Swimming in my mind
you afraid to cross the line
troubled and happy
circuit not firing
you not calling
in love
in hate
why not?
you love me
I always knew
you shine through
like you always do
I need breakfast
I need you
your scent on my lips
your smile
your touch
you shining
my girl
my sweet woman
my love
my Saturday

You wake and the walls are close
desperate for air, freedom and a breeze.
know it's ok, that you have a place to sleep.
some have nothing in this world, many have no close walls.
sometimes things workout for you, you just need to see them.

have faith, have hope.

I am my own rampant needs

the true reality of my wanting
reeling in my pool of need

my yearning for you engulfing
I am drowning
water the higher

the lower and closer
I need to swim
but won't

overwhelmed in bliss
ever closer to your soul
wrapping myself in you
tangled in your hair I cant breathe

I am happy in my slow death
a eternity of pleasure
don't save me


KT Feb 26, 2014

and you are critical of me one last time.

la fine

The crazy folds right into the sane
peaking its ugly head out
bad complexion hidden

my urge to light myself
flame out overwhelming
making all beauties
ruin every relationship
drink drink drink
fight fight fight
*** *** ***

my life
lots to ghost write
my excuse
human
vivid color
hidden

I struggle to explain
My Irish Girl
the colors of my love for you
your perfection
your breathtaking beauty
your calm
your religion
your lines
your river runs to me
timeless motion
on a line only seen by God

In her perfect beauty
framed by a second while meeting her
her will to take her time
my need overwhelming
like a pocket watch ticking slowly
growing louder every second
her lips full of promise
breathing the same air
rhythm beats of her blood pumping
a sight beyond large or small
my mouth needs to wonder through her
she is my air

... to live is to need her



KT Mar 14, 2014

The calm rolled over our bodies, a lake with no waves,
the birds sang their song.
It was in that crystal moment that I realized that this wasn't going away.

The feeling grows, the song is a chorus, the evening sky
a Matisse, vivid and dynamic.
The cupids dance.

Your hair and skin radiating and me with a grin.
You are Venus and me, I'm the moon.

Venus, I love you.



KT April 15, 2015

snow is falling
my heart of the past
the lake froze over two months ago

we walked it when the leaves fell
I couldnt stop kissing you, you holding my hand
laughing the clock ticking down

the snow is two feet deep now
not a sound but the wind pushing me from the past
past the smell of your hair
the catch in your eyes
spring weeks away
new flowers
new love
my legs tangled with the nameless

the sound of new life coming
new hope
new flowers
new love
you with yours
and me with mine

the streams moving free
new growth of the unseen
the unseen is today's hope

my life is not a new story
a love story of our naked humanity
the past, present and the future
colliding in a beautiful painting
living and loving

blessed to live
blessed to feel
blessed to have a spring



KT Mar 1, 2014

Boarding on the towns of Lost and Forgotten,
my soul waits in a dusty bar.
The bleached bones of  the countless lay for miles,
the never-land of the desert,
the dry air burns the nostrils.

My heart never to be the same,
but the direction changes and moving on
to another town,
other people.

Using what I know
and knowing what is,
an adventure,
a life.



KT April 22, 2014

no longer slipping into the depths
i live
i am me
the sun rises
it shines on my face
no longer in the dark
the new day begin
and my whole life before me

What is known is taken away with the past and I step with me and all that is today.  Courage as it sits is null since the stream runs with today's water and the moon offers this night's light.

What is known is taken away with the past and I step with me and all that is today .  Courage as it sits is null since the stream runs with today's water and the moon offers this night's light.

in silence i sit with the truth.
you my love
to behold in a wink of time
i wait for the rivers to come to me
for eternity
you breathe so i sit
you my love
i wait for the roads to come to my doorstep
to the day my heart calms and i become whole
you my love
your lines of perfection
so here i sit

the past clings less and less.
the last gasp of the old self.
air escaping, the color fading.
mouth gaped with blank eyes.
lifeless with a silent story.

After a lifetime of people and the coming and going,
I look into her jet black eyes and eternity stares back.
My soul rests.

