Live in the moment
build walls around it
call it your home
'cause you're gonna miss it
when its gone

take a picture
hang it on the wall
so there's somewhere you can go
when you've lost it all

keep it in your heart
a place no one can touch
'cause you know when its gone
you're 'gonna miss it very much

it may never come back
so make it your dream
so when there's a lonely night
you have a place to be

live in the moment
build walls around it
call it your home
'cause you're gonna miss it
when its gone
maybe you don't want to believe
that you will be strong
but say what you want
you're gonna miss it when its gone

Sometimes it feels-
All I do,
Is paint over the scars.
In silence I conceal,
What's real,
And who we are.
So, Here's to the wounds-
That won't heal,
As I steal-
Words that'll be my last.
From the grave of my dreams,
That I've seen-
Behind an ashen'd mask.
As ash kiss the air-
It's everywhere,
Like a drifting boat-
With no mast.
Standing on the edge,
Of what I see,
Of what is-
Miles ahead and in past.
Reflections of what was,
When I was found,
And how I got lost.
Made and left to rot,
In the glory I did bask.
As the hour slips away,
A question remains-
I never remembered to ask.
And then I realize,
As I close my eyes-
I was never meant to last.

NOTE: this is a surreal story I'm attempting to write in a disguise of a children's tale but progressively with a darker undertone to it, I want to create a magical but yet confusion world where things don't make sense and then try to decode it, I'm afraid I might lose interest once again if I don't get the motivation, inspiration and right amount of critics to guide me, thank you. ( beginnings are always boring but keep your eyes open)

'THE SOMEWHERE LAND'


{ prologue }

Mister Simons was an old man of eighty four,
A very peculiar personality-
Hung his own impending obituary by the blue door.
He was having these visions lately;
A fat man beating him with his own cane outside the local store,
He wondered if it was merely a dream or if that had happened before.
Quiet frankly, he didn't remember much about his past anymore.
It's fair to say it happens to most of us when we grow old.
He lived at the end of the street,
By a house that was burned to the ground when he was only four.
Some say it is haunted,
Others say ghosts don't exist in the age of modern science anymore.
Whatever the case is-
It's clear that mister Simons never had any problem with his neighbor.
Though one time he did complain about someone breaking his mirror-
But that's maybe the work of mischievous kids living down the street.
They always cause trouble for him with many ***** deeds,
That's why mister Simons respectfully filed a case against them-
But lost and could never make them leave.
There is also a rumored dog that lives in his house but no one has heard or seen him in a while.
Some speculate that he has died.
Though, mister Simons is sometimes caught buying dog food at the local grocery store,
The one's who think mister Simons dog is just an old fancy myth say-
It's him for who it is for.
That's a very nasty charge against mister Simons-
But no one can ever dare to ask him.
Only once in the neighborhood history someone tried to approach mister Simons,
But off-course, he didn't let him in.
Mister Simons has a few problems of his own,
A few plants have began to sprout out of his skin.
He has an allergy to flowers,
so he daily shaves them off from within.
Miss molly down the lane is the only one to have ever spoken to him-
And claims she saw him grin.
Some say it was just a trick of light-
Others have a more horrid view and claim she is lying,
And she'll go to hell for this sin.
Mister Simons father built that house around the time he was born,
No one's really sure of who he is because everyone came there after-
A construction company started building homes.
There are stories that unicorns and dinosaurs roamed the land-
They were on a friendly terms with mister Simons,
Since he was the only man-
But the construction company men killed them one by one and it was real ugly.
They said it doesn't makes up for an ideal place to raise a family.
Some say mister Simons retreated in the deepest corner inside of him-
After this tragedy.
Others say it's all a lie and there is no construction company in reality.
Those houses were made by little magical dwarfs,
Who have been cursed by the evil witch to provide comfortable homes to humanity.
She eats their babies if they don't comply with the curse-
So, they'll keep on building and serving humans till eternity.
It's a topic of much debate amongst the residents of this street,
No one is really sure of where the other end of their street leads.
It's barricaded by mister Simons house at one corner,
And the screaming lake at the other end.
The history of the lake is also as much in speculation as mister Simons himself.
Some say it was made by the tears of mister Simons,
As he watched the men slaughter his friends and couldn't help.
Others say it was made by the tears of mister Simons,
When he watched his father die in a drought with a thirst he couldn't quell.
One can hear the screams in the dead of every other night,
It is speculated by some that the screams are of the creatures killed by the men screaming still in fright.
It is very difficult to be precise about who is right,
But one thing is for sure-
The lake makes up for a very beautiful sight.


Chapter: 1 - introduction

[I will be your narrator for the rest of the story,
Guiding you through this wonderful adventure with all of its-
Heart-break and glory.]


--

Everything in somewhere land had always been a little strange as far as I could tell,
The lamp-posts by the streets seemed like they were carved out of trees but weren't exactly wood but something entirely else.
Every house except mister Simons house was a bit too pointy in my opinion and were smaller than the other houses I've ever had been in.
It rained everyday sharply at 3'o clock in the daytime and again 3'o clock in the night-time.
The strangest of all were the residents of this peculiar street,
There were ten houses, four of them on one side and four of them on the other side and then there was mister Simons house at the end of the street right next to the burned haunted house.

Mister Richard and misses Molly lived with their only son svain in the house with the placard no. 1 at the beginning of the street. Mister Richard was big and bulky with black hair and blue eyes, he had a very simple face - the kind you can't recognize when you haven't met that person for a long period of time. He was the manager at the local grocery store and proud owner of a brand new double rocket tractor.
Misses Molly too had black hair and blue eyes, she was even taller than her husband and very pale. She was a very beautiful lady with an aura of sophistication around her but was very polite. Oh.. And she didn't knew how to cook.
Svain was an 12 year old with black hair and blue eyes. he wasn't that tall but was skinny which made him look taller than he was. he always wore red color and was moderately popular in school. Some say it was due to the fact he could eat and swim at the same time, an ability passed down generation to generation in his family.

Grandma frey lived with her dog penny in the house with placard no. 2, she was sixty seven years old but looked even older because of a tragic life in which she had to raise twenty children
- one of her own, two from her husband's marriage before, three of her sister who died with her husband when they both ate the poisonous golden plant at the superficial forest, four more were adopted when she took a trip to afro-icca, five more were adopted from a church in some other part of the world when she came across their 'take-a-child and help-the-lord' campaign. She also raised six of her children's - children but sadly one of them died when it tried to sing and eat at the same time.


Mister and misses Hailey lived in the house with placard no. 3. They were a family of four completed by their son owkwarld and daughter shinying. Owkwarld was fourteen and was speculated to be a bully at the local school, he was big and fat like all the other bullies ever lived and maintained his diet by stolen lunches. He had blonde hair and dark eyes with some freckles around his nose and always wore a cap no matter how windy it was. Shinying was eleven and tiny and cute and caring. She cared for everyone and was ready to help anyone in need. She too had blonde hair and blue eyes but a milky smooth complexion and always wore a smile on her face no matter how windy it could get. She was also a thief when it came to shiny things.


Mister bubbles and misses soapy lived in the house with placard no. 4, they pretty much kept to themselves. They had no social lives as of yet because they had no children and children are must to have a decent social lives in somewhere land unless you are old, dying or out-going and friendly.


Uncle paperazi lived in the house with the placard no. 5, he had white hair and a white beard, he was thin and always wore a black lab coat. He always kept to himself and made things made of paper - like paper beds and paper tables, paper cushions and paper toothbrushes. He couldn't sell a single item all of these years because they came with no guarantee or warranty whatsoever.


Darc and Ulla were the latest residents of the house with placard no. Six, they moved in after the yolo family left after feeling they weren't really important. Darc was tall and Ulla was short, Darc wore a smile and Ulla wore a frown. Darc had a job and Ulla stayed at home. Darc ate the food and Ulla cooked the food. Darc made jokes and Ulla washed the clothes. Darc was a man and Ulla was a woman.


Cofeetea and barcandy moved to the house with placard no. 7 around the time 'Dracula' was released all across the country with much hype and was proved to be a disaster. Cofeetea was sweet and barcandy even sweeter though the excess of them could really make anyone dizzy.


Dhornie - a singleton, lived by herself in the house with placard no. 8 for a long time now, she was a middle-aged twenty nine year old woman who had moved to the street when she was only eighteen to find the one true love of her life, some say she has a crush on Dracula

Things fall in place,
Out of star-dust-
A life takes a face.
In the sudden morn',
A new tale is made;
Past wouldn't be forgotten-
But yet it fades.

It builds from the roots,
Into the branches-
those span the horizon;
weather begins to change,
Seasons bring the age-
And thus begins the erosion.

Though yet it does grows,
Now more than ever.
Ushering into a beautiful flower-
In that moment forever;
For the time never withers,
It stays such-
Always together.

Embracing what there is,
Tested by the years-
In a hurry to depart.
An ocean of every wish,
Of smile and tears-
To be contained in a heart.

Touching what is around,
Sometimes in silence-
But every move makes a sound.
Flying ever so high-
Knowingly,
That one day all must come down
And be spent,
To the ruins it was always bound.

Rusting every winter,
With a hope of a new spring.
To lay claim as own-
Of everything let in.
Changing with every breath,
Only to shed the same skin;
A voice that will be lost-
But never afraid to sing.

The lies won't hide the truth,
Or make the last step-
Disappear.
For as far as you look,
One can see the signs-
Of what was once here.

Though the heart beats,
And the memories still speak-
No matter how much it weeps;
You have to leave.
No matter what you'll keep,
Bury it somewhere deep-
The dark will seep;
And the tale will be freed.

Things will again fall in place,
Journey never forgets a face-
For time always move along.
With all our right and wrong,
No matter how short or long;
Somewhere at the end-
We'll have to finish the song.
At end of the maze,
When done with the chase-
I know I'll be too tired to go on.

