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566 · Sep 2012
A.Denise.B.
Jay Sep 2012
I was wrong.
I was so wrong.
So selfish
And young.
I am so sorry.
5 years later.
It's meaningless
I know.
But you should know.
It still hurts.
To see how I hurt you.
A sharp pain.
Where my heart is.
Where my heart,
Should have been.
You deserved better.
I hope you have better.
But I'm still selfish
Because I want you back.
I want it all over again.
I want to love you again.
The right way.
Just one night.
Can I hold you
Can I kiss you
Can I love you?
Just one more time
And make it last forever
I would never let go
Dreams don't come true
But I'll keep dreaming
So I can have you
I'll always be sorry
I'll always love you
And I'll always want yu back.
You're perfect.
And I will admit...
I was wrong
I was so wrong
565 · Oct 2014
Rated ♡
Jay Oct 2014
As we lay spooned, the smooth caress of your body dips into unison with my hips as if we're intertwined in time and we make slow rotations in rhythmic formations simulating love making

Then my lips press dense to your neck and the scent you present becomes combined with mine and you take each of your breaths with every ****, bite, caress my lips have left. As you turn your body around to face me, though we can't see I can feel your eyes gleam and the steam of our passion reside in my sheets

And my hands slowly run up the sides of your frame and feel for the tip of your ****** and squeeze ever so gentle as you wince at the  sensation of your breast as the catalyst for the creation of heat in your sweet crease.

Then I trail sweet kisses along the length of your ear, softly ******* the lobe and a single probe of my tongue inside your hearing hole makes your hips raise from my bed frame.

Your natural call says it all and you lead my head low but I pause to embrace and graze in your womanly hills. My lips perch on your ****** and **** soft then hard rifts of chords sheet music couldn't even record as I play in tune to you and your needs my tongue meets and retreats in a rapid repeat against your **** and your private parts begin to pulsate with anticipation of coexisting relations with mine.

In time I make sure to graze and embrace each of your womanly hills and the thrill that chills me as you claw my back and wrap your gravity around me pulling down, down.

Here I find myself at the valley of your mountains where I want to dive into your lake but I don't dare to taste with out making my trail to the peak and back down to where you leak sweetly. So I allow my tongue to trace licks of alphabets and soft nips from my teeth sealed with the kiss of my lips trailing wide across your inner thighs to the fold of your knee and trail kisses back down slowly.

You can call it teasing, but I'm pleasing you as I'm breathing you in and out letting my warm whisp slip over your **** and your legs split open with yearning for my long awaited sip so I part your lips before I grip each of your thighs and pin them aside.

You welcome me into your pink dream with the lift of your hips to the tip of my tongue as I open my lips and let my tongue trace a flick from the top of your prepuce to the tip of your **** as I **** firmly on your sweet drips in tandem to the flicking licks my tongue emits.

Deep in your gut you start to feel a fluster that thrusts thru you sending you numb, I say "babe, ***" as I continue my quest and your breaths tremor and your legs give out in a fit of quivering weakness as your body collapse as you reach your ******.

I let your body rest before laying spooned with you as your body dips into unison with my hips as if we're intertwined in time and we make slow rotations in rhythmic formations simulating love making all over again
Like a love song on repeat
562 · Feb 2013
You Fucking Animal
Jay Feb 2013
So in love
So blatantly in love
Yet so cowardly unfulfilled
Fueled are those heated angers
As fire spews from you,
Directly into my inspiration
Burning any potential
For me to be a better partner
Fury boils your blood
You have no sense of hesitation
And I'm the red flag waving
For the horns of your greed
To stab straight through my heart
As I lay there wounded, cut deep
You won't return until I've bled out
And you can devour me all over again
553 · May 2017
Ex-files
Jay May 2017
Thought about my ex today.
Reminisced about the *** and such.
I know I said that I'd still love that girl,
But Lord knows I've never lied so much.
My ex girl is a good dream about a bad time that I mistakenly got away from.
My ex girl is a good dream about a good **** that could one day ***.
My ex girl is a bad *****, with the thick hips and the *** to match, lips that softly slip so sweet with every kiss; I loved that.
My ex girl has that pretty face that makes necks break and men chase and she knows it.
My ex girl is a flirt and knows I want her bad and she shows it.
She looks at me so deep and sneaks through to my conscience and can switch it off so quick.
My ex girl got the magic; she could make you quiver in just one lick.
My ex girl could get it.
But I can't **** wit it.

