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Terra Levez Nov 2020
sometimes in the silent dark
when im curled in the corner
is it just
the sound of my traitorous heart
or
are
there
footsteps
outside the
door?
Terra Levez Aug 2020
18 Drafts
One receiver's address
I sigh and delete all of them
It's too late for anyone to be receiving it
Terra Levez Aug 2020
Before she came
I went through hell and heaven to get her here

Once she was here
I didn't notice her as much as I should've
So she went through hell and heaven to be with me

Today she left
Just left with a small, sad wave

Now I'm going through hell
For every thought of what we could've done.
To keep reminding myself not to over look the people and situations present right now. They aren't always gonna be the same...as my sister reminded me here.
Terra Levez May 2021
The story that I love you
It has no end
A quote from one of my favorite series
this line never gets old
Terra Levez Dec 2020
This is the story of how I love you
It has no end
Terra Levez Aug 2020
The sailors say, "Brandy, you're a fine girl" (you're a fine girl)
"What a good wife you would be" (such a fine girl)
"But my life, my lover, my lady is the sea"

Yeah, Brandy used to watch his eyes
When he told his sailor stories
She could feel the ocean fall and rise
She saw its ragin' glory
But he had always told the truth, Lord, he was an honest man
And Brandy does her best to understand

At night when the bars close down
Brandy walks through a silent town
And loves a man who's not around
She still can hear him say

She hears him say, "Brandy, you're a fine girl" (you're a fine girl)
"What a good wife you would be" (such a fine girl)
"But my life, my lover, my lady is the sea"
This song is by The Looking Glass. This is just a part of it. To listen to the full song you can use this link:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EsYnBI2nvHI
Terra Levez Nov 2020
My courage
My strength
My bravery

It's all a show for those who see
Inside I'm hoping no one will test them
And see that they break in use
in practice
in walk
like brittle bones
Osteogenesis imperfecta is a disease that causes bones to break easily.
Terra Levez Aug 2020
Put the Broken Things together
And see the bigger picture
Things that were once
Hoped to be a whole again
Something made together
But now I carry it alone
Or do u carry some of the Broken Pieces too?
Do you look down at your hands when the sharp edges cut?
Like glass it used to shine, tempered in fire, made on the sands of distant beaches
Now I look through those Broken Pieces
I see blood on my hands
For when people who you thought would never leave. And they left with your bond like broken glass in your palms
Terra Levez Aug 2020
When you are up
     you don't realize the pain
of coming down
Because the higher you are
     the prettier the view
and the longer the fall
I was reading a part of the story of how Lucifer got pitched down from Heaven from John Milton's Paradise Lost.
I would like to mention a famous, beautiful quote from it:
"Aghast, the Devil stood,
And felt how awful Goodness was..."
Terra Levez Nov 2020
i kiss my salty tears off my fingertips
and tell myself
"ur strong"
"ur beautiful"
"i luv u"
U never did what i needed so i decided its time someone did it.
y not that someone be me?
Terra Levez Aug 2020
Cast into an iron box
Shut and put away
Somewhere that no one knows
Might as well be in the middle of the sea
Or in another galaxy

You can claw at the walls
Until your nails are ******

You can scream for help
Until your voice turns hoarse

You can tell yourself that you'll be fine
Until the words don't make sense anymore

You can close your eyes and try to make it disappear
Until you don't know what is real:
    The darkness below your eye lids
    ... Or the Darkness around you?

