A. All the time I spent by myself i could never see anyone else beside me.

L. Locked away the contents of my heart, I buried them so deep I hoped they would never find me.

O. Oblivion the void I been falling for awhile, cant see the ground I just keep falling down, down, down... The never ending fall.

N. Never thought I'd fall so far, lately I've been wondering if there was something more.

E. Even Something just beyond my reach, something I can hear but can not see. All my life I thought I was walking alone, no one beside me all alone. But all my life i've just started to realize that sound, it was coming from behind me. I've never been alone I just never thought to look behind me.

An endless game of Hide n' Seek.
Don't you see,
My hiding place !?
It's not hard to find.
So, Why do you not hasten to me.
YOU MUST BE HIDDEN TOO!

Come with me,
For we must stick together.
As we all fear the cold, smothering belly of loneliness.
We shall confide in each other's pursuit for a common love.

When will this game end?
Before long...
For we now dread each other's company,
And long to be found.

The 'Game' turns into emotional torture.
We lost track of the ever burning sun.
Our memories become fabric
And
Our words cut out the shapes we need to keep warm.
Yet, The bitter cold is so ever tempting.

As our bodies together, like a great fire...
I realize-----
Only TWO were playing this 'Game'.

I woke up at six
Feeling nauseous and sick
Didn't like moving
As if the bed is embracing

But I had to rise
To cook food and eat rice
Prep for work and revitalize
Practice smiling and be nice

Wake up little sunshine
Make your dream beam with lines
Get up and realize
The goal you have in mind

It was on those sleepless nights
When I was alone with my thoughts
That I realized
Noise is not just sound
Because silence can be the most defeaning.

When you stumbled into
My broken life
We were filled to the brim
With fleeting romance
That Controlled our Minds
But then I realized
That our love was false
And the sweet nothings
Were the web of the poison spider.
And I realized you were leading me
To be a prisoner to your wicked smile.
I thought I couldn't escape
I thought that I was weaker than you
But my belief is the
Control you had over me
And so I decided that I should
Run Away

I may have been drinking tonight, but it has just brought a sort of clarity. I don't let people walk in and out of my life easily. You can't have it both ways. I don't take **** from anyone, and I don't ever plan on it. You chose to walk out of my life the day you chose her. One day you'll realize how big of a mistake you made. You'll look back on the years spent with me and realize how much you lost. You'll see that everything I did, in some way I did it for you. You'll come to the realization that I loved you with every ounce of my being. No one will ever love you more than I did. You'll wonder where you went wrong, when you lost a girl like me. You'll try to come crawling back, but I don't want you anymore. Me, the girl who would have gone anywhere, done anything to be with you, is simply over it. No, I don't want you back. I don't want you to change. You missed your chance with that.

So when you realize how vast my love for you was, don't tell me. Don't remind me.

Just sulk in the what ifs and maybes, just like you made me do.

Maybe friends aren't the ones
Who we spend 200 days with in school

Maybe friends are the ones
Who we still talk to
Despite not seeing each other
For months

And that frightens me

Breathing.
You dont realize you do it but then you think
about how you are breathing,
and you realize that you can stop.

In time,
you'll be okay.
You'll realize that
no matter
what happens
it will all fall into place.

Always
remember to
not be afraid of change
because
change
is the
only
permanent thing
in the world.

*You'll be okay. In time.