I forgot how to write..



But then I remember,



I write to express my feelings..



My unspoken feelings and emotions.

ᜃᜓᜋᜓᜐ᜔ᜆ᜶
ᜀᜌᜓᜐ᜔ ᜃ ᜉ ᜊ᜶
ᜑᜒᜈ᜔ᜇᜒ ᜃᜓ ᜀᜎᜋ᜔ ᜉᜀᜈᜓ ᜃ ᜃᜂᜐᜉᜒᜈ᜔

ᜐᜈ ᜋᜐᜌ ᜃ
ᜐᜈ ᜋᜄᜒᜅ᜔ ᜋᜀᜌᜓᜐ᜔ ᜃ

ᜉᜀᜎᜋ᜔

I hope you're okay
Not your health, but you
You as a person who lies
You who lies about things
Things that a weak girl would trust

I hope you're okay
Living your life as if you haven't hurt someone
I hope you're okay
With the one you love
I hope you're okay

I just hope you're okay
While she is broken and hurt
While she stopping herself to cry
While she have companion but all she think is the lies you made her believe

I hope you're okay

Oh my heart hurts
Cause all what he had said is true
I am not someone who's lovable
I am not someone who deserve a love
I am not someone who's needed
I am just someone who's temporary,
Not worth it,
A waste,
Undeserving,
Selfish brat,
Cruel,
And a *****.
I hated him because all he had said is true
And I am guilty as charge.
I don't know if there's someone
who's feeling the same **** as me.
I don't know what to do.
I hate myself.

You created the distance between us
You choose to forget what we had
You didn't even know you make'd me cry
You know nothing about my feelings

You said every single thing you'll remember
You said you're sorry
I forgave you
But I just hate the fact that memories still lingers

Everytime we see each other, you hug me
What contradicts you for telling the truth?
Our friendship that I treasure,
You just throw it away in one snap

Sabi mo gusto mo ko, umaabot sa "Mahal kita".
Lagi mo kong tinatanong kung "Kamusta kna ba?"
Wala ni isang araw na hindi mo pinaramdam na mahal mo ko.
Hindi ako sanay sa ganoon dahil sino ba naman ako?
Isang simpleng babaeng walang ganda,
Kaya ako'y nagtataka.

May pagkakataon na hindi ka ulit magpaparamdam,
Alam mo ba na nakakalma ang puso ko pag walang ikaw?
Pero babalik ulit sa tuwing nagpaparamdam ka na naman.
Ano ba talaga? Ganito ba yung sinabi **** Mahal mo'ko?

Sana 'di na lang umabot sa "Mahal kita", kung ganto lang pala.
Sana 'di mo pinaramdam na mahal mo 'ko hanggan dun lang pala.
Kasi umaasa ako kahit walang tayo.
At dahil nahulog na rin ako, umaasang andyan ka lang at sasaluhin ako.

Pero ganun pala talaga yun 'no?
Kung kailan mahal mo na ang taong mahal ka tsaka kanya iiwan ng walang dahilan...

To the girl who's never been into a relationship,

Do not feel pressured that everyone is in a relationship already. It's not a competition. It's not a race. Do not force a relationship to happen. Do not settle for less just to have one.

True love comes to those who wait. There's no need to rush. Love when you're ready not because you're just envious of your friends.

Do not feel bad about yourself. Someday, someone will love your wholeness. Someone will treat you like you're one of the best things that happened to him. For now, chase your dreams and be a better person.

Have lots of dreams but I can't do anything to follow them
Why my life is like this?
Why do I need to cry just make myself feel better?
Why there's nothing good happening even if I did sacrifice and understand them?
I know there's a lot who suffered more than what I feel right now.
But why can't I just get over this feeling?
Maybe I'm weak that the only solution I'm thinking is death.
Why?

He was a stranger until then he become the fan of a lawyer you hated. He'll be studying law because his mother wanted to and he's a fan. But then everything changed. He knew that that lawyer was his father. He does something to save his father's image because you have some evidence of the lawyer's delinquent's. But he almost killed you, not literally. You met an accident because of him, you didn't know all along.





He never prayed until that day, he prayed "Let her live. Please. I will give up all my happiness. You can let me die. Just let her live."You survived that accident. He quit law school because he knew that his father;the lawyer you hated became the lawyer of the one who killed your father. He sacrificed. He didn't tell the lawyer that he is his son.



And years after, he is dying. He got only months to live and he wanted to spend it with you. You're new at this. You didn't know if he's telling you the truth or not. But you let him. Because you love him all along. *But he died saying he love's you the first time he saw you.

Don't fall inlove with me
You're a light, i might turn your life into darkness.
You're a beautiful sunny day, I might turn you into a rainy day.
You're the milky way, I'm the blackhole.
I'm dangerous. I might **** you with my ai.
So just don't fall in love with me for I am a disaster.

Minsan maiiyak ka na lang sa pagod.

Pagod sa lahat ng bagay.
Pagod sa pagiintindi sa mga tao.
Pagod gumalaw.

Hanggang gusto mo na lang mawala.
Mawala na walang bakas na namalagi ka sa mundong ito.
Pagod ka na kasi.

Dahil pagod ka na ring umiyak.
Titigil ka na din sa pag iyak dahil pagod kana.
Pagod na pagod kana.

Promises that you said
Promises that I held in to
Promises that I kept
Promises that you broke
Promises that vanished.

You said we'll spend forever together.
But where are you now?
You're with your new girl.

I'll pray for you.