You lie in there
Until you don't know

What is up and down
What is sound and silence
What is real and imaginary
What is alive and dead

Which is you and which is the Darkness
Terra Levez Oct 2023
the depth of a poem or a canyon
can never measure to what's between us
Terra Levez Dec 2020
Missing you comes in waves
And tonight
I'm drowning
i finally feel like sharing the little lines that you gave me because i dont care anymore
Terra Levez Aug 2020
So empty
At the hole just below my ribs
Like the air ****** from my lungs
Like a hard punch in the gut

Like a cold, empty, air-tight cellar
With only a small sad puddle
Collected by an incessant dripping
From a ceiling that's too dark to see

It's like a vacuum in my chest
Each time I breathe in
It threatens to cave in
And crush me
So I take shallow breaths
A few molecules at a time
And just hope that the day doesn't come
When I will have to face
The consequence
Of that Emptiness
Terra Levez Nov 2020
Does anyone see?
The grimace on my face
The showing of my teeth
In attempt to replicate the look
On everyone else's face

So wait
Is my replication faulty...
....or is it the way everyone else is too?
so is everyone faking happy?
can we just stop, it hurts my cheeks
Terra Levez Sep 2020
"Forever," you say
And we walk through the door
So I love you forever
And then a little more
Terra Levez Nov 2020
Goodness is like a pill
Its the cure to all the suffering


But you choke when you swallow it
Terra Levez Feb 2021
I'm incapable of writing poetry
When it comes to when I'm happy
Happy and poetry just don't go with each other.
Terra Levez Feb 2021
I thought love consumed
Before you made me see hate
I hope you now see
What the truth of me is
I'm a monster
And I have your name, address and number
Sweet Dreams, you will sleep for a long long time
When I'm done with you
Terra Levez Oct 2021
The tears in her eyes,
the scars, they were here to stay

I wish we could, too.
Terra Levez Aug 2020
Like sand
he slipped away from me
he was Hiraeth
a lost home
to me
(n.) a homesickness for a home you cannot return to, or that never was.
Terra Levez Aug 2020
He called me Hiraeth
and I never knew why
he carried me in cupped hands
like water,
like evaporating rain.

He called me Hiraeth
and i never knew why
he held me in clenched arms
like ghosts,
like people he has already lost

He called me Hiraeth
and I never knew why
he dropped me through stratospheres
like atom bombs
like war, famine, hate

He called me Hiraeth
and I never knew why
he watched me through refugee eyes
like a burned home
like a train barreling into the night
This poem is by S.G. Kilbride. This is copyrighted to this poet.
Terra Levez May 2021
Hope is the thing with dandelions
For all their delicacy
And for every time they are an Unwanted
A ****
After the fiercest gale
We think that is all
They are gone
And yet every seed makes its way
To every nook and corner
Delicacy, Fragility
Like drifting through a river all your life
Carry on, carry on
How
Terra Levez Feb 2023
How
how do people deal with the loss that comes with time?
how do they celebrate aging another year when they know that time is the one that steals people?
how are you still standing even after you know you missed the last call your mother will ever leave you?
this world takes away everything that it has ever given us.
Terra Levez Nov 2020
If readers were made rulers
Their knights would wield pens
Their wars fought on paper
And their subjects imaginary
We are all rulers aren't we?
Terra Levez Mar 2021
a hero will love you as long as you're right
a villain will hold you through your darkest night
to make a villain fall in love with you must be hard, because he has only ever been hurt by the world, has learnt to mistrust it and be disgusted by it.
Terra Levez Aug 2020
When you asked me if I regretted us:
I don't regret us
I don't regret any one of every thing
I don't regret a single touch
I don't regret a single word
I don't regret a single glance
I don't regret saying 'yes'

If anything, I want more and more.
But now after everything
I just wished it never happened
Terra Levez Aug 2020
I said Goodbye for the first time and felt the air slip out of my lungs
I said Goodbye for the second time and thought maybe I'd get a third chance
Only my rationality slipped away
I said Goodbye for the third time and my belief in good slipped away
I said Goodbye a thousand more times, never realizing what left me

Then just as I was saying another Goodbye
Unnoticed in my litany
I felt myself scatter to the wind in all the different paths
Like a candle snuffed out by by the silencing wind

That was my Last Goodbye
And that was the last of me
This is for every goodbye I had to say; temporary and permanent...who knows when the temporary becomes permanent in these times?
Terra Levez Sep 2020
When I got lemons from Life
They told me
to make lemonade
I tried and tried
But the yellow drink kept coming red
with my hands burning
from the cuts that Life left me with
Now burning with acid
Terra Levez Oct 2020
So when you told me you loved me
It was a lie
Then you told me you hate me
It was a lie
You told me you lied

