She cheated on me
With a guy that
Could speak Russian
Then he left her broken hearted

The lady I am falling
In love with
Is Russian
My heart once again repaired

The thing we once were
A romantic tapestry
Is now in pieces
Scattered upon the floor

I've gathered myself
Leaving you behind
We will always be separate
Though we fit together at one time

As the sun begins to crest the horizon,
Your eyes adjust to the rays of the new day.
You only have two options as you lay there.  The fewest that you'll have to ponder over that day, but the most important, Shall you wake up, or will you resist it holding on to the past.
Know though just one will reign, fighting what has already occurred will inevitably fail, accept the future, take that first step, and know you gave your all the day before. Always remember the best things in life come from a chance, a leap, a prayer.  It's blind faith you're making the right decisions. Will you let fear and failure rule your life, or accept it and know when you close your eyes at night you gave it everything you had.  Will you let it dictate your life, your happiness, your future. It's your choice... What will it be?

You're beautiful on the outside
Which is easy to deceive
Your beauty on the inside
Is like a rancid disease

You thought I treated you unkindly
Though I gave my heart to you
My love was real and gentle  
Now my love is gone that's true

It is you that broke our love
Our friendship you refused
I will never forgive you for this

I regret that I forgave you
Letting you feel satisfied
It's you that I hate now
The one I truly despise

I now hate you so deeply
I will never forgive you again
Sadly I love you
Though I hate you
With all my heart

If I had to choose it would be you
You're the one I will always belong to
Though now I must move on
Faking true love to another
She will never know my sorrow
Bottling it up and hoping it's never unearthed
You were my sunrise
My perfect start to my day
Until we meet again
Goodbye my love

It is hard for me
To let you go
Our love so true
My eyes do show

I miss you my love
Though I must move on
Only he above
Knows if we are truly gone

As time passes by
We romanticize
What we once despised

The final goodbye
Our story will end
A week from now?

Baby, I let you go
Knowing it would be our demise
Fly my sunshine and know
I loved you and will till
My last breath has been taken

Soon the pain will be numbed
The love forgotten
As I say my final goodbye
The  memories I cherish will be no more
As my last breath is soon to be taken
The release I need will be granted
Goodbye...

He can't say
"I love you"
She belongs to
Another man

She longs to
Feel his lips
Though she
Belongs to a man

She is free
To love any man
As she belongs
To no single man

To have
Your heart broken
Means someone
Took advantage
Of your love

As I heal the sick and injured
My pain increases within
As I soothe their sorrows
My tears will become an ocean

I give my heart
To the ones I take care of
Leaving me empty inside
A void I can't fill
Only a love
Can begin to mend
My shattered soul

I tell myself
I don't love her
Though I miss her
Went months with out
Hearing From her
I was happy

Saw her again
Feelings boiled inside
Both hate and love
Should I let
Love or hate run my life?

I'm out of
Love to give
I only have
Friends

His life had settled
He was finally at peace
His pain has been eased
He again felt free

She took her time
This storm was patient
She looked for his weakness
Finding a way he can be awakened

Before he knew it
A storm began to brew
What he wanted was a summer rain
What he got was a monsoon

He doesn't see
Her as an angel
The one she used to be
He see's her true colors
A false rainbow she tries to be

His first love
Is in ruins
His second
Being build

She said yes
She touches his arm
Laughs at his stupid jokes
Smiling every time she looks at him

She said yes
She invited him out to her job
He showed up expecting only a moment of her time
She gave him so much more

She accepted an invite
Saying yes when it's her only day off
Spending the day with him
Sharing a sport they both love

This friendship she wanted
Had turned into something more
How could this be
Her beauty
His charm
Their perfect fit

We flirted but you were taken
Our connection fueled a secret
That secret we couldn't keep
We decided it wasn't worth it
Not wanting to cause us pain
Letting the years grow between us

We are friends with a past
Both single and ready to mingle
Our glances always drifting back
Locking eyes we took a chance
One that won't be clouded by deception
Exposing us to the world

Her name
Caused me pain
As it slips off the tongue
I smile because it's over
She cries for me to come back
Though she told me to leave
She asked for it to be over
So now she can have the pain

It doesn't make since
Her beauty
Interested in
This Man

She has been there for him
Held him when he needs it
Listened when thoughts over ran his mind
She is no more than a close friend

He has wiped away her tears
Made her smile when she is depressed
Reassured her that she is amazing
He is no more than a close friend

They love each other
Their bond is one that will never break
Though they will never make love
They will always share something special
A true friendship

Their time together
Has come to an end
Their love has faded
The shadows
Have engulfed the memories

They see each other
Though it's different
They said they would be friends
Friends they will never be

As their love fades
So does their future
He has cried his tears
Though they have turned to hate

She will never know his touch
His love
The warmth and happiness
He would provide

She will call him and beg him
He will smile
Because he is happy once again
She has lost him forever
His love she will never taste

Her eyes shined
Those blue rimmed irises
The closer you look
They were majestic grey he perceived

He fell in love with blue and grey
That day was the beginning
Never needing
Never wanting
Only smiling
Knowing those eyes
Were concentrated on him

She never knew
I loved her
As she
Loved me

Their bodies intertwined
Their hearts beating in unison
She is sound asleep
He is holding her close
Lightly he places kisses on her back

Those sweet sounds she makes
Feeling her warm skin on his lips
She inches closer to him
Eradicating any space between them
He whispers in her ear
"I love you sweetheart"

Though when she wakes
She won't remember
Though he won't forget
It's his piece of heaven
His peace and true happiness
Comes at night with her in his arms

Emotions are my weakness
I let them show too soon
From flowers on a Tuesday
To a massage because it's noon

I like to be random
Be the one to surprise
To build up a fire
That will always burn inside

That fire has forged a heart
One enameled with pain and hate
I smile because I'm supposed to
Though I beg for a better fate

They say
He is perfect
Though she
Will always leave

Always Remember My Love
Your Beauty Rivals
The Rising *Sun

I wish I could pretend
To play the false games you accept
Expecting life to grant you your wish
A wish that I won't accept

Play those games of false hope
Hiding your feeling deep inside
Once you realize I'm gone
It's a life you'll accept

I hate to lose you
To forget our past
Our life we once had
Is now in the past.

