You may think you don’t deserve to smile
Like you should just put it away for awhile
Thinking like that is not good
Find something that makes you laugh (I think you should)
It’s human to make a mistake
Not everything in life is “a piece of cake”
You have to take the good with the bad
There will be times you get sad
That’s part of getting through the day
You just have to remember: It’s okay

Sometimes life hits you hard
Then you decide to put up your guard
Not letting anyone get too close
And when you do you get blindsided with a potent dose
A strong dose of some cruelty
And you think to yourself: I don’t deserve such negativity
Then you realize that some people just don’t care
That’s why I have an email that starts with Life isn’t always fair

I met you and things were great for a few years
Then things went south and you told me I hurt you
It pained me to see your tears
The way everything played out left me feeling blue
That’s a strange emotion, I know
It wasn’t all on me
I think we can recover from this emotional blow
We can move forward, you’ll see
I know I did something wrong
We treated each other like such a prize
I have to make myself strong
So with that said, I apologize

I can’t get her off my mind
You’d think I’d like this find
I thought alc was supposed to help you forget
Bet
Naw she still creeps in my brain
It goes around like a circle train

After all this time
Why did she enter my dream state
She didn’t even speak she was like a mime
Is this my fate
To dream about women that left me
Now she’s back in my head
I thought I was over her finally
I wish I dreamt about a different woman instead
For those of you who know
This one is about Giovanna, the one that cut me out
You know that she did a number on me, I got so low
For a little while I admit that I did pout
In this dream she hid from me under a table
I still don’t understand why
That was not cool
I almost wanted to cry
After I found her she power walked away
She had a big frown on her face
Let me tell you, I was not okay
I wanted to grab her hand but I felt like it wasn’t my place
When she drove away I snapped back to reality
Again I can’t understand why I dreamt about her
I was so close to finally being happy
Maybe she’ll give me another chance now that she’s older
And if not I might just cry
And wipe away those tears and ask once again “Why”

Early morning
3 hours after midnight
Listening to music
Trying to drown out that feeling
Wishing everything was alright
I wanted her and I to just click
Her name starts with L
Always getting in my feels
That's me, that's Ben
I'll admit it, I fell
It's like I unknowingly took love pills
I just can't go through this again.