I surrounded myself
in the walls
of her
heart

and suffocated

All this open space and freedom that is available to me.
I still feel as if I'm suffocating with emotions I never let free.
And crippled with fear of limitless opportunity.

too soon
too fast
falling

i'm no good
...with heights

suffocation
r u n

once more
tumbling
off the
cliff

too soon
too fast
falling

asleep
awake
numb?

"look at what you've done"

blame game
my fault

my dreams
cannot handle
y o u

too soon
too fast
falling

catch me
no!
don't touch me
i hurt

fragile
oops
shattered

liar
liar
liar

too soon
too fast
falling

i'm no good
...with heights

I feel as though Im in a well
A deep dark well that I cant seem to get out of

I can hear the laughter
But they cant hear me
I can see the smiles
But they cant see me

Its like im in a well thats slowly filling with water
one day Ill make it to the top
but for now Im just drowning.

Brown skin. Shaved head. Dark eyes.
Sprawled out on my bed.
His body hair curls
adding to the shadows
against his vulnerability.
Just shy of 5'6,
it is surprising
how much damage a man,
of such small stature,
can do.
His eyes meet mine.
My breath is gone.
He grabs my *** so hard;
I feel the fat squeeze against each other
causing dimples in my skin.
He throws me on top of him.
His eyes shut as he lies under me.
I lean in
gently kissing
the middle of his forehead
as I graze my hands
against his five o’ clock shadow.
His lips lightly reach my ear and whisper,
“that was too loving.”
The words flood my heart with anger.
No matter how much I try
the only thing he loves
are my legs wrapped around his waist.
I smile
as if unfazed by the rising resentment
building from my belly.
He pulls my hair
causing my back to arch.
His tongue deep in me,
I secretly wish
my thighs would suffocate him.
I sigh and release.