Silent memories,
Moments - seasons untold.
Burned thoughts and diaries,
Torment - reasons unfold.
Unspoken remembrance,
An essence-
Forgotten in span of time.
Invincible resistance,
Of all those reasons-
That were once left behind.
How come they never remind,
Of the path we sought-
And we could never find.
Fumes of burned morrow,
Scarring us in our yesterday-
Made us blind.
Of all those wounds-
Some that will never heal,
Where the only ones that did bind.
In depths a story hides,
Where the words lie.
In dark of our conscience,
Invisible to the naked eye.
Whence the whispers howl,
A corpse comes back to life.
Happy days and lonely nights
- speaks of serenity and strife.
In a loop of unbreakable visions,
That haunts every inch of a heart.
To be remembered for the last time
And then again,
Before it slowly falls apart-
And is made once again,
In a different name-
But the same story,
That will never change.
Spring makes way for the winter,
As them past years wither.
Weathered upon by the bleeding-
Voices and a feeling so strange.
In this barren land,
How come it never rained-
Though the dark clouds,
Have always been all across the sky.

24-march-1981

Hey sweetheart, it's been a while and I know you are depressed,
Sometimes it takes some time before you can move on and forget.
I wish I could've been there for you but that's not my only regret,
How is our little girl, do you still sing to her like I did,
Before you put her to bed ?.
I've been busy lately, there's just so much goin' on inside my head,
It's been so hard and I've been so stressed lately that sometimes--
I even forget to take a breath.
The time is ugly and I miss your pretty face whenever anger begins to swell,
Last night I tried to take my life, climbed over a chair and put on a belt,
But somehow I don't know how, it didn't work out when I fell
And I am sorry, I wouldn't do it again, I don't ever wanna feel,
How at that moment I felt.
I am sorry I left you guys alone, but know this that I'll never leave you,
I know it's been a ride but yesterday I had a dream and we did pull through,
You wore the black dress you wanted but I didn't have the money to buy,
I am sorry I couldn't get you things, I always hate myself for being that guy,
We are good people, don't you think ?
God doesn't answer our prayers no more and I don't know why,
I pray to him everyday, I want to buy you guys the world before I die.
Oh, it's about time already, I have to leave, see you soon, loads of love.
Good-bye.

3-april-1981

I got your letter yesterday, you sound better then you did a month before,
I hope you are doin' fine, I don't want you to get in trouble no more.
I don't want to speak about your suicide attempt, I have no words in store,
I hope you never think of it again, get those thoughts out of your core,
If not for me, for our daughter at least, I know you won't, I am sure,
Remember we have no one else but you, don't lock away our only Door.
Our little girl is growing way too fast, you should see her before she does,
She doesn't wants me to sing to her, she wants you,
So I don't sing to her anymore.
It's gettin' hard to pay the bills, it kills me to ask you,
But when are you sending the money, winter is around the corner--
And it's getting cold.
They say the winter is going to be the coldest in a decade,
I saw it yesterday on the news report.
I am saving some money, will buy our princess a new coat.
Don't you feel down, we love you with all our heart,
I miss you so much, I miss the way you could make me laugh.
Money is never important, but I guess we have nothing else either,
I still need some time to forgive you and forget what you did,
I don't sleep in our room no more, I still imagine you inside her.
But I guess I don't hate you anymore, I understand mistakes happen,
And out of 'em all, you deserve a second chance more than anyone else,
You were always and always will be a fighter,
I trust you with our lives, they say in darkness even a spark looks so brighter,
I know it's been a ride but we just have to sit it out and hold each other a little bit tighter,
So, I'll wait for your letter, take care of yourself,
I hope things will change now for the better.



17-june-1981



Things are getting bad over here, they are cutting men off,
I don't know if I'm going to be the next, so I am putting in more hours,
I don't know when it's all gonna' stop.
Sometimes I don't sleep all night, I just go out and walk,
It's good here in the city ya' know, every one minds their own business and nobody comes over to have a talk.
I went to a seminar yesterday, it was good ya' know,
The man on the stage told us we should be happy with what we've got
And then there were people crying about the loved ones they have lost,
It got me thinking, what a fool I am, I have you guys and that means alot,
Nothing would mean anything to me if I don't have you guys,
I just want you to know how much I love you guys and want to be with you no matter what the cost.
By the way I sent some money, I hope it would pay all the bills,
If some gets left over, I want you to buy something for yourself, promise me you will.
I know I hurt you so much and the scars need some time to fill,
But you know I love you and I know you love me still.
I don't wanna talk about it today, it makes me feel so sad,
Past couple of days were no good either, i guess I'm going mad,
I never knew things will turn out this way and the time will get this bad,
All I can do is dream about the good times we could have had.
Life is slipping away and every day we are getting old,
Why don't we learn about how much life *****, why is that we are never told.
I don't want rest of my life runnin' around and chasin' gold.
I want to come home and kiss you when I want, touch you and hold,
I hope it gets better after we die, I hope we have a soul,
This world is ******' trash and it swallows everything like a black-hole,
It takes away a father from his daughter, and husband away from his wife,
Dumps you in a ******' garbage land and expects you to survive,
God, it's been so long and all I want is to feel alive,
I am goin' out for a walk, I don't want to make you more sad, kisses to our princess, good-night.


26-june -1981

It's okay to be sad, it's okay to feel hurt and pain,
But it's not okay to just cry about it and complain,
Who are you so angry on, who else should be a part of our blame ?
Tell me, I need a name!.
Life is no fairytale, I have learned to accept it and now I am awake,
I hope you do too, before the lights go out and you have nowhere else to run,
You give up so easily, why do you think everyone else is havin' fun ?
Natalie lost her child a few weeks back, Stan lost his home,
We have both, don't we ? why do you think we are on our own ?
I get it, sometimes all this misery can make you feel alone,
But that doesn't mean you should give up everything and mourn,
C'MON don't give up now, remember when our daughter was born ?
They said she wouldn't make it, but she did, she didn't give up and neither will you for our home.
I know it will get better, most of all, you deserve it more than anyone else,
Even when the goin' got tough, you never once asked for help,
And I am proud of you, as I should be, and you should be too for yourself,
Like every other time, we only get stronger, after all the stuff we have dealt,
I admit, it feels like we're in a ******' hell,
Fate is not in our hands, but we can do our part and give all we have, it will make a difference I promise, someday we might hear them bells.
I don't have anything else to say, I hope you write back soon,
When you take a walk tonight look at the moon, I'll be looking too.

















12-November-1998

Hey Tim, I know we are getting married in a month but I still miss you so so much,
Wish you were her with me tonight, so I could kiss and touch.
But that's not why I am writing you this letter to make myself feel better.
I wanted to tell you about how I feel about it all,
Do you remember that painting I put on the wall ?
I made it when I was six, it was getting colder and it was in midst of fall.
Dad had gone away and mom and me were struggling to survive,
I was crazy too, not a day went by when I didn't pull of a tantrum and fight.
I wanted dad to sing to me every night, see his face before switching off the lights.
I didn't like mom that much, she always scolded me no matter what I did,
But i guess i didn't understand then, i was just a kid.
It was hard when I was growing up, sometimes we had a place and no food,
Other times we had food but no place of ours and trust me that wasn't cool.
I was always the odd one out and everyone made fun of me at school,
I hated my parents for that--
Oh, I was such a fool.
Dad worked night and day just so we could have food on the table every night,
Both my parents never got through high school, and got married when mom got pregnant and was thrown outside--
Of her home inspite of the fact she was the only child.
My dad left his home to support my mom against the wishes of his family,
They were so happy when I was born, they never treated me like a tragedy,
No matter how tough the times got, how low they got, they gave all they could to me happily,
They held me close and away from the gloomy reality.
I still remember how those years went by, for me it was just a blink of an eye
But to them it was a lifetime of hardship and pain,
But you know what they tell me ?
They would happily do it all over again.
They worked hard, both of them and things did change,
But you know what, they still remain the same,
Inspite of how far they have come and what they have achieved,
When it was too easy for them to leave, they stayed together,
Held my little hands and sheltered me no matter how bad was the weather,
I was all they cared about, nothing else never did matter,
They saved every penny for me, even though my dad had so many chances but he never left her.
You must be wondering why I am telling you all this now,
But today I found some old letters, in a box in the attic, now I understand so much better,
It made me sad for a while, but I guess it was a part of our life,
It made us who we are today, I wouldn't want it any other way either,
I don't know what to call it, but I know it makes me feel loved, crazy isn't it ?
To know how far they have come, and how their hard worked payed off,
It almost makes me want to believe in god but I don't have to,
That will only make my parents struggle look less inspiring, god didn't pull us through.
They did, and I owe my every breath to them,
I don't know what made me hold a pen, but I don't want them to know I found those letters,
So I am confessing all of this to you,
I will show them to you one day, when things get tough, maybe that'll help us to find our way,
For it made me realize one thing and one thing only,
Love stays red even if the world moves on to shades of grey,
I guess it all makes sense now, it's such a beautiful day.

How could it be,
That you were my only.
I could never feel,
But I always felt so lonely.
Your beautiful face,
When did it become so ugly.
It happened so fast,
Now we watch it burn slowly.

How could have I known,
Our love would never have no name.
Oh I'm such a fool,
If I could I would do it again.
But all I remember,
Was a shadow that I became.
Now all I do is mourn,
Don't you ever feel my pain.

How many more scars,
Will your emptiness leave.
What about my heart,
Would it ever let me breathe.
Left me with your hollow,
That I wasn't yet ready to keep.
This night is far from over,
On your memory it feeds.



Now my heart cries,
It reminds what we couldn't have.
Now my dream lies,
Keeps me awake and drives me mad.
And i try to hide,
Close my eyes and take a step back.
But when I open my eyes,
Everything's still painted in black.

