Where is my Lil Sister? I saw her walking to school. I hear her silent whispers.  " I'm gone too soon! "
Mom drove to the store, and she didnt return. We still wait like always, with desperate heartburn.

OUR INDIGENOUS WOMEN ARE MURDERED AND MISSING!
North America and O Canada, No one cares to listen
So to our tribal Matriarchs, we say "Do  nada*."

Auntie walked into the woods, she wanted to get an herb.
Now we go where she stood, she hasnt been seen or heard.
Who took them away and why? We mourn their disappearance.
We ask Mother Earth and Father Sky for our Intertribal quest prominence.

Until they leave no more, and we stomp grass again together,
Our Sacred feminine core, Turtle Island's own precious Flower.

Death comes quickly now with deceit
Azrael's swift ****** and repeat
No time even to check his receipts
Where is the forty days' notice?
Covid. the Avatar's fatal diagnosis

Perpetual mourning is our daily hymn
As we dance to the Viral god's rhythm
No end to these incessant chords
Or spiraling treatment algorithms
  
A requiem for the abundant life force taken
Unceasing cantata from the earth's broken
The dark composition's erratic notes
Orchestrated death, or science hoax?

We don't need fireworks to end the year
But answers and solutions to our fears
Ring the world's religious bells instead
For a shrouded New Years lies ahead

Peace to the departed too soon

Winter 2021

What is next for US?
Pandemic, Poverty, Hunger, Racism, Insurrection, Nepotism, Strife
America, this was our Land

We live in the now
The future will take care of itself
The past reminds us how

winter 2021

You vacated our love holiday
We desired to vibrate as one forever
You abandoned my bruised heart

Winter 2021

I had a vision of you at my bedside
just checking on me?
I tried to wake but couldn't as you touched my gown
and gazed at my face.
Behind my closed eyelids
I felt your love, that you used to give sporadically.

Because you see in Black & White
And I see in Color.

I phoned you the next morning in the rain,
on my way to care for those dying.
The fight gone from your voice,
and too early to think of all the reasons not to speak with me,
you said I love you too.
I know and knew this to be true
that which keeps us apart is that you see
in Black & White and I see in Color.

I called to say I love you, miss you
here if you need me.
You're my responsibility too.
Although you acknowledge my utterances,
you were afraid to act on them.
Because we know
that you see in Black & White
and I see in Color.

We know this isn't about faith,
really it's because I've always seen in Color
and you in hues of grey.
It was nice to see you at my bed
even if a dream, but isn't it ironic?
Dreaming only in shades of Black & White
When the spectrum of the Highest
Al Khaliq created Color

Winter 2020

Leavin' aint always gone
Because your soul cries out in confusion
Cries out in anger's anger
Cries out in protest

Leavin' ain't always gone
It's just harder to seek reason
Harder to make insanity sane
Harder to make the wrong right

Leavin' ain't always gone
Because the loss of life opens pain
Opens the past anxiety
Opens healed over wounds

Leavin' ain't always gone
Just finding a new resonance
Finding a new resistance
Finding its strength in numbers

Cause leavin' ain't always gone
When it's buried

For Trayvon Martin
2012

Everyday

in every way

You are familiar to me.



When You hold my hand

and our fingers search for

that special touch.

That's familiar


When You look at me

and our eyes get a glimpse

of our souls.

That's familiar


When You hold me close

and our bodies melt

like hot wax.

That's familiar


When Your desire meets mine

and for that moment

our passion is King.

That's familiar


When i think of You

nothing else seems to matter

and that is also

becoming familiar

Spring
2015

How do I say no to my heart?

When my mind says he's no good.

And I know I should forget:

His face

His touch

His kiss

His smile

His walk

His voice

His love

He did me wrong I know

When all I did was good

When all I did was love him

When all I wanted was a touch

It didn't seem too much to ask.

How do I forget him?

When I slept with him:

                    ate with him

                    cooked for him

                    shared with him

                    made love with him

And talked about life until the wee hours of the morning.

Why is it so hard for my mind to agree with my heart?

I see pictures of us together

and I long for the times when he was near

The times he kept me from harm:

                     held me tight

                     took me out

                     wrapped me in his arms

                     cried with me in bed

And yet I cant let it happen again.


