Come to me, my child,
I promise to make it worthwhile,
I know what you desire,
I can bring a calm to your blazing fire,
But in return, you have to give me your sweet innocent face,
Let me explore every inch of you, give me that sweet metallic taste,
You desire to be touched, you desire to be hurt,
But not by a man who will mistreat you, but by someone who will see your worth,
You crave to be abused sexually, your body yearns to bleed,
You want your soul to be filled with contentment and your holes with seed,
But before all that, surrender your pretty face,
Let me take a sip of you, give me your sweet metallic taste,
You submit yourself unknowingly, such a meek little girl,
You do not need someone who will pamper you, but someone who will share your dark world,
You dream to be called a good girl, your body aches to be dominated,
You whimper at the sight of a man with a dominant aura, wishing this part of you wasn’t so isolated,
Allow me to bring you back to life, give to me your pretty face,
I will reopen your tightly shut doors, but as payment give me that sweet metallic taste,
On the outside, you’re like an innocent cat waiting to stroked,
But really you’re just a ******* waiting to be loved roughly and choked,
You use to self-harm, but you didn’t really understand why you were so fascinated by seeing yourself bleed,
You thought you were crazy, upon depression you would continuously feed,
But you aren’t crazy, you are a Submissive ******* with a beautiful face,
Submit yourself to me, allow me to explore and devour  your sweet metallic taste,
You’re a shy little angel with low self-esteem,
But I can make you brave, I can make you beam,
You long to experience flogging, soft but ****** kisses,
I can make you feel the pain you so desire, just tell me your dreams and wishes,
Such a dark girl you hide behind that pretty face,
Surrender yourself to me, give me your sweet metallic taste,
I will take you on your ******* voyage, I will let you sail free,
I will let you unfold, allowing your insides to roll like a violent sea,
I will let you unleash your hidden self, be who you are meant to be,
After I take dark care of you, then and only then you’ll be free,
Now my sweet, give me your beautiful face,
Allow me to release and feast on your sweet metallic taste.
Wink* Wink*
Toni-Ann Johnson Dec 2018
Knees aching from being down on them too long,
*** cheeks blazing while muffled moans and cries fill the room like a beautiful song.
You dare not move, you dare not argue,
For that smart *** mouth of yours couldn’t keep shut, and look where it got you.
Each flogs of the whip has a different effect,
Either it brings tears to your eyes or makes your underneath wet.
You hope he stops soon,
But another part of you wants him to continue, and allow the monster inside of you to bloom.
Despite the aching pain on your ***, you enjoy being punished,
You enjoy being face down in pain, these are the things that make you flourish.
The more he flogs you the more your ***** throbs,
But you have to be punished for being a bad girl, so you refuse to wail but instead release muffled sobs.
His Dominating voice fills the room commanding you to face is crotch, this causes your sea to roar,
He roughly grabs your chin and forces you to look up at him while tears threaten to fall for your *** is sore.
He commands that you be a good girl or you’ll be punished,
You agree meekly knowing you’ll disobey him again, just to be punished, for you like the pain, it is what makes you flourish.
A bad girl deserves to be punished, but what if she misbehaves because she loves to be punished?
Toni-Ann Johnson Dec 2018
I want to be normal so bad,
I think I seek normality more than how I hope for love from my dad.
Being normal is what I need,
I mean who will want someone who is fascinated by seeing their self bleed?
Sometimes I feel so lost,
But what can I do? I'm not someone who’d say “I want normality, no matter the cost”.
Yes, I do want to be normal, but what if being normal isn’t me?
Sometimes I think there’s a different side to me, a side which I just fail to see.
Usually I just see myself as an abnormal person who doesn’t belong in this dreadful place,
But at times I have to wonder if there’s something else to me, like how the **** did I tough out so much hate and ache.
I want to be normal so bad for I can’t understand the things that go through my mind,
And these I will not tell people for they’d slowly leave me, they’d see me as a freak sign.
I want to be normal, but then again I can’t deny who I am, I can’t deny myself,
I’ve already tried burying this part of me, and trust me it ruined my mental health.
Whips, chains, collars, ropes, razors, blood, darkness, Submissive, being choked that is me,
I can’t pretend, I can’t be what people want me to be.
