If like repels like
Why has my negativity
Opened the door
To yours

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What°°° lies°°° beneath°°° .
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Stood°°° behind°°° my°°° soulless°°° body°°° .
Lift°°° my°°° own°°° hands ,°°°
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A°°° scene°°° of°°° a°°° suicidal°°° heart°°° surgery°°°.

Why should I?
Who says so?
What's the point?
Is it worth it?
So?
Who cares?
Can't be bothered
Too much effort
Maybe tomorrow
If you like
Whatever
Be my guest
Try - shmy
Best – shmest
Work – shmirk
Rules - shmules
Conscience - shmonscience
Life - shmife

Meh!

Life's a fairytale right?
Life's always happy and full of sunshine and rainbows and smiles, love and laughter as the stories they tell you as children.


Yeah... life's a fairytale, for the ones that see it through rose coloured tainted glasses.


But that's not reality...
Life's hard and complicated and full of sorrow, suffering and pain.


If you're the type to see that life isn't tainted by all the negative things. You live in a different dimension.


Reality sets fairytales apart from it.
Reality taints everything in life with all the different colours in the spectrum.


It's not black or white or the different shades of grey.
Life's not always full of bliss and good things.
But you know what reality teaches you that fairytales don't?
Is that no matter how much negativity you go through in life... It's always your choice to get back up and keep going, keep going to live a full life with bravery, passion and the strength and will to get where you want to be no matter how tainted life makes you feel.