that enormous oak we used to lay under
or you used to lie under
has been ripped from the earth

torn apart, broken, dying
gasping, searching
for a little hope

just like my heart

of course we had to fill the empty hole where the tree no longer remained

as I put dirt and broken soil to try to fill the void where you no longer were

a bee landed on my hand

sting

I'll have to keep the hole empty for now

as if the bee doesn't want me to fill it

as if you don't want me to fill it

maybe you still love me

maybe not

but either way

*it stings without you here

I have a glass heart

age 4-11
painted on it was beautiful designs
stained glass heart

age 12-14
worthless lonely forgotten burden
cracked glass heart

almost one year ago
I met a diamond
who had the power,
to reflect off me beautifully
creating light rainbows
but cut
and cut
deeper
farther
cut cut cut
broken shattered unmendable heart

this might sound crazy but
I'm thinking of you
again

of the endless
us
we
me and you
that will never be

maybe I'm insane

I was never good enough
and never will be

you hold her hand
as tight as you hold my
pusling
shattering
still longing for you
heart

I was the rose
you were the sunshine
there was a torrential downpour
and she was the scissors

I can't believe how amazing you are. You're the only person who's made me feel this special in a long time [delete]

are you sure you just want to be 'friends', I think I'm in love with you [delete]

can I have a goodbye kiss? I love your kisses, they taste like summer [delete]

I wish you would just say "Hi" to me in the hallways [delete]

that girl you always walk with is beautiful, I can understand why you didn't want me [delete]

when you told me I was beautiful and **** and all you would ever want, was that all a lie too? [delete]

I got a mosquito bite today and it reminded me of when we slept outside and were attacked by them [delete]

it smells like the nights we spent together [delete]

one, two, three...I've lost count of how many drinks are for you [delete]

I wish you thought about me as much as I think of you [delete]

why are your words stuck in my head [delete]

I was naive and young, I'm sorry I actually thought you loved me [delete]

it's been months since the summer nights we spent together. please tell me you miss me. [delete]

my chest hurts. my heart aches. everything about you from the way your lips tasted to how I got chills down my spine from just one touch makes me want to explode [delete]

the blood running down my wrist contains the words you said but never meant [delete]