Once upon a time,
I saw the angel cry.
I stood there mesmerised,
And I never asked why.

I thought I had found,
The most beautiful sight.
Oh, I stood there in her awe,
As I saw the angel cry.

Her wings spand the moon,
And eyes like stars in the sky.
I thought I heard her whisper,
As she slowly bade me good-bye.




Oh, my years felt so old,
My life so much away and far.
And then when she disappeared,
I realised she gave me a scar.
Oh, those winds were so cold,
That night so lonely and dark.
I don't recall what happened,
But I know I lost my heart.




That moment still haunts,
I was afraid to look in her eyes.
Now that I think of it,
those tears never did dry.

We just stood in silence,
I don't remember when I died.
I woke up and searched for her
But there was only sun-rise.

that's all I remember,
Of that one lonely night.
I thought I saw a dream,
Where I saw the angel cry.



Oh, my years felt so old,
My life so much away and far.
And then when she disappeared,
I realised she gave me a scar.
Oh, those winds were so cold,
That night so lonely and dark.
I don't recall what happened,
But I know I lost my heart.

I see the world--
from the lies of my eyes,
Where the wind blows,
In the winter where I cry.
Take me to my home ,
Put me in a grave where I'll die.
I hear the song,
Of the lonely bird in the sky.
In the hue of the blue,
One vast ocean where it hides.
A place for me to mourn,
And plead them my good-bye.
Those faces that I can't recall,
A crowd that once let me in.
I stole all the love I wanted,
And exchanged heart for my skin.
That moment never lets go
And it is eating me from within,
Find me a place to bleed,
And wash away my every sin.
Every ghost that I once made,
Is now reaching for my heart.
And this truth won't ever fade,
As it slowly tears me apart.
That empty street where I walked,
Has took me so much afar.
I never counted my steps,
And now I am on a different path.
Consuming what is left,
Shattered pieces of a broken glass.
A shadow that reflects,
I am blind to myself at last.

-It was cold and grey
clouds covered the sky
Two men waiting for the bus
As the spring kissed goodbye


One was young
Bright , Mathew his name
Other was old
Tired ,they called him bane
On the other side
From the pavement across
Kids were playing
In dirt and moss
Mathew turned
And whispered to bane
Ah , childhood
Wish I could live it again
But bane just smiled
And not a word he uttered
Mathew was silent
Under his breath he muttered
How rude!
But at that moment
A pretty lady did cross
And Mathew stared
Coudnt keep his eyes off
Mathew turned
And whispered to bane
Ah, manhood
Don't you wish to be young again
But bane just smiled
And not a word he uttered
Mathew was silent
Under his breath he muttered
I was rude !
But at that moment
A beggar came in the plot
He asked for money
But Mathew had not
Mathew turned
And whispered to bane
Ah,charity
Mind some change ?
But bane just smiled
Not a word he uttered
Mathew was silent
Under his breath he muttered
He's cold !
But at that moment
A bus came to stop
And the old got up
used his cane to guide and walk
And Mathew just smiled
And not a word he uttered
Mathew was silent
and under his breath he muttered
I was blind !

Some promises,
That we hold in our emptiness;
Our yesterday was made
And now I am afraid,
To break free--
Nothing was left for me
When I opened my eyes
And still couldn't see,
You were gone in morrow
And there was no trace of me.
I Stumble in my loneliness,
Held your color;
And painted my hollowness.
How can I forget--
When you were all I would get,
A part of my consciousness;
That I would learn to regret.
Cometh the night and cold,
That grip me in my breath;
How would I run away--
When I couldn't even find my way
And all that was lost,
Every moment of our past--
Was left with me to stay.
I hear your voice,
And my head is full of--
Tears and noise,
I have to make a scar to bleed,
Your name engraved--
On the blade that cuts deep;
Will you still pretend,
That I was the one who couldn't see--
And now when you're gone,
Why is the that--
I was the one who wouldn't leave.
Your thoughts do fade
And now and then a new day is made,
But I won't let go of the time,
That you and me couldn't make.
Moments pass by and I am left awake,
These arms still feel you--
My heart is still at the gate,
What would it take,
Wasn't love enough--
To conquer and break,
Into your heart--
I gave you my love and soul,
And now I watch mine--
Grow bitter and cold,
Even though seasons pass by--
Your sorrow never seems to grow old.
I made my peace,
But I still have your disease,
Infected by your presence;
In darkness I find my release--
When the world grows calm
And the hurt cease.
Then, I find you again--
With every dream I breathe,
In the forgotten yesterday of ours,
My whole existence feeds.
But these promises,
That we hold in our emptiness;
Our yesterday was made
And now I am afraid.
To break free--
Nothing was left for me
When I opened my eyes
And still couldn't see,
You were gone in morrow--
And there was no trace of me.

The night was cold and a certain scent was in the air,
The gloom was beginning to set in and bleed despair.
An old man walked by the empty lot, had a cane in his hand.
To-night full moon grazed the sky, and one could see no man.
The old man moved slowly, every step lay trembling noise
A black-hole loomed the atmosphere, ******* everything in a void.
There by the dark alley, a shadow began to appear,
His eyes peering through the mask, waiting for old man to come near.
The blade in his clenched fist, ready to cut and tear,
He was the reaper now, he'll gift the old man his nightmare.
The old man turned a corner, and made his way to him,
And the stranger clenched his blade, he would force it deep within.
The old man walked ever so slow, the time wouldn't come to pass,
Stranger kept waiting, he knew not how long this moment would last.
The wind was getting stronger, dark clouds hovered the sky,
Old leaves spread across their distance began to fly.
The old man stopped in his tracks, staring at his path,
He saw the stranger but he still did not turn back.
The stranger thought of the old man 'surely the guy is mad',
And the night began to grow cold and darkness got more black.
The old man began his walk again, this time he was fast,
And the stranger counted seconds before he could attack,
The old man was at an arms length but he still could not see,
Stranger felt so strange, the old man still did not flee.
For a moment moon was in clear and the stranger took a peek,
The old man was smiling and there were daggers in place of his teeth.

Your day is night
And night is day
Cycle of stars,
That you dream away.
Heavy eyes,
Drifting in wonder-land
Sometimes empty spaces,
In corners and blank.
Lonely sight,
If you ever find yourself awake
The dim street-light,
Forming a moth lake.
Different cries,
Beyond the window-wall
Song of dark,
Eclipsing the world and all.
Calm dyes',
Solitude in the air
Spiritual sight-seeing,
And there are no night-mares.
Up-side down,
But yet as free as the sky
No-one to know you,
World hath but died.
Shadow cast shapes,
In shades of yellow and white
Every-one is gone,
One no longer has to hide.
World is free and pure,
there's magic in the air
Your eyes open to see,
And heart left to hear.
Your moon is sun
And sun the moon
In crowded hours,
Whence your sleep looms.

Her red eyes whispered,
And the tears began to fall
Her face slowly dispersed,
And she leaned against the wall.
The dark slowly cleared,
There I saw her crawl
In the midst of her fear,
Now I could see her all.
She lingered on the wooden floor,
As the shrieks filled the air
She wasn't herself anymore,
The old face but disappeared.
Instead eyes darker than the dark,
Pounced at me from the clear
At her chest was a burning scar,
With all the fire her heart bears.
Her fingers clenched in a fist,
Broken glass lying everywhere
Her eye's doused in mist,
She was in her nightmare.
Pitying for her sorry state,
Waiting for her to calm
I wondered if it was too late,
But I wanted her in my arms
Her beautiful face still haunted,
And I longed for an embrace
I guess I was still by her side,
But I knew soon I would fade.
I felt from across the room,
Something poking at my eye
It was so painful to feel
I wished I could rather die.
We weren't meant to be,
But I still lived in a lie
And now when it's over,
It's so hard to say good-bye.
Then i felt her arms in mine
As she slowly came back to bed
Maybe we can leave this behind
As we both slowly laid to rest.
And there across the table
Covered in layers of red
There by them white flowers
Sat my lonely head.

It's hard to say but no one's gonna' learn a danm thing anyway,
So let's pretend it's all a funny joke and it'll all go away
But hey, wait a minute listen to me, I want you to er...stay,
Well, it's tough talking to yourself and no one really ever comes my way
But I'll love to have a fight, get me some insight
How the alpha male reacts and I have no solid facts
In-fact I just got some emotions out of devotions sittin' on a dynamite
Of brutal almost mutual satisfaction we have when we diss somebody,
Maybe it's just me but I think everybody shares beef with somebody,
I like them kinda rare, them ***** and **** bare
Yeah, give them religious folks a *******' nightmare
But I don't really care if you wanna shoot me down with god,
I'll just pretend you just said something that rhymes with hot-dog,
Oh my god, never really got that catch-phrase,
And every-time I hear a girl screaming Jesus Christ,
While ridin' on my stick, well.. It's big I have nothing to hide
But back to the case, I always wonder.. What would joseph do,
I mean it could be anyone, me, your momma, or you
is that even a sin, Is there a place for them in hell
Dear, pope please do tell
that pointy hat is dope though,
Too bad I couldn't give a less **** about how many *** scandal you repel,
I always had an inclination to profanity, sort of mind alteration to reality
But quite frankly, I'm down making fun of myself
I guess it's just another opportunity to scream for help,
Hell, I don't know what I'm gonna' do, maybe call an attorney and sue
Here's a riddle to give you a *******,
What's red and not blue,
If you Ever find the answer bid your brains adieu.


I don't know what to say but this is a ****** tragedy
We're in a cage, trapped, we can never be what we want to be
Tuned into the the wonder-land, creating their own symphony,
They say we're the mad-men, always painting the world in a fantasy.
I don't know if they understand but dreams alter reality
Grabbed by both hands, too late to let go of this opportunity
Don't quit even though it's over, spill it in graffiti
To let the whole world know you don't give up so easily.