My ex girl ain't wife type.
And I'm at that point in life where I'm tryna live that wife life.
So she could be bad all she want and it's sad she don't want that wife hype.
She could be so good but she's bad at being honest; more concerned with "likes" than love.
More concerned with quick *** and rec drugs.
**** gonna catch up to her one day and she'll learn that she should've used that beauty on the runway.
But I'm done bae, no matter how amusingly your beauty continues enthusing me.
But you slept while you couldn't be working to be the One bae.
Done.
547 · Dec 2014
Recovering Cutter
Jay Dec 2014
As the aches of sadness quake and shake me
I lie awake trying not make that mistake again
That mistake that left these holes in my skin
The mistake that cost me a lifetime of shame
The mistake that I'm still too embarrassed to claim
That mistake that forces me to cover with sleeves
That mistake that's so permanent and never leaves
That mistake I'd make when I just needed a friend
The mistake I said I'd never make again
Yet each time a tear drips past my chin
I remember the chair I used to sit in
I'd remember the edge pressed on my wrist
I think of the hand balled in a fist
I think of me thinking of dropping the edge
I think of me thinking of jumping the ledge
I remember that I would choose to press deep
I think of the blood and how it would seep
I remember how warm it was as it fell
If it was blood or tears, how I couldn't tell
I think of the night I trashed the edge
And to myself I made a pledge
From this night on if sadness quakes
And upside down my world shakes
Then I will bow down on my knees
And ask the Lord for purity, please
So now when I'm sad, the mistakes not an option
I vowed to God and I know he's watching
546 · Oct 2016
Pro-Choice
Jay Oct 2016
Beauty, poise, and dignity dancing a three-way tango
Was the essence of her iridescent message
Told to the world at the sight of her presence
Every man goes head sprung to see her hips graze as the
Wind's swift nip tips her midi to lay smooth on her left hip
And her hair whipped by whisks to sift sunlight drips
Eyes dip-dyed in henna she burns passion on a
Narrowly paved road into a man's soul.
But she's just a fabulous face and glorious shape
Protecting her chaste from
Men who's glancing trails she can trace to
That untapped place she takes pride in and embraced.

So this woman who goes on a date
With the fraudulent fake who was gay to
**** her to her face and
Inseminate,
Resulting in the corruption of her precious womb and
Transforming it into a tomb for
His devil spawn to be drawn from,
Has one of two fates?

She can get down on her knees and plead with
Jesus to be free from this ghastly beast that
Grows deep within her integrity
Pray that a robber could steal this
Non-consensual deal that
She can't yet feel multiplying inside her.
Let fate take the reigns and pave the lane
For the blood to drain from her vaginal pane and
Her popped cherry will miscarry?

