i don't want you to be
my knight in shining armour.
i want you to be my trusty
sidekick,
loyal and supportive as you
watch me learn and grow,
letting me save myself

                         l.r.

her tangled heart is like
a fight behind closed doors
              
                 l.r.

long, sleepless nights
of tossing and turning
with no memory
of what used to be
and a proverbial
ribbon wrapped tightly
around her finger

       l.r.

my head aches
and my heart breaks
over a love that never
existed and a touch
that will never be known

        l.r.

he was beautiful
his words enticing
i thought that maybe
he could love me

but perhaps only in another life

his past is dark
his soul tortured
i thought that maybe
I could love him

even in his eternal strife       l.r.

i am but a corpse
of what I used to be
and they all call out
ms. ****** won't you
come to me

l.r.

blurry eyes
the size of discs
with hollow pain
and ****** wrists

l.r.

open the door to my heart
and mend the creaky hinges
for i am tired of leaving it closed
and having my soul off limits

l.r.

what is sin to a soul
what is a soul to a man
what is a man to goddess

what is a goddess to time if it has all but forgotten her?

l.r.

imagine
for a second
if you will,

that the light inside hadn't gone out

l.r.

i am always wary
of confrontation,
i find yelling frightening.

they're always like
"what scares you so?"

with thunder comes the lightning

l.r.

magnificent in power
and grace she stands
with the strength to make a difference
in her hands.
holding her ground with
all her might
she's not afraid to do
what it right                            l.r.

Hold tight to your humanity,
my dear
even in the worst of times
for if you lower yourself to
their animalistic ways
there you shall be and
there you shall stay            l.r.

Their parents split

when his brother was young
He was never there he just
sort of hung
around
from time to time
leaving the smell of
chocolate behind.

l.r.

Some say that the prettiest flowers bloom in the
light of day.
But I would dare to argue,
for I have seen many a moonflower surpass them in beauty
by being rooted in the dark.

l.r.

I pray for you
to be delivered
not only to God,
but into my arms
so that I may cherish
not only you,

**but your everlasting soul as well

Kiss me deeply and
drink my soul,
for it's been
dreaming of
belonging to you
anyway.

His deep brown eyes
Bore into mine

And I swear I saw
Our souls entwine.

His jet black curls
His soothing voice

Loving him was simply
The best choice.

Be careful about what you speak;

Watch it note for note.

Because sometimes, dear,

Unintentionally

A sharp tongue will cut its own throat

You're not afraid to be
Alone
When it's all you've
Ever known

Crazy, insane, she thought she was
And the asylum collapsed
As a dilapidated one does

The death too strong
The pain too near,
Yet at the funeral she cried not
one tear.

She met a boy,
with accent strong.
And his curly brown hair
seemed not too long.

With his crooked smile
And perfect teeth,
She could feel herself wavering,
Becoming weak.

They both had dark secrets
Yet told one another,
But only at the necessity
Of rescuing her brother.

Some time has passed
Yet she sees him again
the one she used to call her old
Boyfriend.

Was this a hallucination?
Some PTSD?
"Or is this him standing
in front of me?"

Waiting for you is divine intervention.  

Like waiting for the world to turn.
Like waiting for a comet to return.
Like waiting for a star to be born.
Like waiting for the planets to align.

But I know that, eventually, you'll be here.
And that's what keeps waiting.

I thought I was the only one that no one understood
But I found that words could touch me in a way he never could.

Undefeated and never ending
I just don't know what I'll do
So i go
To my room

There the silence is
So unbending and so unbreakable too
So I sing
In my room

Words of passion and words of hatred
Words of love so true
Echo loud
In my room

War is raging and footsteps pacing
in the morning at two
So I stay
In my room

In the pale moonlight
In the whispers of night
Are the dreams I hold in my hand

And I await the day
In the heavens array
That I may release them at God's command

She can be dangerous
She can be mean

She can be perfectly polished; pristine.

