Tiredness is overwhelming,
The distress is stringing,
Thoughts expressionless,
Though my writings are endless.

~A.d | 16 Dec 2014

When you're in such a mess,
You know its not just stress,
Self too tangled, can't decompress,
Too complicated to express.

~A.d | 13 Dec 2014

Breaths in, Breaths out,
Repeats, but fails and drowns,
Closes eyes, lays down,
A secret root, caged thoughts have found.

~A.d | 18 March 2015

The more mistake,
The more the guilt,
Bit by bit, slowly built,
Can hardly intake.

~A.d |8 Dec 2014

There's only so much you could do,
Don't go against your own limit,
Doesn't push yourself, don't overdo,
Your wellbeing is more important.
Your wellbeing is more important.

~A.d |14 Feb 2015

Today seemed so quiet,
Don't really know why,
From morning till midnight,
As if time never passed by.

~A.d | 24 March 2015

Good morning
And good night
May all your days be filled with delight.

In the evening
Or afternoon
May joy follow you very soon.

Weather pitch dark
Or day time
May stealing breaths away be your only crime.

For your inner beauty lies way beyond simple words of rhyme.

~A.d | 29 Oct 2014

All you do is open wounds,
Rip open old scars at endless rounds,
In grave pain, even when underground,
What was lost could never be once again found.

~A.d | 18 March 2015

Saturday Stings,
And all the lonely memories it brings,

Sundays Sufferings,
Slowly eating me up, expiered enduring,

Monday Moans,
Becoming motionless as silent stones,

Tuesday Tears,
Swept away by a sea of sobs,

Wednesday Worries,
Filling my mind overthought stories,

Thursday Thoughts,
Healing through our rewind past talks,

Friday Flashbacks,
Surviving on those life hacks,

___

Week after Week,
This continuously ongoing cycle,
I endlessly seek,
The day we once again meet.

~A.d | 12 Jan 2015

Motivation and positivity,
Through motion and energy,
Break exhaustion,
Not the opportunity,
Loose the distraction,
There's always possibility..

~A.d | 29 Jan 2015

I trusted, I believed,
Yet, I was mistaken,
I gave chances, I've forgiven,
Yet for granted, I was taken.

