#jaded poems on Hello Poetry

Abby Jo Oct 2017

thank you for making me feel this way
this is not fair
don't make my heart skip a beat
and then knock the air out of my lungs the next minute
this is why I don't allow myself to feel
this is why I'm so jaded and don't let people in
Everyone says to let it go,
but I don't want to, they just don't know
thank you for making me feel this way

#thanks #me #feel #feelings #heartbeat #jaded #heartbroken

Amy H Oct 2017

jade

beauty from openness,
vulnerable and soft
finds a way to surface
only after pride is lost.
but pride is hard to break
behind a stony wall
to keep the ego safe,
my heart from shrinking, small.
much as heart desires
to flaunt about the sleeve
fear can keep it hidden
if I think you will leave.
what is the precious stone
that weighs me down this way?
pulling in my chest,
not diamond, but jade.
pride is a game
one can play alone.
release takes two
but cuts to the *bone.

Pondering. Be brave.

#vulnerability #pride #jaded #time #open #guard

Leal Knowone Sep 2017

Crick

Tears flow down her face.
Agony from recent past, she clings to like a drowning body floating at sea.
Useless debris.
There's a taste of duality in all things.
A sorrow reality can bring.
Though this is a mere moment in time it seems like it is everything. How does one gauge pain if it is something we hope not to be remembering?

She lets herself became jaded, a heart slowly turning to stone. Heading down a path she lets herself believe she knows.
She lets herself believe she knows all there is to know.
If she takes a wrong turn there could be more suffering, or more joy then she would have otherwise know.
Who really knows which way to go?

Choices

#crick #tears #agony #past #grasping #debris #duality #sorrow #gauge #jaded

Nicole Bataclan Sep 2017

Run

You run,
Chasing after none
There is no fear in your momentum,
Not a bitter thought once fallen.
Your memories are new
At thirty-two, I have made a few.

You will run,
Chasing after some.
There will be fear in your momentum
Many bitter thoughts once fallen.
Your memories are new
How could I forget, mine are too.

#child #innocence #fearless #lighthearted #hardened #memories #moments #hurt #jaded

Brooke P Aug 2017

Soul

My soul moves with fidgets and twitches and dreams of back porches.
feels like it’s constantly wasting its time, and smells like the air after summer rain.
My soul has not been patient lately, and went home at noon.
it sounds like a car crash on i-87.
I keep extra socks for my soul.
It can’t get over you, tolerate immaturity, or wait around.
My soul looks for a loophole or justification in everything it sees.
It gets older, impatient, and tired.
My soul remembers simpler times, when learning had a purpose.

#soul #fidgets #dreams #purpose #time #jaded #tired #old #rain

Jack Jenkins Aug 2017

Why Am I So Expendable?

why is it
everyday
i give my
best to the
world
my best
to people
&
all I get
in return
is the
worst
from
everyone?

Spent the whole weekend meditating on my life and why things are the way they are. I understand why I am bitter and jaded now. The only question is do I have a right to be? I'm angry. I don't get angry often.

#jack #jenkins #angry #hurt #lost #bitter #depressed #jaded #poem #poetry

Benjamin Davenport Jul 2017

It's okay, I'm used to it

It's okay I'm used to it
She broke my heart and doesn't give a ****
I wish I could rewind time
Return to a time when everything was fine
Before I ever met her
Before we ever had each other
Before she pretended to love me
Now I know she never did, not entirely.
Being mixed up in her world made me do things
Something that can't be recognized through just feelings
She made me start to cut my arm
Never did I think I'd commit to self harm
Self harm coming from experiencing a heartbreak
A heartbreak from that stupid *** snake
I'm so completely done with this ****
But it's okay, I'm used to it.

The first time she broke up with me I started having these self harming thoughts and then when she started to ignore me leading up to this second heartbreak I actually started to cut myself but it didn't puncture my skin because my knife was too dull but I do have some pretty nice scars. Maybe I'll start again if I don't find a new girlfriend soon.

#pain #selfharm #hate #numb #distraught #jaded #dark

Phil B Jul 2017

Commercialisation

Talk - it's cheap and full of sheep.
Air moving, mouthing, making
words to distract and bamboozle,
meaning is used to confuse you.

Colour - superfluous and intangent.
It divides just as much / as it unifies,
the masses and controls our thoughts,
trick of the light, a tailored emotion.

Taste - individuality in isolation.
Eating. Engulfing, endlessly entropic.
Consumers call connoisseurs canon,
Sordid selfish sense, seldom shared.

I read an interesting thought piece written by an author, and it really did get me thinking about how, special moments, experiences and sensations are commercialised by Hollywood and the marketing industry, and how we respond to it over time as we are increasingly exposed to it.

#modern #jaded #society

Benjamin Davenport Jul 2017

No More

I used to think we'd be together forever
That we'd never leave each other
Guess that was all just wishful thinking
Just something of a fling
All the love I invested in that relationship
Was just cut; snip, snip.
You said it wasn't me
I just don't believe you gamertag 'FRIGGY'
I was beginning to feel happy again
Until you stomped on my heart basically saying, I don't love you Ben.
You were someone that I used to adore
But now what we had is No More.

So as you all can tell Hannah broke up with me today saying that she didn't want to be in a relationship anymore. I thought I would be able to handle getting dumped but I actually broke down and started crying. That's never happened before. I've been dumped before but I usually got angry over it. And what's worse is she tried to still be here for me. SHE'S THE ONE THAT BROKE MY HEART!!!!

#anger #pain #distraught #jaded

Gemma Jul 2017

Life of a Hopeful Dreamer

I started missing you early on.
I started missing you while I was still with you.
I missed you while I was sitting across from you
while your grin still lit up my heart.
I missed you while your mouth was on me
with your tongue sending me into a spiral.
I started missing you when I realized we wouldn't last.
I started letting you go before I left you.
I tried to pretend that that wasn't the case,
I tried to stay oblivious.
I should have left you the first time.
I could have left you the first time,
if I had just let myself face it.
If I had faced the fact that you would only warm my bed for a small portion of my life.
But I stayed long enough for you to latch on
and begin building a home inside of my heart.
It wasn't fair to either of us;
I should have let you go the moment I started missing you,
but I'm a hopeful dreamer.
My kindness in the end hurt us more than it could have.
But I still don't know what that means.
Does that mean I should give up the second I'm unsure?
That jaded lifestyle will leave me lonely.
But I don't want to stay long enough to let it fester,
for my heart to commit another naive suicide.
Your presence may seem a cruel one for life to inflict on me,
but life isn't supposed to be easy.

You ignited a fire in me;
A hungry desire to do better;
One that was seemingly waiting to be lit.

I've learned so much.
You've helped me put things together,
and to find some pieces.
I curse life for breaking my heart like that
But I beg it to do whatever it needs to do
If I need to break
Hundreds of times
To become who it is I want to be
Then so be it
Life should not be bland
I should experience everything there is to
I feel like it's debatable on whether I can survive this
Like if I have to face it again I won't be able to
But I can
And I will
I will grow and become stronger
Though it will ******* me still
Sooner or later I'll begin to know
What to give and what to leave to fate
Though you seem big right now
In comparison to the picture life will paint for me
You are but a small part
To a large masterpiece

#fire #masterpiece #crippling #healing #growing #dreamer #hopeful #jaded #naive #home