So was that a lie too?
I don't get you. I'm trying hard. Just tell me in plain words once in a while.
Terra Levez Feb 2023
The world takes every inch of what it gives
Do not think a single thing in this world is yours
Cherish it as though you are watching it leave
Terra Levez Oct 2020
Is it my fault that I love you
Is it so much so my fault
That you need to try so hard
To make me unlove you?
Don't worry
I'm trying too
Terra Levez Jan 2021
Mad Heart
Be Brave
written by a Kashmiri Poet
Terra Levez Sep 2020
It was funny
How as I stepped into my city

With its blackened air beating my face
  each breath a war with chemicals

With dust, grime and garbage at every street
  and shops which no one ever enters

With all the noise and clamor of traffic
  and the neon lights which blind my eyes

It was funny really
How much I had missed my ugly city
My Dear City,
For every time I come back to you
Terra Levez Nov 2020
He'll pour the sweetest honey words
And you'll willingly take every sticky drop
Not knowing that he'll take you when the amber hardens
And add you to his collection
i dont know why i still reread every one of your poems
Terra Levez Nov 2020
Whisper vices in your ear
While I paint you in virtues
There you are, my poison apple
Shining with a red of bloodiest hues
Inspired by Snow White... somehow that simple tale was always so much more sinister and had so much more sentiment than a simple fairytale.

All it took was a closer look and a twist in the story
Terra Levez Feb 2021
"There is nothing more peaceful
than not being interested in anyone"
Terra Levez Mar 2021
“What if we go on,” he said, “only to more pain and despair? What if we go on, only to find a horrible end waiting for us?”

“Then it is not the end.”
From Queen of Shadows by Sarah J Maas.
If you haven't read this series pls pls read it.
Terra Levez May 2021
We open the halves of a miracle
an extract from the poem Ode to a Lemon by Pablo Neruda
Terra Levez Mar 2021
Holy water
   cannot help you now

A thousand armies
   couldn't keep me out

I don't want you money
I don't want your crown

See, I've come to burn
Your kingdom down.
Ashes, ashes and they all fall down.
Part of an original piece by Florence and the Machine.
Terra Levez Nov 2020
the shine in her eyes pulls me to her
but little did i know they were tears
Terra Levez Oct 2020
Sorrow found me when I was young,
Sorrow waited,
Sorrow won
A quote from a song by the Nationals
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IIYjPlnCi4
Terra Levez May 2021
Sorrow found me when I was young
Sorrow waited
Sorrow won
This is originally a quote from a song by the National.
Here is the link for the song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IIYjPlnCi4
Terra Levez Aug 2021
A broken swing on the old oak tree
A scrap of blue fabric holding it together
Messy braids on a head
Wrapped in thin blankets
The wind howls
Moans at the broken glass
The tears in her eyes
The scars, they were here to stay
I wish we could too

The fabric frays
The swing finally falls
The wind keeps howling
howling
and howling
Terra Levez Aug 2021
The music ends
And yet the symphony has just begun
Everyone leaves us
Some run, some fall
But we stayed
And slowed danced in this burning room
Some called this misery
We called it home
inspired from an Instagram challenge... yes i copied from another person's verse a bit.
Terra Levez Oct 2020
I thought I loved madness
The freedom it gave me
That was before I met u
Darling, ur schemes for me are too much to take for my gullible, stupid, trusting heart. For my sake, for the first time, I'm done.
Terra Levez May 2021
you may have left me
saying that to believe in love is childish
but i didnt believe in it
until you came

you opened up a chasm in me
and when you left, i feared its depths
rather than exploring its meadows

when i fell
i only saw the ground
and i forgot to open my wings
this wasnt meant to be sad
it was meant to convey the beauty i was blind to, the love that i felt not from another but from myself. it was so beautiful, but i forgot it when he left.
now when im realizing it all over, with no one other than me, its so so beautiful to be alone and free.

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