~A.d | 18 March 2015

Let me heal you,
Let me wipe away your tears,

I'm no therapist,
But I'll try 'n' scare away your fears,

Neither a doctor,
But hey my curing hugs last for years,

Nor a morther,
But for your troubles I'm all ears,

~~~

Let me heal you,
Let me wipe away your tears,

It's just plain old me,
And I can't stand to see,
You drowning in sorrow,

Just call out for me,
And girl you'll be,
Perfectly okay tomorrow.

~A.d | 21 June 2014

Break the boredom,
Escape to fantasy,
Jump to risks,
And changes you will see.

~A.d | 24 March 2015

So very caring and kind
Like her, you'll never find
Possessing a beautiful mind
Her pure heart makes you go blind,

A wilted heart, she can easily mend
A helping hand, she will always lend
She'll stay by your side till the very end
Her loyalty knows no certain extend
You're blessed to have her as your friend,

Her warm heart has no limit
Her sweet words are infinite
She's extraordinary and she knows it
She can make you smile within a minute,

Your mood will lighten up
Simply with her presence
She would never give up
Would support you even in your absence,

She's a one in a million
What else could you ask for?
Knowing such a wonderful person
I'm so very thankful for,

Disrespect her
And you'll rue,
Dare to hurt her
Guna make you regret that too,
Better keep insults away
If you wanna wake up the next day,

Someone I could never replace
Her words leaving a permanent trace
Sure, we're walking on a different pace
However no friend could take her place,

For her smiles, I'd sacrifice
To make sure they stay,
She gives comforting advice
She's simply the best
What else can I say?

~A.d | 6 Sep 2014

Not keeping in touch?
Bin quiet a while,
Not hearing from you much,
Between us, not even a mile,

Making excuses and such,
Too busy, don't have time?
Sparing a minute or two,
Is that such a crime?

A simple text,
Not a big task,
Or a one minute call,
Is that too much to ask?

Slowly drifting away,
Disguised in a strangers mask?
That was unlike yesterday,
How did things fade that fast?

When did avoiding become normal,
Why the sudden distance,
Silent words, is that intentional?
Losing my persistence,

Trying to prevent eye contact?
Why the lack of presence.
Clearing suspicions into facts?
Then Ignoring my whole existence?

Rapidly falling into oblivion,
When did that become a norm?
A new way of communication?
Don't think that's a form,

Is there a way to break this charm?
Or will that just cause more harm?

When will you notice this difference, and decide to keep in touch again?
Even if you're aware of your absence,
Will it change you back? If not, what then..

~A.d | 2 Sep 2014

Whine, sob and cry it all out,
Complain, don't refrain,
Or sustain from the pain,
I know its hard to explain,
The suffering, the aching
All so tiring 'n' breathtaking,

Just pour it all out,
Don't let it consume you,
You're inside self and out,
Don't let it confuse you,
Your mind nor your heart,

Just let it all out,
Don't put up with it alone,
All the misery and ruin,
You're not all alone,
So lift up that chin,
Show me your gorgous grin,
Cause this time darkness won't win,

Let it all flow out,
Those buried blue feelings,
Before you're all worn out,
I know it's not as easy as it sounds,
Heart aching every time it pounds,

Don't conceal it in anymore,
Let me heal your wound that's sore,
I'll get bandages from the store,
And the pain will be no more,
Sometimes it'll need much more,
Therefore...

At hard times,
I'll give you my full attention,
No matter what my current condition,
I'll create for every conflict a solution,
I may not be sure of done delusion,
But, I assure you, I've got quit a comprehension,
Sometimes I'm full of confusion,
But no harm can pass by me without detection,
I'm clumsy, so yeah, might get an infection,
But fighting it back will be my reaction,
Won't loose simple because of exhaustion,
Even if enimies drop an invasion,
~
{[who knows, maybe all that's needed is a single conversation,
To maintain between them a peaceful connection ]}
~
As long as I'm around, you safety is a confirmation,
Away from any discomfort or discrimination,
You might think now, where's the relation,
Well I may lack many traits and concentration,
Always relying on my unstable intuition,
And mess up in almost any situation,
But I have made a firm resolution,
To keep you happy, that's my intention..

~A.d

29 July 2014

Intense emotions released
With rage, they greet
On sadness, they feast
Only then, they are please
Slowly then, they are decreased
For now, they are ceased
Will next time give warnings?
For that, I wish at least
Or will they give out unconscious roars of a beast..

~A.d | 23 Aug 2014

"No regrets, just lessons learnt"
To some certain extent?
"Yes? no? I don't really know"
A life long time I have spent.

~A.d | 18 Feb 2015

What if..

What if flaws exited to create interconnections with people?
Everyone has some missing parts and some unwanted oversized parts within them, just like puzzle peices..
No peices would link together if it weren't for those unstabled parts..

Now tell me, **what if flaws never existed in people?

Life ain't too short,
Life ain't too long,
Life is just life,
You just gotta be strong,

It's okay to be weak,
It's okay to be wrong,
Tears may unawarely leak,
Looking for somewhere to belong,
Loosing sight of what to seek,
Don't let that give you a frown,
Let nothing break you down,

It's okay to be unsure,
You'll somehow find a cure,
It's okay not to be okay,
The world a confusing stir,
Maybe we'll all understand,
Once we grow up and mature,
I know it's not easy to endure,
For now don't let conqur,

We were never built flawless,
Yes many things we dread,
Sinking in a senseless void,
But soon it will ebbed,
We empower what we detest,
