I’ll miss you
My love but it's best
we part ways
You've been my joy, my comfort
but it's hurts
more to stay than to leave
So I hope you dream of me
in the night and miss me too

I regret telling
them about
you
letting
you back in
bringing you from the
dark

Even with the looming fear
of your absence, I crave
your bitter affection..

I'm hooked
see the look in your eyes
and my name on your lips
has me dancing
with sin

Jealousy
Oh, it's killer

What is their for me
to do now?

This dance we've perfected
It's a nightmare.
One I don't want to end.

Jealousy
Oh, It's killer

What is left for you now?

When you dance around your
Words.
Darling can be you that way
When you touch my heart
as I look away

Jealously
Oh, it's a killer

It took away my breathe
As you looked at me, and
let her dance you
away from me.

Can't stand the rain
Can't stand the rain

Not with the red eyes
Staring down at me

Oh I'd sing and play
A parade for you

Can't stand the rain
Can't stand the rain

No, not tonight
as we part in the chaos

Oh darling can't see
I can't kiss and tell

I can't stand the rain
Falling from your face

What a waste
It is to say
I care.
How silly of me
to think you'd share.
I Can stare with you
For hours as
we lay there.
But without a care,
You whisper I'm the spare.
As your heart lies in despair,
Over a line of states.
Now I'm here with tears.
Wasting away
with silly little
Words of love.

Where to hide,
But in a bottle.
For the night I long, could never
cover me.
Though even in my drunken stupors,
I feel a longer of that touch..
And with it carries a phrase.
Oh how you dared to throw me out
before a sound.
I long for the night,
the cold box of sanity I reach
for in the bottle with your name.

What of words?
If you only repeat,
and not seek of your
own.

I fear you're dead
long gone, away from it all.
I long to hear you, see you..
But even in the night my fears
don't hide.
And with those fears, I can no
longer hear your name
whispered in the wind.
Perhaps them is it me,
Praying for a soul who
isn't real?

Passion,
to light the fire,
to swim in the words
from your mouth.
Oh it's something about
you.
How you make me want
to melt and sink into the
walls of forever with you.

There was a time I fell
for a girl,
So beautiful she was in
her brokenness.
So far from innocence,
as she clinged to the idea
of love in the arms of another.
Oh she was angel, my
angel of sin, but to kiss her
a sin I wished.
And to her I was her
peace in the sheets,
when the darkness
creeped in.

The taste you leave
After you run away
leaving me,
alone in a haze.
Its like fire in my veins
A burning desire.
And everytime I reach for you
It's like grabbing smoke
I wish I could be done with you
Wash you away
Then maybe then
When the numbness sets in
and I fade,
then can I  finally breath

Tonight
I drown my sorrows
With a bottle of
alcohol and pills
Till your opinion of
me no longer matters

Look at them
noticing me,
I think they finally see
through the dark of me,
the demon inside.
I was beginning to
believe I was living.
Possibly breathing
But I was dreaming,
thinking they'd see me.
They believed me
deceased

My middle name was
Death, because I wrote
of a rose who grew
through blood

You were a cliché
Sinatra song, and
Like Frank you flew
Me to the moon.

I wish I could say I'm shocked,
but love isn't us
Did you enjoy her bed?
Because your drunken call
sayed it all
Dear you can do
better than that
You forget I have friends
in this town too, and tonight
I'll have treat as well
Sharing my bed with
Jack and Crown

Chaos rules your brain
living your days,
dancing with demons
in a clear smoked filled pipe.
Change can be uncontrollable,
but you're off the deep end, in love
with what you can't get.
As you sacrifice your soul
for a high that kills us all.
Placing knives in backs that
had yours.
Do those bruises make you
feel beautiful now?
Now cradle the lies you made,
Oh honey how does that
mediocre life taste?

Dreams of wicked things,
of me and you oh i believe
I've fallen for you

Alien bride traveling back in time,
Such an odd thing to think.
Oh alien bride capturing my mind,
I'm living in the Cosmos of a
different mind.
Time traveling through thoughts
Of another, strange it seems.
But have you smelled the roses
of a distant world?
I'm an alien bride traveling
through time.

You've haunted my dreams,
and now have come into view.
With all flames and hellish crusades,
Why do this to me?
You dance around as though
a prize is to be won,
with your riddleing songs.
But they don't call to me,
I won't let this be.
Tonight your killing spree
ends with me..

Nobody understood
the torture you observed,
what you lived.
A broken home
Mother sold you in
exchange for a quick high
Father saw you as a
substitute for your mother
In and out of psych wards even they thought you weren't sane enough to save
Years pass thinking life's f*ed up
Now your here
a picture of your dear mother
Selling your own,
now for that same high
In and out psych wards
look at you now..
A lost cause, on trial for ******
Nobody understood you needed love never hate

All that is said
is never done
All my thoughts stashed upon the highest shelf, and
my dreams of you confined for I'm scared to fly
My biggest trait is both my light and dark
All that is said
is never done
carelessly with care
I've cut off my oxygen and removed my wings
All that is me
Is but a dream
I've become a puppet in a box scared to breathe

A distant girl who lives a lie,
Only to come alive as she
bleeds her stories upon
torn pages, hoping you'd
read her cries

She made friends with her words, but over time people turned their backs. Drowning as she pushed them away,
It seemed with every goodbye lowered a rope..