You know our years are not lost
our children
our laughter
the blood
the breathe
the tears

the loneliness just got to me
that's all.
I just couldn't take it anymore.
ignored and dying.

you will be happy.
you will meet someone nice.

our years wont be lost,
you are you
and I am me.

they run along the tree tops following
you can hear them scamper
they follow me
waiting for the chance
to take me down
take me to hell
put me on the rack
behead me
string me up in the square
oh the hate
I just want to live
misunderstood
hated
ridiculed
watching every step
watching behind me
around every corner
I need to live my life
run run run
I am slightly ahead
if only a moment more
my life will be a flame
the highest of flames
I will die living and living I will burn

In my repeating dream I would see you...

me..wandering the street that I grew up on
small town Ohio.  

asking people where to find you
you..waiting at the cul-de-sac ...

I walk one step at a time... slowly
you standing in the sun light
white and the wind swirling
unbelievably beautiful
dancing with children
as they play and run around you
the light playing off the scene
my vision in a movie reel

there come moments even in another world
that change your life...

my heart pounding in my ears
we kiss and hold each other, the picture twirls
and I say ...
"I love you and always have"
you softly whisper, " I know, I have been waiting for you"
the scene twists and turns
my heart pounding .... I wake, eyes wide

20 years later after searching
through many souls
piling hearts on a mound
I found you.

a split second moment
turning to see you
the crowd at a market as chaos brews
caught your beautiful eyes
you caught mine, it all began..

now in this world,
blessed as we are in our beautiful
and ongoing collision.


KT Mar 21, 2014

Life the precious drop of energy
blessed me with you
the light so bright
you are alive
live your life
and me in your light
this moment realized
kiss me
breathe you in
catch a raindrop
ride your body
dropping from exhaustion
a heap of skin and nothing else
riding the stars of the heavens
the perfect you
and not so perfect me

THE air is tight but fresh
sunshine bright
leaving winter slowly
life wants to live and comes to

she is there I know somewhere
breathing this air on this planet
I can feel her move
hair brushing my face unseen
the lock in our soul and the touch of her hand

March wind blows and the kite lifts
hope rises and lifts me higher
the field reacts to the waves of wind
lapping at the shores of my core

I walk this morning air
and the future is here

I am

you are

in it together

whether we know our names

smile at me when you see me

and I will smile back

peace and love

I'll kiss your lips

and all will be well with our souls



KT Mar 12, 2014

I do not know who that person is.
Crazy is not who I am ...right?
I do not want to own him.
He is irrational, scary, unhappy,
small minded and singular in thought.
Looking to blame that woman in the black boots.
I ran the hours and then it hit me,
I don't need to be him.
Exhale, move on and be HAPPY.



KT April 3, 2014

When I tell a woman she is beautiful,
many times she looks at me with fear.

She is beautiful, I am being truthful,
so much fear and confusion is on her face.

My little boy
you once needed my hand
now days you stand strong and command
little boy
you are a man.



KT Mar 15, 2014

.... the eternal true word sets the tone.
the meaning behind the meaning.
breathe behind the breathe.
MY soul stops its warm spin.
calm at last.
calm at last.

You floating through me
You are always doing that
Talk to me, love me
Something please
I pine for you and you don't say
but yet, you are here in me
when March tolls
when the tulips reach for life
the roof tips
the clouds part
you will be sitting next to me
in your sundress bare feet
beautiful hair, skin so bare
and me in heaven

Its your story and mine.

Its the story of past and future generations.

Its a story of a lack of love and compassion.

The tale tells you that the solution is compassion and love that turns the tables.

We can make the change you know.

Love is the answer.

Love

I am sneaking around myself, lying about my demon.
Such treachery, my not to be trusted self.
I lie in wait, to capture the animal within or run when noticed.
Me, a devil to be feared.



KT Mar 27, 2014

Sunshine bright blinding my eyes
the warmth my body needs you
me only being completed through the core
your loving ease of light creating life
my love of your radiant kiss on my forehead
i am whole through your blessed attention

You are alive to smile at the sunrise and to know that is all that matters.

To stand in the rain, feeling the drops washing away the old

and welcoming the new.

Your life, your happiness.

Smile, smile smile.

Its simple how you and I match.
You and I are in the most basic of basic matches.
I yearn for every inch of you and you breathe me in like air.

and i told her i love Her
truth has never been so right
an ever evolving collision