There are days,
when I feel emotionally overwhelmed
with negativity.
I start to notice the hesitancy
in people's voices,
I start reading and interpreting
between lines.
I start to notice all the
negative intricacies that can hurt me
and over analyze to have found myself
creating chaos within myself.

It is during those days,
do I feel drained that I don't
have the energy to positively
reinforce my own thoughts.

These are the days,
I need reassurance,
perspective change
from someone, other
than myself.

There are days when negativity seeps in,
draining your energy
turning your mind into a battlefield
making your heartache
stealing your happiness with haste
breaking your self esteem
fading away your belief
festering your mood
and stamping out your light
to leave you parched-desecrated soul
with venomous whispers slithering from cell to cell
cracking and wounding your heart
leaving your mind toiling in negativity.

These are the days you hold onto words
to keep yourself together
and let go of words to express yourself.

You try embracing positivity,
focusing on yourself
and pursuing your passions.
You try to hold on to what
and who make you feel better.

Void of light,
lost in my darkness,
lost my fight,
my will to live this life

Buried in negative thoughts
My doubt defeating me
Prayed to God,
"Please help me."

Day by day
I grew stronger
Asked God why?
Committed to suffering no longer

Discovered the why
As the years flew past
with faith in God and his purpose
My darkness doesn't last.

And as I bathed in milk, it became curdled. My heart eventually turning everything sour. It is a magic trick only I know.