Don't let that take control,
Show it who's the boss instead,
Let nothing block your goal,
The undesired won't for long embed,

———

Simply said, easily heard,
Yet meanings still seem blurred.

Simple phrases, short words,
Yet they somehow bind worlds.

Yet they only show one aspect,
of what we show and reflect.

~A.d | 25 Aug 2014

The worst is to strive,
For what you don't want,
But I feel alive,
When engulfed by what I mustn't,

It's not my intention,
Do believe me,
Its just my way to vent,
Everything inside of me,

Its slowly shredding thee,
As I try to flee,
So I dwell within its shades,
To stable my sanity.

~A.d | 24 March 2015

Shattered hope, how will I cope,
Is there any light at the end of this *****?

Dealing with my problems,
More like balancing on soup,
While ******* with a thick rope,
Can't help but wobble,
In every corner there's trouble,
One ends and then it's double,
How is that even possible?

Can't escape, permanently ****,
In a world where there's zero luck,
Where, at everything, I ****,
My thoughts, ideas, always receiving a mock,
Never failed to be a laughing stock,
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just leftovers,
Forgotten even in a garbage truck,
Lost count of the times I got struck,
By words that are better left unsaid,
That ache more than a throw of a rock,
Maybe I should cage my inner self with a lock,
Enclose my self from everything and not even look,
At my present or future, both hold nothing good in stock,
Wishing time was a motionless clock,
Wanna fade away in a flock,
In a void where there's no hate, no pain, nothing hurtful to block.

~A.d | 3 Aug 2014

That gut feeling, too strong to deny,
Proves itself right, no lie,
Can't go against it, even if you try,
So just accept, why deny.

~A.d | 25 Jan 2015

A stabled heart, pain free,
Not that easy to maintain,
Lost ambitions and self esteem,
Not that easy to regain,

Bottled up, intense emotions,
Hold long will I refrain?
Criticism in different shapes 'n' colors,
How long will I contain?

Tell me, how can I not go insane?
When hurt is all that remains,
Tell me, how can I not be vain?
Can't take in any more pain,

Lost happiness, lost joy,
Nothing more left to destroy,
Lost count of the times I lost myself,
What else is there to drain?

~A.d | 3 Aug 2014

Time flies so fast,
When thoughts loose trace,
And suddenly I'm lost,
In a never ending trance.

~A.d | 3 April 2015

So little time
So much to do
On the staircase of life we climb
Oh the difficulties we go through

Once the top is reached
We realise it's worth
All the troubles we have faced
Unawarely enhanced growth

So little time
So much to do
Once the heart is set
No obstacle can stop you

No limit can cage ambitions
Thirsting to break through
Awaiting are destinations
Where hopes do come true

Yes, little time there is
Yes, many things to do**
What are you waiting for?
Wash away those feelings of blue

Rise from that rusted seat
Even time can be ceased
With determination you can beat
What once could barely be reached

~A.d | 15 Oct 2014

It's better to be left unsaid,
Than half heartedly said,
Thoughts, emotions,
Don't want them to be mislead.

~A.d | 28 March 2015

I'll listen to your troubles,
I'll stay up with you all night,
I'll make you yummy truffles,
I'll hold you in my arms tight,
Till you fully feel alright...

I'll defend you in any fight,
Give you back your every right,
Lead you to the light,
Let's take a one way flight,
Pack our things tonight,
Go somewhere filled with delight,
Somewhere that's more than just back 'n' white,
Away from anything that might,
Cause misfortune or any fright,
Till you fully feel alright...

Let's stay up till five and watch the sunlight,
Rising through the clouds so bright,
Oh what a beautiful sight,
Let's take a walk at twilight,
Sing our thoughts out or just write,
Become musicians or play writes,
Sink in a world of insight,
Till you feel alright...
Till you feel alright...

~A.d

27 July 2014

Feeling myself suffocate,
Just imagining my fate,
Hoping it's not too late,
Hope I don't deflate.

~A.d | 9 Dec 2014

‪When you  strive for something you want so badly to a point where it'll push you to not wanting it anymore at all,, just to ease the ache of an unfulfilled want

I never cry at the moment,
Never rage in an instant,
If I ever do, it wasn't meant,
It's cause of all the times I've spent,

Enclosing it all in,
You know nothing of how it's bin,
All at once, it will burst,
On whoever's standing in front first,

So don't come too close,
I fear of your lose,
But don't keep a distant,
Or i'll be the one lost.

~A.d | 24 March 2015

Upon you I bestow
The spell of fulfilment,
And shower you with
Sparkles of achievement,

Upon you I bestow
Nothing but the best,
Banishing all the evil
And leaving you the rest,

Upon you I cast
Happiness that will last,
Whatever disturbs your present
Or awakens from your past
Away with it I blast,

Upon you I cast
An invincible barrier,
Protecting you from any curse
Any that may evoke danger,

———

Lifting off any burdens
Causing you to break,
Drawing the curtains
On any regret or mistake,

On your checks I smoothly brush
Glitters, giving you smiles,
Any obstacle I shall crush
Whatever triggers your cries,

On you I softly blow
Twinkles of rejoice,
Making your heart glow
Lighting up you beautiful face,

On your forehead, a gentle touch I lay,
Putting you to sleep,
May your mind be at peace I pray,
No more will your heart weep.

~A.d | 15 Aug 2014

Talk like no one's listening,
Enjoy life like you own everything.

~A.d |26 March 2015

There are times in life,
When all you can do is retreat..

And other times,
You'll face people you don't wanna meet..

And times,
When all you see are starless nights..

And other times,
You may go through silent fights..