Drifting away like the clouds in the sky
Drifting away like the leaves on the ground
Drifting away like those planes in the sky
Drifting away like the raindrops on leaves
Drifting away like the light in the dark
Drifting away the girl whom once became their friend
Drifting away the woman who's strong but gone weak
She's drifting away...
Drifting away from everyone.

Balang araw,
Hindi na ko masasaktan pag nakikita ko ang mga larawan nyong magkasama.
Balang araw,
Hindi na ko magseselos dahil lagi kayong magkasama.
Balang araw,
Ngingiti na lang ako pag makikita ko kayo.

Walang halong pait, selos at lungkot.

Dahil balang araw,
Hindi ko na rin kayo maaalala.
Hindi ko na kayo makikita.
Hindi na ko malulungkot dahil namimiss ko kayo.

Kasi una pa lang,
Kinalimutan nyo na ako.
Kinalimutan nyo ako, na kaibigan nyo noon.

Huwag kayong mag alala,
Hindi ko kayo makakalimutan dahil hindi ako madaling makalimot.
Pero darating din ang panahon na hinding-hindi na ko malulungkot dahil sa hindi ako naaalala ng mga kaibigan ko.

Balang araw mangyayari din yun. Balang araw.

He should feel what she actually feels.

To be ignored,
to assume things cos he gives motives,
to not explain things that he'd done,
and to be hurt like hell.

He'll chase her again
and she will definitely give him a hard time.

*He should feel what it feels to be hurt.

He's a broken man.
She's a complete woman.
He's broken by his anger.
She fixed him.
But by fixing him, she broke herself.
He broke her heart.

Since then she never felt happy.
I mean she's happy sometimes but laughing is her escape to avoid someone to see what's the real emotions in her eyes.
She always ask herself, "When's the time I'll be happy again? Maybe the day I die. Because I'll see fake people cry for me and act like they love me."
She smiles as if no one hurts her.
She smiles as if nothing bothers her.
She smiles to avoid drama.
But sometimes she just can't hold those tears streaming down her face.
Sad life it is. Sad cruel life.

She's simple
She's someone you can go everywhere with on her birthday
She's someone who don't choose where to celebrate cos whatever it is she is happy
She's vulnerable but trying to be strong
She wanted to be appreciated but didn't
She just wanted to be greeted on her birthday
But it seems no one remembers.
It's Okay.
She's okay with it.
*I'm so okay with it.

Kung kailan nahulog na ko, saka ka lalayo.

Ganyan ba ko ka tanga para iyong paasahin sa mga salitang binitiwan mo?
Oo, walang tayo.
Oo, minsan akala mo pinapaasa kita.
Pero takot lang ako.
Takot na baka hindi mo matanggap lahat ng bahid ng pagkatao ko.

Sabi mo, Mahal mo ko.

*Pero bakit lumayo ka?

Anong laban ko sa babaeng mas uunahin mo kesa sakin?
Anong laban ko sa babaeng kahit huli **** nakilala pero nakasama mo ng matagal?
Anong laban ko sa babaeng laging nasa tabi mo pag kailangan mo ng karamay?
Anong laban ko sa babaeng mas kilala ang pamilya mo?
Anong laban ko sa babeng maraming alam tungkol sayo,
sa lahat ng bagay na gusto mo,
sa lahat ng bagay na ayaw mo?

Anong laban ko sa babae na kasabay mo sa lahat ng trip mo sa buhay?

Anong laban ko sa babaeng ngiti pa lang mamahalin mo na?

Anong laban ko sa bestfriend mo?

Pardon me for I let myself controlled by you
Pardon me for I let you came into my life
Pardon me for all the times I wait for your reply
Pardon me for asking where you are
Pardon me for being mean when I don't have the right
Pardon me for acting like you care but you're not
Pardon me for I let myself love you,
Now pardon me for I can't do those things again.

I always push people away
And wanted them back after
I always played cupid to the one I love
Cause I'm afraid he wont accept me
I always feel rejected
Or it was just me?
I'm afraid I'll ended up alone
Cause no one will accept the real me

Don’t fall in love with me.
There are days when I get sad without a reason and I just stare at the ceiling with tears streaming down my face.

Don’t fall in love with me.
On those days, I don’t talk to anyone. I just bury myself in my bed and think about how I became this mess of sadness.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I will become attached to you and I will cry myself to sleep if you don’t text me good night before you go to sleep and I will convince myself that it’s because you got tired of me.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I’m too much. I will depend on you. I need attention, much more than other people. I’ll talk to you in metaphors and make you one. I’ll write poems about you and opening up my skin at 2 A.M.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I couldn’t stand you coming home to find me on the bathroom floor shaking and crying, with blood spilling from my wrists. I couldn’t stand seeing the disappointment in your eyes.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I will pour everything I’ve left of me into you, every bit of love, until I have nothing to give. Until I become completely empty.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I’m scared that my sadness is contagious.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I will replay your sweet words in my head when I hate myself so much that I want to die. Your words will be the only thing that make me stay.

Don’t fall in love with me.
You will live in fear. You won’t be able to leave me, because you’d know if you did, I wouldn’t have anything to live for.

Don’t fall in love with me.
Before I met you, there wasn’t a single person who could’ve made me stay. You’re my reason now.

Don’t fall in love with me.
Because I will fall in love with you.

You're not my ex boyfriend. You're just my passing moment. An almost someone to be.
But that moment didn't happen.
But it feels like know you so much.
Like I know your hurtful past.
I know what rules your mom applied on you and your siblings.
I know whats your favorite leisure time. I know what you like.

We were an 'almost', 'maybe', 'someday'.