I found a love that is real
A women I can cherish
A beautiful love will blossom
That will make me forget

You begged me to forget us
We are nothing more

It happened every day
Every second I could remember
A moment I wanted
Could I ever let it go

That moment
That second
That time I spent
Was it worth it

I've come to a conclusion
A decision I didn't take lightly
One that will haunt me
Never knowing if I chose correctly

From my choice our hearts will break
The time we spent together lost
A love burnt out
Our souls ripped apart

I'm moving on from you
Your time with me has ended
Our lives together lost
The love I had is gone

This is my choice
Goodbye

Like two ships in the night
We are lost forever

I do not know
If I could love her
**Again

Writing has become difficult
Because my emotions have settled
Why is it that we write better
When we are sad and betrayed
Or falling in love
Our heart filled with so much

For us that are in the middle
We are torn apart
what emotions really stand out
It's almost like being numb
I'll sacrifice my writing though
A smile is what I want

Your heart belongs to him
His heart belongs to another
My heart belonged to you.
You pushed me away
He is pushing you away
In the end you're alone

I would've given you everything
He will give you heartache
Now you have neither of us
You told me to leave you alone
To give you all the space you need
That space has now become a galaxy
Each day memories of us fade
Into the vast emptiness of space

This morning we walked in
The hospital already rumbling
Both red-eyed and waking up
In our passing we locked eyes
Became lost in the moment
Slowing we kept walking
Though never stopping
Our minds never leaving
That encounter


The patients draining us
In a few short moments
Our souls would connect once again
This time though a fire would start

I heard footsteps behind me
A soft voice called out
"Hey, do I know you?"
Surprised I turned around
Expecting only another needy patient
Pleasantly I was caught off guard
She laughed as she caught up

Meeting once again
Our bodies almost touching
She shyly touch my arm
Taking a chance I embraced her
My hand reached her cheek

I whispered into her ear
"Meet me at this location at 4"
I ran my hand through her hair
Kissed her soft lips
She gasped in shock
Muttering only a stuttered "OK"

That night we became one
Giving into our delights
Our souls becoming intertwined
As we lay in bed she whispered
"What is this?"
Smiling I kissed her deeply
"The beginning of a new chapter"

When you left
I was lost
Though I gained freedom

Tonight is the final night
Tomorrow brings a new adventure
I'm at peace with this choice
Releasing me from the past
Diving head first into the unknown

This rebirth will be the end
The end opens up a new chapter
Pages blank and waiting
Words free to be written
No restraints to hold me back

A freedom I desperately need
Taking what I want
Making my life mine once again
I will be the author

That ember who stubbornly wouldn't die
No amount of water could put it out
Has now been extinguished
Through a lie whispered
Trust was broken
Caused it's last light to be emitted
No inferno can ignite it
When it is nothing more than ashes
I wish deep down I never see you
Goodbye forever

Every unintentional touch
Sparked a fire within us
Each time we gazed
We couldn't look away
We hugged each other tight
There was a internal fight
You asked me out on a date
It has to be fate
When this year comes to an end
You'll be mine once again
Know when you are feeling blue
I'm falling in love with you

I stopped caring
You know **** well
what that *means

Trying to do the same thing
Expecting a different outcome
Over and over again
One thing is different now
I won't be there when he breaks your heart
You're on your own to put the pieces
Back together

This simulation has concluded
What follows is adulthood
tread carefully

As the winds pick up
I can hear the howling
The echoes of the past
It's coming upon our spot
The rains threatening to wash us away
This storm that's approaching
The fortune teller predicted
In our hands our future will come forth
Will what that wrinkled hag come true
It's only moments away
Should we hunker down and pray
Or should we fight the odds
Forgetting everybody else
Live in the present
Embracing everything we cherish
Knowing our love will shelter us

Everybody needs a shoulder to cry on
Someone to help carry their burden
Who is there for the one supporting them
When they are needing help
Do they try to pass off the weight
Think about themselves only
Can they truly open up
Or do they bottle it in
Waiting for the moment they break
Never asking for help
Though always there to be that shoulder
To take the burden
Always waiting for that one person
One friend
One lover
To help share the load.

Losing yourself vs. losing a loved one
My friend let his mom go
I lost a women I called mother
He cared for her for decades
We held her tight as she slipped away
I thought losing a girlfriend or boyfriend was intolerable
My friends pain must be crippling
She taught me to smile
She taught him to be a gentleman
We loved her as a mom
As someone to shelter us
Now we have each other
As the angel looks down upon us
Our mom she will always be

I write like my soul has forgotten you
I let myself believe I'm moving on
You believe I love you still baby
You are absolutely right

The walls I constructed from all the pain
Those walls you came in and tore them down
They fell so easily for you
Though I had tried for years by myself

Our souls when they met sparked a fire within
It turned my darkest days
Into a blinding light
I couldn't see what was coming
Nor did you till it was upon us

Now we sit here thinking of each other
Both dealing with it in our own way
I learned to heal by myself
While you take a road I used to take

I won't tell you to choose the right path
You wouldn't listen anyway
No matter how long it takes baby
I'll be waiting for you at the end
When you get there I'll embrace you
Letting you know you're never alone
I love you and always will