so good bye

I must like the feeling of having a broken heart

Loose mind
Caught up in the now
The future becomes less relevant
A rest from the pressures
Of becoming purposeful
A chance to relax
To breathe in
Then out
Then...

I live for me; yes selfishly
For seeking to find my lost integrity
I live for love, for you and me
For your adoration; your reciprocity

I live to hear the cries of joy my heart's eyes roar as they spy on you
The rifts and melody drifts that we sing harmoniously
The sound of the breeze trying to squeeze between us

And somehow,
In the living of these moments,
I will become what I have chosen to behold