A distant girl who lives a lie,
Only to come alive as she
bleeds her stories upon
torn pages, hoping you'd
read her cries.
lives out her dreams in
peace

She made friends with her words.
She never knew the day she
whispered her last goodbye.
As her feet hung above the floor

She just sits and stares
mindlessly at the wall
Oblivious to the ****-filled sores
oozing down her arm..
Letting the wheels stop turning and the fog from her high cloud her mind
She sits and stares mindlessly at the wall
That dusty breeze from that worn down fan turning her hair to a messy mop
She sold her soul for a bag and a room to use
And there she sits and stares mindlessly at the wall dead as can be
How did get this far?

Mother of the year
they cheer
If only they knew the
skeletons you hide
with your rotting teeth and heavy bags
Mother of the year
What lovely kids
They cheer
Not knowing the silence is fear of her whip
and no food to eat
Oh mother of the year who stays high
Mother who gives drugs to your child for pure entertainment
Mother of the year
Not from what I hear

Writing words
here and there
all with no care
    Endlessly
Writing words
with no rest
till I truly
became unhinged

The girl of my dreams
fell in love with an ***
and that girl is me

I'm too far gone
for even the angels
to save.

I knew then I had met my match
when the pain in your eyes
mirrored mine
We were wickedly broken
and wanting of love,
We ran so fast
We forgot to see
the coming scars

Now I'm sitting here
in that old chair
playing all those old tunes
(Remember?)
They reminded me of you
What are you thinking now?
(I'm thinking of you)
Imagine dancing through
the night with you in my arms
just like you promised,
If you were only here
What are you doing now?
I'm spending my time
relaxing to that playlist of us
So join me when you're ready
(To make a new song)
Because I could listen to us all night long

Take me back to where the earth smiled and my weird mind thrived
All I do is write words that make you cringe

Oh just a loser to modern time
A stranger talking to trees
living for strange thoughts and peaceful nights

Glued to a window the rain falls opposite of me speaks my pain
Days coming round where I'm cruelest to myself

Oh just a loser in your heart and mind
Even kicked by the freaks
What's wrong with me?
Why can't I be the same?

Grew up an outcast, a half-breed
Am I unworthy of love?
No luck of thing called love
I paint a picture of romance different from the norms
Unable to feel in the same cold manner
Call what you will
I'm a loser trapped in between lines, hiding to be sane

All I do is listen and pray to invisible words of the shadows on the wall
I'm a loser in between worlds, can't somebody take be home
Above those clouds and away from prying eyes

There, There
Over There
Do you see the man upon the wall?
The one whispering my demise.
He crawls with a muddy face,
and eyes to ****.
There, there
Over There
Do you see the puddle of my mind?
Because only I can feel
the breathe of death
upon my neck

Doctor
Please no need for meds
I swear the voices in my head only try to help
You see I can't stand on my own two feet
Doctor
What's the matter with me
Obsessed?
Depressed?
******? Well maybe
But who are you to judge me?
Oh your degree, I see
Well that maybe
These voices say such delicate words and you care to tune them out
Well Doctor I fear the meds are better suited up your ***

As the moon grew full
so did the sorrow in her mind,
the night she picked up the knife
instead of the pen
For the drops on the floor were more poetically true of
her innerself than her open ended words on that paper
could ever be...

A thousand times I've said
A poet I am not,
A writer I am not
So repetitive I've forgotton who I try to convince,
the world or myself?
Perhaps both
Perhaps neither
You can decide on that
After these are all just
words on a page with the little meanings you pull through the lines

Flowers upon
my page
as I
doodle my
life away

Crude lines
that held no
meaning till
she wept on
crumbled pages

Walks in silence like a ghost
Never to be seen nor heard
The voices swirling around her head like a vortex consuming her every thought.

Wishing for the chaos to cease as she
reaches for your hand
But you can't see he pain you cause
or the ghost by your side slowly going mad
As she alone wanders the world, without  a place amongst the living

Cold as ice
a sin unto herself
the devil unto others

I had a dream last night
that we were perfect, happily loving each other

Then i awoke from the dream
to find you aren't mine and I'm
just a fool with a beautiful dream
of you holding me tight.

Say grand with
little words
Say little with
grand words

Just a swipe of the pen
and a turn of the page
Your heart shatters
as her blood splattered papers
Reveal the monster inside
Just a swipe of the pen
and a turn of the page
You find you're just an
ink stain in the book

I'm an *** this I know,
No need to tell me twice
The mirror tells me everyday