Tsuliena
Summer

I have a burning desire deep inside me

to feel your skin contact mine

your loving arms surrounding my body


Why wont you hold me?


I have a burning desire deep inside me

to kiss your lips, to have your tongue push

through my smile.


Why wont you kiss me?


I have a burning desire deep inside me

to have you tickle my knees, to have your hands

caress my *******.


Why wont you feel me?


I have a burning desire deep inside me

to feel your tongue deep between my thighs.

Discovering what makes me go Oooh.


Why wont you taste me?


I have a burning desire deep inside me

to make love to you, to have our body language

speak.


Why wont you take me?


I have a burning desire deep inside me,

to make your soul tingle with passion and

deep love.


You are my lover


Why wont you satisfy me?


Tsuliena
Spring

When your eyes meet mine.

          I feel a river rushing to break the dam

to flood the sensation in my body.

          I want to let the rapid waters flow.


When your eyes meet mine.

          I feel a desire to spark the flame

that's shut up in my veins.

          I want to let the raging fires spread.


When your eyes meet mine.

          I feel the lightning strike

that's piercing at my heart

            I want it to light up my life.


When your eyes meet mine.

          I feel a bomb has been planted

deep in my breast.

          I want it to explode into love.


When your eyes meet mine.

          I feel a passion has embraced

my soul.

          I want it to burst into ecstasy.


Tsuliena
Spring

I just want to watch you, watch you sleep

in the quiet of the night. When everything is alright

just let me watch you.

Let me see you with your eyes shut.

                                       mouth shut.

                                       mind shut.

I see beauty in your sleep. Your soft breathing, your chest rising and falling in the same beat.

Let me watch you when you wake for a few minutes and your eyes meet mine.

Just to watch you baby, is so fine.

I just want to watch you when your breathing increases,

                                                      and your heart races,

                                                      and my body shivers in passion.

I want to watch you when my body rises to meet yours.

Let me see you come inside of me, with eyes burning, with desire through my body.

Let me watch you creep

                  in your sleep.


Tsuliena

Spring

Anxiety of love's coming surrender

thoughts of past relationship blues

where pain and bruises were rendered

emotional roller coaster of pursuits

dark alley lies of pure devotion

tortured links become chains for a fool

on knees of obedience and meditation

riding tsunami waves of dark intonation

i closed the revolving door of need

hiding desperation's face behind a mask

shielding my body in your evil deeds

and the unfilled promises do ask

naked brown ornamented rope design

your finger prints now a ruby necklace

my skin delivered and now again my

owned random futile thoughts in place

memories, sweet ballads of release

sonnets of naked blues in sad refrain

the body has found a temple of peace

the mind and soul a requiem of pain


Winter 2015

You say You want to breed _

me

You want to put Your seed _

in me

You want to get me face down _

naked

just don't need another Mr. _

Fake it



my brown skin spoiled for Your _

tongue

my heart beats a rhythm to Your _

drum

my essence is in sync with Your _

sensations

my love GPS is linked to Your _

vibrations


You can read my body's _

mysteries

You produce the scenes in my _

fantasies

You command my loyalty and _

attention

You wish i'd obey Your _

direction


the only gift You want is to _

control

i am the award You want to _

own

my belly burns for Your blue _

fire

my skin tied in Your knotted _

desire


Winter 2016

lips trembling _ veiled heart

channeling my future

i want _ will part

although my soul _ enraptured

wont be your secret wifey

sleepin' alone _ you frontin'

we down _ but i'm sugah free

leavin' my thirst _ wantin'

trapped in your afflictions

unleashin' my_ fear

no longer addicted

my mind _ crystal clear

tryin' to maintain _ pretend

i'm fine _ it's a good situation

inside my mind _ we end

you _ are infatuation

your on notice now

mind on a mission

my spirit wont allow

the flesh _ submission

taking off the chains

removing that *** bind

and whatever remains

will be impossible to find

Fall

You and me, that's all I can see

        and some how that's what I want it to be.

When you're not around, I want you here,

        but I don't want to tie you down.

There is so much that I feel

        that I can not write, but I do know

        that you're right (for me).

