shapes materialize
as the darkness envelops

my mind’s inventions

People leave

Little ghosts dangling

And you see the gaps

Muddy footprints and outline bodies

There is a crime

Or maybe I think there is a crime

When a friend

Yanks themselves from your life

And you find yourself

Talking to yourself

Contemplating if they had

Just imaginary

i imagine his hands are warm
they fit so perfectly in mine
my mood would instantly transform
and everything would be fine

i imagine his smile
so beautiful and bright
if everything was dark for a while
i'd know it would all be alright

but then i'm back here
in my cold, empty bed
for a man that holds me dear
only exists in my head

Empty, and insanity.
A world, an imaginary bliss.
A mindspace, nothing to believe.

I am
fed up

of this
game
with
you

I have
created
in my head

Fed up
with this
imaginary world

tearing me
apart

Fed up
with the
impairing
the
glaring

Everything was dark and dull...
Sometimes I would see a ship's hull.
If I were lucky, I'd spot sea animals...
There were no walls...
But I was trapped...
The sea bottom was not mapped...
And I was stuck down there...
I couldn't go anywhere...
Till someone helped me up to the surface of my troubles...
We popped the sea bubbles...
We laughed together...
Even though it was windy weather...
I will never forget that day...
I hope the happy memories will stay...

When I first laid my eyes on you,
I fell in love so passionately
My heart pounded deeply into my chest

Happiness overflowed my soul when you felt the same too
When we held hands on a beautiful summer day
When you kissed me and told how much you loved me

It saddens me to realize the delusion I've created
The result of a playful and desperate mind of mine
The love that doesn't really exist

Because we will never be for each other