See, what I did there ?
Made it look like I did care, threw in some motivation crap,
It's just a trap, I swear
I talk so low about myself, sometimes I often forget I exist
But it kills me inside sometimes when I realize but I still can't resist
To diss and admit that I'm much better than so many of you and I'm so ashamed of it
It's like my ***** and your ****** just somehow never agrees to fit
I mean I'm just here typing away random **** and it'll still be better,
Then most awesome of your hits..
But.. I get it
People are so easy to offend and there's no way around it
So c'mon now, I know ya'll just waiting to pounce
And renounce everything I laid on the table,
I'm sorry I'm just highly unstable, give me my mental certificate
And put on a label that shows of I'm disabled,
Some of you must be goin' .. Ooo that's no thing to joke about,
Enough with your rants, my future kids won't like the way you shout and..
'People suffer from real mental disorders in the real world'
But hey... I have a problem too.. You know.. I hit my head and..
'STOP IT, in the name of the lord I command you..'
Please do
whatever you want, all I am saying is I have a real problem too...
'That's it, you're goin' to hell kid, you blasphemous pig"
.
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Aight, that was uncalled for, I could have made a better metaphor
But I can't help it, could only find baby syrup in the medical score store,
And it's kinda cold though, I have a super cute android and she likes to blow..
And dry clean my house for me, I am a rich dude
I can afford totally afford a robot, I know it sounds rude
But it's six in the morning and I haven't slept all night
And I wasn't even mastrubating (Christian sin strike # -1)
It was fun just smokin' stuff and just hallucinating,
And suddenly there was a loud bang and it started raining,
.... ***** and more ***** and some wine,  it's basically ***** but whatever nevermind,
As long as you don't understand what I'm writing about,
I guess you'll be fine.



I don't know what to say but this is a ****** tragedy
We're in a cage, trapped, we can never be what we want to be
Tuned into the the wonder-land, creating their own symphony,
They say we're the mad-men, always painting the world in a fantasy.
I don't know if they understand but dreams alter reality
Grabbed by both hands, too late to let go of this opportunity
Don't quit even though it's over, spill it in graffiti
To let the whole world know you don't give up so easily.



See, what I did there ?
I made a long write even longer
and your patience to deal with inevitable even stronger
And you know how they day what can't **** you, make you stronger
Well, I'm afraid to break it down to you, it's a lie
I once saw a man being attacked by a wild cat and he survived,
Lost 5 fingers, one toe, half a ****, and  two eyes,
Kanye west, who the hell were you talking about ?
Something that doesn't kills you, makes you one step close to die
Hello, i mean you are just all ready to say good-bye
And things flash before your eyes and you regain your strength and you fight
And people are so glad that you made it out alive
It's just so Hollywood and has such a good vibe
But that's now how it happens, things get cut off
I know I'm over steppin', but I'm just a pessimist
Every time someone disobeys me, I cut my wrists
I throw tantrums now and then, just one rich spoil kid
Banging girls and what not, DON'T ENVY ME, I didn't ******' asked for it,
Your god have it to me. :)

















See what I did there ?
I just left it intentionally blank, I have to admire you though
How come you always express yourself so bland?
I mean do you assign dumb people to do your job and make a plan
What is it, what's the secret of your stupid expression
I need to *******' understand, how can so much ******* come from two boney hands ?
It's real stupid when everyone writes the same thing everyday
Man, just do away with ponies, and throw in some hints of grey
That's what I do and it kinda makes me look so serious and great
aight, you need to stop whatever that you're doing and meditate
Absorb every stupid thing you can feel in your environment and just radiate,
Then slowly lift your arms and strangle yourself to death,
Don't ******' retaliate.
That's how I feel when I go through those thoughts of yours,
Yeah bite me, get on all fours, like the ***** you are and facilitate
I know I'm being too hard but I'm on drugs and a broken heart,
Got these scars, made out with a stripper and kinda got too far
But apart from these little matters of faith and religion,
I don't think she had a problem with me until I did that part,
I guess it's never too easy to pull of a stunt in a sixty mine position,
When you're three feet too long and sixty mile too fast in a car.
I think that did it for me, i got a sense of reality and enough of free **** and virtuality,
Oh, it's just me and my humanity, fighting over who get's the opportunity
To point out similarities between you and the kid who lived down the lane,
Really old-school, liked them butterflies and everything vain
I mean I can do this over and over again, till I hit the sweet spot
Right between your thighs and send a message to your brain
.
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I don't give a ****,
Never have and never will
There's so much space in my shoes
That you can never fill
You can walk in them sure
But it'll make you look like an idiot,
You ****
End of the story
PERIOD.

The familiarity sets in--
And sense's begin to howl
fear is born with-in,
Climate smell's so foul.

Noise begins to whisper,
Something sour in your mouth
And as when the bells chime,
You have no clue what's it about.

Heart-beat grows to a shiver,
despair begins to shout
In-midst of this ensuing sentence,
Ill thoughts start to sprout.

Hand's tremble in illusion,
The vision break's apart--
In a melody of confusion,
Envision of age old-scars.

Thy sweat pours a storm,
A turmoil to touch deep
Time strikes a marking--
Still eye's won't weep.

Finger's feel the skin--
Where comfort won't reach
Shadow cast's an hour,
Which somehow won't leave.

Dust begin to settle--
And the curtains are raised
Spewing numb on every word,
Across every page.

Moment begin to scatter,
In a place light forsake
Silence begin's to creep in--
From where dark was made.

Gloom becomes heavy--
Engulfs everything in haze
Conscience finds a noose,
And makes itself a cage.

Hurt infects every corner,
Balm as pure as dew
All steps lead to temptations--
And they pay their due's.

A puzzle fall in pieces,
Raising a few wall's
Have no clue what it means--
Or where the ghost walks.

My heart in condition,
With precision to be lost--
Heeding no indication,
One key locked inside a box.

Unfurling me a new season--
From seed's that were sowed
Made me some shade,
That always keep me so cold.

Them claws dig in my flesh--
And collect from me my soul
Mesmerised in my winter,
Bathe in asphalt and coal.

Window cease to exist,
Them walls harbor no doors
Mirror paints a stranger--
You are not what you were anymore.

Despair grows a sky,
Pour's me down a sea
Shelter won't stop--
What there is meant to be.

Dead weight drags me down,
Those arms I can't see--
Pills and the powder,
Won't set me free.

My tears bleed blood,
On my heart this loneliness feeds--
From this descent in madness,
No man can be freed.

Entangle self in chains,
When in misery one is bound
When a-top the mighty mountain--
The peak falls down.

A frown turns in dread,
In debt of all that's around
As where the dark is kept--
No man has ever been found.

Note: It might make no sense to you but that's fine.



I don't fuss over the way someone choose to cuss,
Or the god chosen to represent depravity in some of us,
I don't need to look beneath, you're too rotten on the crust,
Priest is no god, but that's where you invest all your trust
The same face-less pig who died in a **** lab,
In a stupid police bust.
But I must apologize in advance for I know,
There is no end of ******' stupidity in some of us,
Mechanical brains, new and old, filled to the brim with rust,
******* reigns, what's the harm in givin' your body some love,
God told ya so, touching your private parts will turn you to dust,
How stupid your god is, why give me a candy I can't eat ?
Tempt me by temptations, and still made me human so I can weep,
No wonder the world is going crazy, I forgot the rituals I had to keep,
Yeah, beat thy women into submission, gods one and only creed,
But what happened to the old fool, who went past the fence,
Crawled over the surface, the muscles in his **** so tense,
Ready to paint the world, in the color of his own,
Find the fertile land, and let his seeds to be sown,
Barely walking, heavily influenced by the anti-christ and blow,
What happened to that rebel, did he ever find a *** ?



Where are the mad-men and the sick-men,
Will all this depravity finally come to a ******' end ?
What about the cuss words and the torment,
Don't lie, I know you're never 'gonna have enough of them.

Where are the sick-men and the mad-men,
Something is wrong, can anyone tell what happened to them ?
My ***** is too strong to hide, I'm in need of some women
And my words have no ink for my pen-is full of *****.



Beat me to death for echoing this blasphemous myth,
Condemn me to hell, and just be done with it,
Tell me how beautiful your god is, c'mon ******' do that ****,
Scream anti-god on my face and call me sick,
All religions laid down on the table, a difficult pick,
Order me a ***** to undo my *******' zip,
Watch me hold my **** and cover your cards with ****,
The fragrance of arrogance, something you can't resist,
Ask your momma to climb over me for a perfect fit,
As i ride her to glory, watching the divinity of some ****,
yeah, I like them on all fours, I'm such a ******' narcissistic,
And yet you hate me, **** me for you're such a pacifist
As I watch your smile slowly turning into a fist,
And in mist, what do you seek, there's STD and you're at risk,
So go back to your home and complain to your god,
There's a rebel out loose and he needs to be caught,
Pick up your holy book, and remember what it taught,
Then turn it over slowly, and read the text in broad,
Holy ******' ****, that's six dollars for the words of god!


Where are the mad-men and the sick-men,
Will all this depravity finally come to a ******' end ?
What about the cuss words and the torment,
Don't lie, I know you're never 'gonna have enough of them.

Where are the sick-men and the mad-men,
Something is wrong, can anyone tell what happened to them ?
My ***** is too strong to hide, I'm in need of some women
And my words have no ink for my pen-is full of *****.

I condemn you to the deathly shadows,
Where you shall be consumed in your grief
Said the dark lord with a grin too shallow,
And the old frail man could do nothing but weep.

The burning gate to the pit of hell's dark fury,
Began to open with a noise of thousand screams
The old man laid his eyes upon where he would be buried,
And scars tore his skin with misery he had never seen.

The dark lord began to whisper the song of death,
And the world shook as if welcoming another soul
Through the ashes of the past and future he was led,
To the grave of dark where he would be mold.