Wattpad, NF music, being alone, being trapped in my mind, having dark thoughts these are my comforts,
But still, I am a loving and fun person, for what its worth.
I think normality isn’t for me,
Normality is something I should no longer seek.
I am not normal and I accept that now, I accept who I am,
For if I can't accept me, then I don’t think anyone else can.
Sometimes she's just tired of being different, tired of not being able to open up to her friends and partner. And that *****...
Luna Jay Dec 2018
Hot pink between her hips,
She’s sinking all his ships.
Her finger slips
Into her slit-
Fun dip.
And raises moon phases to her lips.
Blows the atmosphere a kiss,
Drinks the ocean in little sips.
Gallons of salty tears at her fingertips.
Woman yearning for the rip,
Boy learning to make me drip.
I’m hit.
And I’m only begging for more.
I adore the way you think you’re
Using me.
Noelis Dec 2018
your hands on my hips so firm
while we aggressively kiss
hungry for each other
you bite my lower lip
oh master, you look so celestial
your black, leather belt
on my soft, pale neck
please, tighten it up
take me to that high
drive me crazy
whip me up and call me out
punish your ***** little  s l u t
for being such a  b r a t.
Toni-Ann Johnson Dec 2018
I placed his hand around my throat, “is this what you want?” he asked,
I honestly couldn’t answer so I lied, I just couldn’t let him take up this task.
I can’t let him know how wet it makes my underneath just by putting his delicate hand around my throat,
If only he knew how such a simple gesture made me soak.
If only he knew how dark I am, if only he knew that I am a freak,
He’s too innocent to be ****** in my dark world, he need not know the type of pain I seek.
How can I explain to him how much I want to be choked while being kissed?
How can I explain to him that dark pain is what causes me bliss?
I won’t, I don’t think I can,
I hope he understands that hiding this part of me was never my plan.
How can I ruin such an innocent boy?
He sees me as his wife and not just some toy.
He won’t be able to cope with the things I want him to do to me,
For he’s not the type who will demand me to go on my knees.
But despite this I love him, I really and truly love him,
And if keeping him means caging away this part of me, then without hesitation I’ll keep it within.
I’ll still be the dark person I am, but I love this man, and I am not willing to jeopardize what I have with him,
So if lying to him about the person I really am is what I must do, then I guess it will be my only sin.
Sometimes we are afraid to tell persons who we really are, we are scared that they might mistreat us or not understand us, but sometimes you must take the risk. If they really love you then they'll understand.
Toni-Ann Johnson Dec 2018
I want to be submissive to him,
He knows what I want, I want him to be my Dom, my master, my king.
I want him to be in control of my body, I want to be his *** *****,
I want to pleasure him, even if to me it is pain.
I want to let the freak inside me reign,
For whenever he is close, I can feel it pumping in my veins.
I want to fulfill whatever ****** desires he has in store for me,
I need him to take control of my body, I’ll let him do whatever he please.
If only he could see how submissive I am or can be to him,
I doubt he knows how easy it is for him to get under my skin.
I am submissive to you by choice and not by command,
I want to be under your control, I’ll do whatever you want as long as you demand.
Blindfold me, spank me, do whatever you please,
Choke me, punish me, after all, I am your freak.
Whatever ***** things you desire I’ll go through with it,
If me gagging on you is what you want then sit back for I’ll give you a proper fix.
My submissiveness will give you all the pleasure you desire,
Please take me dominant one, bring a calm to my raging fire.
Tie me down sir, spank me if I disobey you, finger me until I get oversensitive and my legs start to shake,
Please don’t stop until I’ve ventured out into subspace.
Allow me to beg for you to come inside me,
I want you to see how much I need you, how much I need this, how much I need “Us” please.
Be my Dom I’ll be your sub, I’ll be submissive to you alone, I swear with other guys I won’t flaunt,
I’ll wear a collar that says your name if it is what you want.
My submission to you didn’t just appear,
I tasted you once and from my mind, it can never disappear.
My submission and my love is the greatest thing I could ever give to you.
I wanted him to take my submission, but he made it waste.
Toni-Ann Johnson Dec 2018
Take me to that forbidden place,
That place where you spill my blood and cause me such blissful ache.
Lay me on the table, gather your tools,
While I reminisce on your words “those who fear pain are fools”.