OR

As dignified a life she lives, she could take back all that freedom she was stripped of in the first place
She could make a choice and have a voice about her own birth space.
Because it's hers and he didn't understand that in the first case.
The jury rests; Her body Her rules, at Her pace
527 · Oct 2014
Hibernation
Jay Oct 2014
With every breath of crisp autumn breeze
Harbor another secret to keep you warm through winter's storm
Hibernate from truth and reality
When awakened, release all your secrets held deep
And free yourself from the burden of shame and deceit
And watch the show as people go from their seats
And leave your pagaent because they can't take the heat.
When you only wish you could breathe autumn's breeze
And hoard all your secrets like mice saving cheese
And not have to awaken to people to please
But telling your secrets' what life is indeed
527 · Jul 2013
Rose Within
Jay Jul 2013
The rose that grows some
Slow but wholesome
Is a product of perfection
But those thorns point upright
Toward any form of sunlight
Blinding the beauty altogether
The bad takes over
Because the good is no fun
And the thorn prevails again
But once that flower is picked
And that first hand bleeds so
The thorn will fall in shame
And realize it should've just been a rose
523 · Oct 2014
She loves a stranger
Jay Oct 2014
She don't know you quite like I do
If she even got a whiff she would be through
Should I let her know her king is a masquerader
Stepping out on his queen to sleep with crusaders
Blind to his lies, she dreams of perfection
When another ***** is the one enjoying his *******
Should I let her know her man calls me home?
That nobody sings like me on his microphone?
Or should I get what I want and just walk away
Because I know him that much better than she could say
Should I live with the fact that she's the next me
Or should I let her in on his pattern of fuckery
Should I hate him alone or get her on my team
He doesn't deserve love; he's just another broken dream
Best friend was going through this with her ex and his girlfriend. Decided I'd write a poem about it because I have nothing else to write about.
516 · Oct 2014
Eat the Peach
Jay Oct 2014
Sweet peach
The fuzz
The juice creeps
The buzz
The hard bite
The shape
The soft slurp
The juice
The drip drop
The wipe
The mess made
My shirt
The new stain
My love
For sweet peach
Just eating a peach and being mind full of it and came up with this within a minutes time. Could be taken differently, it your mind is there
515 · Dec 2014
I want to be friends.
Jay Dec 2014
I want our friendship to bloom.
Grow like ivy on trees and around chimneys.
I want our love to soar.
Fly high like shooting stars in the dark night sky.
I want our bond to flourish.
Thrive like bamboo in an everlasting dry spell.
I want us to break up.
So all of this could be possible.
Because we would be better off as friends.
496 · Nov 2014
Unfriended Friend
Jay Nov 2014
I built an apparatus that allows me to hold the entire world on my shoulders all day.
I just need to find the one who will be able to give me a back rub when my day rests.
Always solving everyone's problems,  dealing with others' stress. But who's gonna be there to take care of me? :/
495 · Oct 2016
Four years different
Jay Oct 2016
This is what happens when little girls cry
They make little girl noise and bat their little girl eyes
And think their little girl plight is something of significance
When in reality it's a demonstration of ignorance
Constant reminder of her lack of life experience
Not trying to embarrass her so I won't ask what the difference is
She's crying to apologize while unaware of who the victim is
But I will let her know 'cause I really want her to get with this
Now don't get me wrong, my attitude's not belligerent
My sole goal alone is to grant her her deliverance
So she can understand that this revolves around malevolence
The result of my greed, my power and my selfishness
My constant arrogance
Self-proclaimed excellence
Lack of establishment
Fraudulent elegance
Unstructured sentiments
All rolled up in one and bowled down her lane
STRIKE
But I've changed
I was just a pretty face and okay base layer
But underneath I was as filthy as Ethiopian feet
Think of this as a feat, that you were the winner of
I could've given you everything but I'd have never given love
If number one was you, I'd have another number two
And you were number two until I made you number three
That's why I'm puzzled that you're apologizing to me
When you should say sorry to you, and '*******' to who I used to be
But I respect where her heart is now
She'll mature and evolve, life will show her how
With God's grace and patience your future will be amazing
And continue to race after all those dreams that you're chasing
Find a love so real that it's bracing
Make sure it's your heart song that they sing
Know that you're always in my good graces
Present yourself as if you are who the ace is
Take my apology and dig my grave with it
I'd hate to hold you back from what your true fate is
God Bless
Jay Jun 2014
The walls are caving in on you and I
I hate to admit, but I like it
The sight of your smile excites me
And I long for the walls to close in more
Forcing us to touch
Your *** appeal is undeniable
A lioness atop the sole mountain of lust
And trust, I'd **** to join you
And join us in unholy adultery
How ive never longed for lust so much as with you
Your soft skin on the palm of my hand
Your lustrous lips combined with mine
Your hands crawling up my back
And snap. Off comes the chastity of we
As i gently place my silky lips to yours
We pass chemistry with flying colors
Colors of blue hue and secular tension
As our kiss turns into magical roughness
Extraction of clothes and integrity
Insertion of love and longing
Exclamation of... Yessssssssssssssssss
Satisfaction of waterfall dreams
Contemplation of the next step
To take in a relationship where I'd cheat...
With the creator time and time again.
462 · Dec 2014
Unfulfilled (10w)
Jay Dec 2014
I only stick around so that you will remain happy.
461 · Dec 2014
She's still ENTRIGUING
Jay Dec 2014
Exactly the way I remember you
Natural sun kissed skin so moist and crisp
Tantalizing eyes sending shivers thru me
Restless hands touching and teasing, please!
Instead of breathing I lose my breath in your
