How do I control these thoughts I just want to end it
I don't dare to tell you that a long time ago I gave up Because you believe in me and I don't want to disappoint you
Because if you knew that there was no hope I would end up all alone again
When someone believes in you and you just play along. Pretending that you want to fight even if you know that there is no point. And you also feel like you can't tell them that you don't have the energy to fight. You feel like your whole life is a lie.