She can go overboard
She can be sad

She can also become undeniably mad.

When you're alone, do you think of
me?
Well I've never quite been good
company.
I'd much prefer you leave me
be,
If it is indeed out of
pity.

How easy it
is to fall
asleep thinking of
      You.

a rainy day
a lonely girl
nothing else matters
but the pen in
her hand.

she wishes she
could change the world
but all she can
write is:

*There is no reason to be so cruel.

Believe it or not
There is somebody there
Someone to listen
And lend you an ear

A boy or a girl
With brown or blonde hair
And you'll sit in the floor
Just clearing the air

They'll give you a smile
And say, "do your best."
And something about them
Is different from the rest

You'll take it to heart
Until it's the end
And what do you know?
You have you a friend.

I gave you the hour
you asked for
But you won't give me the minute
i need

You told me you needed
more freedom
Yet I'm still waiting
to be freed

I don't know what else
i could give you
Your love is becoming
greed

I don't want this relationship
anymore
But I'm waiting for you
**to leave

Not in love

I may have been once

But I don't want to be

Anymore.

I am a
warrior
But they don't give
A ****

So I fight
The silent battles
To preserve the
Human I am

I guess you could say we're close, Depression and I.
We used to be exclusive,
And I never shared him with anyone.

We were best friends,
We saw each other every day
For four very long
Years.

But then,
Gradually,
I saw him begin to slowly
Slip away.

I saw him less and
Less often.
Is it bad that I
Never missed him when he left?

Things were good,
We made new friends
And saw other
People.

But lately, I've
Begun to see him again.
He stops by almost
Every other day.

"What are you doing here?"
I whisper to him
As I look around at
My life without him.

It slowly turns to
Grey and seems
To whither
Away.

"I just stopped by for a visit,"
He replies, looking around
And taking my hand,
*"But I guess I'm here to stay."

The darkness, its closing in;

uh oh here we go again.

The icy cold surrounds my skin;

Why'd I wear a shirt so thin?

My happiness feels like a sin;

**Sadness soon becomes my friend.

I am a puzzle.
You don't understand me,

But that's okay,
because if you did

*what sort of puzzle would I be?

I grab at your heart.

Then pulling away slowly,

I lick the blood from my frostbitten
fingertips

I'm back*
You call.

****,* I cry, *I thought I was done with you

Darling, You were not born a flame simply to light his fire

You were not made a flicker of heat just to burn his deep desire.

You were not created to ignite his cigarette,

You were not brought into this world just to make him sweat.

I walk along a path of stars
that stretches across the heavens.

I dance across the constellations
the universe they do leaven.

The galaxies, they sing their songs
that echo on forever

and every planet, one by one,
shall join in their endeavour.

They all say I'm "too young"

to experience the hardships

of life.

But how then,

would they know,

if they hadn't felt the same way


Themselves...?

A prayer a day

Keeps the demons at bay

But I cannot say

How long they'll stay away.

We stand side by side
on the corner of
the road.
I watch you smoke
your cigarette-- you
**** in and blow.
It begins to rain; I
check the time on
my phone,
And I say to you,
"Matty, I want to go home."
You ask, "Why, babe? Did I
make you upset?"
I reply, "No, but I am
getting wet."
You give me a smile,
take off and hand me
your jacket.
"Matty, don't you need this?"
"Nah, baby. Have it."
So we stand side by side
at the end of the
street,
With my head on your shoulder
and your arm
around me.

don't pretend
to be something
you're not
because eventually

you will forget who you are.

I loved you so much
that I lost my own identity
to become closer to you.

All was well until you left
and suddenly I realized:

I don't know who I am anymore.

We took the
    risk of falling
  apart

          Knowing
there  was
         nothing

That could put
         us back
                 together.

No name. No face.
Living in such a lonely place.

It's funny how we let
The people closest to us
Hurt us the most.

People who once
Meant the world to us
Have now drifted away.

C'est la vie.

you had
found me
before I
could even
find myself