Good, sweet kisses oh how I've missed those
Uniquely silk lips woven by gods
I taste the memory of our last encounter
Now yearning to create something new 'cause
Getting over you is hard to do.
457 · Sep 2012
i miss you
Jay Sep 2012
I never realized
How much I really loved you
Until you were gone
453 · Oct 2014
She loves me, not my poetry
Jay Oct 2014
She can't comprehend my word trend
My blue pen and the dent it left in my hand
Not art she sees as she veers at my leaves
That I paint my heart's drawn blood on
She can't understand my word play
My mix of melody and irony combined in one line
The talent it takes for my brain to relate fate with mistakes
She doesn't get aroused at the spout of my mouth
Spewing words of hatred and love by the ounce
The effort I bring to depict love as rain
With no attempt to learn, she sends my confidence south.
She doesn't care to see the deepest creases of my poetry
But when it's her last call and her curtain falls,
I'm always there through it all.
Why should I watch her gallop and prance
On a stage of uniformed choreo- trance
And be her number one fan for her talent in dance
When my talents, she continues not to take a glance
I cannot love she who openly does not love poetry
For she indeed must not fully love me
439 · Oct 2014
Miss Ya
Jay Oct 2014
One night without holding you
Is an eternity of kisses missed
When I don't see you before I rest
My good dreams are dismissed
And I slip into a shallow rut
Swishing in the waves
I try my best to stay away
from anyone awake
Cause I'm afraid to be alone
Without you I am weak
My crippled heart just falls apart
Without you at my feet
I need your love each day and night
So I can be content
You put my heart in your shopping cart
And didn't ask consent
So now each night I'm without you
I miss you with such pain
But when I see you tomorrow
My heart will sing in the rain
432 · Jan 2015
Peace. Please. (10w)
Jay Jan 2015
Internal violence will be the ultimate death of us all.
As humans, as Americans, as poets... We are fighting each other when we should embrace each others differences, ignore those who don't and move on with life. Peace. Please.
414 · Sep 2012
It's over.
Jay Sep 2012
You make me sick
Depend on her for your ****
Cuz I'm doneee with it.
411 · Apr 2014
Why's your neck red?
Jay Apr 2014
I want to apologize but
Is it right if my eyes size you
And find wary warnings
Of what I dread so?
What I don't know is,
Is it my fault to speak my mind
In time to save it from invention
Of my own dimension of unlivable existence?
I felt not, but tried hard to stop
Sorry from oozing out...
Is it that I felt bad for doubting your part in we
Or your loyalty,
Or your fidelity,
Or your integrity,
Or your respect for me?
Or your honesty,
Or our chemistry,
Or your love for me,
Ultimately?
What goes to say you're truth-ing to me?
Or abusing the youth in me, my naivety?
That manifests in the core of your love.
It's a push and pull of emotions
My trust in you VS the love I have for myself.
I'll continue to contemplate
But the benefit of the doubt is granted
Just don't **** it up.
It's gonna be a sleepless night...
409 · Apr 2013
F
Jay Apr 2013
F
Im about to fail
But everyone makes mistakes right?
No! Not right!
Not when your life depends on it.
Im prepared to fail
Because im pretty good
At cleaning up a big mess
408 · Oct 2014
Passing Life
Jay Oct 2014
Passing time
By passing        12        Time passes
Pass me by             |                 Passes by
Find life to                 |                  By passing
Me to find    9              /              3    Passing life
To pass me               /                  Life happens
Happen to                                Happens by
You happen       6          By passing
Passing you
To be read clockwise and continuously
404 · Jan 2015
Unconditional (10w)
Jay Jan 2015
Love me like it's the last thing you'll ever do
401 · Feb 2013
Original
Jay Feb 2013
**** the status quo
I made a drum I can beat
To my own rhythm
Haiku
381 · Aug 2017
Oh Four Love Jones
Jay Aug 2017
She's my manifest destiny
Queen of my whole being
She brings out the best in me
Sees me for wholy me
****, this **** is freeing to be seen for wholy me, only me
******* I've been living lowly
Living without the curves of her mouth
The spouts of sweet songs her voice moans strongly
The acceptance without judgement of decisions I've made wrongly
The commitment to forgive what we have grown from
The acceptance of the fact that we attracted life lessons that shed blessings on the future we both will be bold from
There's certain **** I can't replace like
The simple caress of my face as I lay cross her supple breast
Hearing her heart beat in her chest in tandem with mine
Heaven sent is her presence
It's life changing
Time frames hold limits within loves parameters
Don't matter to her or I for all we got is time
Time is what made us realize realness
Oh four loves jones turn out to be my whole life, whole wife, future baby mom type...
Crazy how it all turns out, how every obstacle paves the way for greatness
Blessed is the life I pray we get to make
She's destiny, I'll leave the future to fate.
KD.atl
381 · Nov 2014
Gaze in your eyes
Jay Nov 2014
Your soul
A place all your own
But meets light at opening of
Your beautiful brown eyes that only
Can be stared into for moments
At a time for the beauty
within is blinding
376 · Sep 2012
On hold...
Jay Sep 2012
You can't pause me
Pause life
Pause we
My heart waits for nothing
and no one
Time is of the essence
I can't be put on hold
Because I can't hold on
366 · Feb 2013
God's Honest Truth
Jay Feb 2013
I miss you
And you're not mine
But what's worse
Is I'm someone else's
Juiice? AB..CD?
356 · Oct 2012
Shrug
Jay Oct 2012
This is what happens.
When you get too comfortable
I ain't even mad.
Jay Apr 2014
It got swept away in the storm of unforgiveable betrayal.
314 · Dec 2014
I put you first (10w)
Jay Dec 2014
I tend to sacrifice my smile so that you can.
311 · Nov 2014
Don't let go (10w)
Jay Nov 2014
Love me like the world will light on fire tonight
291 · Oct 2014
How I found faith (10w)
Jay Oct 2014
I woke up and stared hope directly in the eye
279 · Oct 2014
It's over, but I'm not done
Jay Oct 2014
That incredible bond we shared fell through
But here I am, still in love with you

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