is this what I was searching for?
Where is the end

I just feel like I'm suffocating
I can't breathe
maybe I'll make my own end

so my dear
if you are reading this
it means
that I am already dead.

and we are all
just
surfing along
on this thing
called life

until we get thrown
overboard
by
the
waves

I'd be lying if I told you
That my mind still wasn't filled with dark thoughts

That I'm one step away from ending it all

But I'll keep on putting on a smile
I'll keep on pretending
Pretending that I'm doing fine

Or maybe I'll just
End it all tonight

And in the darkest darkness
we can hear
the silent tears falling

We regret nothing
or maybe something
and we keep on speaking
without words

With no sense on where we are going
The path to nowhere
Leading us home
into nothingness

Can you hold my hand?

You're drowning
You're suffocating
You can't breathe

The panic takes over
No one there for you

Help

I wish I could believe in miracles
Like I did before
When I used to pray every night
forthehelpthatnevercame

Now I am just living on the edge
One step wrong
And it all falls down

It is hard to not feel overwhelmed
By all these feelings
Especially now when the loneliness is eating me up
pleasebemyfriend

Darling , you know, you know
The tears inside me burns like fire
Though I promised you not to cry
Even though you've told me to be myself
Although you don't understand how difficult things are

Though I am strong
I've walked through a thousand forests in darkness
And I am still standing up

I gave up everything for you

My darling, my darling, I want to hold you and stroke through your soft hair
While you stab me with the knife a thousand times in my heart
Darling, I'll do everything for you

My life is so pathetic and complicated
But I'll continue to smile on the outside
While the tears and grief eats up my insides

Darling, my lovely, darling, I'm yours forever

is anyone reading my words
Or am I invisible
and just someone

lostintheunknown

send
help
before
I
die

Idontwannadoth­isanymore

Please
I
Beg

In my mind
and in the shadow of our illusions
We all come together
as one

I want you to explain to me
what you can see
in my eyes
and in my head

Because every tear that have ever fallen from my eyes
is just part of the sea

Count your blessings
Sticks and stones

I am broken
But don't try to repair me because it will take your life
and my life too

They told me
Time heals everything
But they never answered my question
How long time does it take?

Because this feels like forever
and that is a long time
When you've got nowhere to go

Also,
I think,
If I ever saw the light again
I will become blind

So what is the point?

I can't even make the sound
Of your name
Coming from my lips

I'm too afraid
It will become too real
I'll fall too hard
Only to be broken apart again

And this time
I won't even come out alive

I want to feel nothing
I want to feel everything
I want to give you my all

I love you

You turned around and asked me
Why I couldn't sleep

But how am I supposed to tell you
The million thoughts that goes through my head
every time I try to sleep

Help me
I'm falling

And I don't know
How to ever get up
Because I'm in the deepest hole
In total darkness

With no way out

The words you say
I don't think you know
How much they hurt

The things you do
It actually hurts
like I can feel the pain
Going through my whole body
not just my heart

and it can make me feel
so alone
even when I'm right next to you

and I thought about it
That I am
not really alone
because I've always got
the loneliness
keeping
me
company

Why won't the tears stop coming
It's starting to burn
How do I make it stop
Who won't it end?

Do you know how much it hurts?
I felt like I was on my way up
But as always
I slipped down again
I lost my grip

I'm just so tired of falling
Of the never-ending pain
I don't even know what's the point
Of trying to make it up again
When I'm just gonna fall down

I wish I could tell you
That I've already decided
To end it all now

I want to run away

Just leave everything behind
Never look back again
But I keep on running away
And hoping for a change
But it never gets better

How do I even start over again
With all my memories of the past
With the memories of their sweet kisses and love
It just hurts
How did it even turn out like this

I miss holding their hands
I miss hugging their little bodies
I miss hearing their voices

I want to run away
I want to stay
The memories keeps on lingering on

Help me
I'm so alone.