Feelings of love and turbulence
                                  collide
as the gleaming sun
brushed my neck.
        reminding me
of how perfect it would be,
if the sun brushed you,
        instead of me.
                            memories    
          recalling
   how beautiful you are,
                             in the morning light

all my broken pieces
Falling back into place
Within your loving arms
Comfortable and safe

Promises with nuts don't count

Hidden affections
Forgotten thoughts
Lost feelings
Fake love

Rumbling seats, walls and sounds.
Gleams of light
Hold me tight

Please..

i need to feel safe again..

We used to have dreams, goals, hope in our bone.
Now all we have is problems, we’ve created on our own.

They are here.
Eyes darker than the darkness eating up my room.
Feelings of hate, anger, fear
Fear. Help
Make it stop
Eyes wide open
Mad grin
Doesn’t eat. Only living meat
Long fingers, claws. Up and down my throat.
“Where to cut. Where to cut?”
Open up
Let me out
Let them in

I'm sorry
I'm sorry for not being good enough
I'm sorry for you not caring
I'm sorry I cared to much
I'm sorry for wasting your time
I'm sorry you don't love me the way I love you.. Im just sorry

Thinking about what we used to be.
How you used to make med feel.

                        - Happy, wanted, loved and cared for

Now, all I feel is useless. It feels like you don't care.
I still love you more than words could ever describe.

Heavy heartbeats
                         Exhausted body. Everything hurts...
          Muscles cramping, tightening, dying
                 Headache pounding. Empty thoughts

Green leaves, blinding light. A heavy mist to keep things right

Raw liver and butter
                           Soft and fragile
Like my heart