one, the first step,
acknowledgment-realization,
a moment of clarity

three, the ending,
a daydream of balloons and
tossed-flowers in the air,
congratulations you made it

two, the hardest part,
the de-center of mindsets, old habits
keeping pace,
breaking molds and trying
not to catch a case-
waking up everyday
to make it to the next

i may never see you
again,
but the impact
was great,
you’ll do great,
and stay great

angel numbers, the guides
the repetition
they remind me that
im on my way,
things take time
and
change is inevitable

learn to give yourself and others grace
they whisper

it’s a monsoon outside today,
it made me think about us.

yesterday two cars were racing each other, one just slightly gaining past, it made me think of us.

i see 2 birds fly side by side, everyday, they make me think of you
all the time.

when can i skip to the
part where your mine again?

if you ever were at all

Little Ariel, with green fins, red hair
do you know hat your voice will take you anywhere?
She reminds me of a time, before things fell
I pray to the lord he’s not sending me hell.
But I don’t believe so, this time a new song plays
I believe this is part of the key however, whenever this time and place

lastly I’ll say—
God? Do I have a blessing on the way?

why does it cost
to love freely
the men in our
communities
need to see
people like you & me

our men can get locked up
for a systems corruption,
corruption in our community
draws a invisible line
at queerness
a way of life
a way of expressing
a way of loving
this threatens you

why?

it’s not always
gonna flow,
but the creation
of the thought
is the jewel

you are bejeweled
this path applauses
and waits
for you

the one that suffers,
you bear it all,
i ignore ache of
skin to skin
my body calls to
the stars
what if i don’t
believe in soulmates
anymore
maybe I’ll be
the one

Don’t be scared.
Don’t be scared to be the
only black person
in the room,
Don’t be scared to be
for needing
extra time,
Don’t be scared of the
people beside you
Don’t be scared of the
love that follows you

i evaluate
past friendships
in my mind
a vault empty
scattered trinkets
of memories
was any of it
real
did I learn my
lesson

will you stay
until the end?
my fear is
loneliness

sometimes when i wake up
after i dream of you
i pretend for that first hour
that maybe that it means
we’ll come back around

i wonder
if in his lonely hours
of midnight,
in spaces where
bones and spirits
meet,
do you dream of me
that way i
dream of you

am i on a
pedestal of
your ridicule
or just someone
you miss
from time to time

not sure if life
building or falling apart
thing’s changing all
the time
and missing you
is killing me

my life can be described
as one,
constant grief,
falling for the
same tricks
as the ones who came
before

grief the stages
you carry come in
some many seasons
time blends
you almost forget it’s
passing you

grief is cause by
a lost, a wound
sometimes grief is
the lesson but why
must I continue
to endure it?

i am beautiful
no matter what
shade i
reflect you under,

i hide the worlds secrets
deep beneath,
but provide
peace,
the type of
serenity
those need

i create home & space
for creatures below
even those
shadows foretold
water be me
water is me
i am water

you told me
the truth
oh how you came
into my life,
a sacred oasis

it never was,
but i still showed up
for you

now i
check in
time to time,
even though you think
it’s best we end this-
i can’t believe you
suddenly don’t trust me

i say i understand
but what if i don’t

i had a dream
she was there
too,
but when I
looked back at
you, something crawled
into your
eye

i reached
to remove it

something alarming
unfolded, literally
in my hands

so fast I couldn’t utter
a word

he has layers, more
than what meets
the eye

homophobia, a illness
of the planet
once beautiful & lushes
overrun with cruelty &
power

your skin
has a seat in
that chair,
in every universe
you belong

intuition
speaks through art
speak through
your craft

it wasn’t stage
but it was enough,
at least it should’ve been
to me,
im sorry i threw to the
side so easily

is it because of
of how beautiful
daylight reflects off
the leaves
or how the winds
makes the branches
dance,
i know i have
a life to create,
id just rather sit
here all day
and watch
it go by

Kids outside, you’re only 5
You were so young, time spent
inside, no youth
you said it does something to you.

You chased love, 3 blocks,
but she left, your first heartbreak.

Years Down the road,
love reintroduces himself,
you give nurturing love,
2 beautiful kids, repaid in black & blue.

He fractures & bruises, and you lie.
Swallow your pride.
Two years of drafting silence but then you speak.
Away you Get.

But life detest you again,
every chance it gets.
He just turned 18, crash, a wreck,
He didn’t even get a chance, a mother’s son.

Then again in Cold Blood, the world
took the other one, 7 times in back he shot.
The daughter, also a mother, could she even fight back.
What were there final thoughts ? She’ll never know.

You’ve taken both from this world, back to raising someone on my own again.
No Job, making ends meet. Sirens Blare, but not in defeat.

You deserve peace I say.
A Happy Ending, she’ll soundly sleep.

maybe i do
need to
toughen up,
maybe im to
easily
knocked down
by the slightest
gust of
life

i tried, maybe somewhere
i knew it would end like
this for us,
maybe you just should’ve
spoken up more

im not who
you say i am
or who you think

the catalyst of thoughts
creating thoughts so loud
they crowd the mind,
body, and soul
my mind says
don’t boy,
you’ll cut yourself on
jagged thought

a dance
that flows like
cosmos bursting’

lyrics speaking
in past,
present, and future
that shoots
through your heart

his voice,
one of a kind,
the one that speaks
to you
in the middle
of the night

a sound that can’t be recreated,
timeless

it’s scary
you scare us

you promise a free world, a loving country, but you’re separating them
families, generations, legacies,
all ripped from them

it’s scary,
you scare us

you tell us you’ll protect us,
defend us
but invade and steal, then
point at us and scream “NOW YIELD”

it’s scary you scare us
how can we grow strong when
we’re so divided ,nightmarish

you’ve made innocents your victim,
now declaring hell on your people

you scare us, you scare me
no kings

mercy on me baby, have mercy on me
hurtin’ badly, can you see we’re hurtin’ badly

a message for the
days ahead
seven do
things from
the heart without
worry of
success or
the failures

some time
in nature
will soothe
the soul
your on a
path foretold
with mysticism
and the call me be
looking for you

answer this time
angels ask you
to own who you are
take lead of what
you are

you are a
magnet for luck, health,
and abundance
you will work on letting
go of expectations

you are within your
element within
nature

high above
the the trees,
i accept this
new timeline

take some soil; earth,
cover your town,
plant the seeds and
bury back into the earth

let your tears be
the rain
that fertilizes your dreams

soul feels like
a pull,
a call,
an ache,
a hand
reaching out beyond
our eyes
soul is the
real heartbreak
soul knows what it wants
love, the purest form
the one without words
a love without struggle
my soul reaches for something
but what?

to grow is to
let go of what is.

we become
anew, with friends,
hobbies, and environments

we become new seeds
of old flowers we
dreamed we be,
now it’s time to
sprout again

a new seed of
flower, planted in
new soil,
ready to bloom

and while
i change my mind
i’ll dance
as the stage fades

the stage was
always meant to
go, it was built
out of unspoken
regrets, ignored
intuition, harsh reality checks

a subliminal,
a tool to our subconscious
you speak to me
over the quiet chatter
in the mind
even when you’re
not there