The sky burst Into the flames of a dying star,
And the blood-stained rain began to fall
The time lay ever so still at the despaired hour,
Soon the under-world will devour his all.

Bearing the chains of his own depraved suffering,
The old man began to count his last wish
And the clouds of wrath lay awake and thundering,
As the vision of the old man began to harbour mist.

At Every step he fell deeper than his last sorrow,
As the blood-lust blades tore through his surface
Where ever must he go his consience wouldn't follow,
He caught himself from the storm in a withering maze.

The dark lord was now but a memory of past,
He was in the hands of a far more evil creed
His maker had given upon his soul at last,
And the mute angles could now do nothing but grieve.

The arms of age had at last freed him of his thoughts,
He was rising to a world very different from his own
In those moments of torment he was alive but lost,
And could give up every weight he borne.

The eyes were left open but he was long gone,
Like a mechanical animal he walked in daze
His thoughts weren't his own but the heart did mourn,
Tracing the walls of his grave where he was laid.

The white mountains rose above the golden lake,
And every breeze would now numb his soul
In the wonder-land of death he was made,
Only now his nightmares weren't his anymore.

But of the dark lord.

The hurt bleeds gold,
As I shine in my sivler
Watching through glass of age,
Comfortable in my winter
tears are but a reflection,
That my heart won't understand
All I have is this world,
Through the eyes of a sad man
The beauty in them scars,
Of the stars that shine in dark
Steps that lead us back,
In memories far apart
And run through this path,
With pain in our heart
And bleed them a rainbow
In every morn' numb hour
Because I have nothing to gain,
And I'm left with nothing to lose
The glass might be broken,
But I can still see through
And i hold my breath,
As I suffocate in silence
And feel the calm,
Of the deathly resistance
That I harbour so in my heart
And the world's essence,
The one I capture in my box of pain,
In a tears presence,
That remind,
How blue is the sky
From the eyes of a sad man,
As I watch my smile that hurts
And bleeds me an ocean
Watch through the cracks,
Of every doors that's broken,
And find yourself on a shelve,
Waiting to be done and sold
To the pain that we so harbour,
And weigh in gold,
make themselves an idol,
By the dreams we hold
Of how grey the page is,
With every word it molds
There is no depth of a scar,
If it kills a man
How beautiful death is,
From the eyes of a sad man.

The world will end in morrow,
And the mirror will cease to exist
Our reflections are not our own
But of a voice engulfed in mist
Direction-less we walk in disguise
From one being to another
These stains of yesterday linger on,
And then fade away and wither
Into the hollow of our thoughts
And be made in shards to cut deep
To the empty space of our Mind
And all the dirt we try to keep
There is no somebody else,
And there will be no different world
This land is yours to keep
To wear wilderness of love and hurt
One might find end in demise,
But there's no end when you're alive
You can close every door with walls
But you'll still be opened up wide
To see everything that is blind
And feel all that is hollow
For you'll be loved in pieces
And that riddle will always follow
To count your stars in heaven
And make your place in hell
'tis where your solitude lies
And 'tis where your wings fell
As an ocean betrays your pain
And waves crash in your conscience
To find yourself in fraction
As you struggle between god and science
Back and forth as you suffer
As you make an oasis by your tears
To drown away and be forgotten
And disappear before one can hear
The noise of life.

Hey yo, take a bow!
Cuz My god is 'gonna start the show
From last couple of days he's on a roll
Blood-shed, massacre's, bombs explode!
Propaganda of religion is a mind control
As guns and knives take their toll,
Watch the world burn as it un-folds
And My god is on it, like a ***** on a *****!



Mike testing..

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Hello, hello!
Can you hear me, my dear fellow!
Let the beat drop and follow
Now take your best shot
Take me to a thrift shop and swallow,
These bitter pills of my devine power
Take a shower, calm down and be mellow,
Cuz i just trolled your god
In the match of 'who-kills-the-lot'
With the most ridiculous excuse,
And the margin was narrow
But i fed on some fanatic minds i borrowed,
From the pits of patriotism,
Coupled with some misplaced sense of nationalism
And the horror of narcissism
To arm these armies of stupid *** men,
To wage a war without any reason
Saints of '****-all-who-apply-logic' are on a mission,
To accuse any sound mind of treason,
Only crushed skulls and blood splatter this season
A truce with ***** girls and mad-hatter will bring your freedom
And the burned children
............. how can i forget the burned children!
Bearing the wrath of their god and his god-men,
But give me a pen and I'll sign the documents to annihilate all of them,
Problem solved, it's not like we have any shortage of *****!





Oh, my, my, my *******' lord,
Why hath thou forsaken ?
I know your divinity infinity,
But could you, possibly, maybe Mistaken ?
Or is it just this other God,
Afraid of your throne being taken ?
Or is it just these miserable men,
Who know only blood equation ?
Oh, my, my, my *******' lord,
Will we ever rise from this tragic situation ?





And **** thy neighbour, or enslave them for labour
Whatever you do never love them or lend them a favour
It's better to burn them if they ask for a different flavour
Let the husband die and ******* watchin' his wife die but don't you dare save her
And if you're feelin' that *****, here's the deal,
Convert her and enslave her!
And don't bother **** the ones, who try to **** you
If you don't die, all the blame will be on you,
Cuz lets pretend for a second, nobody ever truly liked you
Your momma gave birth to you out of the blues
Give up the chase, or a global hatred will ensue
And uncle Sam, who's the biggest player in the scam
But even he won't hesitate to sue,
Your bruised ****** up *** if they don't **** you,
So here's the deal,
Cut off your arms and maybe a leg,
Play the victim card and beg
Set your heart to the east and money to the west
Pretend they can't shoot you in the head if you wear a vest,
For your god will always be right, no matter how stupid he gets
And now you've killed your neighbour, his kids and daughters
Cut off your own arms and legs,
But hey, you can still **** the dead wife!
So no regrets!





Oh, my, my, my *******' lord,
Why hath thou forsaken ?
I know your divinity infinity,
But could you, possibly, maybe Mistaken ?
Or is it just this other God,
Afraid of your throne being taken ?
Or is it just these miserable men,
Who know only blood equation ?
Oh, my, my, my *******' lord,
Will we ever rise from this tragic situation ?

If you don't want me to be right,
I can't give in and be wrong
I am weak, maybe so
But what have you achieved
by being strong ?
This hand of love,
May not stand against your storm
But i must not thirst your blood,
Like you do for mine
Or these wounds won't heal
Till the end of time
But you'll never hear me,
All you've ever heard
Is a battle song,
And our scars have stretched on
Between the space,
for far too long.


We're the same,
You and me
Then why is it so hard,
for you to love me?

We live the same pain
Why not the same love
All we need is us,
To heal 'tis broken world.

Be blind to the seen,
Deaf to the screams
As you feed your own brothers,
To the **** machine.


If you can't see me,
Doesn't mean I'm blind
What will it take,
To leave every scar behind
For it'll always rust,
beneath the surface
We'll be turned to dust
And one day we'll both fade
Consumed by our ignorance,
Ignorance always fed our hate
Always ready to inflict war,
In the blank of every page
To remind us of our vengeance,
The misplaced sense of righteousness
What will you find,
In the annihilation of my soul
Your emptiness?



We're the same,
You and me
Then why is it so hard,
for you to love me?

We live the same pain
Why not the same love
All we need is us,
To heal 'tis broken world.

Be blind to the seen,
Deaf to the screams
As you feed your own brothers,
To the **** machine.


If you don't love me
Is it too much to ask,
Not to hate
How far will you last,
Before your monsters
Turn on you instead
I'm no saint,
But I'll still take your bait
To follow your lead,
And break down the walls you made
Douse myself in your flavour,
To taste your shade
Live in your nightmare
And find my self awake
Would you feel the same,
If i wanted an eye for eye
Would you
Then love me,
If i wanted a partition in the sky ?


We're the same,
You and me
Then why is it so hard,
for you to love me?

We live the same pain
Why not the same love
All we need is us,
To heal 'tis broken world.

Be blind to the seen,
Deaf to the screams
As you feed your own brothers,
To the **** machine.

People are stupid,
People are dumb
'tis world is a cage
How far will you run?.

People are you,
People are someone
'tis world's a mirror
Are you holdin' a gun?.

Chasin' the bullets,
Are you gettin' numb?
'tis world is a circus,
When you're the strange one.

And so many whispers,
To count your scars
Ghosts are just people
Who have no heart.

Fed to the winds,
Those conquer these walls
Free-will is an illusion
That infects one and all.

People are slaves,
people are king
A deaf mute bird,
Who got no wings.

People are outside,
People are within  
So many flavours
But the same skin.

Cuttin' through edges,
Finding a way in
People are a temple,
A crowd of sin.

And so many screams,
To shout your wager
'tis world's a carnival
When you're a stranger.  

To wither in ashes,
Of an army of people
A needle's poison,
That keeps goin' deeper.


People are stupid,
People are dumb
'tis world is a cage
How far will you run?.

People are you,
People are someone
'tis world's a mirror
Are you holdin' a gun?.

Chasin' the bullets,
Are you gettin' numb?
'tis world is a circus,
When you're the strange one.