Lay your bruising hands upon my yearning body,
After you’re done with me feel no remorse, say no apology.
I'm begging you for this,
Give me that painful bliss.
Sharpe pointy cold knife,
Run your tongue over every slice.
Strong caring hands gripping my throat,
As I repeat your unforgettable oath.
Spank me while I count,
Increase the amount if something other than numbers escapes my mouth.
Gently kisses turns into dangerous blood rushing bites,
The painful pleasure you give me has endless heights.
Trembling legs, oversensitive ****,
Bleeding body, throbbing ****.
Master use me to please yourself,
I know I am addicting to you, I may even be bad for your health.
But are you willing to take me on this dangerous voyage?
Please say yes, I need this, please agree and honor this as a solemn pledge.
I don't even know what's happening to me, but I can't deny it.
Toni-Ann Johnson Dec 2018
Before him there was you,
I’d usually follow you around, stare at you for long periods, there wasn’t anything I wouldn’t do.
But you ignored me,
And yet still I stayed on my knees.
Then one day he came, and he took me away,
Then immediately after you started paying me attention, you started to play.
I started staring at you once again,
My mind thought about you every now and then
The more I visited your favorite quite place the more I changed,
I completely transformed when I found out you were a ****** when I found out you could give me pain.
I shared personal stuff with you because I could relate with you since I was a submissive *******,
I trusted you because you were a ******.
I admired you a lot, I still do,
But what you did, I honestly didn’t expect it from you.
What am I even saying, you’re a ******, and causing pain is what you do,
I just didn’t expect you to break my heart in two.
“Will you humor me sexually, be subject to my ****** whims?” this was what you asked,
I wanted to, but you knew what was stopping me from carrying out your tasks.
I wanted to say yes, I wanted to be your toy,
But I couldn’t, so my heart you destroyed.
You told me to forget about you,
And this is what I can’t do.
You blocked me before my last message could go through,
How will I handle seeing you?
I am sorry for not being able to fulfill your request,
Honestly, I tried my best.
I guess this is goodbye,
now I will cry.
cry for the loss of my ******,
what else can I say, this is tragic.
Words cannot explain, only tears.
Toni-Ann Johnson Dec 2018
So you say you’re sadistic, I think you’re perfect,
You might be creepy in some way, but knowing a ****** is worth it.
I don’t know if you are this way by choice, or if it just grew on you, but I like it,
I like your weirdness, your playful aura, your personality and the fact that you’re a ******.
I want to know something though, I want to know what goes through your mind when you stare at me,
Do you **** me a thousand ways in your mind, do you eye **** me or do you imagine me at your knee.
Do you want to have me helplessly begging for your pleasure?
Or would you rather have me all ******* and waiting for you to discover every inch of me like a long-lost treasure?
Must I give you my body so you can carve your name on it?
Would you find pleasure in choking me while I moan out your name like the ******* I am? Would that make you feel pure bliss?
Your ****** is growing within you, it yearns to get a release from the cage you’ve placed it in,
Don’t you want to feel the blood on your lips while you view the art you’ve created on my skin?
You find pleasure in hurting me, I find pleasure in being hurt,
A ****** and a submissive *******, do you think that will work?
Do you like whips? Or you’re the restraint type?
Are you a ****** just for now? Or will you be this way for life?
Either way, my mind imagines a lot about you,
I wonder if these sinful things will come true.
My body yearns for your bruising touch, please master, please touch me,
I long to be sexually hurt, I long to bleed.
Tie me down, lay out your rules,
I swear I’ll follow them, after all, I’ll be in your school.
Use your paddle and spank me mercilessly if I misbehave,
Don’t feel remorse for me after, for even the spanking will sexually arouse me just the same.
Command me to go down on my knees,
In the end, if I fail to swallow every single drop I want you to punish me.
Honestly, I just want you to make me shudder under your touch, I’ll still crave more,
Take my body and do whatever you want, even if it leaves me sore.
You favor the color red, slice me open and you’ll see the color you so desire,
We both know we can put a calm to each other’s raging fire.
Please, Master, make it hurt, make it hurt in a way which will have me begging you for more,
Please don’t ignore me, don’t leave me on the other side of the door.
Yes you are sadistic, you know you’re
You might be creepy in some way, but knowing you is worth it.
Inspired by someone who makes me crazy
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