pink
and Gucci
he's got his legs around mine
twisted
and kissing
I have my fingers in his hair
soft
and sunshine
we didn't tell anyone about it
secrets
and Fendi
he's never loved someone like me
chains
and that drip
I told myself I wouldn't get attached
lies
and friends
we're more complicated than we admit

he's off somewhere now

ran away with my heart

but I stole his t-shirt, so guess we're even

i've never had anyone kiss me the way you did

i've never fallen in love and fallen asleep

but you're one in a million and i wanna stay a while

definition:
      y - o - u

      the person who i loved
      the person who is mine
      the one i dont forget

goes by other names such as:
lover, him, dear, boy, friend, heartbreaker

not to be confused with:
forever

come here

be there

fit inside this box of beauty

i am not an animal you throw into the ring
i do not fight petty drama
i do not see my heart as caged

you want me to be there

i want to be here

he just wanted to use me
as if i was a light you could turn off
as if i was a river you could divert

i never wanted to be anywhere than with you

but i wanted to be anywhere but here

and you took my face in your hands

i might have caught a glimmer of the universe
in your eyes just that once
but it all went dark when you kissed me close

if feeling could write,

if emotions could paint,

we'd all be drowning

in acrylic and ink

I thought I'd be able to comprehend my feelings
but after last night
       after the shots I took
       after the alcohol made me blurry
       after the smoke cleared the basement lights
I knew there's never been anyone but you
I knew I shouldn't be here
Sipping back tequila and thinking about your eyes
Sipping back a beer and thinking about your hair
Smoking another one and thinking about your exes
Smoking several more and thinking I should have called you
And I'm in this party state of mind
Minding your business and not keeping to myself

i know i just met you
but i swear
the way you look at me
it gives me the chills
how did i never know you
till now
and here you are looking at me
like i have a galaxy
painted in my eyes

honestly these little late night binges on music
are all i need to keep me going when everything
is spinning out of control and the only thing im
hanging on to is the sound of your voice and the
way you look out of the corner of eyes and all i can
think about is that you don't even know how obsessed
i can get with you and with everyone and with anything
thought id leave this childish behavior behind me but
here we are and here i am staring at your door wondering
how in the hell did i get here and crying because you
didnt deserve me and i didnt deserve you because
she had already stolen your heart a while back and
im just playing games with love now
im just playing games with your heart now
so tell me that this is ok that we keep on beating each other up
even when the blood pours thicker than when it began
tell me that this is ok because i dont know when
it's going to end so ill just binge the rest of my
night away listening to songs that remind me of you

and to think I actually fell in love

and to think you told me secrets

but I was playing with fire

I burnt what love I could have gave you

he smiles at me and I'm put into a daze
too busy dealing cards to myself
and I know he's gonna break my heart forever
his hands fit so nicely over my wounds
but the other ones wiped my tears away
too busy looking past the facts
I know I wish the other ones did what you do
he's so perfect with his lips on my neck
but what do I even do next when he looks like that
too busy obsessing over tomorrows
he tells me I am like no other
and I know when I wear that color his eyes don't leave me
his body never felt like the others did
too busy feeling lost without you
too busy to ignore these feelings
too busy making mistakes over again
and I know you're not too busy to make plans with me
but I know I'm too busy for you every time

I shouldn't
I don't want to say it
You've already put a ring on her finger
Her delicate soft hair tangled around you
But I still miss you
Despite the arms that hold me close
Your smile always drives me mad
I can't now
I really shouldn't
Part of me did love you once
Yet I'm surrendering my feelings to the clouds
I would be a fool to think you could love me

only got a month to make this right

only got a moment to kiss you

only have me and you in the room


but he didn't know how to love
he was used to throwing it all away
every single time
but he told her to never leave


just had a phone call with you

just got into your passenger seat

just held your hand and the world disappeared


she knew exactly how to love
but she was so used to being thrown away
every single time
but she told him she wouldn't leave


and we looked into each other's eyes

and I knew I was never gonna leave

and you told me I was the one

Calypso
One of the seas
Why have you run off with my heart?
Does the sea not have enough hearts?
Do you not have enough men chase after you?
Oh, Calypso
Why do you do these things to me?
You torture me with every breath
You are my end
When the storms rise and fall
I am in the midst of your fury
How did you fall out of love with me?
I thought I was the only one
My dear Calypso
The end of my life has been spent
dying in your arms
So wash over me
And let the seas become me once more
For I am only a slave to your beauty
Calypso

you make me want to love you
                                   to leave you
                                   and still be with you
all in one night

today i will be ok. tomorrow will be too. whenever i doubt this truth, i will simply look behind at all the todays & tomorrows i made it through. & they were ok.

do you want to come with me?
do you trust me?

i'll take your hand and lead you

i promise i won't lead you wrong
i will stay here beside you

i know she hurt you
i know she lead you nowhere
left you abandoned with a broken heart

follow me
i'll take you somewhere
anywhere but here

do you know i am not her?
don't you know i love you more than everyone else?

