The longer I lay here
I can feel it
It makes my skin crawl
And I feel sick
With background noises
Back and forth, stuck, “tick, tock, tick ..”
I’m beginning to lose it
The life I'm choosing
A battle I’ve grown comfortable losing
The longer I lay here
I can feel it
My heart starts sinking, and sinking
Never a thought to what I was thinking
The noises ring closer and closer, faster and faster
I grew into such a disaster
Without sense of control
Or what I seem to be going after
Plagued
I’m like a cat
So spare me nine lives
Vexation kills me, though I’ve never died
The longer I lay here
I can feel it
And I just can’t stand the noise
It’s a ringing, buzzing, right in my ear
The longer I lay here
Those sounds of my pulse racing, my heart beating
Have their own method of teaching
Looks like I’ll be here a while
Brings the bearer of bad news
In addition to the disorderly blues
Haven’t looked in the mirror
But there’s no need
Their expressions towards my honesty
Is quite enough for me
There’s a pulse beneath my skin
As I feel it growing thicker
I’m coming to, quicker and quicker
Voices carry outside, and I can feel their eyes
With their shadows passing by
Humiliated
Once too dark, now too bright
It’s quite clear
The longer I lay here
Give me something I deserve
The longer I lay here
Lesson learned
(C) 2011/2014 Kelly Mcaulley