He walks upon silver moon-light,
Dancing upon an ocean of stars
Seeking truth in age of darkness,
Wishing upon every morbid scar
To see through burning curtains,
As they fall back into the flames
Blind to what is beyond the stage,
All he can do is see his only pain

That hears the song of night,
Of the dark and dreams untold
Bled of all that there is to hold,
Love is gone and tears are cold


He melts away into the unknown,
To be made in a whispering bird
Circling along the edge of the sky,
Trying to forget their every word
That cuts right through his skin,
Deep into his ever burning Soul
As he dives into the empty sky,
That'll slowly swallow him whole

Drowning in the song of night,
Into an abyss of suffering and pain
There won't be no more dreams
As the dreamer lies buried again


He is feeling the wrath of sorrow,
That falls on him like winter's rain
Searching for a man in the mirror,
But all that reflects is just a name
To be seen across all the universe,
camouflaged in the empty space
To tread where ever the heart is,
And to always find self in a maze

Slowly filling with the song of night,
Empty puddles are full to the brim
They will combust all that is must,
If they take anymore of tears within


He floats in an ocean of dread,
Consumed in his own pagan guilt
To feel the rust in his loneliness,
With walls of solitude he built  
And to be made a cage of lies,
That lay trap to the hidden wait
Bearing the stains of disguise,
There is no otherside of this gate

Wanting the song of night,
To grant him his key to freedom
And be the king of his own self,
Be the master of a lost kingdom


He wants the dark of the night,
To remind him what he once knew
And find him a trail to otherside,
So he can finally pay his devils due
And to be not forgotten by time,
As he moves back to the unknown
To burn and fade after every step,
And break fire with sparks borne

Made in the song of night,
A tale of dark to be left to brew
Deep in the pit of boiling lies
Finding one lie that will be true


He rots away in a depraved corner,
To be found again in heavens lair
And neglect questions as they come,
To find those answers every-where
In midst of an approaching storm,
That brings fear to guide his prey
To have wings but no direction
And every wave takes 'em away  

finding the song of night,
In the hollow of empty reason
To be swept away in illusion
And find self in a different season


He knows the embrace of winds,
Slowly caressing his lonely walls
crawl back to surface from within,
Back from the dead to take a fall
And seep through the cracks in time,
To a place that's in abandoned hope
To be gone forever when awake,
Fall back dead and find no road

Walking in the song of night,
In rhythm with words spoken
To be held against a morbid tear,
And be flooded by an ocean


He rests upon a bed of thorns,
To find comfort in his only hurt
painted in blood-stained flavour,
A withered rose to kiss every word
that die in the chaos of thoughts,
Running dry with every breath
That lay claim upon his nightmares,
To echo silence of a moments death

Melting in the song of night,
Hanging on a crooked wire
That swings by the frozen time,
Cast into a face of ice and fire


He wounds himself of love,
For the love of everything black
Memories that were left to haunt,
A door that won't lead him back
But to an ocean of nothingness,
Where he'll be one with his pain
To be made whole in emptiness,
And find self at a crossroad again

To see the song of night,
Gliding through the night sky
Woven in silvery threads,
A touch that'll miss the eye


He dissolves in the poisonous fumes,
Of the haze that blinds the sun-light
Falling back in fragments of his own,
Searching for another puzzle to hide
And find comfort in a broken mirror,
A thousand faces made to scream
What of a dreamer without a night,
A lonely place to be alive and dream

Singing the song of night,
Till the dawn of the morn' hour
To the world of lost dreams,
Of the stars and a broken heart

To Sing the song of night,
On every step that leads him afar
From the ruins of his home,
Sunrise falling back to his heart

I will never wear a smile,
With these morbid words on my lips
Trapped inside my mind,
And I may not ever escape from it
Broken pieces of my being,
That somehow never did fit
Knocking on heavens door
As I take another hit
Moment of truth is gone,
Wish It had taken me with it
Left behind a string of lies,
Cutting me open with shards and bits
No more will I seek sunrise,
sun has fallen back to the abyss
As I walk on the road of mayhem,
every star in the sky is now lit
I burn with wrath of a million stars,
As they shine upon my scars
No more will I seek the azure
As I hold the night sky in my heart,
A blanket of dark for my tears,
That fall from the heavens lair  
But with every dusk you can hear,
On-set of my bleeding nightmares
You can run from me in the sun,
But in shadows you'll find me there
You can run from me in the day,
But at night i'll be everywhere
You could fight me when I was in pain
But how will you fight my emptiness
There's no where you can hide from me,
For I am, always will be, your darkness.

Conquer, these souls you so want to torture
Give me my pills and watch me turn into a monster
Come here gran, where you off to?; I want to torch her
And all you gentlemen, just jerking off, do you concur ?
I would have smacked your *** off the table if it was a contest
So go ahead, take your time, demonstrate a protest
And there is no time to explain, hell, i'm in pain
Take a name and I would really want her
Yeah, it's bad, blowin' a pipe, i'm goin' mad
Running around naked with a pound of ******* in my bag-pack
It's real sad, if you think about it
I'm trying to hammer a nail in my ******' head
But I can't find no way around it
Wrap around it, act astounded, it's funny how you responded
When I told you it was your momma, last night I pounded
And you're two ****** short, man I counted
Why you bring me an asian all the time ?
When I specially told you it was a blonde one I wanted
And there's no way i'm 'gonna stop once you've mounted
And it's not my fault you leave every girl so disappointed
*** is spooky ****, I swear that **** is so haunted
And you made me cry, the way you just taunted
I'll just ignore you 'cause I know you were born bad-mouthed
If you think you can convert me, I seriously doubt it
Enough done, enough said, you **** man and I don't want to hear about it





Oh, don't you mess with me boy
I can bet you it's something you won't enjoy
I'll drown your screams with my noise
And when I leave, i'll leave you destroyed  
Your silly tactics; with me you can't employ
It's your own fault if I leave you paranoid
A stand-off with me is something you should avoid
For when i'm done with you, you'll be destroyed




You twerk even worse than the goddess miley
Now shake that *** for me ***** and scream loudly
Show me you ain't dead and take a swing at me wildly
As I give you a dose of my karate chops; mildly
And show the world how you lost your front teeth proudly
Hush, now little girl, daddy's 'gonna sing you a lullaby finally
I know you got some daddy issues, here take some tissues
The ones I came in just a while ago
Baby, you've got some great ****, is there where you keep all your ego ?
Take it slow, it's a no show, how 'bout you and me do some blow ?
And watch these half assed punks as they come and go
And daddy can tell, you still havn't learned to spell
Was it the thirteenth floor from where you fell
Head-first to the ground and was that when they found,
That you are a ****** and life is no video game you can just re-start
And it makes me sick, when they call your boring rhymes an art
You lack imagination and that's why it never felt so hard
But step in my shoes, ******* blues and they'll shred you in a thousand pieces apart
But for all it's worth, i'll always be the first to smear myself in dirt  
And how are those tears forming in your eyes, do they hurt ?
But I forgive you, 'cause that's what a bigger man always does
And offcourse I am talking about my ****, you ****!

A hollow heart bleeds
Nothingness and pain
To be swallowed deep
And fall like the rain

And empty vase of life
Holds onto the dead leaves
Somewhere in the depth
To be buried down and deep  

Made into a seed
Of the corpses and the cold
With tales and sorrows
And a thousand scars untold

To be made a rotten tree
With rotten fruits and stars
To stand alone in disguise
Bare, with a poisoned heart

Branches span till the moon
Beyond the clouds and sky
In the depth of hollow space
Where the dark meets the eye

To feed shade to the night
In shadows and reflections
Breathe in the cold abyss
That hides in every direction

Waiting for a bleeding heart
To make his way across
And sleep in his chamber
To be made a ghost when lost

And rise above the mountains
To meet the azure up high
Of demons and questions
And answers made in lies

To be stretched in emptiness
Far beyond the ruins of a man
Asleep within clouds of darkness
And forever be cursed and ******  

A hollow heart bleeds
Nothingness and pain
To be swallowed deep
And fall like the rain

It's 4:31 am and I'm sitting alone, more dead than alive
I watch as darkness invades the moon, a tear falls from my eye

Old stains of hurt, left on these blank pages to remind where i am
Lost, in despair and so cold that sometimes i forget i am a man

Not just a shadow that i see falling across the room on a wall
Cursing my life, for making me who i am and destroying it all

4:35 am, and it feels like days and weeks have passed by
I don't remember much, i have no clue why i started to cry

It's been always there, inside of me and it feeds on my pain
Winter turns to spring, spring to summer and fall, but it never change

4:40 am, i pick up the blade and poke my wrists
I made it this far and i can't carry on, i have to end it

I remember being happy when i was young, i remember being sad
Being alone on birthdays, 'cause there was no friend i had

I remember having fun on the beach, going mad in the snow
And all this while i was decaying inside, i just didn't know

I knew what love felt like, but i could never replace it with pain
I could never fit in, i was the odd one out, a ******, 'the strange'

4:57 am, i feel the urge to **** myself increasing every minute
I pick up my gun and start putting bullets in it

I can still walk away, if i can make it through this night
But the demons have consumed me, I'm just too weak to fight

I know I'll hurt many people, people who still care
I don't know what to do, i can't find my strength anywhere

I know i've let you down and you were always there for me dad
And it makes it so much more unbearable, that mom, i can never get you back

5:11 am, i guess the only time i smiled was when i was with you my lil' sis
I wish i could take you to the park one last time, there's so much I'm 'gonna miss

I wish i can turn this noise down, which compels me to pull the trigger
But i can see who i am, who i will be clearly in this mirror

I don't want to live in pain, i don't want to be like this
Enough of these lies, therapy and pills, I'm full of that ****

It's the only way out, but i know life can still turn around
Everyone has a story, they don't die and one day they're found

But what if, i won't ever be?, I'll regret i let this moment go to waste  
For i know I'll never do it again, if i don't now, it's a lifetime of wait

I'll die with nothing but hate, at least i can feel the love today  
I don't want to lose that too, get old and die anyway

I don't want them to remember me as a monster, but as a man
Who loved them in his own way, but i know they won't understand

5:30 am, i wish i had been the son you always wanted and couldn't have
Even though you love me, you deserved better than me dad

Lil' sis, i was there when you were born, the most beautiful thing i had ever seen
You'll always be my angel, you and i have always been a great team, sweet dreams

I wish i was there by your side mom, when you took your last breath
You know i loved you, but i felt betrayed when you told me you're 'gonna be dead

I just want to die, i can't shut down the voices in my head
It's been weeks and months and i haven't slept

5:40 am, i pick up the gun, i know what i have to do
I'm sorry sis' but i guess from now on it's 'gonna be just dad and you

6:00 am, sweat trickles down my forehead, I'm afraid and scattered
Maybe I'll meet you soon mom, if there is someplace better

Finger on the trigger, i know it's time for me to leave
I won't let pain take over, i have to put it to sleep









door opens















Little Leslie - yaaawwn.... You forgot to wake me up! Who's 'gonna...... WHAT is that timmy ?