~~~

But whenever you face such times,
Remember who you are,
A twinkling little star,
Sometimes its light disappears,
Just for a few moments,
Then again it reappears,
With a glow whiter than snow..

When it blends with the night
and both are dim,
Only those who patiently wait,
Will see it sparkle again and gleam.

~A.d

29 July 2014

Those who** don't hesitate to help,
Often are those who don't know how to ask for help,
Often are those who need help, the most.

Sometimes all you can do is cry the feeling away,
and close you eyes, believe and pray,
just know that you're not alone,
one way or another,
others similarly suffer,
we're all in this together,
just not physically next to each other,
somewhere deep inside, we know we're stronger,
a few tears may slide, but just hang in there a little bit longer,
I tell myself things will be better,
that in a year or two my worries won't matter,
all the overthinking I produce,
tryin'a get rid of but no use,
all the things I'm doin',
just adds to the ruin,
oh I keep on tellin' myself things be better,
sooner or later, I keep on sayin' things be better,
that I can keep myself together,
but there's just so many things I can't unshatter,
will I ever reach an end to all of this,
can't find the faintest smell of bliss,
somehow the bad I never miss,
this hole I'm digging is baseless,
don't know if that's good but all my eyes feel is darkness,
waiting for the day I free from this mess,
then you came along, my days became more brighter,
the pain was still there but felt much lighter,
made me trust that things do get better,
not everything goes well,
trying to stand up every time I fell,
so I keep on telling myself things'll be fine,
don't need for everything to be mine,
things'll turn out okay,
as I close my eyes I say,
things won't always go bad,
while I lay on my bed,
things'll be alright,
with a blanket I wrap myself tight,
everything'll soon be better,
holding back a whimper,
I echo in my head this goodnight whisper.

~A.d | 8 Nov 2014

Yellow roses symbolize friendship,
Red roses, love of course,
A mix of both create a bond,
That wouldn't wilt, even by force.

~A.d | 3 Sept 2014

Your words,
Something I deeply treasure,
Always will,
In my short forever.

~A.d | 3 Sept 2014

My mood swings are insane,
It pierces my brain,
It's shatters my whole system,
To insanity, I've become a victim.

-  a.d | 12 April 2015

I  went for a walk
and had a talk
with a little bunny
that tasted like honey
and had some money
I asked him for a carrot
because he couldn't do my salad
but he had non
because there is only one.

~A.d

My predicaments, I can swallow.
Others sufferings, I cannot bear to leave hollow.

Behold, the joy held within a small meadow.
To you, I wish to rejoice and endow.

May the undesired disappear and not follow.
Any misfortune near you I will not allow.

Within that soul, blooming joy, no sorrow.
Lose no hope, thus there'll be a tomorrow.

Lose no hope, thus, there'll be a tomorrow.

~A.d | 10 Oct 2014

I can see, I can feel,
I can sense its all real,
Oh how I wish, I really wish,
It wasn't just a night dream,
Thoughts and fantasies on the loose,
In that endless raveling stream.

~A.d | 9 Dec 2014

You know,
You just don't know why.
I really do,
I do try.

~A.d | 9 Dec 2014

I wanna read you poetry
face to face,
As long as  you're there
doesn't matter the place,
Even if you deny
you're worth the chase.

~A.d | 30 March 2015

Money runs out,
Flowers one day wilt,
Chocolate doesn't last,
But words are permanent.
Words are permanent.

~A.d | 22 Jan 2015

You need not to speak a word,
For me to know or see,
Nor need to explain the blurred,
For I will always there be.

~A.d | 2 April 2016

I went for a walk
and found a fork

I went beck to the house
and saw a mouse

I took him in
and he ran to the bin

what a long busy day
what will i find on Friday.

~A.d

Your absence is triggering
Calling you, I'm debating
Thoughts of you, invading
Heart rate, accelerating  
Your energetic rhythm, exerting
My rejoiced grin, extending
Surrounded distractions, executing
With flash backs of texts, circulating
The hours spent with you, like seconds, descending.

I've been missing you dearly,
Been two days, I know barely,
Life not playing very fairly,
Enduring this? not even slightly,
Loosing myself, beyond nearly,
Sensing your presence, very faintly,
Oh your absence, breaking me fiercely.

~A.d | 16 Dec 2014

There's always time & room for food,
At hard times it understood,
Stayed close, never failed to taste good.

~A.d | 25 Jan 2015