My ambition is to be free.

        Not to have anyone directing me.

        And maybe that's bad for you and me.

We are lovers, and I know what my vows are,

but I need more. I know there is more for me.

More than just security. I don't know maybe I'm wrong.

Why do my goals take so long to reach. And yet I have you to teach me about life, as your wife.

Sometimes I feel like I have so much to give, until my dreams collapse and I burn out, and

disgusted, refuse to live.

And even though we have nothing but troubles, it's you and me.

You are there for me to lean on. You help me pick up the pieces of my shattered dreams,

as I shed many a tear I can't replace.

The emptiness and loneliness that torments my soul and the faces of the people I love vanish

But yet there is still you and me.

a play date for us

Your serious eyes

i know You just

want this prize

trying to find a way

to make me play?

suckin' on my neck

while i try to deflect

rubbin' on my belly

tryin' to get me ready

hot lips on my shoulder

yea..

making me bolder

****..Your hands on my collar

hot breath on my ear

i need to holler

You Ssh... nothing to fear

using all Your senses

those commands You speak

to break my defenses

oh ****!

i'm so **** weak

and..delicious thoughts

i'm having about You

about rope, around me

one, two maybe three?

lets do a scene

You can tie me high

beautiful knots down low

squeezing my pie

i think You know

We have a code

You know the rule

i bring the fire

You own the fuel

Your voice makes me melt

and whats that scent?

is that your finger i just felt?

please...***? i just heard

my ***** what?

take me...

**** the safe word!

ive loss all control

i should explain

a play date with You

is delicious pain


Summer

to find myself

i need to get out of my pain.

pain you gave to me

that still lingers like ashes.

it must be swept away.

but i can't find the broom.

are you trying to hold me back?

i must get free, to get out of me.

every time i reach rock's bottom

it's a new depth.

when i think the pain is gone

it's just wearing a new mask.

life has left me waiting on the curb again,

and i'm sitting down this time.

no one has offered to carry me

i guess i have too much baggage?

will i ever be above superficiality?

or are we all disguised? and i've noticed mine.

the pain is too deep.

i can't bring it to the surface

i want to get away

and leave it behind

but it has become a part of me.

it will be my cross.


Spring

cause you see a doll, in lace and silk

and i need the boy, who yearns for the milk


take me once _ hell take me twice

what you find will never suffice


i know i have a man, but i want to own the boy


you ain't rich and I ain't poor, if you got a bed _ i got a door

you call me a doll, the size of a toy


my walk is deliberate, and i walk a high wire

but i know you ache, and i know how to spark that fire


how can you pretend you don't desire me?

when i'm around you _ Your dreams are free


i'm the drug you cant stop using

the lover you keep refusing


tell me you don't love me _ tell me you don't want me


Spring 2015

you are drinking and smoking me

and i am feeling your energy

your breath surrounds my body

with the taste of my ****


in too deep we're on a roll

and you're set on automatic

i'm losing my ******' control

GPS cruising destination *******


your eyes beg let me

have your aching desire

i need you to take it

come quench this **** fire


your hot breath in my ear

mmm _ how you wanna do me?

i'm choking back the fear

wet between the knees


in too deep we're goin' to implode

you're touchin' brown skin parts

my resistance will _ gonna fold

ooh no! please stop! but it starts


you're going ******* the foreplay

turning my orchid drizzle to rain

my body can't take any more delay

got me thirsting __ sexually insane


Summer 2016

Revolution is led by the young
The battle of oppression is near.
Freedom bells have rung
We've suppressed our fear.

and we die... as you observe and meet
and they die... while you drag your feet

The world watches our blood,
as it flows through the streets.
Politicians clean their hands,
with our defeat.

and we die... while you negotiate peace
and they die... by the hands of our own police
This suffrage for toleration has come too far to unwind.
Seems like a no win situation,
unless you emancipate your mind.

and we die... while you sit and debate
and they die... watching their women *****

The struggle against tyranny will continue,
until our dreams are realized.
My town, your village, whatever the venue,
our liberation musn't be compromised.

and we die... to be honored by the freed
and we've died... martyrs
our last breath singing nasheed

TG
Summer