I need to get something off my chest. When it comes to friends, there's no second best. And when it comes to people I love, every time I look at you i forget about the rest. It's amazing how your words give me so much hope. Like a street lamp guiding me home in the night. And yet when I finally find the words I want to say, I look at you and it's like I'm being hit with kryptonite. I don't know what the future has in store, but as long as you're in my life, you make me ready for more.
I feel too much and even though it's great at times I also hate it, because I can't control my emotions. It's like caging an animal born in freedom, you'll only end up hurting yourself if you try.
And I have tried, believe me. I've tried so many times. And I've come to realize it doesn't matter whether I try to cage them in or let them run free, it's always me who ends up being hurt.
And it ******* hurts. It makes me not want to be me. It makes me not want to live. Because I can't express the things roaming inside of my mind, my veins and my heart.
I'm going crazy inside my private circus I'm the clown, the elephant, the ballerina and the ringmaster how am I supposed to balance all these roles? It's no wonder I'm going mad and tearing myself up from within.
Help! I need help, but the help won't reach me since I convince myself every time that I need no help. Because I'm afraid to be weak, for others to see me as weak and that's my own problem: I'm my own kryptonite.
It's a new year but I'm still the same me You say you're a new you but I disagree We both have made changes good and bad We have aged quite a bit in the short year we had I may be a little colder but I'm a little wiser too Yet I find my Kryptonite somehow is still you You are making an effort like you never did before But the dope comes first and you always need more You still feed me the same old tired lines I still eat them up though I know they're only lies So how much have we really changed this year? So much has happened yet we're right back here Two different people. Too much broken to name A lot of pain between us but our hearts still feel the same As much as I tried to get over it, let go of you, and grow I'm exactly where I was 365 days ago
Paul.. tsk tsk. I don't know what exactly went wrong, but I want more than anything to be happy with you again like we were as kids. I hope we can make that happen somehow.
So, here's the cache: Make sure all & any & every single move you make you won’t regret in years or even days keeping you at 3am in the bath wide awake
So as a preventive bound tight to this vow, I stay
say what you mean & mean what you say
Like champange with *******, you'll have been overcame with duende for this phrase
& it’ll keep your subconscious feeling clean while you continue to slay away at just your normal hygiene for today or maybe a few disarrayed prey it'll even help trick it when you actually are totally aware you’re instigating & quite quietly steering some rather nasty foul play
but besides the fact the move’s today and still, I attempt to cajole and I’m now regretting not only an action but a whole section an entire chunk of my life spun out and became some mangled & ******-up black hole
& the worst part is, its long past, I mean it's looooong since slipped outta my control & it's long past me being the one looked to for decisions & its long past when I sorta lost all & any & every bit of possibly existing trust
& long past, I just now noticed it all mid-through one of countless attempts to self-console because when I went crazy, everyone still called me Superman
Because when Superman bumps his head, who’s gonna get past theSuperin Superman and ****** pick him up and put him back on solid ground?
Because that’d really **** if Superman wound up dead Because no one thought the dude that shut down the Ku Klux **** Could be uncrowned & end up all bled out & drowned
moonshine, puzzles, kryptonite they will surely take me down they'll push me left, they'll push me right shoving me round and round
they'll fill my head like a willing cup confusing me till I don't know which end is down, which end is up as I'm stumbling to and fro
can you blame me for being cautious can you see it's not just a dream they'll cause me to be very nauseous polluting my very bloodstream ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ relax, since two out of three are rarely found the other you need not be around I guess you're safe for now but to keep you from having a cow I'll help keep a watch for them, anyhow
So what's with the * * for italics? Anybody figured it out?