"I Wish I Was A Fridge"
I trust no one,
But I agree to see you;
You come every six weeks,
To see anything new.
I hardly know you,
I saw you last year;
I've seen others since then,
I know im difficult - thats clear.
But you came back again,
because there's no one else,
I have to trust you again,
When I dont trust myself.
But should I really trust you?
Or are you the same?
I hadnt seen you for so long
..i'd forgotten your name.
You ask me to explain,
And I try my best,
To explain whats in my head,
All the confusion and the rest.
I tell you everything,
With paper and pen;
Absolutely everything,
over and over again.
Then you say you cant help me,
So I feel even worse,
You say you are not a therapist,
I should have remembered that first.
All you care about
is whats in my fridge;
You go into my kitchen,
and check out my fridge.
Well the fridge is fine,
It might not be full,
But it has milk and leftovers,
...I wish it had wine too!!
You come here and visit,
And then I feel worse;
For I trusted you with things,
I should have thought again first.
For you cannot help me,
Why do you come?
My fridge is always quite happy,
My fridge is having great fun.
It has no nervous system,
No brain, no spinal cord;
Its incapable of "feeling"
Or trusting in the Lord.
You come all this way,
To look at my fridge,
You come here from Lamlash,
And check out my fridge.
I am clearly a failure,
As its always the same;
The fridge is just fine,
The pain is in my brain.
I wont see you again
for quite a while;
But I cannot promise
to put on a smile.
But my fridge will be fine,
I can promise you that;
If only I was a fridge...
...does anyone else feel like that?!
I shall get out some pens,
And draw a big smiley face;
Stick it on my fridge,
Just for you and your "fridge case".
I wish I was a fridge too, could put in and take out what I choose;
But im not an inanimate object - im a human being,
And I do often wonder....what got me into this state ...in the beginning.
All the best...with love...from the fridge :/ x
Rambling poetry during moments of frustration....not knowing who to turn to.