Timmy - I'm sorry but i have to...





















(minutes pass by)








Little Leslie - ok, go ahead, do whatcha 'gotta do, but...... remember you're leaving me all alone by myself, mom is gone now..... and dad barely speaks, all i had was... you,now.... you can too leave!






Timmy - i don't know what to do..  












Little Leslie - just come down and make me breakfast, I'm late for school








(moments pass in complete silence)










Timmy - Leslie.... (starts crying)...i'm sorry i won't....even think about it....... ever again, i....i..i promise!









Leslie - you know i love you and so does dad








Timmy- i know, i love you more than anything









Leslie - than just be my annoying older bro and dads pain-in-the-*** son, it will get better, and that's my promise!








timmy puts the gun down and takes her in his arms, smiling while tears trickle down his eyes and says " how about some ice-cream for breakfast today, princess ?"





































It's 6:31 am and the sun is beginning to rise.

What do we seek in truth,
When lies can do a better job
How pretty are illusions,
From the eyes of a corpse
Monsters hiding in disguise
camouflaged in words
What if we change the spin
Will it run in an opposite world
Changing the lanes by name
Won't the journey end the same
And if we close eyes to dreams
Will it stop the colours to change
every answer is another question
What's there left to ask
If i eyes can glow in the dark
What's the need to wear a mask
It takes a lifetime to understand
What regret can do to a grave
Why don't we wipe away years
In tears cleansing words on a slate
This hand will forever rest
On the other side of our wall
But a tear will always find a way
Come back to us to ruin us all
More memories then we can keep
Lay dead upon wings of time
Won't know where this may lead
If one can't read the hidden signs
Not every door will have a key
Some only open to one face
If the clouds don't let them be
Every star in the sky will fade
When the ocean did break
Old fossils all they could see
And a tide so was made
Quickly turning over in a sea
No more riddles hidden in pieces
Slowly becoming someone else
Sometimes one find it reaches
A place it can make a snowman melt
One day sunshine will kiss farewell
To land where we thought we are
you will find that it always dwelled
In the shadows of a billion stars

You don't have to be someone else than who you are,
There're so many people out there trying to fit in
Good and the bad, all different corners of your heart
You won't ever be satisfied if you're not comfartable in your own skin

__________


My gears run in the opposite direction, they say I'm just a sucker for the right connections,
stare at me long enough and it's gonna' be a fatal attraction, confessions, spilling out faster than i can mention that i am a *******' slave to the latest inventions,
no harm in livin' your life like it's gonna' end in a second, pay heed to the temptations spreading out like an infection,
eats you inside and out, there was never gonna' be a question if i pay them sinners for my own destruction,
and all is lost and buried after the eruption,
corrupting my soul as i **** another door to make amendments, but my intentions are rockin' a ******* *******
separating the core and mixing it with what you're told and givin' a new complexion
and you're not 'gonna stop till you can be the source of their affection, no reflection of who you are,you're just a projection of all the things they perceive as imperfection,
and you'll make it an obsession and won't even object when they seal the deal with your objection,
It's never gonna' be enough,you'll never be able to get their attention, get recognition the way you are, they're always 'gonna be one step away from redemption,
and you're always gonna' be a step too close to taste their aggression, and you'll never be the master of your own actions, unless you can find a source to your own expressions,
tension in the atmosphere, every moment will feel like a nightmare until you can find the right connections,
and be done with the visual perceptions, failing to realise, lies they feed you and take you to the point of intersection of their deception,
and don't be too sad if you face rejection, 'cause the society is 'gonna keep putting pressure and give you all the instructions to function
and there's gonna' be no satisfaction unless you break out, shout out loud, tell them all about how beautiful it is to dysfunction

Woke up to the sunrise, my heart still craves the night
Drowning in an ocean of misery, escaping the bright lights
The demon inside has won, I've given up any hope to fight
If I'm going down this path, i might just enjoy the ride

In this silence, over-grown sense of hatred consumes my soul
I wait for the end, trying to figure out a way to end it all
I could never figure out, what does it takes to make you whole
And maybe i was just holding back, i was always destined to fall

__________

"hey, mom do you have to go to work today?"
-sorry sweetie, i have to rush and i guess I'll be late
"seriously, i thought we'll spend some time together, we talked about it yesterday"
-i know, but it's important, maybe next Sunday?
"it's alright, nevermind anyway"
-you know how much i love you, don't you ?
"yes, i know mom, be back soon, I have a surprise for you today"
-I'll be back as soon as i can, ok sweetie?
"alright, I'll wait for you like always"

*door closes


_________

Alone with my thoughts, emotions explodes in silence
Mind in chaos, every approaching moment is violent
Angst and despair spreads neatly all across the floor
Eyes are closed and i think i can't take it anymore

It's not so easy to die, every moment I'm hoping for a miracle
Someone or something to pull me back from my doom
But i guess, world has ignored my pleas again
And i can't let go of these morbid thoughts approaching like winters gloom


_________

"hey, Todd do you have a second, i just need to talk"
-yeah, mate what is it ?
"i don't feel good, can you come over or not ?"
-man, I'm with this *******, we're out on a walk
"oh, haha alright, have fun, catch you later"
- I'll tell you all about it. god, this chick is so hot!
"haha alright, catch you later"

you can talk to my Corpse

_____________________________

Can they really not hear the fear in your voice ?
You try so hard to get out, but they leave you no choice
Maybe when they find you're gone, they'll make some noise
Will they feel responsible, for they couldn't keep you from being destroyed

I walk away from these walls of my so called home
I think it's better if i go away and do this alone
Friends, family, they'll make an excuse that they didn't knew
He was such a good kid, just a little bit confused


_____________________________


-young man, what are you doing alone in this park?
"none of your business, leave me alone"
-you shouldn't wander alone in these lonely parts
"i don't need you to tell me what to do, it's not even after dark"
- are you searching for someone, there's no one out far
"no, i just want to be alone, if it's too much to ASK!"
- come here, have a seat, don't be afraid i won't hurt you
"hahah, do you really think I'm scared of you?"
-no, but i think you need someone to talk to
"no, I'm better off alone, sorry but i don't need you"
-wait, young fellow, just hear me out?
"does it matter, you have no clue what it's all about"
- no harm in letting it all out, for you and me are the same
"are we really, you don't seem to be in pain !"
- i was, a long time ago, just like you i was cold
"hmmm, stay away from strangers, that's what i was always told"
-I'm not a stranger, I'm just the older self of you
"wait, slow down old man, you're just making me confused"
-I'm here to tell you what you'll miss if you don't turn around
"what? How do you know i was about..."
- i know how you feel, like everything is going down
"hey, wait a minute......."
-but I'm here to tell you, one day you'll be found  
"but, it feels like that day will never come "
-just look at you, what you've become
"i can't stop it, it has already begun"
-there will be no escape,no matter how far you run
"..........."
-it will be better, i swear, one day you'll find that someone
" i don't think i ever will "
-you're too young, I'm old and i can tell you i did
"but we're not the same........"
-yes, we are
"hey, wait where're you going, what's your name?"
-if you decide to turn around, I'll meet you tomorrow here again
"what makes you so sure, my thoughts will change"
-i don't know for sure, but i would really like to meet you again..

walks back home


later in the night



"hey, what's up todd?"
-oh man, remember about that chick, the one hot?
"yeah, what's up with her"
-turns out she has even a hotter sister
"hmmmm"
-she wants to meet you, i showed her your picture
"what the hell?"
-yeah mate, she wants to meet you tomorrow at the cafe, about twelve
"woah, ah well...."
-just shut up, you thought i would just leave you behind
".........."
-we're friends mate, sorry i couldn't talk earlier, i was fixing your date at that time
"hmmm, it's alright"
-ok mate, good night
"night, night"



even later


"hey, mom look i made you some dinner"
- oh baby, what a sweet surprise
"mom, why do you have tear in your eyes?"
-it's nothing, i felt bad about going to work today
"don't worry mom, it's okay"
-no, it's not, so i took tomorrow off
"eh, why?"
-well, i planned something, just you and me, up for it or not?







__________

-so, young man you made it
"yeah, guess i did"
-there will be more like me down the road
"hmm, what your name, old man?
-well,my friends call me hope.

***, why do you have to speak like that?



It's not about who I am, you piece of worthless ****, why don't you understand?
I am basically undestructible, invincible  sexier version of Superman, and I don't got no moral ******' codes to keep me from beating your ugly *** up all over the I-don't-give-a-**** wonder land
But I know you'll take a stand, your every failed attempt is killin' me, are you ******' kidding me, you know how it'll turn out for you, oh danm!
Now I gotta' explain it to you, that annihilating you is a part of my ******' plan and you can take all of my '**** yous' , call the poetry protection people and try to sue, but i'll **** even harder than a ******' rock band, it's all your ******' fault, you pull the trigger and out comes a '****'- BAM, I know you're not a fan, but lemme ask you, what's your age my sweet gran, I know I include you too often,but why aren't you in a coffin, why do you keep poppin around, stoppin me from talkin about my feelings, you ******' *****, imma introduce you to my lil' freind, brings-you-the-end-uncle sam and he'll **** out all the oil, leave you to boil, in the sand, I hope you understand, this is important, and i'll say a '****' again, for no reason, have a short attention span, can't you see a ******* gettin' a ***** on my hand, I wonder how long will it be stayin and so, you were sayin' ?


