My mind is telling me to smile,
When i just want to cry,
I broke a girls heart,
Broke it even more when it was already broken,
I just want to cry,
I just want to be in tears,
Let all the pain flow out;
Into the river of tears.

I’m so very sorry,
I made a mistake,
I should have told you earlier,
It is my fault,
I feel like I can’t live anymore,
My heart is sore,
When such a mistake shatters our future,
I just want to be with you,
Is that too much to ask for?
Feeling depressed while my heart remains sore,
Alone & sad; Might not recover,
Apologize doesn’t matter,
Now I don’t know what to say,
I just want to hold you,
No! I can’t wait to hold you,
But there’s always a delay,





I made a mistake; I should’ve told you,
Hoping you may forgive me,
I think i’ve lost you,
Every mistake makes a bigger wall,
Sunshines on me no more,
Wall hangs on me,
With clouds rain on top of me,
Hoping I make it up to you,

The mix feelings you have for me,
Is starting to disappear,
When I want to say I love you,
But you wouldn’t want to hear,
Love is such a strong word to use,
But if you really mean it,
Say, I love you,

You don’t even know what to do anymore,
Will you leave me?
Will I not hold you anymore?
My heart, soul, & mind chose you,
Now my arms is trying to reach you,
But can’t extend anymore,
I am afraid,
I am sad,
I made a mistake
A mistake I cannot pass,
I am so sorry!
I chosen to be a fool,
Instead of being smart,
I said nothing!
I let it go on about,
You told others you was going to meet me,
But I didn’t come,
I didn’t cancel,
Stayed in your room all night,
Makes me feel pitiful,

I cry myself to sleep tonight,
I do not pray, no wish, no hope,
Because it won’t get me no where,’
If you so happen give me another chance,
I’ll believe a little more,
I write your name your name in a hundred colors,
Your favorite is red and blue,
Your hair is red and your eyes are blue,
My favorite colors are red black and blue,

The mistake I made is a tragedy,
I felt guilty & I felt ashamed,
Life is not a joke, Life is not a game,
I feel like I lost you,
Now you’re fading away,
With every hope of being with you,
Has now been broken,
I’m so very sorry my love,
Now you think i’m joking,

Everyday I think about you,
More than any girl I ever thought of,
Me thinking of you make my heart feel warm,
But when I see you might heart stops,
Not because I don’t want to see you,
It’s because you make me so happy,
Make me excited,

You give me a reason to smile,
While I give you a reason to leave me,
I am lost confused and don’t know what to do,
I don’t care what nobody says about you,
No matter what,
I’m a man of my word,
I don’t know what else to write,

I’m in the bottle of a whole ,
Too dark,
No way to get out,
No way to be free,
Please shine the light on top of me,
So I can see,
I am so very appalled,
Full of dismay;;;
Is this the part that I finally pray?
I feel like I am begging for forgiveness,
Even though I don’t deserve it,
I am so very sorry, What can I do?
It’s time I close the book,
And start a new.

You are that sweet old trouble brewing,
as I sit and watch the fire tonight,
and I wonder...
hey boy what you doin'?

As that failing memory plays..
this is what I hear it say,
as I'm staring out at you & viewing,
and though a relationship with you,
could not be worth pursuing,

Until you call me again,
& come to me
& I'm the one you're wooing,
except I think it's just the ***,
to you I think it's just the *******,

But I don't know how to disagree,
as again my blouse you are undoing,
reality is sure looking pretty fuzzy,
& my everything you're quickly skewing,

I say OK let's do this thing,
as inhibitions are now subduing,
and as we again indulge,
to you again I'm always cuing,

As your sweet sweet lips press,
on my weak weak neck,
you run your hands down,
my waiting body,
hey sweet baby,
I say,
what the heck,

As you
run them down,
across my eager chest,
& over an ever arousing breast,

I know I shoulda stopped at just a peck,
& your past I hear is something,
I should check,

But wait you say,
hold there girl just a cotton pickin' sec,

I play it over and over,
I should have stayed away,
and now...

I'm just a complete & total wreck.

Cherie Nolan © 2016

She doesn't realise I'm madly in love with her.
She's so in love and it's beautiful
and it kills me...
I guess it's all out there now. ****.

We were so close
A friend in life
Who could take my woes
And cut them with a knife
Yet I was a flake
I want to mend this mistake

I chased others
Who said they'd stay
Then flew like feathers
The very next day
My heart they take
I want to mend this mistake

I missed your presence
The way we smiled
We were a menace
Living life wild
For our own sake
I want to mend this mistake

Then one day you spoke
And still cared for me
You fixed what I broke
And I felt so happy
Now I lie awake
Mended is my mistake

You came to me
such a BIG mistake
a **** one at first
then just troubled
now?
UNBELIEVABLE,
I can't stand you
I don't judge you
or hate you
just stay away
just not my thing,
please
I'm asking
don't wanna beg
or demand it

I put out my hands
to touch you,
as my fingertips were singed
& a scorched heart smolders,
I'm looking my angry bubbling skin,

Hurry back boy,
so I can get my,
hot little hands on you.

Cherie Nolan © 2016

Never did it happen before
Never will it happen in the present
Nor something like this will happen somewhere around in the future again.

A thing of past is a thing of past,
from where it came,
to where it belongs
A thing of past is a thing of past.

A mistake is a mistake,
will remain as a mistake,
if it’s not corrected.

A mistake is a mistake,
will become a bigger mistake,
if the same old mistake from past gets repeated again in the present.
Never repeat same old mistakes from the past in present again,
since it proves to be very costly with each moment that passes by and makes life difficult in the present and also with regards to the future.

Never did it happen before
Never will it happen in the present
Nor will something like this happen again somewhere around in the future again.

Let’s make every effort in the direction of goal
Let’s make life interesting by doing something new, which was never done before in the past.
Probably initially it will not be easily possible,
however, later on the same thing will become a way of living life,
hence let’s make every effort to make life as interesting as possible when and while in the present itself.

Definitely a day will come when the past will seem to be much more interesting than the present, but then that past will be just recent past and if not ,then at least the day that just went by

Let’s keep life simple,
as simple as possible,
in doing so a day will when complicated things of life will seem to be simple and these same things will be done in a much faster way, than what was thought and expected prior.

Let’s try to make and keep life as simple as possible and also interesting.

Smile because there is always a reason for you to smile and it’s known either in the present itself, if not then the reason is stored somewhere around at the back of mind.
Life can be simple as well as interesting, however, the only thing that is needed is to accept this fact as it is and then move ahead along with the same in present.

Never did it happen before that life was seen at such a close distance, but then that’s life and life’s intersting.