Sometimes I just like to chill with the lights low and turn on some sad songs and just cry my *** off

Once upon a time I fell in love , loved so hard I had butterflies in my stomach, felt so real but it was all a fantasy. Blinding my eyes , ripping out my heart sending it to a cardiologist, couldn’t help the chest pains ,Fear was all I had in mind , the thought of you living without someone .. your going crazy ! Your going crazy ! Never knew it will get this far, sleepless nights waiting for the sun to rise my mind running miles, I asked my self what did I do wrong ?.. I gave you my all ,

As soon as you start to do better with your self  he starts acussing you !

Every female at some point in some relationships ask them selfs am I that bad ? Am I not enough? Why is he trying to change me now ? Why do I try my best and it’s still not enough? Am I to fat? Why is everything about him ? Why don’t I feel important sometimes ? One thing I will say is if can’t accept you the way you are he is not worth it and for mans that go through the same remember you are worth it and more sometimes u need to change the person you are with not your self maybe just a little but whatever makes you feel better do it for your self not because someone is forcing you to .

I hope one day he realizes that the way he treated me and made me feel was so messed up I hope karma knocks on his door and feels the same pain I felt and all the tears I cried he crys I hope I pop up in his head when he realizes that was the same way he made me feel I leave it to karma and god he sees everything

Sometimes its not worth swimming far for someone.

He made me feel low even at my worst
He made me feel worthless
He made me feel pain
He made me feel unwanted
He disrespected me
He was never honest
He said he will always change
He would call me mean names
He would yell at me for no reason
He made me think that I couldn’t live without him
If things didn’t go his way there was no way.
He was always cranky
He made me cry every night
He would hide everything
He would always accuse me
He try to destroy me
He would call me crazy
He did so much to me that I thought one day he would change
Don’t ever burn yourself to keep others warm cause at the end it’s only you ! It took me years with being with this person to realize he was never going to change .i up lifted my self from this toxic relationship and left it hurts to see people are just heartless and love to take advantage of people and sometimes it has to do with mental illness and trauma they had in the pass lady’s and men don’t stay in a toxic relationship run as far as you can !I made a promise to my self that I would never look back to what broke me at one time.

i had to hold my tears in so many times that its getting worst by the day i was always the tough one now look at me holding so much pain in me ..

Always put your worth before your feelings!