I’m a chemical
substance
that’s been put
together
by a downward
spiral
of poor
genetics

You are the girl
That I once knew
Who wore shiny clothes
With brand new shoes

You are the girl
That had piercing eyes
Which told a story
Spoke a thousand lies

You are the girl
An angel from heaven
What came to earth
But never learnt her lesson

I lay in bed
Staring at the ceiling
Watching the shadows
Appear from my head

You are the scar
That doesn’t quite heal
Like an open wound
Which I can still feel

Where are you now
Out there on your own
In another world
Where you can’t be found

I tried and I cried
same time every night

I used everything
to numb my head

from the smoke
to the drink
I closed my eyes
to help me think

you were here
but you left me

so who is this
who’s laying
in our bed

I scrape my feet
along this broken road
dumping old memories
to lighten the load

I trip and stumble
between each crack
staying awake
so I don’t turn back

into the sunset
I must carry on
where she’ll be waiting
but I’ll be gone

You are the girl
that I once knew
who stole my heart
just to tear it in two

from the downward path
we both once took
stood my darkest hour
that unforgettable look

you are the one
who won’t be forgotten
the young slender woman
who filled all of heaven

I miss your love
your loving kiss
but I won’t forget
that awful day
when you simply,
walked away

From the first breath
I ever took

I watched my mother
give the
saddest look

It was that day
I found my fear
It went
through me
with every tear

As I grew
I came
to learn
I saw this world
for its wicked turn

Amongst a crowd
I tried to fit in
behaving shy
they screamed
and shout

Preferred the dark
hidden from light
I got taught
to live in doubt

From every hour
I had to fight
there was a heart
I held so dearly tight

you are a star
that’s about to die out,
a flame
which has lost its heat,
my child’s toy
that can’t be found;
yes,
you are all of these
but please,
let me sleep
so I can see you
still wondering
deep in my dreams

It’s been a while
since we’ve seen
her smile

In the skin
she is wrapped in
her happiness
lays thin

with a man
or on her own
she stands there
all alone

I built myself a prison
from my own
flesh and bone
using every tiny piece
a place I call home

with no window
and one pillow
that’s my collection
stands a tall mirror
which holds no reflection

is this a bad dream
or a passing phase
I’m still trapped
in the most darkest daze

Day after day
Night after night
I knew then
You were out of sight

I looked for you
Everywhere I went
The last words you spoke
Are ones that you meant

Since you left me
I felt so alone
Like a sad song
Playing
The deepest tone

You were someone
I once called home
Yet somehow you left
And I was all alone

Who am I
To impress
Certainly not
That young girl
In the beautiful
Dress

My past never dies
Some days it leaves
Every night it shows
When the morning comes
Where will you be
No one knows

How many words
and verses
can someone use,
about the one
they thought
they would never lose

If they only knew
how much I’ve written,
would it change
the way they would listen

I write
from my heart,
from the angel
who touched us
to the devil
who tore us apart

We shared the innocence
that you once had,
for me to come along
to scoop it all up
and make it so bad

If not today
then one day
I’ll make the amends,
so hopefully after that
we can become good friends

I found you
As a friend
Took you
By the hand
We both
Got ******
Lost you
In the wind
Because
My poor
little head
Went round
The ******* bend

The day I lost you
Those words you spoke
Turned the room grey
But in time
I’m sorry to say
I found my new self
In the most profound way

If I could dream
Any dream
There’s only one dream
That I would dream
It would be you
Still loving me

Sometimes
I feel rather lost
Some days
I feel a little blue
Only now and then
I feel quite down
All because my mind
Runs back to you

It’s ok to smile
even though
It’s been a while

This lonely old life
no man or woman  
no husband or wife

We live alone
when the children
leave home
our pets
become babies
as we sit
on our own

At night I reminisce
of loved ones
that I miss
those who aren’t here
are the ones
I hold dear

My hand feels
empty
my heart gives
plenty
while my soul
cries
gently

Mum,
you have been there
literally -
from day one
still handing out love
from all I have done

A mum
who is my mother
my protector
my carer
a strong shoulder
that never grew colder

Yes,
It may be once or twice
I set the pace,
like wild mice
In a race,
yet somehow
you always managed
to keep our home
nice and safe

Now,
I have a family,
a place of my own
and if I can be
half the parent,
you were to me
than my boy will grow
to be quite a man-
won’t you agree?

Wherever I go
It will feel unfair
Whenever I stare
You’ll always be there

I like the clothes
That you wear
The way you care

I love the way
you do your hair
The looks we share

After seven years
You said goodbye
The words we used
Told the coldest lie

When we were young
Our world was fun
Now it’s all gone
Im back with mum

Before I die
I wanna try
Just one day
Without a lie
To feel free
In every way
Help me be
Run a mile
Go and play
With a smile
Make me cry
For a while
Not get high

My poetry
flows a certain way

I sculpture words
from the finest clay

The verses you hear
are thoughts we play

These lines I write
leads my pen astray

The tone I use
shows the darkest day

Behind each meaning
gives beauty they say

The young gypsy girl
Who fell off a cloud
That found peace
When her feet
Touched the ground

She held the sunlight
Which would burn
Golden bright
While watching over you
As you sleep
Throughout the night

Her long red hair
With her stylish dress wear
Flows down the street
Floats on thin air

Im a little low
Im feeling  blue
Im lost for words
When I think of you

Through the forest
And over the hills
When I think of you
It give me chills

I’d move a mountain
I’d run a mile
When I think of you
I remember that smile

When I think of you
I lay in bed
I can not sleep
After what you said

Every night  
before I sleep
I close my eyes
and begin to weep

I lay there watching
the curtains sway
In a room
I painted black and grey

Will the morning
ever come
why do I hope
to see the sun
when tomorrow
I’ll be going mad
hopelessly
feeling numb

I’ll be at home
Waiting
By the phone
Wandering
If you’re out there on your own
Watching you,
Drifting off to sleep
Knowing full well
You’re the one to keep

I’ll be missing
Your loving soul
Thinking about
Your tender
Caring role
If there’s anything
I could do
To put things right
between me and you
I’d turn the other cheek
Wash all the bad memories
Down the creek

I’m hoping
When you wake
A fight doesn’t want to take
You thought you’d choose
A better bloke
Over time
Your love for me
Sadly broke
Today
That’s all I got to say
I kneel down
And I start to pray