A choice i once made
Gave me this feeling
A feeling that never sat right with me
For some reason this feels
Like a stay or go
Stay with me or be free from me
But i know you ache with pain
That should not be there in the first place
And if forgiveness is not an option
Then to be free it must be
For to move forward
We need forgiveness and to move on
To leave it in the past
I promise to you
That I want only you till I die
And i know who i have and how much
You mean to me
So to lose you
Would be too much
That my mistake
Would be the breaking of your heart
I just want to speak to you.
Can I get one moment of your time?
I just need me to see you.
I just need you to see me.
I know sometimes it’s not easy.
I just want this one moment to last.
But I know the images of me.
Brings up the bad moments of your past.
I just want to say sorry.
Although history can repeat.
It usually does..no matter how discreet.
Things can still to the surfaces above.
I’m thinking of you too much.
And the mistakes that were made.
But I’m also missing your touch.
Almost by days: like yesterday and today.
Tomorrow could be a different story.
But I still think about you always.
I won’t go into details.
But I shouldn’t raise my _.
I feel sorry where it landed.
It should of firmly planted.
If it was me instead of you.
I would of never withstand it.
So, now I understand it...Why.
You left me without a goodbye.
Then again you just left.
Without a single text.
I started with a Hello...
I got silence in return
I guess your wondering what’s next..
I guess your still feeling hurt..
I’m Sorry (it’s not just words)
I’m Sorry (I really mean it when your hurt)
I’m Sorry (I should thought of my action first)
I’m so so Sorry.
I put my self in scenario’s. I’m a romantic type of guy. I cause no pain.
The marks you left behind after the bruises faded
A flinch at a hesitant touch
Afraid to be alone with someone
Afraid to be touched in a hug
It isn't on purpose
I just panic at touches even by family
From what you left when the bruises had healed over
Don't be afraid to walk out. Don't be afraid to put yourself first. The marks left behind might never heal but it is better then staying in a relationship that only harms you.
You’ve awoken my heart
So wake up please
I’m getting sleepy
My lucid dreams smother and inject terror into my heart
They terrify me
Wake up please
I cannot fall asleep
Is it really 11:03?
Headache of a girl
stepping on sobbing floorboards,
rusty pipes and lonely nights.
I start my own fires,
tend to sweat out kerosene.
Rinse myself with ***** water
dripping from cracks above.
Break open a window-
smoggy air love, right hand slug.
You’re still sound asleep,
yet I stand in the city
interrupted by sirens
and memories of you.
What a pity.