the pain can't follow where we go

i trust you
i wanna go with you anywhere

where do I even begin?
we met unexpectedly; like two whirlwinds colliding
I fell hard, I have to admit
you weren't the type I was expecting to meet
you were sweet and easy going
didn't occur to me how fast you made my heart beat
I felt ok around you
but the floodgates of all my past relationships exploded
I'm sure you get the picture of my past now
torn up and broken
that's what happened to my heart so many times
but I wasn't cautious with you
I dove in head first
not looking back or hesitating
you were something of a daydream
but you made my knees shake and my hands go numb
you chilled me to the bone
how did you do this to me?
out of everyone I've ever met I'm still so curious about you
mysterious and interesting
you still haven't shared your darkest secrets
but I can tell you're not the type
please don't be afraid of me
I've crossed the line and I'm waiting
I know we crashed and met in the weirdest way
but I take the chances I get
and you certainly weren't a mistake

as if I almost fell in love
and the rain ceased to fall
like when a perfect halo forms around your head

as if you almost said it
and the words drenched your lips
like when the stars light up your dreams in color

as if they almost believed
and the world became heaven
like when all is calm and no fear ever existed

as if
but its only impossible

when you get the courage to finally dream again and fall in love, it's always the stories and people who've you used to that come crawling back into your mind

let me be

I can't believe I ever attempted to love someone like you and when we parted ways you called me a liar and a cheat as if my memory meant nothing to you

I hope you see me as I am now

Hopeful but still learning how to better my mind

I'm sorry for the distraught state I left you in but it was for the better... you and I would have never won

a white dove.
a simple lie.
sweet regret.
a mother's cry.
death's prayer.
a single lullaby.
a crow's caw.
deepest night.
a snowy mountain.
a lover's duet.
burning fires.
a war cry.
a queen's people.
far away.
a storm comes.
a war begins.

Just be my baby for one night

Promise I'll let you go in the morning

But kiss me when I run away

maybe its the way i used to think about you
maybe its the simplicity of things between gravity and earth
but i caught inseparable to the glow in your eyes
caught mesmerized by the fact that you care too much
and for a moment we become lovers to our words
and for a second i think im falling for you again

maybe we had something more when we were young and in love
maybe we kept too many secrets under the mattress
but i fell for your charm and your sweet smile
every little bit of your aura enchanted me when you walked in
and for a moment we became lovers not friends
and for a second i thought i saw you falling for me again

maybe it was all bad timing or someone switched our clocks
maybe it was something i said in different wavelengths
but you were caught inseparable to the sparkle in my eyes
and for a moment we became broken not lovers
and for a second you probably saw me falling for you again

he was a poet. she was his muse.
they danced like a wind song. carefully through the world.
a rushing storms of love. nothing in between.
except for the secrets. little lies about another.
his poetry turned sour. her anxiety-ridden soul.
they cried tears in the dark. they played slow songs.
he was her poet. she was his muse.
they stood lies and tears.
thinking of tomorrow and tomorrows sweet regret.
nevermind the love. nevermind the others.
he was a caring soul. she was a wild one.
they whispered carelessly. she held his hand.
without the pain. without the hurt.
he would have been better without her.
she would have been better with him.
she was a liar. he was perfection.
for he is a poet & she is a muse.

I guess where I need to start this
Is where other people left off
Saying crap about love
Or crying about some man
This where I need to begin again
Right on the floor next to the box of tissues
Over by the tear-stained dress
She's crying because her man was a lair
He's lying because his girl was too perfect
These things don't make any sense
So I guess this is where I make sense of it all

People are immature and rude
They say things they don't mean to
They do things they shouldn't have done
And I know life is messy
Trust me I have been down that road
But as of right now, life is life
You gotta live it as it comes
When it hurts you, you stand tall
Where love leaves you
This is where you begin

To love yourself
To love others
To just be and feel love
To love is to take the whole world
Put it on your shoulders
And keep on giving till you have nothing left
But maybe you can't relate

it takes me a while to admit
you're all i feel when i dream
it takes me a while to realize
you're all i've really wanted all along

and i know i've never been you're favourite
but trust me you've been mine
and i know another's on your mind
but trust me i can't get you off of mine

it takes me a while to focus
when you're standing right there
it takes me a while to breath
when you move in closer than before

and i know i'll never be the one
but trust me you'll be the perfect one
and i know someone else has your heart
but trust me you've had mine forever

with the way you were sitting there in

the moody lighting of that sunken bar

I could have sworn I felt cupid smack me in the face

and in a moment your lips were on mine

blocked, deleted, trashed, and gone

these are the things so far I've done

to take you out of my life for good

because God only knows just what you did

never felt like this
as if you were something
waiting there at the door
feelings caught up
pain all shoved down
this could have been
the worst time for us
nothing more than roses
tossed at my feet
looking like I conquered
I thought you were
sweeter than magnolias
never wanted to let go
your sister used to call
all of the missed e-mails
I wanted to ask
take all my pain away
far from the rain
you were bitter
lifeless notes on my tongue
a whisper in the closet
close the car door
you were my magnolia
dancing in the spring

just let the sun dip below your beautiful curves
kiss me on the forehead
tell me all these pretty little whispers
tell me all the things that i wanna hear
i know life hasn't gone the way we planned
but trust me
i know i feel happier in your arms
but hold me
i know you feel warmer when your in my arms
oh dont look at me like that
turn around and let the sunset cover your lies
you loved me
i loved you
oh wait
we still love each

have me slipping
                dripping
                falling madly in love
and you made this happen
just had to smile
                    look at me
                    tell me you see me  
but i cant get a grip on reality
i cant figure out what im even feeling
im freaking out
      losing touch
      breathless
and it was all because of you
                         because all you had to do was look
                         because you wanted me
i knew it was all downhill from here and there
so dont trip
              fall
              catch any more feelings
love never came easy for us
                                      for any of us
say goodbye but come back after midnight
maybe ill change my mind
just for you
just for me
just for love

when i talk to you
i sound crazy
my words don't add up to what i wanna say
so i sit back
i watch you slowly slip away
you fall through my grasp
you drip through the gaps
and now i really miss you more than i did before
maybe because i realize how far away you are
maybe because i realize you'll never hold me
here you feel so close
when i see your face on my screen
and when you type out easy words
and when you leave me helpless in the middle of the night