Why do you cuss so much, *******?


I ain't gonna' feed you no crap, you have my '**** yous' and I just want 'em back, I swear I won't even set a trap, to count how many knives you have on your back, go ahead spill the blood, embrace the dirt, be the first to stab, just then don't stop me, when I start to blab, go mad, be bad, and be the contender, in line for your hardest slap, being a repeated offender, I tell you, it's the most fun i ever had, it's not the vocabulary that I lack, it's just every time I read about your ******' butterflies and sun-light I go mad, so you take your stuff, all of it, all of your hatin' and waitin' for takin' a jibe at the next '****' and stuff it all inside your bag, go ahead be on your way, now, ******' pack, or I swear they'll find your corpse, in the parking lot, where you sacrificed the young folks, and covered all their '*******' tracks, and i'll wait here for you, plannin' my next ******' attack, I know all these cussing and abusing has made you sad, but why don't you just ignore me, does it turns you on, when I shoot one after one '****' in the sack, do you really think putting your food out in the open  makes sense in a bachelor pad , I know my metaphors aren't funny, but it'll make a very sick man somewhere crack, and when everything's been said and done, i'll leave ****** karma to kick you in your hypocrite ***, there I said it, '*******' I swear this one's the last, for it may seem i'm just a punk for usin' it but you're confusin' ****, and there goes the answer to your question you just asked.


*******!

Douse me in your flavour
Pour on me your colours
Burn me inside and out,  
Watch me as I suffer

Quell my thirst by yours
Fill me with all you desire
Hold me, tell me I'm beautiful
And then push me in the fire

Scar me with all your love
Your love, that keeps me alive
Eat me from inside out
go ahead, I'm all yours take a bite



Confuse me, you're all I have  
So much in love, i'm all yours
Consume me, take all I have
Feed on me if it makes you whole



Piece by piece, i'll fade
I'll be yours sweet escape
Of the love world forbade
Your love is worth my wait

Take me in, deep within
Where light won't reach
Take away my wings
So I can never leave

Forever yours, I promise
Waste me with all your love
Hidden away from myself
Keep me blind from my curse



Consume me, take all I have
Feed on me if it makes you whole
Control me, you're all I have  
So much in love, i'm all yours

__________


Look at me and fill the gap, ever wondered, if these empty spaces are just a trap?

If I was you, I won't ever come back, what have I, in these silenced moments which you lack ?  

If you ever tried, why not just kiss it good-bye, is life not enough to make you want to die?

Escape them lies, if you know how to fly, do you think you'll find any wings in the night sky?  



Let my heart rip, ain't no where I'll ever fit
Lit, with fire on the bed of wax where I sit
Won't get rid, of who I am, even though you want it
Leave me be and i'll leave you Disappointed



Take my pain and change my name, look in the mirror, is everything still the same ?

I wait in shame, come again, smear me in your scent, don't you want me to take your blame?

I knew you would ask, if I wear a mask,  what of solitude, if the disguise won't last ?

Look past, what you want me to be, what you see, will it be enough if i break your heart ?


Do you ever feel confused,  when I refuse,
To be made in hurt, when you abuse
Of the lonely nights, when i make love to you
i know what i need, bleed the tears you so wanted
Leave me be, and I'll leave you disappointed


Where these scars lead, a place where i can never be, and if you can see beyond, do you find me ?

I don't want you to leave, but i want you be freed, if i break these promises, will you breathe ?

I know what i was made, an image you couldn't take, will you collect all the pieces when i break ?

Will you wait, i won't come and you'll be late, is that all there is to us, disappointment at every gate ?


I will always be here, trapped in these walls where i dreamt it,
A life with you, without you, these dreams, i don't want it
But all i am, reflection of your man, i am not who i was, understand
Get away from me, run far away from me, while you can
You won't find me in love, with your hurt i'm haunted
I can't face my demons, made in a ghost, this escape i never wanted
Leave me be, and I'll leave you disappointed

__________
________­


You won't find me in your dreams, if you dream with open eyes,
Make no noise, let it be gone, when every moment dies
Don't hold me back, I'll blind you with nothing but more lies
And even though i try, i know one day I'll leave without saying goodbye
And you'll be alone, forever trapped in your heart of stone
Withering away, as you try to bring every wall down
But i won't be around, i know this is not what you wanted
Will you still dream, if one day you woke up disappointed ?


If nothing else, take my memory and run away, far away from me
And leave me behind, so you can still be with me
And all these scars and wounds that you'll leave behind, will change me
All those lies, in your eyes, every memory of you will strangle me
From now till eternity, till i return, will you wait for me ?
If i leave you with nothing but pain, will you be able to forgive me ?
If this void is too much to bear, will you fear that you won't find me ?
If everything i am, rusts to nothing, will you still want me ?
If one day you're here no more, leave me a sign that you waited
Will you still love me, If all i have, my every breath, every word that escapes, my thoughts that fade, what we ever had and made, if all you ever wanted, my love for you, left you disappointed?

___________

Look at me and fill the gap, ever wondered, if these empty spaces are just a trap?

If I was you, I won't ever come back, what have I, in these silenced moments which you lack ?  

If you ever tried, why not just kiss it good-bye, is life not enough to make you want to die?

Escape them lies, if you know how to fly, do you think you'll find any wings in the night sky?  



Let my heart rip, ain't no where I'll ever fit
Lit, with fire on the bed of wax where I sit
Won't get rid, of who I am, even though you want it
Leave me be and i'll leave you Disappointed



Take my pain and change my name, look in the mirror, is everything still the same ?

I wait in shame, come again, smear me in your scent, don't you want me to take your blame?

I knew you would ask, if I wear a mask,  what of solitude, if the disguise won't last ?

Look past, what you want me to be, what you see, will it be enough if i break your heart ?


Do you ever feel confused,  when I refuse,
To be made in hurt, when you abuse
Of the lonely nights, when i make love to you
i know what i need, bleed the tears you so wanted
Leave me be, and I'll leave you disappointed

In the hour of slumber,
Shine of the stars conquer
Every nook and corner
Of my fragile Mind

Mute queen sings,
A gush of dream it brings
Give me my wings
In Lullabies of serene silence

I wake in wonders
My heart surrender
I can touch the thunder
With my eyes


I see
What I am
In the
Moon-light
That falls
On the ocean

I see
What I am
In the
Shine of stars
That holds this
Door open


In this moment of calm,
I raise my arms
Floating in the storm
Of my imagination

Made into a maze,
Every turn amaze
Of the worlds face
I can glance into

Brought back to life,
These puzzles won't survive
A memory of night
I could never keep



I believe
I am
But a traveller
Running through
This paradise
Alone

I believe
I am
But a dream
In night sky
I found
My home

Even the air breaks down to sing
As a noise cracks open his skin
No escape even though bell rings
He's trapped with me within
There's a smile on my face,
As he struggles to breath
Maybe today is my day
He won't yell at me to leave
Enlight me with your words,
Poke me where it will hurt
Tell me I am so insane
Look in my eyes, i'm so deranged
I brought my friend along
I caress and it breaks in a song
This class is 'gonna be so long
Now it's your turn to be wrong
All my rage I brought for you
In Every hour that you wasted
My grades were never so high
In every question I ever tasted  




I climb on he pulls the ladder
There's evil in this weather
Every problem has a solution
In equations of blood splatter

Every answer will now be better
Never Mind that evil proffesor
Every derivation has an outcome
On the strings of blood splatter




I will replace ink with blood
And smear it all across this page
Write a hundred times 'i'm so bad'
And all across your ****** face
Tell me to stand up, I dare
Pick me to be your little *****
Make me understand why I care
I learned with precison to slit
Your hands inside my pants
My hands on your throat
No fun for you today
Today you'll take my load
Tell me i'm ****** one more time,
And I swear it won't be neat
It won't be neat anyhow (haha)
But you sure don't want to repeat
Wherever this lesson may lead
My Mind will now be freed  
From your books and grip
I'm no more just a bad seed




I climb on he pulls the ladder
There's evil in this weather
Every problem has a solution
In equations of blood splatter

Every answer will now be better
Never Mind that evil proffesor
Every derivation has an outcome
On the strings of blood splatter




This is beginning to feel like,
It's 'gonna run for-ever
A never ending lecture
With me and my gun together
And i'm 'gonna stab everyone now
So much for being the loner
Them cheerleaders and jocks
Even the **** addicts and stoners
Lesson of life from the dead
Final chapter of their semester
Now's the time, i'm 'gonna start
Pay attention to the professor
I'm 'gonna show you how to die
And everyone will score an 'A'
Be on your knees, there's no god
I'll **** the ones first who pray
It's so much more fun than maths
Don't you agree my dead friends
No more science and history  
For you'll be history in the end





I climb on he pulls the ladder
There's evil in this weather
Every problem has a solution
In equations of blood splatter

Every answer will now be better
Never Mind that evil proffesor
Every derivation has an outcome
On the strings of blood splatter



as I pull the sweet trigger,
vibrations through my veins
kiss my pretty *******
I remember every name
A nice way to let it all out
As they scream and shout
I'm 'gonna be on news momma
And you'll tell them all about,
How you never knew who I am,
Who I was, no more a man
A rock and black metal fan
A ****** no one could understand
For every ghost who feels weak
I'll show them who we really are
As another town falls asleep
I'll wake up in someones heart
I'll be on the front page,
I'll be the talk of every town
A curse kept in the closet
That every few years come around




I climb on he pulls the ladder
There's evil in this weather
Every problem has a solution
In equations of blood splatter

Every answer will now be better
Never Mind that evil proffesor
Every derivation has an outcome
On the strings of blood splatter